Now there is a feeling in my heart, sour, bitter. Although I was mentally prepared half a year ago.

Maybe I'm not deeply involved in the world, maybe I'm too emotional, sentimental, or even I'm a coward, it's not an exaggeration. I have so much to say, I don't know where to start, where to speak, and my mind is very messy.

We are born, we can climb, we can stand, we can walk, kindergarten, elementary school, junior high school, high school, college, work, promotion and salary increase, marrying a wife, having a next generation, raising children, gray hair in the blink of an eye, no matter how unwilling we are, no matter how nostalgic we are for this world, that breath will eventually dissipate. Ended up surrounded by a large group of relatives, friends, you were pushed in, and the people around you were crying hysterically. Thousands of degrees of heat come out, and you're just a handful of ash in a box.

In this world, people will always have such a situation, even if you have a lifetime of intrigues, deceit, anger and strength, or everyone shouts and beats.

So, don't think about the future, live in the present. Everything is open and the mind is peaceful. It's not interesting to fight for a sentence or two in life, and in love, you can take a step back if you can. Communicate calmly with your parents. Gangs and factions, jealousy and hatred will end up and you will find it boring.

From now on, do whatever you want, as long as it conforms to your heart and does not violate the social system. Confess a goddess who has been in love for a long time, even if she refuses, do what you want to do the most but dare not do the last, even if it is to run naked on the street with a bare butt, or go to the red light district to find a sister, turn on a basin of hot water at night, put your mother's feet in the basin, gently press it a few times, and say a few words that you usually want to say but dare not say, buy a train ticket alone, sit in a place where no one knows you, no mobile phone, no Internet, and take a good look at yourself to live the way you want to live.

Even if we are humble, we should at least live truthfully;

Although we may be stupid in the eyes of outsiders, we should at least be stupid in our own minds.

For the first time, I didn't know what I wanted to say, there was no central idea, no educational significance, my head was dizzy, I just typed out what came to mind. There are still a lot of stalks in my throat, and the writing that I have always been proud of seems so vulnerable at this moment.

Maybe this time I'm really tired, maybe this time I've really understood something. Those who are alive still have to live, that's all, it won't end beautifully today, so be it.