Volume IV, Chapter 90, Yufan Reflections

Qin Yufan fell ill on the day after burying Qin's father. Due to the fatigue of Lian Yuli, plus excessive worry. She finally fell ill the night after her father was buried.

After learning that she was sick, her fiancé, Chen Yongfu, took her to the health center that night for treatment.

After the doctors diagnosed and treated him heartily, Qin Yufan's condition finally improved. So, early the next morning, when she was sitting in the courtyard to rest, while basking in the sun, she thought about it crankily: she couldn't help but think of her father's funeral at once: during Qin's father's funeral, together with hospitalization fees, surgery fees, medical expenses, mortuary expenses in the morgue, as well as buying coffins, choosing a cemetery, treating and giving gifts, as well as sugar, tea, tobacco and alcohol, and other expenses, a total of nearly 15,000 yuan was spent. In addition to the gift money of nearly 8,000 yuan from the unit and relatives and friends (note: except for the funeral expenses of 10,000 yuan given to her father by the unit soon after), the rest of the expenses were all the "private money" used by her and Chen Yongfu to prepare for marriage. All of this "private money" is what she usually saves by frugality. She originally planned to use the money to have a prosperous wedding. I didn't expect my father's death, and everything was in vain. After thinking of this, she couldn't help but secretly feel the money.

Although Qin's father repeatedly told her to be frugal in her funeral before she died, she did not follow her father's instructions. First, she is very competitive and likes face. Second, she also wanted to take advantage of her father's funeral to improve her family's reputation. She knew that their neighbors had humiliated and underestimated their family several times because her father had no son. Therefore, she decided to raise the reputation of her family by holding a funeral for her father.

"Alas, those private money are only saved by saving money by herself! I don't know when I will be able to save this money!" After thinking of this, she couldn't help but feel the pain of those money.

She sighed incessantly, and at the same time thought about it cranky......

"Alas, seeing that his wedding date will be more than ten days away, I didn't expect this kind of thing to happen. After thinking of her marriage, she couldn't help but think of her father's funeral: during Qin's father's funeral, together with hospitalization fees, surgery fees, medical expenses, mortuary expenses in the morgue, as well as buying coffins, choosing a cemetery, entertaining and giving gifts, as well as sugar, tea, tobacco and alcohol, and other expenses, a total of nearly 15,000 yuan was spent. In addition to the gift money of nearly 8,000 yuan from the unit and relatives and friends (note: except for the funeral expenses of 10,000 yuan given to her father by the unit soon after), the rest of the expenses were all the "private money" used by her and Chen Yongfu to prepare for marriage. All of this "private money" is what she usually saves by frugality. She originally planned to use the money to have a prosperous wedding. I didn't expect my father's death, and everything was in vain. After thinking of this, she couldn't help but secretly feel the money.

Although Qin's father repeatedly told her to be frugal in her funeral before she died, she did not follow her father's instructions. First, she is very competitive and likes face. Second, she also wanted to take advantage of her father's funeral to improve her family's reputation. She knew that their neighbors had humiliated and underestimated their family several times because her father had no son. Therefore, she decided to raise the reputation of her family by holding a funeral for her father.

"Alas, those private money are only saved by saving money by herself! I don't know when I will be able to save this money!" After thinking of this, she couldn't help but feel the pain of those money.

She sighed incessantly, and at the same time thought about it cranky......

"Alas, seeing that his wedding date will be more than ten days away, I didn't expect this kind of thing to happen. My father has died, and I don't know how long the wedding date will be delayed?" After thinking about her marriage, she couldn't stop sighing, and at the same time thinking about it crankily......

"Will Nan Nan give up this matter lightly? The two of them have been secretly intended, and she is now pregnant with the child of Yongfu. If Nan Nan told him the news of her own pregnancy, would he remember that she was pregnant with his flesh and blood and agreed to her request? If she wants to get him, wouldn't it be within easy reach!"

That afternoon, after Qin Yunan told the truth about her pregnancy, she listened to her clearly! She was terrified of this matter at that time. However, at that time, I was too busy thinking about my father's affairs to have no chance to think about it. Now that she thought about it, she couldn't help but feel even more frightened, and she felt more and more headaches.

"If Nan Nan asks me for this matter: For the sake of the child, how should I respond to the marriage between her and Yongfu? Will they say that I am unkind and will not save me when I die? What words should I use to answer Nan Nan and my mother? That is, I am ruthless and ignore her request. If she had told Yongfu about it, would he have agreed to marry her for the sake of her own flesh and blood?

"What should I do? It's so difficult to 'give up' Yongfu to Nan Nan like this, so what will I do in the future? He is a lover who has been in love for nearly three years! In terms of talent and appearance, he is really one in a hundred! If such a good opportunity is given up, I am afraid that it will be difficult to find a good husband like him.

The more she thought about it, the more she felt a splitting headache. A wave of sleepiness hit, and she couldn't help but feel more headaches and drowsy. So she got up from her chair and walked slowly to her bedroom.......

Qin Yunan was also thinking about it like Qin Yufan at this time. Since she buried Qin's father, she has been depressed and unhappy in the past few days, and she has been unable to sleep and eat, and she has fallen into sorrow. She couldn't help but think of her father's funeral......

During the entire period of Qin's father's funeral, she was left out alone, as if her father's death had nothing to do with her. During the whole period of her father's funeral, she was alone and seemed relatively idle. All the affairs of the family were taken care of by her sister Qin Yufan, and she didn't need to think about it. She also fell into a relaxed position for this. She remembers during her father's funeral. One day, the family's expenses were not enough, so Qin Yufan reached out to her to ask for money, but she couldn't come up with the money. She works in the private sector herself, and her salary itself is not much. And she loves to dress up very much, and spends money like water. The salary she earns in a month is not enough for her own pocket money, let alone saving "private money".

She has been working for almost two years. During this period, not only did she not use money for her family, but also, whenever she was short of money to spend, she secretly asked Qin's mother for money behind her back.

Mother Qin is very kind-hearted and doting on her two daughters. Qin Yunan developed this temper because of her doting and pampering since she was a child. For this matter, Father Qin didn't know how many times he had beaten her. And she always prevaricates with a child. In the face of her daughter's repeated stretch of out her hand to ask for pocket money, she was angry and scolded. Yet, despite this, she tried to meet her request every time. But he always hid it from Father Qin and Qin Yufan. She knew that Father Qin had a violent personality, and she was afraid that he would be furious when he found out. She didn't dare to let Qin Yufan know, for fear that she would have opinions after she knew. Therefore, she has always tried to hide it from the two of them.

In fact, she didn't know that Father Qin and Qin Yufan had long been aware of this matter, but no one wanted to explain it, and their family had long known Qin Yunan's "heart", so they "allowed" her everywhere. However, despite this, she did not save much "private money".

After seeing that she couldn't come up with the money, Qin Yufan scolded angrily: "Nan Nan! Dad has raised you so much, you just gave Dad Wu Bai Yuan to send Dad to the end! Mom and Dad Ping are the most painful people are you, and you don't even give your father a little filial piety." Daddy has fed you so much for nothing!"

Qin Yunan was speechless when she scolded her. So he said unconvinced: "How can I compare with you, you work in a large state-owned unit, and one month's salary is worth my two months' salary." Dad asked you to take over his job, and if I had to take over his job, I would have contributed to my father's funeral......"

After Qin Yufan listened to her words, he was so angry that he couldn't cry or laugh, and knew that he couldn't tell her clearly, so he had to stop talking. Alone took on all the affairs of the family.

Qin Yunan is also a person with a strong heart, and she has long seen from the expressions of the people from their family: everyone looks down on her. They were all revolving around Qin Yufan alone, as if her father was Qin Yufan's daughter.

After thinking of this, she couldn't help but secretly hate the unfairness of the world, they are also sisters, but the experience is different. Why does everyone revolve around my sister and ignore her existence? Why does she have a job that makes people jealous and jealous, but she herself does not? Why does she have "skills" in the eyes of her family and friends and she is left out in the cold.

The more she thought about it, the more pessimistic she felt, and she had thoughts of inferiority.

After Qin Yunan buried his father, he couldn't help but think about it all of a sudden when he sat in the room alone......