Chapter 116: Different Worlds

"I ...... Never liked to kill. After a short silence, I walked to the window and looked at the quiet moon outside with a little confusion. "I've never liked to kill, but I have to, because that's the only way to keep me alive. ”

“…… What?" I could clearly feel the look of astonishment on his face as his back turned to Conan.

"Kudo, do you know what was the first thing I did when I entered that organization?" I turned and looked at Conan. Without waiting for him to speak, I continued. "It was a dark room, filled with the cries of children. Ten children of the same age, a key, a blood-red lamp, a cold-biting dagger, that's all. With that, I pulled my SAS out of my arms and handed it to Conan. "Kill the other nine children and come out of the room. That was my first task. If I hadn't done it, maybe my bones would have been cold for ten years. ”

Looking at the dagger I handed over, the original purple blade had already crossed a layer of scarlet, and Conan's hands trembled a little.

"After that, constant training, endless quests, if I can't do it, I'll die, if I don't train, I'll die, if I don't kill, then I'll be killed by someone else. I had no choice but to survive. I looked at Conan indifferently, but now he had his head down, not knowing what he was thinking.

"That's it......" Conan said with some trembling. "Even so, I can't agree with the murder of a person, which is a heinous crime. Everyone has the right to life and human rights, and no one can arbitrarily deprive others of their lives!"

"Haha! Human rights? You actually tell me about human rights?" I seemed to hear the funniest joke in the world. "Okay, you tell me quickly, who should be responsible for whose human rights. The government can do it to civilians. So I ask you, who is responsible for my human rights, who is responsible for my childhood, and who is responsible for my scars!!

The angry roar accompanied the movement of my hands, and the pajamas that had been untied were torn open by me. In front of Conan, the same small body, what he saw was not the immature skin that a child should have, nor the exaggerated muscles that he had exercised through years of training. It's the shocking, terrifying scars. Knife wounds, gunshot wounds, abrasions, scratches. Burn. Scars, large and small, spread all over the entire body of the child in front of him.

"Conan, Kaoru, what are you doing, why are you so loud?" downstairs, Xiaolan's puzzled voice shouted. I guess I just shouted too loudly. Hehe...... Gaffe.

"Ah, it's not Sister Lan, Conan is stealing Kamen Superman from me. I shouted downstairs as I retrieved the SAS from Conan's shocked face. He turned his head and picked up the clothes he had just dropped on the ground. And at the same time as turning around. A dragon-like scar caught Conan's eyes.

"Conan, Kaoru has just come to our house, don't bully him. It's not early, you two need to go to bed early. Xiaolan shouted uneasily.

"Hi~~~," I replied at a long length downstairs. Fortunately, Xiaolan didn't come up, otherwise I would have a scar on my body...... Turning around, I put on my pajamas anew, and continued to say to Conan, "Kudo, you are a person with a sense of justice. But the world is far from as simple as you think. What you see, hear, and know is only a part of the light of the whole world. And I came into contact with the black realm of the world. Maybe you can't tolerate what I'm doing, but in order to survive. For the sake of my family's survival, I have never regretted it. Perhaps this qiē is the arrangement of fate. With a dim gaze, I walked to the window again, looking at the bright moon outside, and my heart drifted into the distance.

――――The smell of orchids, the taste of lavender, the taste of home > the wings of angels, the wings of demons, the wings of guardians――――

At night, because of Xiaolan's repeated admonitions, Conan and I, who were still facing each other, had to turn off the lights and lie down in their respective beds at this moment. Because there is no bed in the room at the moment, the two of us can only sleep on tatami mats for now. However, I couldn't sleep even though I was already lying down, and I'm sure Conan was the same. Time passed minute by minute, and finally, a small sound came from the room.

"Now, Kaoru. Tell me about ...... You're in the organization. ”

"Well, what, the detective is interested again?" I said with a teasing smile.

"No, I just want to know a little bit more about you. ”

"Huh?"

"Tong guò just talked to you, I thought about it a lot. Maybe the idea that the convict must be sent to prison to atone for his sins is not necessarily correct, because I never thought about the story behind them, and I don't know how many people like you are, but I still stand firm in my convictions. ”

“…… So what?"

"So, I want to get to know you, to understand the world what you say I don't know. Then redefine my justice. Conan sat up and looked at me intently, and although the room was dimly lit, I could see the look on his face with good night vision, firmness, seriousness, and perhaps sporadic sorrow and sadness.

"Whew...... Well, what do you want to hear?" I asked, with my hands folded behind my head, and with a long exhale, to Conan.

"Well, let's start with when you join the organization. Conan thought for a moment and said to me seriously.

"Hmm. I sorted out my thoughts and began to organize my words. "After completing the first task of the organization, I was assigned to a room. One room for four people. But I was soon out of that room.

"Why?"

"Because it was unfortunate that I killed someone. ”

"What?!"

“。 It was the name of the official member I killed. So I replaced him and got his code name. I said lukewarmly.

"Is this your own killing?" Conan's voice trembled slightly.

"Hmm...... Sort of, you know, that kind of environment ......" said this, I smiled nonchalantly.

"yes...... That's right, too. After all, there was no memory at the time. A qiē thing is a sense of self-preservation. A miserable smile tugged at the corners of Conan's mouth. Then he continued. "What about after you get the codename?"

"After that, I was placed in a single room, which was the house of the full members, with their own exclusive subordinates. ”

"And his men?" Conan was surprised.

"Ah, the so-called subordinates. That is, peripheral members. But to put it mildly, it's just a plaything for the full members. I shook my head. "The subordinates are the tools to manage trivial matters and vent when the official members usually and after returning from a mission, and most of them are girls. As for how to vent, I don't need to say more. To such peripheral members, they are all found from all over the world, for the organization. They are toys and tools, tired of playing with them, using them badly, just throw them away. The reason why there are so few defectors in the organization is because there are many benefits for full members. ”

“…… Damn it. What do they take human life for!" Conan's voice was furious. I could clearly see that his fists were shaking. Then he suddenly thought of something and said to me, "So...... Don't you ...... too?"

"Nope. I'm an exception. I said lightly. "Because I lost my memory, I wasn't brainwashed, and I didn't become a puppet like other children. I did have a subordinate, and she was very nice to me, so I kept her with me for ten years. ”

"And what about her now?"

"I helped her escape before I escaped, and I don't know where she is now. "I'm talking serious nonsense.

"That's right...... Kindness. You see, I'm not wrong. Sure enough, you have righteous blood in your body. Even in that environment, you can be free from pollution. Conan smiled reluctantly.

"Yes? But I don't think so. I glanced at Conan, then looked at the ceiling. "I used to be. When I was challenged in the organization, I just beat the other person, and I would never kill people because of their challenge, but I later realized that I was wrong. ”

"Huh?"

"Yes, I was wrong. Completely wrong. I remember very well, twice in my life. Because of such an inexplicable and wonderful thing as kindness, it almost made a big mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life. That's it. My eyes grew cold. "In such a world, as many as seven billion people play their own games at will. Winning too much and losing too much will be punished. Those who win rely on such things as power to control the law and enslave those who are in position. Those who lose can only watch themselves die step by step, without the protection of the so-called law, so after themselves, their relatives, and friends are hurt, they go to extremes. The superior also died because of this. There is no way to master the rhythm, there are no rules, and the law is, at best, a means for the superior to enslave the inferior. Such a world is simply a scum world!"

"Kaoru ......" Conan's brow furrowed. It was as if he already knew what I was going to say.

So, after that, I swore to myself that I would never show my gentleness and kindness to others except my relatives and friends. And those who try to hurt my family, I will definitely make them pay a price they can't afford!"

Call!

As the words fell, the birds outside the window instantly flew away from the woods around the house. Plunged headlong into the dark sky, and didn't know where to go.

“……”

"You should have understood what I said just now, right?" I turned my head to look at Conan, who was bowing his head and not saying a word.

"Ah, yes, I see. After a brief moment of silence, as if relieved, Conan lay down on his covers.

"Huh?" I was a little surprised, it stands to reason that Conan's little classmate should have quarreled with me at this time, why did he lie down so calmly. So I subconsciously asked. "What do you know?"

"Well, I know, sure enough, the Kaoru I know is still the same Kaoru. Conan said confidently.

"Huh?" I was surprised this time, what I said just now was obviously a little warning and threat to Conan, why did he say that?

"I've gotten a lot of information from the conversation just now, first, you participated in the organization's training after your amnesia, but you didn't become a heartless puppet like everyone else. Prove that you still have your own sense of justice in your subconscious. Conan said to me with a finger. "Second, you didn't do anything excessive with your men. Prove that you have the ability to discipline yourself and keep your heart. Conan continued. "Third, you helped your men escape before you escaped. It shows that you have always known how to think about others. ”

"For someone else? I just ......"

"Listen to me. Conan interrupted me. "One last point. In the years I've known you, your care for Xiaolan. I've always been in the eyes. You've never hurt Ran, and every time someone in the park wants to bully Ran, you're always the first to rush out. And just now, when I mentioned that your family was hurting, I could feel that your murderous aura was full of hatred. It is not the world that you hate, but the qiē that you come into contact with in this world. I guess in that organization. You shouldn't know only one of your subordinates, there should be someone else, they are the family members who have been with you for ten years. Conan stared.

“…… Go on. I smiled softly.

"Looks like I guessed right. Conan smiled as well. "You just said twice that you almost did something that you regret for the rest of your life, and if I'm right, it's your family. You have been attacked or abused by other members of the organization because of your mistakes, or ...... But you succeeded in stopping it, which is a necessary prerequisite for you to keep your heart. But you've been hit hard by this, so you're starting to treat everyone but your family with indifference, right?"

"......" I didn't speak, but sat up and continued to listen to Conan.

"Judging from the scars on your body just now, the battles you have experienced must have been extremely difficult, with so many injuries. I don't think you'd be too low in the organization until you escaped. Conan thought with his chin dragged.

"Why is that?" I was a little puzzled. "It's also possible that my own injury was due to my lack of strength. ”

"No, I don't think that's possible. If you are not strong enough, then according to you, you will never be able to help your men escape from that organization. I guess you used your position to secretly send your men out. ”

"How?"

"You escaped on your own because you were hunted and killed, and there was no way back. If your strength is really insufficient, maybe your subordinates have already ...... Uh, I'm sorry. I don't mean to offend. Conan's words got stuck in his mouth.

"Yes, it's fine. I'll admit that my position in the organization is not low. I rubbed my blonde hair, a little helpless. I didn't think that I made up a lie and got myself into it. Fortunately, there are no flaws. Although Conan was only half right, he still didn't refute it, and it would be difficult to clean up if he showed anything again.

"So, throughout the ten years, I have determined that your heart has not changed, the profession of killer has not polluted your heart, you still know how to think about others, know how to protect others, but because of the environment you are in, so you take a different approach than me. But the essence is the same, isn't it?"

......At this point, I hesitated a little, because these words reminded me of the words that Shizuru said before she was tricked to death. "Why are you so sure?" I asked Conan.

"Because when you regain your memory, you start to find a way to escape. Conan said calmly.

"Huh?"

"As you said just now, your status in the organization is not low, and you have climbed to the highest position after ten years of hard work, but you escaped regardless of it, which proves that you are eager to see your family, and you are eager to leave that place of bondage and gain freedom from scratch!"

I was completely shocked by Conan's words. However, before I could say anything, Conan continued. "Like you said, maybe it's all fate, fate has caused you to lose your childhood and fall into darkness. Ten years later, you will be transformed back into a schoolboy and stand in the sun. Experience life in the sun anew. ”

"Kudo...... You ......"

"I don't know what you've been through in the past ten years, but I still believe that you're still the same Kaoru I knew. You can also be sure that you will one day see the beautiful side of this world when you stand in the sun. And I will swear in the name of my detective to bring you out of the darkness and face the light anew!"

“…… Hmph, hum. Hahaha. I couldn't help but laugh when I heard Conan's words. "Well...... Seriously, I'm a little touched by what you said. I grinned and grinned. "Well, then I'll trust you and see how you can show me the so-called light in the name of your detective. But the ugly words are up front, if I ......"

"No!" Conan interrupted. "I won't give you the opportunity to kill, I will do my best to strangle the evil in this world, gambling on the glory of my detective and Kudo Shinichi's life!"

“…… Why?"

"Because of you, Kaoru Mori, you're my important partner!" (To be continued)

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