Chapter 105: Yan Bin's Secret
The place that Ji Hangcheng doesn't want to set foot in now is his home, and since Ji Xiaofan's identity was revealed, he has almost never returned to the Air Force Sanatorium villa.
There was a breath of anger and complaints against Ji Shengnian in his heart, but today he had to go back, because he was about to register his marriage with Yan Ziqi, which made him have to intersect with Ji Shengnian.
"It's here. ”
Ji Hangcheng unbuckled his seat belt and looked sideways at Yan Ziqi in the passenger seat.
Today they were called back here for dinner by Ji Shengnian.
“...”
Yan Ziqi's face was full of unwillingness, she was taking revenge on Ji Hangcheng, but she really didn't want to involve more people.
Dong Li's sincere treatment made Yan Ziqi feel a dilemma.
"Ji Hangcheng, can I not go?"
Yan Ziqi was grinding and chirping, and the seat belt on his body was still tied.
"Hold on, I don't want to come either, if it weren't for my mother's face..."
"Forget it, it's useless to talk so much now, it's all here, just deal with it and leave. ”
Ji Hangcheng said and loosened Yan Ziqi's seat belt.
The two got out of the car, a black BMW was driving towards them, and the car stopped Ji Xiaofan walked down from it, carrying two Hermes bags in his hands.
"Brother, sister. ”
Ji Xiaofan walked towards Ji Hangcheng and Yan Ziqi with a smile on his face, "What a coincidence, was my brother also called back by my father for dinner today?"
Ji Xiaofan's well-behaved mask is deeply liked by many people, his sweet mouth and coaxing people are deeply liked by many people, and many people have defected to him in the Ji family.
Ji Hangcheng's cold eyes full of contempt and disdain glanced at Ji Xiaofan lightly, pulled his lips and wanted to say something, but he still endured it.
"Let's go. ”
As soon as Ji Hangcheng's hand was on Yan Ziqi's waist, Ji Xiaofan behind them spoke again, "Brother doesn't want to see me?"
"Well, yes, after all, my sudden appearance may be a problem for my brother. ”
"For example, I will rob my brother's property, and if I rob him of his love, if it were me, I would be angry. ”
What Ji Xiaofan's harmless appearance hides is a sinister and cunning heart, maybe it shouldn't be attributed to the character created by the environment, he is afraid that people like him are born so despicable and shameless.
Ji Hangcheng and Yan Ziqi turned their heads in unison, and the two clusters of eyes looked at Ji Xiaofan in unison.
Yan Ziqi didn't think of why he would become like this now, and he always felt that he was like the sunny and simple Lian Xiaofan at the beginning.
"Say it again. ”
Ji Hangcheng's hand holding Yan Ziqi shrank tighter and tighter, his face was covered with a layer of coldness, and his yin owl's eyes were filled with anger.
Seeing this, Ji Xiaofan smiled, "Don't say it, it's still like that, didn't you look down on me very much before?" But God arranged for me to be your younger brother, Ji Hangcheng, do you think this is retribution?"
“...”
Ji Xiaofan said and took a step forward towards Ji Hangcheng, he slowly leaned his head closer, "Don't worry, the game has just started, I will get what I want, Ji and Yan Ziqi, they can't run either." ”
“...”
In the end, the meal was not eaten well, the family happiness that Ji Shengnian was looking forward to was just a dream after all, Ji Xiaofan was beaten hard by Ji Hangcheng, he was beaten very badly, and he was seriously injured, but he swore that he would not suffer this lesson in vain, remember the account first, and pay it back slowly in the future.
On the way back, Yan Ziqi looked at Ji Hangcheng with a gloomy face, and fell into deep thought, she never thought that she would one day be involved in the disputes of the Ji family, Ji Xiaofan's thoughts She also learned today, she didn't want to be a victim of their family brothers.
Whether it is Ji Hangcheng or Ji Xiaofan, they are not the belovers she wants.
So some things can really end here.
*
Summer nights are always so lively and noisy, blowing the evening breeze, drinking wine, bragging, three or two friends, talking a few times, which one is not happy?
In a particularly famous crayfish shop in Shencheng, Yan Ziqi and Yan Bin are eating supper here.
"Little idiot, I know it all today, you are not only stupid but also slammed the door, the first time you invited me to dinner, that's it?"
Yan Bin deliberately teased Yan Ziqi and didn't pay attention to it, she put a peeled lobster meat into his bowl.
"Don't underestimate this lobster, it costs a lot of money to eat, and this shop is really delicious, I used to come with my dad often. Besides, how can I compare with you, it's No. 18 on the Bund again, it's a French restaurant, I just have such a salary, do you want me to eat dirt?"
Yan Ziqi shook his head with a smile.
"So, you're asking me for a long salary in disguise?"
Yan Bin picked up the chopsticks and put the lobster meat in the bowl into his mouth, chewed it, well, it was indeed not bad.
"Little idiot, peel me another one. ”
Yan Ziqi glared at him, "Get carried away." ”
"Well, yes, it's a big deal to give you a raise. ”
Yan Bin followed.
"No, I'm here today because I want to tell you something. ”
Yan Ziqi changed into a pair of disposable gloves and slowly peeled the shrimp for Yan Bin.
"You're leaving?"
Before she could finish speaking, Yan Bin guessed her thoughts.
“...”
Yan Ziqi looked up at Yan Bin with some astonishment, "You know?"
“...”
Yan Bin shook his head for a moment, then nodded.
What is the answer to this?
Yan Zi was confused.
"Yan Ziqi, where are you going?"
Yan Bin's tone was a little anxious.
"It's a secret, you know there's nothing left in this city for me to be nostalgic for. ”
After getting along for so long, Yan Bin naturally knew about Yan Ziqi, so he nodded just now, he had a hunch that she would definitely leave when her revenge on Ji Hangcheng was over.
"Then if you leave now, what will he do? Now is the time when he needs people around him the most, and he really likes you. ”
The "he" in Yan Bin's mouth is obvious and easy to know is Ji Hangcheng.
"I don't know, that's not my business, Yanbin, in fact, I'm a very extreme person, I can do everything for him when I like him, if I don't like him as a person, even if he dies in front of me, I won't look at it, really. ”
"Hmm. ”
Yan Bin picked up the beer on the table and touched Yan Ziqi's bottle, "I understand, you are such a person who loves and hates clearly." ”
The two of them tilted their heads and drained most of the beer in the bottle.
"I don't mean anything else, I just think it's going to be hard for him to get through with you going. ”
Obviously, Ji Hangcheng has fallen in love with Yan Ziqi, and they are all to the point of getting married, so it is strange that he suddenly withdraws at this time and does not hurt half his life.
"That's not my business. ”
When Yan Ziqi said it, the clouds were light and the wind was light, and he didn't care at all.
"Yanbin, do you know? I loved Ji Hangcheng too hard, so that when he left, my world collapsed instantly, who doesn't want to talk about it for many years, I also want to love someone well, from the beginning to the end, it is a very proud thing, but unfortunately, I looked at the wrong person. ”
The dusty memories were unsealed at this moment, and all kinds of past regrets passed through her mind.
"Yan Bin, I used to really love Ji Hangcheng, I can leave everything behind for him, but what did he do to me? Do you know? How many women, how many times has he cheated, don't you say that he feels a little guilty about me when he sleeps with others?"
"That's it, I'm going to forgive him, really, I'm fucking forgiving him like a fool!"
Looking back on the past, Yan Ziqi really wanted to slap himself.
“...”
Yan Bin has been silent, but just because he didn't say it doesn't mean he didn't listen.
After a while, he finally spoke, "Then he used to treat you like that, and now you just take revenge on him for not getting you, why don't you take revenge on him through something else, such as his younger brother, isn't it better?"
It is no secret that Ji Shengnian took his illegitimate son Ji Xiaofan home in the Ji family, and if Yan Ziqi wanted to take revenge on Ji Hangcheng, this matter would be a good opportunity for her.
"Don't!"
Yan Ziqi refused without thinking about it, "I don't want to get involved in their family's disputes, I just need to get back what I paid in the past." ”
Her positioning has always been very clear, she just needs Ji Hangcheng to feel what kind of mood she was in at the beginning, teach him a lesson, and let him understand what happens when he plays with other people's feelings at will.
"Tsk..."120
Yan Bin joked with a smile: "You can carry it clearly." ”
Yan Ziqi smiled, didn't speak, and drank half of a bottle of beer.
...
"So, you have really completely let go now, right? Even if Ji Hangcheng turns back, he treats you well with all his heart, and it is irreparable?"
Seeing that Yan Ziqi didn't speak, Yan Bin asked again.
"Hmm. ”
"Time is a good thing, I take down everything that should be seen clearly, and let go of everything that should be put down. ”
"But... But, Yanbin, why do you think I have to pay such a heavy price for falling in love? Isn't it just that people who fall out of love are sad for a year or two, cry a few times, and get hurt a little? Why, why do I lose my father's life? ”
Yan Ziqi can't hold back her emotions, this is the most unacceptable place for her, what depression, what is locked in a dog cage, she can accept it, she alone can't let go of Yan Chenghua's death.
“...”
Yan Ziqi propped her forehead, tears falling into the bowl one by one, and her sadness attracted the attention of the adjacent table.
Yan Bin looked at Yan Ziqi without saying a word, quietly waiting for her to release her emotions.
When she was almost crying, he interjected, "I often think about the question of where people go when they die, and why are the people who die good, and most of the people who remain in the world are bad people. Later, my grandmother told me that it was because God had taken those good people to heaven to enjoy them. ”
"Yan Ziqi, you may think this is very superstitious, well, I also think, but the idea of the words is right, sometimes living in the world is not necessarily a good thing, death sounds terrible, but from another level it is liberation, you don't have to face illness, you don't have to go through life and death, bitter and bitter, in short, you have to think on the good side, keep your dad in mind, and live every day well. ”
Yan Bin has never been so emotional, for the sake of Yan Ziqi, the chicken soup that he used to disdain was forcibly Amway by him.
Yan Ziqi smiled helplessly, she wiped away her tears, picked up the beer bottle on the table and sent it to Yan Bin, "Okay, I know you are kind, I also know that it is not your style to say these words, I know that you are kind enough to comfort me and don't want me to be sad, Yan Bin, thank you, I am very grateful." ”
"Bang-"
Yan Bin picked up the wine bottle and touched it with Yan Ziqi, and the two raised their heads and drank the wine.
"Okay, Yanbin, it's almost time, and if we have a chance in the future, I hope we can still get together. ”
Yan Ziqi looked at the clock on the wall, and after a while, it was estimated that Ji Hangcheng would come to her.
Just as she was about to get up, Yan Bin suddenly reached out and grabbed her wrist.
"Wait, Yan Ziqi, give me another fifteen minutes, there are some things I want to say to you. ”
"Uh-huh???"
Yan Ziqi raised his head in astonishment, his eyebrows full of doubts.
"What, you don't want me to go?" she quipped.
"No, sit down and listen to me. ”
Yan Bin was affectionate and solemn, and seemed to be serious.
“...”
"What?"
“...”
Yan Bin was silent, he just looked at Yan Ziqi like this, and wore out the other party's patience little by little as time passed.
"What the hell are you trying to say? ”
Yan Ziqi was a little impatient, "Don't be kidding, when Ji Hangcheng comes over, it will cause you trouble." ”
"Yan Zi period. ”
Yan Bin finally spoke.
"Say yes. ”
"I want to exchange with you, for a lifetime of friendship with you with secrets that I don't want anyone to know. ”
"You believe me, if you don't have me or someone more powerful to help you leave, you won't be able to leave Ji Hangcheng at all. ”
Yan Bin's unprepared words made Yan Ziqi's brain blank for a while.
"You... What the hell do you mean?"
Yan Bin smiled faintly, "I didn't stop you from leaving, but I want to help you, on the condition that you must always keep in touch with me and let me know where you are, okay." ”
"Also, I want to tell you a secret, the last thing I want to uncover. ”
“...”
"Why are you doing this?"
"There is no reason, it's just a feeling, Yan Ziqi, you are the second person who makes me believe that there is temperature in this world. ”
Yan Bin looked at Yan Ziqi, with a firmness in her eyes that she had never seen before.
“...”
"Okay, no opinion, right? No opinion, just listen to me. ”
Yan Bin saw that Yan Ziqi didn't speak, reached out and touched her head lovingly, and then slowly opened his lips.
"You know, my world has always been gray, ever since I was hurt by my own mother when I was six years old. ”
Having said this, Yan Bin looked at Yan Ziqi, who looked a little surprised on the other side, and he smiled bitterly, "It's hard to believe, how can a mother in this world bear to hurt her child." ”
"Then why did she hurt you?"
Yan Ziqi couldn't help but interject, although she grew up in a single-parent family since she was a child, she enjoyed an infinite amount of fatherly love, even if she didn't have a mother, it didn't hurt.
"Oh, why? There are many reasons, for example, my dad abused her every day, gambled outside every day away from home, and her anger had nowhere to vent, so it was all sprinkled on me. ”
"For example, I..."
Yan Bin paused, and Yan Ziqi could feel his hesitation and the unspeakability.
"If you don't want to say it, don't say it, I promise you that I won't lose contact with you. ”
Yan Ziqi understood Yan Bin, after all, no one really wants to tear open the wounds they have tried to hide in front of others so easily.
Yan Bin shook his head and continued: "I actually have a gender disorder, I always thought I was a girl when I was a child, so I always like colorful things, and I also like to secretly wear my mother's dress. ”
"At that time, my mother was depressed all day long, and she didn't have the heart to care about me, and naturally she didn't realize that I was mentally ill. ”
"So, one time when I was caught secretly wearing her dress, I was beaten up by her, and not only that, but she also used scissors to cut off my organs, making me unable to live like a normal man. ”
Yan Bin's tone was very calm when he said this, and there was no wave in his eyes, as if he was talking about other people's business.
On the contrary, it was Yan Ziqi, she was directly shocked and speechless.
“...”
For a long time, she held back a sentence, "I'm sorry." ”
Yan Bin sneered, "Little fool, what are you sorry for me? I also want to thank you, last time you saved my grandmother, she is a very important person to me, if it weren't for you, I would have lost her." ”
"But... Yanbin, I really, I don't know, I'm sorry, I didn't think about tearing your wounds open. ”
Yan Zi's words didn't reach his meaning, and he couldn't barely say it after a long time.
"Okay, it's not your fault, there's no need, I just want to have another chance with you. Yan Ziqi, I am usually used to being wolf-hearted, except for my grandmother, there is really no one in this world who is worth paying for me, until I meet you. ”
Yan Bin's feelings for Yan Ziqi are very special, not the kind of love between men and women, that is, every time I see her, I have a feeling that I want to block all the wind and rain for her.
He often thinks that this is wonderful and incredible.
"Yan Bin... I..."
"Okay, don't say it, it's all over, I just hope that the fate between us doesn't end here, I hope to accompany you for another ride and protect you little idiot. ”
Yan Bin smiled, his smile was so bright, he was like this, Yan Ziqi saw him for the first time.
"Okay, I promise you, Yanbin. ”
"Well, that's good, I'll arrange for you to leave Shencheng, what are your plans, where do you want to go?"
Yan Ziqi's eyes suddenly flashed when he said this, and he said: "I want to complete some unfinished things, and I want to take his faith and walk the road of public welfare through his footsteps." ”
"He's the one you really like?"
Last time on the rooftop, Yan Bin didn't forget that Yan Ziqi hugged him and cried bitterly, and kept saying: "He's getting married." ”
"Yes, yes, I can't be with him, but that doesn't affect our faith. ”
Yan Bin thought for a while and nodded: "Okay, then where to choose?"
Yan Ziqi nodded, "There is a direction." ”
"Ok, then you go back and tell me, I'll arrange it when the time comes, don't worry, as long as you don't want to, then I will definitely not let Ji Hangcheng find you." ”
Yan Bin is right, it is difficult to disappear from under Ji Hangcheng's nose with the power of Yan Ziqi, but if there is a powerful person to help at this time, then everything will be different.
"Okay, then I'll thank you in advance. ”