In Jiang Xuanzong's mind, Xin Andong is a child who is closer to him than his cousin, he likes him very much from the first sight, he is well-behaved and sensible, he works hard to shoulder the burden of the family alone, even if life is difficult, he can't seem to defeat him, like a little poplar with a straight back, calm and calm like a child, always strong and distressing to him.

He likes to rub his soft and silky hair, like to pinch the tip of his small and lovely nose, like to see him pouting and playing with his temperament, and likes to listen to him call Brother Zong softly, as if he is his only faith and his closest person.

When he found out that his cousin actually liked him, his first reaction was not to be shocked at how worldly the two men were together, but to harbor a fire in his heart, resentful that his cousin's filthy mind had defiled his pure and white youth, and disgusted that he was not well supervised, so that he was put in such an embarrassing and wronged situation.

Later, he learned that the boy was not as innocent as he imagined, he had his own bad temper and careful thinking, and if he peeled off the disguise of innocence and innocence, he would have a bad tone because he rejected you, and he would speak to the point, and use sarcastic words to make you speechless.

Jiang Xuanzong felt that he should be angry, after all, the majesty was provoked, but no, he just felt helpless, and was cautiously thinking about how to remedy if he made him angry.

He was hopeless, he thought that he might not be as kind to anyone in the first half of his life or the second half of his life, and he really couldn't do anything about him.

He never thought about his feelings for the boy, because before he didn't need to think about it at all, brotherly love, father-son love or friend love, there are some, but none of them are single.

His pity, love, and joy for Xin Andong seem to be that only when he sees him, he will unconsciously put his eyes on him, and always want to pay attention to him, like an eagle that can't let go of his hand, looking at the young eagle in his arms with sadness.

He even thought that it would matter if he didn't get married in the future, he liked this young man, he was good to him, and it was no worse than his own bloodline, as the saying goes, happiness begets sadness, when he accidentally fell into his stepmother's calculations, when the body's embarrassing reaction was menacing, when the boy was lying in his arms, Jiang Xuanzong's mind was only blank.

He was very sober in his thoughts, and his confusion was just an excuse, and his fiery body made him understand the filthiness and despicability of his heart more clearly, and he indulged himself and bit the red lip fiercely.

In a situation that no one expected, he became the kind of person he hated the most, hurting the child he loved, so unbearable, so shameless, he despised and hated himself, for the first time he was at a loss, hesitant and timid, he was afraid to see hatred and disgust in the eyes of a young man.

After leaving, Jiang Xuanzong would involuntarily recall everything that happened that night, and every time he thought about it, the more he hated himself, he couldn't control his sinful reverie, and could only sink more and more in his blushing heartbeat.

He is like a thief who has obtained treasures by shameful means, and does not even have to find an excuse to deceive himself, which is greed, that is, he has coveted it for a long time.

Jiang Xuanzong was unwilling to face Xin Andong unclearly, it was irresponsible to the two of them, he never wanted to hurt him, even if it hurt himself, he promised to give him a complete explanation, after the matter was finally dealt with thoroughly, after some careful consideration and his own torture, he decided to face up to his feelings, and walked in front of the young man with anticipation and nervousness.

"You ......" Jiang Xuanzong stopped talking, his fists clenched and loosened, and he looked at the young man in front of him with complicated thoughts.

Xin Andong has lost weight, his already long body has become thinner and thinner, his small face is still the size of a palm, and his chin is pointed, making him smaller and smaller. Also, he was only nineteen years old, and he was still a half-grown man with an unopened body. Thinking of this, Jiang Xuanzong felt inexplicably uncomfortable, compared to the age of the young man, he was more than a round older than him.

Jiang Xuanzong's face was a little dark, and there was a kind of depression that had nowhere to go.

Xin Andong didn't have so many thoughts, he himself was quite embarrassed, the object of the one-night stand was standing in front of him, his face was expressionless and his eyes were complicated, even if he was a thick-skinned person, he was afraid that the other party would really come to 'rejuvenate the teacher and ask for guilt'.

Seeing that Jiang Xuanzong was really entangled, he had to sigh and speak, "Brother Zong, have you eaten, I'm going to eat in the cafeteria, let's go together?"

Heaven and earth eat the biggest, Xin Andong doesn't want to starve himself.

Jiang Xuanzong was stunned for a moment, his solemn face was a little sluggish, probably he didn't expect the conversation between the two to start in this way today.

Facing the young Baba's eyes, he nodded, and his voice was calm, "Okay." ”

"Shall I take you out to eat?" he mentioned again, not that he disliked the food in the school cafeteria, but it was not as rich as the outside, his eyes fell on Xin Andong's thin face, he just wanted him to eat better.

Xin Andong was a little hungry, and he had just come back from outside the school, so he didn't want to waste time by eating, let alone stay with Jiang Xuanzong more, so he immediately waved his hand and said, "No need, just eat as much as you want, I ate two steamed buns in the morning and I'm not too hungry now, and the food in our school cafeteria is not bad." ”

It's really good, at least it's more nutritious and delicious than the meals in the school cafeteria of the junior high school and high school he studied, and the key is that it's very affordable, which won Xin Andong's heart.

Jiang Xuanzong frowned, although it was a pity to let go of the opportunity to supplement the young man's nutrition, but there would be a chance in the future, the matter between the two of them had not been clarified today, and he didn't want to make the other party unhappy.

Xin Andong saw that he had no opinion, so he happily led people to the canteen, and on the way, he even took out an apple from the bag he was carrying and asked him if he wanted to eat it, the atmosphere between the two was harmonious, and there was no tension at all.

Of course, this is in Xin Andong's opinion, he is not nervous, he is really not nervous, what is there to be nervous about, anyway, he is not looking forward to anything to be afraid of disappointment or anything, besides, Jiang Xuanzong watched him grow up, even if there is no love between them, there is friendship and brotherhood.

From Xin Andong's point of view, he doesn't have to worry about Jiang Xuanzong being angry and angry at all, this is simply impossible.

At most, in order to avoid embarrassment and old age, I expected the worst outcome, and there seemed to be nothing to worry about, Xin Andong's life creed, since it can't be changed, let it be.

Compared with his ease and calmness, Jiang Xuanzong is much more nervous, he is like any hairy boy facing his sweetheart, with a happy heart and nowhere to put it.

Perhaps because of the change in thinking, Xin Andong, who had a close relationship with him, was no longer the boy he was simply liked by him in Jiang Xuanzong's eyes.

The boy seemed to be covered with a soft light that he couldn't put down, so that he couldn't bear to take his eyes off him, and the palm of his hand that was still at his side was about to move, and he couldn't help but want to touch him, touch him, preferably close to him.

When Jiang Xuanzong realized his thoughts, his whole body stiffened slightly.

For the first time, he thought he might be a pervert.

He was entangled in his heart and afraid of being discovered by Xin Andong, he had not forgotten how disgusted and rejected the young man when Tong Zhenghao confessed.

Thinking of this, he was frightened, and he found out about this problem, and in an instant, Jiang Xuanzong's hot heart was half cold.

"What's wrong?" Xin Andong asked suspiciously.

It turned out that Jiang Xuanzong's feet stopped in place at some point, his eyes were stunned, and his tightly knit brows showed that he seemed to be troubled by some difficult question.

Jiang Xuanzong raised his head suddenly, looked straight at Xin Andong, his throat seemed to be stuffed with a ball of cotton, he said: "I heard my uncle say that there are many husbands and wives who are married to each other abroad, and they form a family life like most people in society. ”

His words are not subtle, and he almost expounds his views on homosexuality.

Jiang Xuanzong has never been a person who is eager and does not know how to measure, but at this time in this no-man's land, he lost his usual composure, and couldn't help but say a specious thing as a temptation.

His eyes were glued to Xin Andong, hoping to see something on his face, his heart was beating fast, and he had the illusion that he was about to drown if he clung to a straw before he died.

But he didn't know that although Xin Andong heard his voice, he had misunderstood the meaning.

Jiang Xuanzong may have forgotten what he said when Lan Mingqu vaguely confessed and asked him about his views on homosexuality, he said, 'I'm not disgusting, I don't like it', and Tong Zhenghao's indifference when dealing with the problem, he ignored these things, but Xin Andong, who was full of hope again and again, firmly remembered these 'details'.

Therefore, in Xin Andong's eyes, there is no straight man in the world who is more straight than Jiang Xuanzong, even if he is on his own.

Therefore, Jiang Xuanzong's tentative words were heard in Xin Andong's ears at this time, especially when the two of them had just happened to be so ashamed, Xin Andong's first reaction was that Jiang Xuanzong was vaguely testing whether he had improper thoughts about the other party.

In other words, it is to wonder if he Xin Andong has any thoughts about Jiang Xuanzong!

Isn't it?

inexplicably told him that although homosexuality is not tolerated in the domestic environment, it is a normal phenomenon abroad, and shows that his views on homosexuality are not opposed, and he is not so repulsive, so if Xin Andong really has that meaning to Jiang Xuanzong, he must not immediately express his intentions.

After all, Jiang Xuanzong was not stupid that night, he didn't resist and obeyed, a normal man would not have that kind of reaction, unless he was gay himself, what other explanation was there?

Thinking about it like this, Xin Andong figured it out.

He sneered in his heart, Jiang Xuanzong actually played with him, should he say that he didn't directly pick it out and save him enough face? Could it be that he still wants to be grateful to Dade?

Xin Andong clenched his fists and faced Jiang Xuanzong with a cold face, he felt very uncomfortable being humiliated, he felt that this person was so hateful for the first time, and he was too blind to like him at the beginning.

"What is Brother Zong talking about, don't say this kind of misleading words in the future, let me say it straight, we didn't expect what happened that night, I was a little unwell that day, and I noticed that you had been tricked and wanted to help you, so I didn't push it away for a while," Speaking of this, the corners of his mouth were slightly hooked with mockery, and his voice was fluttering, "My sexual orientation is very normal, I want to come to Brother Zong, even if Zhenghao misunderstood, how can you be the same as him." ”

It's simple and straightforward, can you understand?!

Jiang Xuanzong's face suddenly became ugly, and he opened his mouth.

Ignoring his pale face, Xin Andong continued, his gaze circled around him, a little embarrassed, "Besides, Brother Zong, you are old, it is too ...... to think about this."

He stopped talking, but the meaning was clear.

But it was precisely because he expressed it so clearly, poking every sentence hard at the center, that Jiang Xuanzong felt embarrassed at this time, his face was blue and white, and his heart was embarrassed and painful.

Xin Andong said it too bluntly, he almost pointed his nose and scolded Jiang Xuanzong for being old and improper, and he was an old rascal.

Also, his cousin Zhenghao is as old as him, and his family background and personality are not bad, so he doesn't scoff at him the same, how can he treat an 'old man' like him differently because of a mistake, he is too self-righteous.

Quietly looking at Jiang Xuanzong's figure leaving in a hurry, Xin Andong's eyes were very astringent.

Those who dare to humiliate him must be prepared to be respected!

He hates it most in his life when others talk about his sexuality, homosexuality eats your rice? This is natural, he has no intention of hiding it, but this era is too harsh on people like him, he has to be cautious, Jiang Xuanzong's behavior makes him hateful, and once again hates himself for being blind at the beginning.