Chapter Seventy-Six: Let Go of Attachment
In this half a year, I lived a very fulfilling life, so that I forgot a lot of troubles, I thought that I would live like this forever, until one day a phone call from my sister made my heart ripple again,,,,
On the afternoon of this day, my little sister Guan Min called, first greeted me with a warm greeting, and then solemnly told me one thing, that is, Wang Zheng gave birth to a boy, but this is not the point, the point is that Wang Zheng changed to severe depression after giving birth to a child.
The main reason for Wang Zheng's depression is that there is a knot in her heart, a knot that she can't let go, and this knot is me,,,,
When I heard the news, my heart ached, and all the worries and sorrows of the past poured out.
In the past six months, I have been helping Zou Xinyue take care of the flower shop as a part-time worker, and I have never returned to my hometown.
At first, Huo Liang, Wang Zheng, and my daughter Lulu often called me and sent messages, but I didn't reply to them, and finally even blocked them all, I don't know why I did this, anyway, I did it.
When I was alone, I couldn't help but ask myself why I was like this, which was obviously a sign of cowardice to escape, because I knew very well in my heart that I, Huo Liang, Wang Zheng, and the three of us didn't want to see any of the results.
It was this ambivalence that made me choose to escape, I thought that time would dilute everything, but after knowing that Wang Zheng had severe depression, I realized that I was not alone in the so-called pain.
How can I end all this, let Wang Zheng divorce Huo Liang and be with me, this seems impossible, this is too cruel to Wang Zheng.
Taking away her daughter and the company and Huo Liang and Wang Zheng do not get along with them, which seems to be unfair to her daughter.
Let me release my suspicions and bless Wang Zheng and Huo Liang, so I can't seem to do it, and I am in a dilemma for a while.
For several days in a row, I was in a state of mind, and I always made mistakes when I started to do things, and Zou Xinyue on the side saw that I was busy all day long, and she knew that something must have happened, but she didn't say anything and continued to fiddle with the flowers in her hand.
This afternoon, the flower shop was closed, and I was about to go back to the rental house to rest, but I didn't expect Zou Xinyue to close the door of the flower shop and turn around to me and say, "Are you free at night, let's have a meal together." ”
I didn't postpone hearing Zou Xinyue say this, after all, we have been together for half a year and often eat together, but I didn't expect Zou Xinyue to be abnormal today, and when she saw me agree, she said happily: "I'm glad that my sister invited you to a big dinner today." ”
I was surprised when I heard it,,,,
Zou Xinyue is not a stingy person, but she is usually very frugal and invites me to eat in some small restaurants or small restaurants, and the food is also very simple, beef noodles and rice bowls, why do you suddenly have to have a big meal today.
Sure enough, Zou Xinyue waited for me to come to a very famous hotel in the city and ordered several dishes in one go.
I quipped, "It's no wonder, order so many dishes, don't cry when you check out"
Zou Xinyue smiled and said happily: "Today, you can eat boldly and boldly, I will pay for ,,,"
On the other dishes, look at the four dishes and one soup respectively, pot wrapped meat, sweet and sour carp, colorful big peel, braised pork, and soup and vegetables stewed.
These dishes suddenly reminded me of Huo Liang and Wang Zheng, which are our favorite dishes.
Zou Xinyue said: "After getting along for so long, I know that you like these dishes, so I simply ordered them all to eat today." ”
I didn't let go of eating with Zou Xinyue politely, sure enough, these ordinary home-cooked dishes in the big hotel are full of color, flavor and flavor, and the presentation is also very elegant, this taste and shape are several grades higher than ordinary small restaurants.
I saw that Zou Xinyue didn't move her chopsticks after eating a few bites, and her face was solemn, as if she had something on her mind.
I drank a glass of Coke and said, "Is there something for me to do if I am so generous today?"
Zou Xinyue said solemnly: "After eating this meal, you can leave." ”
I was puzzled and asked, "What do you mean by that?"
Zou Xinyue smiled and said: "You have been with me for too long, people with ideals and ambitions like you should not stay in a small place like me, and you have been busy these days, it must be that thing again."
I know what Zou Xinyue said, we have also talked about me and Huo Liang Wang Zheng before, but I didn't expect her to mention this matter today, but what she said is indeed what I think in my heart.
I glanced at Zou Xinyue and said weakly: "I really can't hide anything from you, but I don't plan to go back, because I don't know how to deal with this matter yet." ”
Zou Xinyue said: "You are a smart person, you should know how to do it, but as your friend, and from a woman's point of view, your wife is not wrong, the reason for this is very clear in your heart, let go of what you should let go, otherwise you will all live in pain." ”
I said helplessly: "Actually, I have forgiven them a long time ago, there is nothing wrong with them, everything is providential, but I am still a little reluctant in my heart, and I still can't let go of Wang Zheng." ”
"Am I being too selfish," I asked Zou Xinyue excitedly.
Zou Xinyue said with relief: "How happy a woman should be if she can love you like this, but if you love too deeply, it will hurt the other party, and it will also hurt yourself. ”
At this time, Zou Xinyue lowered her head and said coyly: "Why bother ,,,,,,, if there are many good women?"
After Zou Xinyue finished speaking, she was in her thirties, and she actually blushed, lowered her head and ate the vegetables in a big gulp.
I'm not stupid, of course I know what she means, but I really didn't think about this kind of thing, and I was very surprised at this time, and my heart suddenly beat fast for some reason, and I didn't say anything but gulped down the food on the table.