I just finished math class, and my brain is still recalling complicated and cumbersome mathematical formulas and application problems, which is really annoying and boring, and it takes me a long time to react to even the simplest addition and subtraction.

After the math class, there is the Chinese class, and the two classes of reasoning are really not a good arrangement together, and they are just swimming in rational thoughts, and in the blink of an eye, they are forced to pick up by the bell to learn to fly in the perceptual sky.

Chinese classes were as boring as ever. I really didn't have much interest in what the teacher said, and part of the reason was that the teacher had changed, and due to the change in appearance and image, it was difficult to adjust and adapt.

It's like a bowl of fully cooked beef that has been stewed, and you are halfway through it, and someone tells you that I will take the other half first, and I will give you a piece of chicken, and you can see if it will work.

Damn, of course I refuse, you bring me a piece of chicken while eating beef properly, is this the legendary nutritional mix to be balanced? Then why am I so lonely, and there is no girl to be a companion for me?

Yes, is it useful for you to refuse? Some things are coercive and you can't tolerate the slightest dissatisfaction and resistance, and there are some things that the world doesn't give you even if you want them? It's cruel and ironic.

Okay, for the time being, I'll swallow my anger for the time being, the Chinese teacher is not beef, she is a living person, she also has emotions and thoughts, but she is also governed by a so-called rule and let it go.

The class went on for a while, the atmosphere was very depressing, the teacher introduced a series of characters about the hundred schools of thought, and when he started to ask questions, the atmosphere was more like being suppressed by a huge mountain, almost everyone lowered their heads and bent over, silent, and did not dare to look ahead.

Yes, I was the same, but although I was a little apprehensive, I was still trying to read and savor the novels and poems in the textbook, and I was enjoying the realm that the author had brought me between the lines, and I had no interest in what the teacher was saying, so I couldn't stand up and answer.

This is also based on one of the most critical reasons, I am introverted, depressed, I don't like to speak loudly or quietly in front of everyone in public, if you want to force me to say, I'm sorry, I won't give you face, before that, you have violated my right to be silent, this is a small person's desire, but also a kind of self-protection of the introverted, so I don't need to answer you.

This is indeed very selfish, I am very embarrassed, and the teacher is also embarrassed, since everyone is unhappy, why don't you take care of yourself?

Finally, both classes went smoothly, I hesitated for a while, and waited until most of the people walked out of the classroom before I was ready to leave, at this time, I paid special attention to the teacher's expression.

It's hard to describe that look, maybe it's helplessness, indignation, or sadness? At that time, I suddenly felt a little sympathetic to the teacher.

She didn't make any mistakes and taught her students in her own way, but many students ignored them, and from her point of view, she had reason to be angry, sad and helpless.

I suddenly felt a sense of guilt, I was the class representative of last semester, and if nothing else, if there was no re-election, I should still be.

But I didn't take the lead as a class representative.

In my eyes, this kind of strong sense of responsibility makes me very uncomfortable, after all, I really don't know much about the things that the teacher asked, some people say exercise, but I don't want to exercise, I think it's good now.

I don't like to be eye-catching, it will make me very embarrassed, overwhelmed and even blush, to make an analogy, I feel like I have become someone in the ** criticism meeting, now I haven't made a mistake, people haven't criticized anything, but I just have a feeling of being embarrassed and want to find a crack in the ground to get into - you have developed a fear of something, like people don't beat or scold you, look at you, you will also reveal terrifying despair.

In the end, education is still to blame for the students' reaction.

The so-called education is a compulsory inculcation of knowledge, and even today, no one dares to pat their chests with 100% confidence and certainty and say, "Success, very success, every student who is educated is a pillar of the country", right?

Forced indoctrination mostly means two extreme outcomes: either it is achieved overnight or it falls into the sky.

Interested students will naturally study hard, and the teacher is definitely the first to stand up when he asks a question, his eyes flashing with a hot light on the answer, and his tone is full and vivid, full of vitality.

For students who are not interested, it is the same scenario as I just described.

What's the problem? The problem is in elementary school, junior high school, high school.

Since elementary school, there has been no focus on cultivating students' interest and love for learning, which is not useful for teachers to verbally say that you have to love learning and study well to get a good job, in fact, this is more like a kind of coercion, and it will cause students to be disgusted with learning.

If everyone is full of enthusiasm for learning, and the fundamental purpose of going to college is not for those so-called certificates, but really wants to learn some knowledge to fill their brains, then it is impossible to have the kind of scene where the teacher asks more than a dozen times and is still silent.

The fault is not with the students, not with the teachers, but with the education.

Anyone who has one of these two identities is bound by modern education.

Activities are mandatory to attend, homework is mandatory to complete, and rules are mandatory to follow...... Each one is full of harshness and strictness, which firmly sets the passion of the students.

This is not to say that it is wrong to set up such a mandatory thing, but we should understand a truth: there must be a line in everything.

I was also a victim of school violence, teachers and parents took care of it, but it still didn't work, because education didn't manage it.

A good education, a truly successful education, is unlikely to have incidents of violence in schools, the intervention of teachers and parents, these are only palliative solutions.

I really hope that one day in the future, students will not be troubled by studying, stressed by too much homework, and depressed by some kind of challenging task.

Every day is sunny, every day is rainy, there is no need for any etiquette, no need for any requirements, students can take the initiative to pick up the garbage when they see it, and they can say hello when they meet the teacher, these are all from the heart, without the slightest concealment of falsehood, just like a natural instinct.

This vision, in addition to telling people with a heart, as an ordinary person, I seem to have a heart but are powerless to change, and it is still far from us......

March 3, 2017 diary