On October 10, 2020, I said goodbye to Lao Duan today.

Since April 28, I met Lao Duan for the first time, to the later acquaintance, and then to today's temporary farewell.

The bond and affection between me and her are getting deeper and deeper, and there is even a deep reluctance.

She is based on me, and she is no longer just a character in me, she is the epitome of my other life, in a parallel world.

All the things I didn't dare to think, do, or say, she did for me.

I admire her courage and tenacity, and I admire her freedom and determination, I can't do it, and I will never be able to do it.

Sometimes, it's sad.

Life is in the world, and the real life is wonderful, and the death is heroic, there is no such thing.

We are always languishing in a stressful space, struggling but struggling to extricate ourselves.

Affection may also be a kind of catharsis.

In this story, although it is an alternate world.

But the basic setting is the last years of the Yuan Dynasty, when the imperial government was on the verge of falling apart.

The landlords and nobles were rampant, they unscrupulously looted the people's fat and ointment, mutilated many innocent people, and persecuted many heroic and righteous people.

Lao Duan is a person who came out of the world, she has the world in mind, but she is not willing to be at the mercy of fate.

She searched for a way to change her life, but was trapped in her own demons until she lost everything.

Only then did she realize that all she was looking for was a relief and relief.

She cherishes the deep friendship with Qi Ranxing and Qin Lingyun.

In fact, Lao Duan is a relatively enlightened and open person, although she has risen and fallen in three generations, she has seen the warmth and coldness of human nature.

still has a pure heart to tolerate everything, such as her attitude towards Qi Ranxing, which is also a rare state for people in ancient times.

She is an unruly chivalrous man, and in her opinion, the existence of Qi Ranxing is both reasonable and correct.

This is not the same as Qi Xing.

Lao Duan loved Qi Xing deeply, but she never really understood him.

Qi Xing's image is more like a form of all living beings, he accepts his fate, although he would rather give up his life for the sake of the world.

But this kind of thinking is based on the fact that he should do this, because he is a monk, and he is a person who has a heart for the world.

He is like Lao Duan, he doesn't know why, just because he does it.

Lao Duan's heart is freedom, and Qi Xing's heart is bondage.

In emotion, Lao Duan and Qi Xing are forbearant and affectionate, they know each other's intentions, but they never officially talk about it.

It was only before they entered the reincarnation that they finally made a vow to tie their knots.

The friendship between Qi Ranxing and Qin Lingyun is deep and warm, whether in the present world or in the past, the frozen heart, the heart that has been tormented, has melted and regained vitality because of this friendship.

They are not so much close friends as relatives, because in the vast darkness of the night, they only have each other's to comfort.

I still remember what Qi Ranxing said to Qin Lingyun: "If you stay, in this city, I can only show you endless darkness." ”

"I can only take you to the edge of the city, and I will wander and hide for you. "Qishu.com

"I don't know if tomorrow's path will be an abyss or a hell, but even so! ”

"I have no hesitation to walk with you and protect this friendship for a lifetime. ”

It is always said that true affection is to share weal and sorrow.

There is nothing wrong with this, but everyone can do it, but no one wants to touch it.

As I write this, I pay homage to the Argentine poet Borges's poem "What Can I Use to Keep You"

"I give you poor streets, desperate sunsets, and the moon in the ruined suburbs.

I give you the sorrow of a man who has been looking at the lonely moon for a long time.

I give you my dead ancestors, and people commemorate their ghosts in marble,

My father's father, who was killed on the border of Buenos Aires, was shot through his chest with two bullets, and he died with his beard, and the soldiers wrapped his body in cowhides;

My mother's grandfather, who was twenty-four at the age of twenty-four, led a charge of 300 soldiers in Peru and is now a ghost on the back of a vanished horse.

I give you all the insight, the masculinity or the humor that I can have in my life.

I give you the loyalty of a man who has never had faith.

I give you the core of myself that I have managed to preserve – the core that does not form sentences, does not trade with dreams, and is not touched by time, joy and adversity.

I give you the memory of a yellow rose that I saw one evening many years before you were born.

I give you your explanation of yourself, your own theories, your own true and amazing news.

I give you my loneliness, my darkness, the hunger of my heart;

I try to impress you with confusion, danger, failure. ”

In this story, everyone's story continues, including Que and Su Qi, Ling Xi, Xiao Ji, and Huo Dong.

All of them, they are trying to live, not forgetting their original intentions.

Actually, there should be very few words, but I am reluctant.

"The Legend of Dream Mountain" is the second book I have written.

So far, I didn't expect that I would persevere, let alone that I would not stop.

In the past, I was more scummy and broken, but I have changed because of many book friends and many friends.

I know that you are my greatest motivation and a beacon for me to continue in the future.

I, like Lao Duan, don't have any grand blessings and expectations.

I just hope that my friends, you can cherish the moment and do something warm and wonderful for the sake of the heart that is still beating at that moment.

Even if you are busy shuttling through high-rise buildings, please go home to have dinner with your parents when the lights are on, and they can wait less and less;

Even if you are exiled to a distant border at the moment, alone and experiencing the pain of separation, please return to the place where you first fell in love, she (he) may still be there, do not lose again;

Even if you are dying, please hug the person who has accompanied you along the way, because for for a long time to come, you will all return to dust and never see each other again.

That's it, we keep what we try to keep, and we miss what we can only miss.

Old Duan, Duan Si continued!

Don't leave it at that, there will be a date later!