My mother smiled bitterly and told me personally, "See? I don't have any skills, and men can't be trusted." ”

She said this with a slight bitterness, but I knew that she was really, really bitter in her heart.

I hesitated for a moment, then comforted her and said, "Okay, Mom, we'll rely on ourselves in the future." ”

My mom was startled, looked at me with a more complicated look in her eyes, and nodded.

The two of us dragged things for I don't know how long, and our feet were about to grind out foam, and finally we found a small hotel and stayed for one night.

After putting down our things, we were both tired, and after a brief wash, we lay down on the bed, relatively silent.

My mom was soon tired and fell asleep, and I stared at my mom's sleeping face in a daze, and found that at some point, wrinkles had crept up the corners of my mom's eyes, and a trace of gorgeous hair had grown on her sideburns.

I couldn't help but tremble in my heart, I wondered where we should live in the future, what should we do? First of all, we have to find a place to live, but we are now orphans and widows, who is willing to take us?

At that time, I thought about a lot of things, but I didn't think of the most direct question.

The next day, I followed my mother to find a place to stay, and I repeatedly ran into a wall, and those people showed disgusted expressions when they saw us carrying large bags and small bags and ugly clothes.

Not only that, but the hotels we were looking for were too expensive for some to live in.

My mom and I spent a little of our savings on housing, so our expenses were too great.

At noon, we sat on the ground, still carrying large bags of luggage, and we couldn't walk, so we squatted down and sat down, eating a bowl of cold skin for a few yuan.

That's when I realized how hungry I was.

After a few bites, my mother gave it to me, as if to say to me and to herself: "Juanzi, it's not a matter for us to keep looking for it." I can't find a basement and I don't have a suitable place to rent, what should I do?"

I was also thinking about how I could find a place to live.

Now that we have no friends or family, and no one wants to rent us a house, how can we have a house to live in?

If someone has a house for us to rent, that's fine......

Unused house...... At this time, I suddenly had an idea, and it seemed that there really was such a house.

So I cheered up and said to my mother with some joy: "Mom, we can live in Chen Xi's house temporarily, and I have the key to her house." ”

My mother realized that this was also an opportunity, thought for a moment and said, "Alas, that's the only way, you can finish the cold skin." ”

Originally, when my mother handed it to me, I was still distressed that my mother didn't want to snatch her food, but now because my heart has settled, I am in good spirits, and I have eaten the cold skin in three times and five by two.

I think when I get to Chen Xi's house, there will be a new beginning.

So our mother and daughter dragged our things to Chen Xi's house together, and when I opened the door, I felt a sigh in my heart, because we hadn't stepped into Chen Xi's house for a long time.

I never imagined that I would still have such a strong connection with her.

Some guilt welled up in my heart, and I said to Chen Xi and my grandmother in my heart: "Chen Xi, grandma, I'm back." ”

Looking at these, my mother also felt a little emotional.

I don't know what came to mind, maybe I was fascinated by the sun, and my mother wiped her eyes.

My mother and I cleaned up the dusty areas briefly, and then walked into Chen Xi's house with our things.

The two of us stayed at Chen Xi's house temporarily.

When our neighbor Aunt Du found out that we were coming, she knew that we were currently in a fixed place, so she wiped away a handful of tears and brought us her extra pots and pans, and gave us some vegetables by the way.

My mom and I were a little flattered, thanked me and accepted it.

Looking at the room with brooms and baskets, and some pots and pans, I was a little discerning, and it seemed that in an instant, I could see Chen Xi talking to me inside, or my grandmother's figure appearing in front of my eyes.

In such an environment, it seems that the clouds have passed for the time being, and I can only think of the warm appearance of my grandmother and Chen Xi.

From time to time, I would be in a daze, thinking about what Chen Xi and Grandma would say when they sat in this room.

Sometimes I even have some auditory hallucinations, and I hear Chen Xi or my grandmother calling me.

Living like this, sometimes I don't even know if I've cut vegetables.

When my mother saw it, she just sighed and said, "It's really hard for you." ”

In the days that followed, every day when I came home from school, I saw my mother dressed in a very revealing way, dressed like a street lady.

She was wearing brightly colored clothes and lipstick, and she didn't know what she was doing.

I couldn't help but feel a little frightened in my heart, could it be that my mother went out to pick up the guests? Or ......?

Strangeness rose up in my heart and slowly accumulated.

One night at dinner, my mother made me Coke chicken wings, but I didn't have the heart to eat them.

After a few bites, I suddenly stopped my chopsticks and spoke, breaking the silence that our mother and daughter had been talking about.

I lowered my head and said, "Mom, I don't want you to be so tired, and I don't want you to ......."

At this time, my mother interrupted me and said, "Last time I went back to the village to get some money, I have been looking at the store for the past two days. You go to school and don't think about what you don't have. ”

When I heard this, I could only say "oh".

My mom seemed to frown at me for a long time, and just when I couldn't hold it anymore, there was suddenly an extra chicken wing in my bowl.

"Eat more, you need to use your brain to read. ”

When I heard this, my teeth slammed on the chopsticks, and I held back my tears and picked up the Coke chicken wings and ate them slowly, but this time the Coke chicken wings seemed to have a little more bitterness.

That night I had insomnia, and I lay alone in bed thinking and never fell asleep.

I wondered what my mom was doing, and if she had made a big sacrifice for my schooling?

But because of her expectations, I couldn't stop going to school.

Going to school seems to be the only way to solve the current problem.

But I can't be an elementary school in an ivory tower, and I still have to think about the firewood, rice, oil and salt of life.

I decided that I could only save some of my daily expenses and stop letting my mom worry about me.

Thinking about it, my thoughts couldn't help but drift to Zheng Xinguang again.

I missed him very strongly, I felt sorry for him, and I wondered what kind of solution he would have if he knew about my current situation.

What is he doing outside now, will he also be in trouble?

But thinking about it, I can't help but sigh, the mud bodhisattva crossing the river is difficult to protect himself, and he is still in the mood to think about his affairs.