The days when she returned home were only ten days, but Xu Yingke felt that her life was like a year.

When she was taken to Ji's house by the Xu family, she was just a girl who was about to turn ten years old, and this time it was many years.

At that time, because of her mother's strictness, as her father's eldest daughter, she was also quite tolerant of her younger sister on weekdays: for the same clothes, her sister used fine brocade while she could only use fine cotton, and for the same jewelry, her sister could use gold jewelry, while she could only use plain silver, pearls and velvet flowers...... She cried to her aunt about why there was such a big difference between her father's daughters, and her aunt would only hold her and cry.

And when her fairy tales reached the ears of her mother-in-law, in the cold winter of the nineth, her aunt was punished for kneeling in the ancestral hall all night, and the crime was to instigate her to be resentful of her mother-in-law and ignore the differences between her grandmothers.

She will be eight years old that year, and from when she began to think that when she grew up, she must find a wishful husband and take her aunt out of the house to live.

And when the Xu family rumored that she was going home and said that she was going to pick a noble concubine for Ji Rin, she was unwilling, and the memory of the aunt who was punished for kneeling in the ancestral hall and got a cold illness for a winter was too deep, which made her have a natural resistance to being a concubine for others, so when the Xu family sent someone to choose someone, she was not willing to behave extraordinarily, but she didn't expect to be unintentionally inserted into the willows, and it was this unique composure that made the Xu family pick her.

At that time, Jingguo's family had been raided, and even the descendants were demoted to commoners, and their side branches who relied on the descendants to live were even more difficult, and her father was still a petty official at that time.

And the Xu family, who joined the Ji family, is undoubtedly the most valuable person in the entire family, her father can't refuse this opportunity, and her mother-in-law is even more eager to use her bridge to talk to her cousin who joined the Ji family, so that her own children can marry in the future.

No one had asked her opinion, even though she was a half-grown girl at the age of ten.

When she came to Xu's side, she was grateful at first, grateful to the other party for giving her a brocade dress, grateful to the other party for asking her grandmother to take care of her, and grateful to the other party for guiding her to take care of the Banyan Garden, even if it was around Xu's food, clothing, housing and transportation.

At that time, all she thought about was learning from the Xu family what her mother would never teach her, and when she got older, she asked the Xu family to find a good family for her.

Therefore, even if she found that the Xu family was not close to her children, and she was even stranger to her children and grandchildren, she didn't care, and only took good care of the Xu family wholeheartedly, in order to repay the Xu family for treating her well.

Xu has always been very good to her, what to eat is the first to think of her, and she has always been soft-spoken and kind, at first she still held her own status and did not dare to be coquettish with Xu, but gradually she became more and more open in front of Xu, because the other party gave her the blessing she had been longing for from her mother.

So at the age of twelve, she bravely told this aunt who had always been very kind to her for the first time that she did not want to be a concubine.

She thought that she would never forget that moment when Xu looked at her - as if he was looking at something nasty - although it was only for a moment, the other party's sudden change of color still taught her to remember it in her heart.

But after that, Xu was still as kind to her as ever, and she even wondered if that look was her own delusion.

But she soon realized that something was wrong.

If it is an elder who thinks about the little lady, she will start to see each other when the little lady is twelve or thirteen years old, but Xu has never brought it up, and no matter how bold she is, in the end, she is just a little lady who has not been married, so she can only be secretly anxious in her heart, and think that the women of the family usually marry at the age of fifteen or sixteen, perhaps because the aunt and mother-in-law want to stay for two more years.

She was fourteen years old in a flash, and her daughter's letter was limited, so she couldn't sleep all night, and she didn't know who to talk to.

Until this time, the grandmother who gave her a lecture suddenly changed, and the narration became some embarrassing content.

It was at this time that she suddenly realized that the other party had never dismissed the plan to make Ji Rin a concubine, and the previous order for Mama to teach her to preside over the feed and deal with human relations was just to give herself the ability to compete with her wife, not to be powerless.

Since then, she has had a faint resentment in her heart, but the other party has really loved her in the past few years, but the idea of wanting to marry someone and be a wife when she was a child has always existed in her heart, which has made her suffer.

Gradually, she was sixteen years old, but her aunt still didn't look at her for her, even though the other party prepared a lot of dowries for her, but six years was enough time for her to understand the embarrassment she was in.

Regardless of Ji Rin's right wife, Ji Rin is not close to the Xu family, and he has already been branded by the Xu family, and the other party is likely to dislike him because of this.

The young lady has not yet experienced the joy of being married, and she first tasted the fear and worry of being snubbed by her husband.

And Jiang's death made her ecstatic, at that moment she thought about the Ji family's daughter-in-law to see the little lady's own virtue and talent more than to look at the family background, does this mean that she has a chance to become Ji Rin's wife!

As soon as such an idea came out, it took root in the bottom of her heart, so after Ji Rin came back from suppressing the bandits, she was very happy and dressed up very much, and wanted to take advantage of the night to send supper to the other party, in order to get the other party's like.

However, in hindsight, this is the thing she regrets the most after living for so many years.

When she was pointed at by Ji Rin's sword, at that moment, she really thought that the other party wanted to kill herself!

After that, no matter how embarrassed she was crying, she could only be sent back to the Xu house, and the seven-year situation was in vain in the end, and she could even hear the words in the mouth of the Xu family, every word, at that moment she really hated Ji Rin to death.

The mother-in-law was even worried that she had offended the Ji family and caused trouble for the Xu family, and she secretly tried to trouble her aunt.

Then she heard the news of Ji Tingshi's death, and at that moment she had a strange joy in her heart, thinking that this was not Ji Rin who rejected her and received retribution!

And she followed her mother-in-law to Ji's house to worship, and met a strange Lang Jun on the road, the other party had a handsome face and a kind attitude, which was very different from Ji Rin's fierce and vicious spirit, and her heart was like a deer for a while.

A few days later, she and her grandmother made incense together, and met this Langjun in the temple, the other party was dressed in a blue dark coat, covered with blue and purple daze, and saw a leisurely smile in the Qingfeng Temple, and her eyes were dazzled for a moment.

That day they talked heartily in the Buddhist temple, between the words only felt that the other party was knowledgeable about the history, work in the rhetoric, and polite, courteous, courteous, since the incense came back she tossed and turned at night and couldn't sleep, only felt that a heart was tied to this Langjun, as described in the book is probably the cause of heaven, but I don't know what the other party is, but I am willing to come to the door to marry her.

A few days later was the seventh day of the first seven days of Ji Jiawen Xianggong, and she didn't expect that she would meet each other again when she came out of the Buddhist temple.

This time, she couldn't help but blushed and inquired about the other party's news, knowing that the other party's surname was Liu, the eldest son in the family, and had an old relationship with the Ji family.

Her face burned like fire and she couldn't speak, and she left in a hurry after a long time with only one address.

This time, she thought that the wish she had been thinking about for many years would definitely come true, but she was raised as Ji Rin's concubine by the Xu family, and she didn't know if the other party would be disgusted.

I waited for a few more days, but I didn't wait for this Langjun but waited for Mama Zhuang, only saying that now that the Ji family is filial piety and can't come out, the Xu family is afraid that she won't be able to look at each other for her, so she sent a cart of cloth and wool over.

It's just that at this time, her heart and mind are all surnamed Langjun Liu, and it doesn't matter if the Xu family can't look at each other for her.

Who would have thought that the day after Grandma Zhuang left, there was an accident in the Ji family, and her mother-in-law gave her a cold face when she heard the news.

Xu Yingke only felt that her heart was in turmoil, if the Ji family really had an accident and lost her backer, she might not know how her grandmother would treat her.

What frightened her even more was that she found a letter in her study, the content of the letter implied that Liu Langjun had been arrested, and if she wanted to save him, she had to identify the Xu family because of the raid on the house of Jing Guogong, and even the two sons of the Xu family complained about the saint and intended to rebel!