"I told you earlier that I was separated from Zheng Xinguang and separated from him, but you didn't listen, but now it's okay, we don't even have a place to live!"

My mom kept babbling on and on as the rain got heavier and heavier, and our clothes and backpacks were getting wet.

It really can't go on like this, my mother cursed, and began to look for our next place with a gloomy face.

But the price of the house we fancy is either too expensive, or the landlord is unwilling to accept our orphans and widows, and the rain has already wet our clothes and stuck to our bodies.

With nowhere to go, we were almost desperate and finally saw a lease revelation in a dilapidated building.

My mom bargained with the landlord for a long time and ended up renting a basement for $300.

When we came to the basement and pushed the door open, it was a very dark place. There was still water leaking inside, and a musty smell came to my face.

My mom frowned, but we didn't have a better place to go.

After finding a slightly clean place to put down the things we had brought, my mom and I began to clean up.

At this time, our mood is as dark as the weather outside and the soot in the house.

As I was cleaning, I suddenly saw a huge gray-furred thing running out, and I screamed in fright: "Ah——!hh

When my mother heard this, she was quick to smash the mouse to death with a broom and swept it into a dustpan on the side.

She looked at me in shock, and said coldly: "What is it called, asking for trouble." What you will have in the future will be suffered. ”

When I heard this, I felt very sad for a while, but I could only swallow my grievances.

I did bring myself to where I am now.

But in fact...... I didn't want to drag my mom into the water.

When we first moved out of the Zheng family, our mother and daughter had a very difficult time.

After paying the rent, my mom had a lot less money.

In the beginning, we had three meals, steamed buns and fritters in the morning, and at noon, although it was not a few dishes and one soup, at least we could eat a meat occasionally.

Later, breakfast turned into steamed buns, and in the end, there were no more.

There are even times when dinner is saved.

After leaving the Zheng family, the money my mother used to go to the restaurant to wash dishes was not enough for daily expenses.

On days like this, sometimes I think of Zheng Xinguang, but the dispute I had with Zheng Xinguang before has also become a shackle that binds the two of us.

We haven't been in touch anymore, and I don't know what he's doing now, and I'm even more worried about whether he's still working for our lives.

Sometimes, looking back, I feel that the time I spent at the Zheng family was as unreal as a dream.

My mom got a few jobs and went out to work every day and was busy until late.

As soon as she came back, her face was full of exhaustion, and when she saw me sitting at home after cooking, she became angry and scolded me.

I also feel very sorry for the situation we are in at the moment, so I silently endure these beatings and scolding.

She didn't talk about the grievances she encountered at work, but turned these grievances into anger and vented it on me.

I know that she is physically struggling, and her heart is even more painful, and every time she picks up her own food and shrinks herself into a small one.

Sometimes I feel like I am in the state of mind I am now, like she was back then.

But the days are too hard now, and I don't have the energy to think about my old friends.

"Every day like a log and don't speak, for you to eat and drink, you are so angry with me!" My mother now most often talks about how I am angry with her.

I don't know how I could make her so angry.

But I also feel like I'm a drag bottle.

Neither can I help my mom make money and make her happy, I completely drag her down.

My mom saw that I was in a daze again, and started beating me again.

If I had been a month ago, I would never have imagined that my relationship with my mom would have become like this.

But now every time I think about it, I can only smile bitterly.

One night, my mom asked me, "Do you want to go to school?"

When I heard this, I fell silent for a moment.

What annoys my mother the most now is that I don't speak, so I raised my tone and scolded with hatred: "What can I do at home if I don't go to school, you really embarrass me and your father who died early!"

I couldn't help but cry when I heard my mother's accusations and thought about what had happened before.

Zheng Xinguang's grades are so good, but because I work everywhere, I may not return to school until now, and I, who is highly protected, how can I face to go back to school?

I had insomnia that night.

At this time, water was dripping down the basement, and we used the basin to catch the water that was leaking.

Tick-tock, the sound is unusually clear in the extraordinarily empty basement.

My mom had already fallen asleep next to me, and after a tiring day, she didn't have the strength to stay up any longer.

I looked at my mom and felt sad again.

Should I go back to school?

It's not just my mother's business, but I also think about Zheng Xinguang.

My mom was expecting me to go to school, and now it seems like the only thing I can do.

But if I have to go to school, I hope that Zheng Xinguang will come back to school as well, and I hope that my future will not be delayed because of my business.

I thought about it for a long time, rehearsing over and over again in my mind what I should say when I saw him, but at the end, I sighed slightly.

Now I am so timid that I don't have the courage to go to Zheng Xinguang.

But I couldn't rest assured, as soon as my mother went to work the next day, I went out of the basement and went to the hospital to find Fang Zhiwen to inquire about Zheng Xinguang's news.

After Fang Zhiwen saw me, his face was a little more worried, and he asked, "How are you doing, are you okay with your aunt?"

When I heard this, I realized that Fang Zhiwen had heard about me and my mother being kicked out of the Zheng family.

I smiled wryly and said, "That's it." Don't mention this, do you know how Zheng Xinguang is now, has he gone home?"

Fang Zhiwen glanced at my expression carefully, and then said, "He hasn't gone home yet." ”

When I heard this, my mouth opened wide with an "ah".

Zheng Xinguang hasn't even gone home yet, so how did he live and what he was doing during the time I was away......

I have a stomach full of questions that I want to ask Fang Zhiwen, but I can't stop talking.

Am I still qualified to ask?

Fang Zhiwen saw my hesitation and took the initiative to tell me: "Xinguang lives outside now, and he usually ......."

Halfway through the words, I found that Zheng Xinguang had walked out from somewhere else.

His face was gloomy, and my heart jumped, as if I saw a deep meaning in his eyes.

The timing of Zheng Xinguang's appearance was too coincidental, and it seemed that he had been waiting for me to come over.

At this time, Fang Zhiwen sighed and said eloquently: "Xinguang has already learned about you and your aunt from me, and I am specially waiting for you to come over and ask for news."

"I remembered that I had something to do, so I left first. Fang Zhiwen made an excuse to leave and created a space for the two of us to talk.