In the dead of night, Xia Nian did not feel sleepy at all, looking at the cold moonlight outside the window, Xia Nian lifted the pen and put it down, and after sorting out her thoughts again, she finally lifted the pen again and wrote:

"Luo Ming,"

"I'm sorry, Zimo and I have already left when you read this letter, please don't come to us, please, because, I don't deserve any of your efforts at all. ”

Thinking of Luo Ming's possible reaction when he saw the letter, Xia Nian's hand shook, and he suddenly lost the courage to write it down.

However, how could she leave without leaving anything, at least, she couldn't disappear without a trace after agreeing to his marriage proposal after agreeing to his proposal, as she did when she left Moxize.

Over the years, she has worked so hard to deceive Mo Xize, and now, she must let Luo Ming know all the truth, she can't lie to Luo Ming anymore, maybe only if Luo Ming knows all the truth, then he won't care so much about her departure.

Gripping the pen, Xia Nian continued:

"I left with Zimo, it's not your fault, it's not because you're not good enough, it's that I don't want to continue to be wrong. ”

"When I took the initiative to marry you, I thought I could forget the past, forget Mo Xize, but no, I couldn't do it at all, no matter how I forced myself, I couldn't erase the bits and pieces of the past with Mo Xize in my mind, every time I wanted to forget Mo Xize, the more I wanted to love you well, and everything about Mo Xize in my mind became clearer. ”

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"

"I've been deceiving you all along, even using you, using you to hide my feelings for Mo Xize, and using you to protect me and Zimo. ”

The heart tightened for a while, the pain came one after another, and the mist under her eyes gathered into a drop of surplus and the corners of her eyes slipped down, but Xia Nian couldn't stop, she had to let Luo Ming know clearly what she had been thinking.

"If you ask me if I ever love you.

"I'm sorry, from the moment I agreed to be your girlfriend, I decided to love you well, but... I'm sorry, I didn't do it, my whole heart is already full of Moxize, whether it was in the past or now, it can't accommodate other men, although, you're good, really good. ”

"Now, I can't continue to pretend, and I can't continue to hurt you. ”

"I know that if I continue to stay by your side, you will definitely do everything you can to protect me and Zimo without hesitation, but some people and some things are not worth your all. ”

Tears dripped onto the paper, fading away and blurring the handwriting.

Raising his head, Xia Nian tried to let the tears go back, but the more he pushed himself, the more tears flowed.

......

After calming down, Xia Nian continued to pick up the pen and wrote down the most direct reason for her departure:

"I can't watch you fight with Mo Xize and even the entire Mo family for me and Zimo, if I don't leave with Zimo, then this day will happen soon, and in the end you can only be hurt, and Zimo will also be taken away by the Mo family, and he will never return to my side. ”

"Please forgive me for my selfishness, in this life, I love Mo Xize deeply but I can't let him know, let alone be with him. ”

"Without Mo Xize, my world has become gray, if there is no Zimo, then my existence will be meaningless, so I can only escape, I can only escape with Zimo. ”

"Perhaps, you wonder why I love Mo Xize so much, but I can't let her know. ”

"Because of my existence, it is an insult to the Mo family. ”

"More than seven years ago, Mo Xize's father threatened me with my mother's life, so that I could no longer get close to Mo Xize, Mo Yuanqing said, even if it is just to be Mo Xize's lover, I am not worthy, unless he dies, he will not let me step into the Mo family half a step. ”

Taking a deep breath, her brow furrowed tighter, but she had to keep writing:

"If it weren't for my mother, I might not have been able to return to S City in this life, and I would always bury my feelings for Mo Xize in my heart and wouldn't let anyone know about it again. ”

"My mother was released from prison and I had to go back to S City to take care of my mother. ”

"I originally thought that seven years had passed, and after seven years, if I returned to S City, Mo Xize would have forgotten me a long time ago, and it would be impossible to remember me at all, or at least not have any feelings for me again. ”

"However, I was wrong, the moment I saw Mo Xize after returning to S City, I realized how wrong I was, Mo Xize never thought for a moment that I would let me go, he hated me, but love was more than hate. ”

"However, how could I ignore Mo Yuanqing's warning, how could I even ignore my mother's life for myself. ”

"So, when I found out that Mo Xize's hatred for me had all turned into love, I could only use you and take the initiative to marry you, hoping that in this way I could escape Mo Xize and escape my feelings for Mo Xize. ”

"Things are never out of my control, maybe I did something wrong in the first place, so God never favored me. ”

"I originally wanted to marry you well, even if I don't love you now, but as the days go by, I will always fall in love with you, at least rely on your kindness to me. ”

"However, the existence of Zimo happened in the Mo family, and Mo Yuanqing wanted to take Zimo away from me, and asked me to draw a line with Zimo, and I can no longer be Zimo's mother. ”

"My mother is gone, gone forever, how can I lose Zimo again. ”

The pain was surging in the bottom of his heart, but Xia Nian clenched the pen and continued to write:

"I promised you that if I left you, it wouldn't be because I wanted to be with Moxize. ”

"So, I can only leave, I can't be with you, and I won't be with Moxize. ”

"In this life, hurting Mo Xize is already an unbearable pain in my life, how can I hurt you selfishly anymore. ”

"I'm sorry, Luo Ming. ”

"I know that even 10,000 'sorry' won't make up for what I did wrong to you. ”

"But I don't really know how to express my guilt other than saying 'I'm sorry'. ”

"If there is a next life, I am willing to fall in love with you as soon as I meet you, and use my life to compensate for the mistakes I have committed to you in this life and the injuries caused to you. ”

"I'm gone, maybe we'll never see each other again. ”

"Please don't grieve for my departure, you deserve a better woman to be treated with the purest and hottest love of your life. ”

"Forget about me and go find a woman who is truly worthy of your love. ”

"Xia Nian"

"October 28, 201x"