The long rainy season seems to be over, about four or five months, these days have been sunny and shining, although I don't know the exact date now, but the approximate time can still be grasped, after estimation it is now February and March.

According to the Chinese solar terms, it should be winter from the beginning of the rainy season to now, but why is it summer here?

I thought about it and realized that this should be Oceania, and the climate here is just the opposite of our country, which is what the junior high school teacher said.

As for why this is the case, I don't know, I don't want to know, what's the use of knowing.

In this annoying rainy season, hot and humid, my mood is extremely irritable, and now that it is finally over, I need to regulate my emotions so that I can face the next few days.

In fact, my heart is really confused, I don't know how to live the next days, I always feel empty inside.

On this day, I got up and looked at the sea blankly, my mind was blank, my heart was very empty, it seemed that I couldn't think of anything, my family and friends, in short, everything seemed to have disappeared.

I don't seem to have said a word in at least half a year, people say that if a person doesn't communicate with people for a long time, it's very likely that this person won't be able to speak, thinking of this, I can't help but get nervous, if I really can't speak, then I won't be dumb.

At the end of the day, the Yellow River flows into the sea.

Want to go to the next level from the clair.

When I finished memorizing this poem, the sound of reciting the poem told me that I had not lost my voice.

I haven't communicated or spoken to people for a long time, but I'm just living like a machine, and I'm worried that I won't be able to bear it after living like this for a long time, and there will definitely be a day when I will collapse.

I'm a little scared when I think about it, and I really don't dare to think about what the results will be if a person completely collapses.

There are many reasons for people's collapse, mainly due to the pressure of life, and of course, people's own ability to bear when many tribulations come.

For example, the death of a loved one, the betrayal of a marriage, the failure of a job, the trouble of illness, etc., will drive into collapse.

What I was dealing with was loneliness, drifting alone on an uninhabited island, far from civilization and ignorant of the future.

I don't know if my family still misses me, or if they already think I'm dead, and all they care about me is to offer a wreath in front of my tomb every Qingming Festival, burn a few pieces of paper or make some offerings.

Even if I can live here forever, the outside world thinks I'm a dead person, and more importantly, I don't think it's possible for me to return to civilized society, and it's better to die than to live meaninglessly here.

I know that this kind of thinking is very negative, a manifestation of incompetence and cowardice, and I know that this kind of behavior has a very negative impact on my life on the island.

I want to restrain this negative and frustrating thought, so I learn to shout loudly in the face of pressure.

I shouted with all my might.

Ah,,,,,,,,,h,,,,,,h

I yelled and screamed, hoping to let out all the gloom in my heart, and even more so that I could overcome the emptiness in my heart and cheer myself up.

Shouting a few times is really effective, the long-term depression in my heart seems to have been reduced a lot, I want to try to adjust my mentality, I can't be so negative, away from everything I am living for myself now.

But my heart is full of family, friends, lovers, and children, and I have never given up on missing them all the time, which is also the motivation for me to survive.

But I don't dare to think about them too much, whenever I miss them, my heart is sour, the more I miss the more heartache, the more heartache the more desperate, I don't know if the missing family is the driving force or resistance to my survival.

This contradiction makes me very distressed, and I really don't know how I will face it.

I still sat in my cabin and didn't know what was wrong, but I knew I had to overcome my depression.

No matter what, time went on, and after the sun had set in the hut for a day, I was now feeling hungry, and I was driven by hunger to go out of the hut and go to the beach to collect food.

When the delicious and charred grilled fish aroused my taste buds and made me hungry and hungry, I suddenly understood how my negative emotions came about.

People have this kind of mentality, that is, they think that man should be above all things, and the same is true of life. People want to be able to change or control their lives, and life and fate are closely linked, not that you want to change will change, people must know how to conform to fate and know how to enjoy life.

Since fate has made me drift to this island, then this is what I am destined, I have to face it suddenly and cherish the arrangement of fate more, and I must also know how to enjoy the life arranged by fate, maybe this is the beginning of my different life.

I want to live like a normal person, first of all, I have to pay attention to my appearance, I haven't had a haircut and shave for more than half a year, I touched my cheeks with my hand and my beard is full, and my hair is also long and fluffy like a chicken nest, although there is no mirror It is not difficult to imagine how sloppy I am now.

If this is in real life, many people want long hair to flow or dye long beard, but it takes a lot of washing and care methods and products to care for the effect, and here it is better to cut it, I don't want my head to have stinky lice.

If you don't cut your hair for a long time and can't wash it effectively, it's very uncomfortable and you can even get lice, but I don't have any tools now, and the only broken sailor knife can't be used, so what do I have to use to trim my head.

It occurred to me that I had a pair of safety scissors, and I had almost forgotten about them once on the island, and it was perfect to use them for haircuts and beards.

I found the scissors and began to cut my hair with it, the scissors were very sharp, I squinted my eyes and cut my hair little by little, at this time the hair really had a smell due to insufficient washing, especially the smell of hair oil was very strong.

After a while, I cut off my dirty hair, leaving only a short hair and beard, which made me feel very comfortable and relaxed, but I don't need to look at the hairstyle to be like a dog gnawing it, anyway, no one will see it, as long as it is comfortable, I don't have to care about the image.