The bright moon outside the window does not illuminate the darkness in the room.

Megumi doesn't like the darkness without light, but instead of turning on the lights, she stands by the window and looks down.

She felt that there had to be an end.

The decline in the last exam was already unacceptable to her, but she believed that she could adjust her condition.

However, there is a clear gap between reality and imagination.

Occasionally, when she staggered by butterflies and small fishes, when her eyes met intentionally or unintentionally, Megumi seemed to see all the provocation and ridicule, and if there were other people next to her, she felt that those people's eyes were also full of ridicule.

seems to be laughing at her Huang Hui: the eldest sister in school is a poor woman who was robbed of her boyfriend by a butterfly. And the subtext is like saying that she Huang Hui is not as good as butterflies.

However, Megumi never compares himself to butterflies! The only attraction of butterflies is that they are lustful! In terms of personality, behavior, grades, figure, and appearance...... Well, she just has healthy skin, and the audience is not so wide!

Hui believes that Chen Wenjin is just using butterflies to fight with her, but sometimes she thinks, men are always thinking about those things, could it be that they are attracted by the shamelessness of butterflies?

However, Chen Wenjin shouldn't be that kind of person......

However, when it comes to that aspect, men should be the same, right?

Such entanglements and contradictions, as well as the reality that she can't be as calm and under pressure as expected, have kept Megumi in a state of entanglement and trouble.

When Megumi felt that the adjustment was almost over, the score of the second monthly exam fell, and she was hit hard again!

She obviously worked hard, but in the second monthly exam, she almost fell out of the top 50 in her grade!

Forty-ninth place - this seems to warn her that if she continues, she will not be able to be admitted to Pengzhong with her strength!

Immediately afterwards, Chen Wenjin appeared outside the school gate again, and when he came, he drove away directly with the butterfly, not knowing where he went.

Did they hide their eyes and go around and actually go on a date at a rental house?

Megumi couldn't help but think so, and she couldn't bear it anymore.

Things had to come to an end, and we couldn't continue to go on in this state of being out of her control.

If it goes on like this, even if Chen Wenjin was just using the butterfly fighting spirit, will he fall in love for a long time?

At that point, it was completely out of control.

Megumi couldn't wait any longer, so she did something she wouldn't have done and asked Ah Leopard for the key.

If Ah Bao doesn't give it, it means that Chen Wenjin is in the rental house, so she will also wait at the door.

Even if she doesn't give the key, she will still come and wait.

Because-Ah Bao will definitely call Chen Wenjin to talk about this matter.

Megumi doesn't know how long she'll have to wait, but tonight, even if she waits for a night, she'll keep waiting!

It was late at night.

The door opened, and the lights came on.

Butterfly spoke cheerfully and placed a bag of food and drink on the table.

Hui opened the door of the room and walked out, his eyes were full of confidence in ignoring butterflies, and he stared at Chen Wenjin's eyes tightly and said, "Let's talk alone." ”

Butterfly looked at Megumi and smiled, then took a bag of potato chips from the bag, opened it, sat on the sofa and ate it, and said, "Let's talk, I turned on the computer louder and couldn't hear it." ”

Hui was very surprised when he saw the butterfly take out the laptop, but he felt that it could not be a gift from Chen Wenjin.

Chen Wenjin entered the room, Hui closed the door tightly, locked it, walked to the window, looked out of the window, and asked him in a very sad tone: "What am I sorry for you?"

"I'm sorry that these four words are too heavy, and there are no ones at the moment. Chen Wenjin remembered that Hui was not sorry in principle.

"Even though I may have something to hide from you, there are reasons I think are necessary. Why did you treat me like this? I gave myself to you, and I still can't get you a little more tolerance and understanding? I know that you deliberately provoked me with butterflies, but I can't believe that you will deliberately hurt me like this! Since I am not sorry for you, why are you so cruel to me?" Megumi said, holding her body and sobbing.

Why?

Chen Wenjin can't explain it, did he tell her because he knew the future?

"As I said, all I want is the reason, the truth. As long as you are willing to make it clear, I will not appear in your school soon, and there will be no gossip that interferes with you, and I promise that there will be no change in your position as the eldest sister, and it will not disturb your studies. But you never say it, and you know my character, since you have decided to know the truth, the more you fight, the more I will continue to use means, because I have the right to know the truth! If you don't let go, I won't let go of yourself, and if you don't make it clear, you will continue to hurt each other. I've already said that, haven't you been able to get along for so long and still haven't gotten this level of trust from you?" Chen Wenjin felt that Hui came today, in fact, he was fully prepared, and those beggings just now were just the last temptation, if he could solve the problem because of this, of course Hui would not say.

Chen Wenjin wanted her to understand that there is only one way to solve the problem - that is, to make it clear!

"What's the use of what I said? You can't do what you promised!" Hui was just trying, and he didn't have much hope before he came, so it was so easy to ask Chen Wenjin to give up, Hui was very irritable and lifted his bangs, and said angrily: "Do you know, just because I believe in your feelings for me, and because I know you very well, I don't want to say it!" Because you know that you won't agree to let go at all, but will only force me to stick with you more recklessly than now!" You have no way of understanding my feelings because of your own relationship with your parents! You only have love in your eyes, and you feel that you can pay any price for love!"

"Since you are here, since everything has come to this point, what is there to hide? Even if you don't say it, the development will still be just as bad, and you might as well believe that it will be better to say it. Even if you don't believe anything else, at least trust me to make sure that I can make sure that this semester is over. Chen Wenjin couldn't explain that he was not the same person he was in the past, so he could only grasp this key point to crush Hui's last hesitation, which she should definitely believe, otherwise, she would not have prepared the set of statements that agreed to meet again after the exam.

Megumi bit her lip and thought, but didn't think for long, suddenly pushed the window open, then turned around, looked at him with teary eyes and said, "Okay, I can say." But your own promise must be fulfilled, if you can't do it, I'll jump down from here! Don't think I'm scaring you, I've sworn that I must rely on my strength to be admitted to Pengzhong, if I can't do it, it means that I am not as good as I think, and it means that I am destined to have a life of failure! If you can't do your guarantee, I can't be admitted to Pengzhong, it's better to jump off and get a hundred. You think clearly, and then promise me if you can do it!"

"Actually, even if I promise again, you still can't believe it, right?" Chen Wenjin looked at Hui like this, and suddenly regained a lot of memories of her...... It seems that at this moment, his memory has also returned to the same as when he was a teenager, Megumi's personality, the details of the daily conversation, all become clearer, and even the contents of the diary they exchange regularly, can remember many, even all the important details.

This felt amazing, Chen Wenjin was a little skeptical, could it be the influence of the power of alien technology? He had tried to autosuggest, but he couldn't remember any details of the past that had been blurred.

“...... Yes, because I know you're self-destructive, and you're willing to dance with me. Megumi said, smiling miserably. "You see, you know me, and I know you. I am your first love, and you are also my first love. You say I believe in your feelings so much, how can I believe that you can fulfill those promises?"

"But I don't know you well enough, and maybe you don't know me now. Chen Wenjin is telling the truth, but it is impossible for Hui to understand what he is referring to, because what he is in front of him is not at all the same as when he was a teenager.

Chen Wenjin admitted that he might have been as Hui said back then.

Back then, it may be that Megumi's understanding of him far exceeded his understanding of Megumi.

Because the teenager who is in an extreme state of mind is destined to not be able to see more truth.

"It doesn't matter, it will only get worse anyway. As if she had lost her strength, Megumi sat on the edge of the bed, looked at the floor, and said, "First of all, I haven't changed my mind to like others. ”

This doesn't need to be explained, your moral level doesn't allow you to do that. Chen Wenjin never doubted this.

"I told my sister-in-law about you. My sister-in-law scolded me for being confused and told my dad. You're sure to hate my sister-in-law, but I know she's doing it for my good. Hui looked at Chen Wenjin and clearly wanted to listen to what he had to say.

"Actually, I don't like it, and I don't want to be angry with others. Your sister-in-law's position will definitely do this, and you should do this, how can adults believe in the feelings of teenagers and girls? They are people from the past, and naturally regard this as the self-righteousness of youth and ignorance. Their position, your studies, and whether you will suffer irreversible damage as a result must be at the top of your mind. And feelings, they believe that time can heal, because they have also come through that. Chen Wenjin knew that Hui was worried that he would retaliate against her sister-in-law because of anger, so he tried to express it as completely as possible.

"Do you really think so?" Megumi was a little surprised.

"I really think so. Chen Wenjin affirmed again.

"I didn't expect you to think like that......" Megumi said, her mood visibly calmer. "Perhaps, I don't know you well enough. But you don't know my dad. He was very demanding of me, good to me and me. You know, our side is patriarchal, and there are no boys who inherit the incense and can't hold their heads up. I was under a lot of pressure as the eldest daughter, and my dad didn't allow me to just be a vase in the future, because my mother, who was my biological mother, couldn't have any more children. They will get divorced, in fact, my mom is sorry for my dad, and I don't want to say this to anyone, because I don't want to ruin my mother's image, and I don't want to be sympathized with, but that's the way it is. My dad was busy for a few years and came home less, and my mom cheated. So I didn't choose to follow her when I got divorced, I think it was her who was at fault. She betrayed the family, she needs to be another man instead of our father and daughter, then I have no reason to live with her. ”

Chen Wenjin actually roughly understood, but he still listened silently.

"Later, my dad remarried and had a younger brother. Do you know how I feel? I always thought that in the future I was going to be very good, better than many boys, so that those people couldn't laugh at my dad for not having a son. But suddenly, my dad remarried and had a son. So what is the meaning of my daughter? In the future, the family will probably be for my younger brother, and it would be good for my father to keep a little for me...... Actually, what I care about is not how to divide the family property! Not really, at least now and in the past, I didn't care about the family property the most. Be...... It's the goals for the future that I've been planning, and my place in my dad's mind, and all of a sudden it's completely changed, you know, it's a drastic change!" Megumi said, her arms swinging involuntarily, lifting, lowering, and lifting, with a look of anxiety that was trying to describe that state.

"That's it—a sea change! Suddenly I don't know what the value of my existence is, my dad has a younger brother, and I don't need to do anything at all, so should I be a good daughter? It seems like that, but I am not reconciled and sad...... This state of affairs has continued. By the time we met, I was like that. You suddenly appeared that day, gave me a note with a pager number, said with a very cold expression: 'Call me,' and left. I hesitated for a long time, but finally I couldn't resist calling you. It's amazing...... "Megumi hadn't said how she felt when she met before, and when she talked about it, she always said that she just had the idea of making friends at first, and she didn't think about it that much.

"I think when two strangers first meet, having a close affection for each other means that it is quite a good fit. So being willing to contact me means that you have a lot of favorability. Chen Wenjin knew that she was embarrassed to say what she really thought, and she didn't ask in the past, in fact, in that case, Hui obviously knew that the message he was sending was not what ordinary friends meant.

“-->>

So later, your attitude was also very direct, and I was forced to make a choice by you when I wanted to know a little more...... In fact, I have been forced to make a choice by you until now, your personality is too tough, and you don't accept other people's arrangements at all. Hui said, and felt that the topic was far away, and now it was not two people who were reminiscing about the past and falling in love, so he took a deep breath and pulled back to the topic: "I think I was in a period of confusion at that time, and your appearance was like a sudden light in a gray world, although it was the color of black, red, black and red. ”

"Why black and red?" Chen Wenjin was a little surprised, in Hui's mind, it was actually such a color?

"Your thoughts tend to be dark, but your feelings are like fire, not black and red? You don't know, when we were together for half a year, if you didn't laugh, I would feel cold and couldn't laugh, and then you slowly became less cold, just indifferent, not indifferent, I felt a lot more relaxed. ”

"That's because of you. Chen Wenjin was telling the truth, and Hui's love back then also warmed his heart.

“...... Actually, I'm also very selfish. When I was always confused, I took you as my inner sustenance and hope. Before the Chinese New Year, my dad was drunk, and he went home very uncomfortable and talked about the grievances and pain of his entertainment, saying that his satisfaction was that I studied well, and I would definitely be able to get ahead in the future, and I didn't have to live with dignity like him. Hui said this, paused, her eyes involuntarily burst into tears, and they flowed uncontrollably, she didn't wipe it, Chen Wenjin handed over the paper, she just continued, even if the tears flowed to the corners of her mouth, she didn't wipe it, as if she needed the bitterness of tears to suppress the churning emotions.

After a while, Hui Cai opened his mouth and continued: "At that moment, I knew that I was not superfluous. My dad didn't care about me just because he had a younger brother, he still wanted me to be promising, he wanted me to be better than him! When I realized this, I felt very sad and felt very sorry for him! He worked so hard to earn money to support his family, and he always trusted me and expected me, but what about me?

After Chen Wenjin remembered this, Hui suddenly put forward a request that he could take the exam together, and it was obvious that this was a direct connection.

"I don't think I can go on like that. So I really want you to take the Pengzhong exam together, if our relationship is to be long-lasting, we must consider the future, if you don't go to a good school, the chance of going to a good university is smaller, and the possibility of a good way out is lower. This is an obvious thing!" Hui said this, looking at Chen Wenjin, his tone full of reproach and helplessness. "But you're still like that, even for my sake, you won't change your decision. I know I can't persuade you, I can only think that I will work hard, as long as my grades are good, even if I am in early love, I can live up to my father's expectations and trust!"

Chen Wenjin listened and knew that Hui talked about it so much, it must be directly related to the New Year, because he had generally understood.

It's just that Chen Wenjin has to admit that if it was him back then, even if he understood, he would not approve of it. Megumi doesn't tell him the truth, and really, really understands her concerns.

"After my sister-in-law told my dad about us, I realized that I was wrong. I saw him sad, angry, and even desperate, just like when my mother betrayed him! Do you know how scared I was at the time? When my mother made a mistake, my father didn't say a single superfluous word, just two words: divorce! No matter how my mother cried and knelt down to admit her mistake, he ignored it. I'm afraid of being completely given up by him, I think it's my own fault, it's indeed my fault! I say this you definitely can't understand it, you don't have a good relationship with your parents, you don't care so much about their feelings at all, but I'm different, in my heart, my dad's feelings come first! The second is my mother!" Megumi said this, relieved her emotions for a while, and then continued: " For you, you will definitely be angry I think so, because you think that love comes first, and parents can't stop it, and whoever stops it should not hesitate to stick to it and break through all obstacles. ”

"You don't have to worry, I understand your thoughts. Chen Wenjin understands now, but he also feels that he would be angry at the decision to give up love so decisively because of her father. Yes, he would have been angry if he knew the truth, and he would have thought that it was a sign of not loving enough.

"Really understand?" Megumi found it hard to believe, because it subverted her understanding of Chen Wenjin.

"I don't have an experience, but I understand your thoughts. Chen Wenjin's attitude made Hui's mood obviously more relaxed, which was diametrically opposed to the despair at the beginning.

"I was very afraid that my dad would give up on me, and he said at the time that he really wanted to leave me alone, that he really wanted me to live with my mom and never appear in front of him again. Megumi thought back to the scene at that time, and still felt sad, in that case, it would hit her very hard and hurt her deeply, but she felt that she was at fault, and she couldn't blame her father, she could only hate herself.

But my dad went on to say that he couldn't just give up on me. Then he took me out and asked a group of people to bring over a handsome man with long yellow hair. My dad told me that if I just like to play with men, he can accept it, as long as I don't think it's dirty to do that, he can put up with it. But if I don't know how to cherish my future, he can't accept it. Then he told the men to break the legs and arms of the yellow-haired man, and made people dig holes, and he yelled at me, 'This is a thug! Handsome, handsome, mighty, it's useless! Because in the world they are nothing but tools controlled by others.'" My dad said that the man had done nothing wrong, that he had been doing things for him, and that he could break his leg or even bury him just because he wanted to tell me that! ’”

Chen Wenjin was also convinced, Hui's father's methods were ruthless enough, and the example of teaching his daughter was more impactful than how many truths combined.

"Later, my dad took stacks of money to the injured man, saying that he had wronged him for the sake of his goddaughter, and the money was compensation, and asked the man if he hated him. When the man saw the money, he hurriedly said that he didn't hate, he didn't hate, and said that it was okay for the boss to let him die, and it was nothing to hurt him. When Hui said this, his eyes were still full of unbearability, and he clearly remembered the tragic situation of that person. "After the man was taken to the hospital, my dad said to me: If I put my future on the gangsters, I will have a husband like that in the future. A man who has broken his legs and feet, who is obviously resentful but can't say it, and who has to show his loyalty with a smiling face, lest he lose his job in the future! My dad was in the car, and his red eyes told me that he made money the same, and he also relied on people with more status to eat, and he had to laugh with him when he was entertained, and even if he was drunk and scolded for being a sycophant and a dog, he had to grit his teeth and laugh. My dad asked me if I wanted to live like that, and he asked me how I wanted to live."

Hui smiled, but her eyes were full of tears, she looked at Chen Wenjin and said, "I thought about it for a few days, of course I don't want to live like that." My dad knew that I was in love, and he didn't give up on me, and he was desperate to save me, how could I give up on myself? My future has not changed, I still have to try to be as good as possible, and I want to live well, that is my father's pride, and it is a way to be worthy of his nurturing grace. I know you're not like the guy my dad told him to beat, you're not like that. But I also know that you don't want to pursue a very positive future, you just want to live as freely as possible, without being interfered with by others, and without interfering with others, do what you want to do, and be satisfied with the people you love by your side, and you can be satisfied for a long time!

"It's not the future you're after. Chen Wenjin said the rest of the words for her, Hui smiled, nodded and repeated it over and over again: "Yes, this is not the future I want." ”

"But you can't say that you will cut it completely, you need time. Chen Wenjin continued, his tone was very calm, because it was completely understandable.

He and Megumi are both seriously in love, at that time, who could say that they would immediately pull out and clean their feelings when they made a decision? It will definitely take time, and they will even be shaken and repeated countless times.

"I'm too selfish, I admit it! I know I can't let go so quickly, but I'm actually determined to let go no matter how long it takes, but I don't dare to tell you the truth, because I don't think you can accept it, it's going to be out of control, it's extreme, and I'm even worried about whether you'll take me with you to commit suicide. At this point, Megumi sighed and said, "It turns out that I may not know you well enough, and your reaction is not as good as I feared." If I had known that was the case, I would have told you this on Valentine's Day. But...... Frankly speaking, I don't say it, I also have selfish worries, after all, to let you understand my feelings, you need to say too much about privacy that I didn't want to talk about, if you break up, you spread the word, what should I do? If I break up, you let people harass me at school, or even hurt me, what should I do? What if I break up, and those people in the school who don't like me in my heart are not good for me?...... In short, it was actually me who was selfish, and I had too many worries and concerns. ”

"These are just very reasonable selfishness, and I am the same if I want to be selfish, even if you make my thoughts clear to me, I can't change my pursuit for the sake of your dreams. Chen Wenjin looked at Hui and saw the stunned look on her face. "So, I accept the breakup. And promised, on the day of the end of the exam, I will pick you up and have dinner together. During this period...... I came four more times and the stay would be short as there was another appointment involved. That's all we have to say, and I won't tell anyone why. As for the rest – if there's anything I need to do to help you clear your mind, feel free to say so. ”

"Give me two bottles of perfume, fake ones are fine, I want to save face, I don't want to be said that I was robbed of my boyfriend's heart by butterflies, and I can't accept it if I lose to butterflies, and I can't afford to lose this face." Moreover, it is necessary for me to care about my own image. Hui's request was very straightforward, and Chen Wenjin couldn't help but smile and said: "Send it over tomorrow afternoon, outside the school gate, send it really, it can't just be perfume." ”

"Is it a laptop?" Megumi remembered.

"If you like it, no problem, the treatment of a girlfriend should be two. Chen Wenjin didn't hesitate, Hui couldn't help biting his lip and said, "Are you willing to do it now?"

"Why don't you be reluctant to love each other for so long? Besides, it takes time to let go of you, just as it takes time for you to let go of me. After Chen Wenjin finished speaking, Hui suddenly cried and threw herself into his arms, hugged him, gritted her teeth, but she still cried, but she tried her best to suppress and did not allow the cry to explode unscrupulously.

Chen Wenjin patted her on the back and whispered, "It's normal to take time to deal with feelings, but it's okay, our decisions are all right, because the pursuit is different." But it's not a mistake to love seriously, so you will know each other's pursuits. The memories left to each other are beautiful, and what gives us in the future is the motivation to move forward positively. Why are you crying? You can't stand it if you don't lose it, do you? That's not clever. ”

"I don't know, I don't know-" Hui buried his head in Chen Wenjin's shoulder, trying his best to fight his emotions, and said intermittently: "Actually, I've been preparing to let go, but I don't know how long it will take to completely let go of you." But I was determined to let you go...... Will you change your mind and take the exam together? Then we don't have to break up, there are facts that prove that you are a person who is good at studying and has a bright future, as long as you don't delay studying, I will have the courage to say to my father: I am still in love, but we will have a good future!"

"Let's come to life, if we meet in the next life, I change my personality and I will change my mind. Chen Wenjin felt a sharp pain in his shoulder, Hui would have bitten, but very rarely, and now he was clearly ruthless.

"You are ruthless, don't blame me for being ruthless!" Hui continued to bite for a while before relenting, staring at Chen Wenjin with teary eyes, the look in his eyes, and the expression on his face, clearly revealed her intentions. "I'm not leaving tonight, the last time, right? Don't you forget, I loved you seriously, and all the first times were given to you......"

Red and red rubbed against each other......

Damp heat and damp heat are repeatedly entangled......

Touching and touching are as closely connected as possible......

So there were bursts of long wind groans, and they were inseparable again and again......

The old rusty bed frame creaked, sometimes fast and sometimes slow, and finally became a continuous and rapid speed, fast and loud, as if it would fall apart at any moment......

The cold wind came through the window from the outside.

But the people who were not half covered by the quilt did not feel cold at all.

Sweating profusely after exercise, as well as relieved breathing, made the whole room warm.

It is difficult for young love to run through a lifetime, a beautiful acquaintance and love, and a memory that feels sweet, then it should be rejoiced and rejoiced.

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Considering that today's content is divided into two chapters that will affect the feeling of the plot, today's two chapters are combined into a large chapter of more than 7,000 words.