"Director Chen, I really can't drink it. "Despite my pleading, Director Chen was indifferent.

"Why, just when there is a bit of a fire, you won't give Director Chen face? Don't forget, we spent millions of promotion fees to accumulate so many fans. ”

Director Chen looked indifferent, I stiffened, drank it, my body trembled, and I hurriedly ran into the bathroom of the box.

"Hmm..." I held the sink with one hand, and vomited out the brain I had just eaten and drunk, and looked at myself in the mirror with red eyes, haggard and embarrassed, and tears overflowed uncontrollably.

Is this really the life I want? If I had agreed to his marriage proposal, would I be living a plain and comfortable life now? Of course, there is no word regret in the dictionary of life, this is the path I chose, and I have to finish it on my knees.

My name is Li Juan, and now I am a well-known anchor on Douyin, although the number of fans is increasing every day, I can't be happy, I feel that I have no direction.

In 1998, I was born in a small village on the edge of the Yangtze River, when a major flood swept away my father, leaving me and my mother, orphans and widows, to live like this.

Although there was no breadwinner in the family, my mother quickly came out of her grief and did odd jobs and knitting at the same time.

Such a plain life like water, until one day there is a change...

On that day, there were leaders of the school who came to inspect the school, and there were more than 70 people in our class, and some of them had to leave school early, and I was one of them.

I hummed and chirped all the way, and picked two gardenias, ready to give them to my mother, but when I got to the door, I found that the door was hidden, and without hesitation, I pushed the door open.

"Mom, I'll go back..."

Before I finished speaking, I was stunned, a naked man turned his back to me, and I saw two white and slender legs, clamping his waist, it was my mother, originally she was applying with a comfortable face, hearing my voice, her body stiffened obviously, and then frowned.

At that time, I was still young, and I didn't understand anything, and I wondered what these two of them were doing in the daytime, doing sports, and they seemed to be very happy.

My mom was just about to sit up when the man held her down, glanced at me, smiled indescribably, and started moving again.

My mom glared at me fiercely, and immediately I knew that I had made a mistake, and hurried outside the door, and I was a little overwhelmed when I heard the sound of chirping and rattling inside.

Coincidentally, Aunt Zhao from the neighbor's house passed by, "Xiaojuan, didn't you go to school today?"

I explained, and Aunt Zhao was a little surprised and walked a few steps towards me.

"What's the matter, your mother isn't here..."Before I could finish speaking, the door creaked, and a short and fat figure walked out of my house.

"Village Chief Guo. Aunt Zhao was startled and hurriedly said hello, with the embarrassment on her face that could not be concealed.

Village Chief Guo just snorted coldly, ignored Aunt Zhao, and then walked up to me and pinched my face.

"The little girl is very clever, she can go to the city to study, and she can be regarded as the face of our village chief. Village Chief Guo said with a hippie smile.

"Hey. After a while, Aunt Zhao sighed lightly and said to me in a serious tone, "Xiaojuan, study hard, don't let your mother's efforts go to waste." ”

To be honest, I didn't understand it, isn't it my obligation to study hard? Why is Aunt Zhao's eyes so complicated when she looks at me?

Soon, my mom put on her clothes and dragged me into the house.

"Smack. She didn't say a word, she raised her hand and gave me a slap.

"Hmm?" I was stunned, one moment I was praised, the next moment I was slapped.

"Kneel!" my mother scolded, and the appearance of thunder and anger frightened me, and my legs went limp, and I threw myself on the ground.

She reached out and twisted my ear.

"Who told you to skip class and come back early?

"Mom, I didn't skip class, the leader came to our school to inspect, there are more than 70 people in our class, and there are more than 20 who leave school early, if you don't believe it, you can go to the school and ask the teacher 1" Although the hot pain on my face does not prevent me from arguing with reason, because I don't feel that I have done anything wrong.

"Huh?" my mom stared at me for a few seconds before she let go.

"Whew. My tears of grievance flowed down my breath, and I quickly turned my head away, for fear that my mother would see it and be beaten again.

Seeing this scene, my mother suddenly hugged me tightly and began to cry.

"I'm sorry, Juanzi, it's my mother's fault, you said, what kind of sin did our mother and daughter do in their previous lives, why are their lives so bitter. ”

"Juanzi, promise Mom, study hard, you must get ahead, Mom fell into the trap of that disgusting man so that you could go to junior high school in the city. ”

Although I was still young, as soon as she said this, I understood that my mother was forced to do sports for me, and she didn't do it willingly.

There is such a thing as sports, there is a first time, a second time, a third time... In the next period of time, the village chief Guo came to my house again and again, and at first he would bring some eggs, ribs, fruits or something, I was quite happy, because I was growing up at that time, and I could smell the aroma of meat cooked by other people's houses, and I could stay at the door for a few seconds.

But then he came empty-handed, and went away happily, without anything to eat or drink, but I couldn't say anything.

After the flood that year, many villagers returned to the pre-liberation period overnight, but the village chief was very rich, and although he was stumbling, he was dressed very decently.

I can feel that the vast majority of villagers don't like the village chief, because my mother has a relationship with the village chief, the way they look at me is also revealing contempt, especially after the news of my admission to the key school in the city spreads, this behavior has become pointing fingers in person.

Even my classmates scolded me for being a wild seed, saying that my mother was a pheasant with a clear price, and even when the child went to junior high school, he had to sleep with the village chief.

With my academic performance, I actually have a great chance of being directly admitted to a key middle school, and this guaranteed admission can be said to be the icing on the cake, of course, I also understood later that if the village chief doesn't want me to enter a key middle school, even if I get full marks in all subjects, it will be in vain...

One day, my classmates were blatantly abusive, I directly tore my face with them, got into a fight, and when I came home, I saw that I was covered in injuries, and my mother not only comforted me, but also slapped me.

She said, what people say is their freedom, just ignore it, as long as I can get into a key middle school, these are nothing.

I was so embarrassed that I was poked in the back, and I had to pretend to be deaf and dumb?

In fact, I really want to refute that the backbone of being a human being is gone, and I can do the same when I enter a key middle school, but I don't have the courage.

Because of this, I was originally lively and cheerful, but I became withdrawn and introverted, and I didn't want to have too much interaction with people.

For the first time, I understood the true meaning of a street rat and looked forward to graduating so I could leave this place...

I remember that in the days before leaving, the village chief almost lived in my house, and I did sports with my mother day and night, so I nested in the room, and I didn't dare to go out without shouting, in case I met the village chief naked, how embarrassing it was.

In this way, my mother and I came to the county seat, probably staying in the countryside for a long time, compared to the endless rice fields in the village, I prefer the city of high-rise buildings, I feel that everything is new, and there is no cold eyes and abuse from others, which may be a major factor in my later fall into the abyss......

I quickly adapted to life in the city, and my academic performance has been improving, I have to say that a good education is indeed a milestone in the progress of human civilization, and I gradually understand why my mother must let me enter a key middle school.

And her life has also become colorful, going to the supermarket to sell fruits during the day, playing cards with card friends at night, and every time she wins, she will bring me KFC or barbecue.

During that time, I reaped the joy that I had rarely experienced in my life.

This peaceful and beautiful day was broken by a man, I called him Uncle Zheng, he was my mother's card buddy, and one night, they tiptoed home.

I vaguely heard what Uncle Zheng said, the 10,000 yuan doesn't have to be returned, I am sincere to you and something like that.

Then the bed board began to rattle, and it didn't take long for my mother and I to move to Uncle Zheng's house, and in my mother's words, with a man to rely on, my waist was straight.

Uncle Zheng also has a son named Zheng Xinguang, who is three years older than me, but his house is a three-bedroom and two-bathroom house, so he doesn't feel crowded to live in.