When she said this, she shook violently, and a flash of light seemed to appear in her eyes, and it flashed quickly, and no one noticed.

In the ward, on Bai Xiao's pale cheeks, those warm eyes slowly opened.

Hollow, numb, and obviously such a gentle person, but now he is tormented by disease like a cold corpse, and he has no popularity.

There are needles inserted in the blood vessels, and if you look closely at the back of the hand, you can see many pinholes, some of which are too dense and have formed an arc of black blue.

It looks terrifying, and even more so, the person who actually underlays these needles can imagine how painful it will be.

Yan Shiyu stayed by Bai Xiao's side alone, and the others left the room where Bai Xiao was to discuss how to find the T-2O.

In the senior ward with the smell of disinfectant water, there were only two people, Yan Shiyu and Bai Xiao.

Bai Xiao didn't have any strength in his body, and his weakened body just after the operation would happen at any time, only those moon eyes could move.

The pain and torture of his whole body was unbearable, and if he was a bystander, I am afraid that he would not be able to stand it for a long time at this time.

But Bai Xiao didn't.

He just looked at her with his gentle gaze, trying to pull the corners of his mouth and smile, but his stiff cheeks could only move slightly, and it became difficult to even make an expression.

Yan Shiyu sat quietly on the edge of the hospital bed, looking at Bai Xiao like this, her heart tightened with pain, and tears came out of her eyes.

"I'm sorry ......"

I'm sorry I didn't protect you, I'm sorry for her selfishness.

Bai Xiao seemed to understand something, was slightly stunned, and soon returned to his usual gentle appearance.

His fingers moved slightly, touched the corner of Yan Shiwei's clothes, and smiled at Yan Shiwei with all his might, as if he wanted to tell her:

It's okay, he doesn't care-

In the next few days, Yan Shiyu waited by Bai Xiao's side alone.

All of Bai Xiao's familiar people, relatives and friends, or elders did not appear in Bai Xiao's room.

It's just that when Bai Xiao falls asleep at night, someone will come to visit him, touching the pure white quilt he is covering, his eyes are moist, and tears are quietly sliding down in the silent night.

All of them created an illusion for Bai Xiao, an illusion that could be broken at the first poke.

They wanted to tell him that his illness was not serious, that he was only temporarily hospitalized.

In order to prove that his condition is really not serious, he even used "few people visit" as evidence to tell Bai Xiao, look, no one has come to see you, and your illness is very mild, so you don't need so many people to come and visit.

But Bai Xiao knew that he had been sick for so many years and knew his physical condition best.

He always sat on the edge of the bed and looked out the window, but he actually knew everything.

Yan Shiwei's choice was unexpected, but it was also reasonable, and he was not sure whether Yan Shiwei really knew the whereabouts of the T-2O.

Even if Yan Shiyu knew about it and told him the clues about the T-2O, it would be impossible to find it in a short time.

In any case, it's impossible, a dead end.

Although he knew all of this, when he knew that she was unwilling to tell him about the T-2O, it was a lie to say that he was not disappointed.

It's just that he has already looked down on it, people die for money, birds die for food, and Yan Shiyu's choice is understandable, he doesn't blame her.

Originally, he didn't have any hope, but now Yan Shiyu's refusal only extinguished this hope.

What I was destined not to have, it was never his, and he was willing to accept the result.

Perhaps he was born to meet the day of death.

"Drink slowly, don't get burned. Yan Shiyu fed him with vegetable porridge one bite at a time.

Bai Xiao was very cooperative, and the two of them sat quietly on the edge of the bed, one feeding, and the other drinking porridge.

Bai Xiao was already able to speak, and looked down at the porridge in Yan Shiyu's hand, "You eat it too, you haven't eaten yet." ”

The sentence of doubt is said in the affirmative.

Bai Xiao clearly said that Shi Yu almost didn't take care of herself, and she always did her best.

She was like a beam of light, illuminating a piece of pure land in his heart in his last days.

However, she finally gave up on him before the test of humanity.

Bai Xiao smiled sarcastically at the corner of his mouth, and soon returned to normal, not knowing whether he was laughing at her or laughing at himself.

Yan Shiyu blew the heat on the porridge, "I've already eaten, and I rarely eat liquid food, you eat it all, don't waste it." ”

The porridge was scooped into the spoon little by little and sent into Bai Xiao's stomach.

These days, Bai Xiao has been eating the porridge prepared by Yan Shiyu almost every day.

Sometimes he doesn't want to drink porridge, and when he wants to change his words, he won't agree, everything can be changed, but this porridge must be eaten.

The doctor came in to make rounds and examined Bai Xiao's body, his face was heavy.

Bai Xiao knew what this meant.

The curvature of the corners of his lips was as gentle as ever, and he smiled at the doctor, "It's okay, just tell the truth, I know my situation, I'm ready." ”

The doctor took a deep breath and saw Bai Xiao like this, and his hand holding the notebook clenched tightly.

"But I'm afraid your family is not prepared for this, have you really thought about it?"

Bai Xiao nodded, the breeze outside the window blew, the chestnut hair on his forehead was blown by the wind, and his star-bright eyes were slightly dimmed, "I have long known that there is such a day, whether you accept it or not, it is a doomed result, they will understand, time can heal everything." ”

Bai Xiao raised his eyes, "I plan to be cremated and buried in water, I don't want to leave any traces in this world, it's still beautiful, right?"

Bai Xiao looked at the doctor with a wry smile and said a word of bitterness, pale and desperate.

The light in his eyes had turned gray, with a moist mist between them, and his eyes were covered with crimson bloodshots.

"Beauty, then you might be disappointed. The doctor stood up, his face darkened.

Bai Xiao was stunned for a moment, "Isn't the water burial beautiful?"

The doctor sighed, looked at Bai Xiao's eyes were complex and deep, and said word by word, "I mean, you may not be able to die, and the method of death of the water burial you thought of in advance will probably have to be talked to your son and daughter." ”

“...... What do you mean?" Bai Xiao asked slowly after a long silence.

There was a heaviness in his tone, and a hint of shock in it.

No way!

It couldn't be what he thought, how could it be? No, maybe he was hallucinating.

Before he dies, he dreams of making up for his regrets, and it seems that he really doesn't have much time.

For the first time, a smile appeared on the doctor's face, not a sympathy for the patient, nor a smile of kindness at the patient's end.

It's a genuine, heartfelt smile for the patient.

"Your film shows that the tumor is gone, and compared with the previous data, it can be determined that you are now completely out of the critical period, and you may have to leave the observation room here in the afternoon. ”

"Leave?!"

Bai Xiao couldn't close his mouth in shock, there was obvious disbelief in his eyes, and he couldn't help but shake his head again and again.

If the doctor's lies had been more realistic, I'm afraid he would have believed them.

And so it is. It's too fake.

He couldn't believe it, and he confirmed the fact that his condition had worsened.

Because this is a doctor's "white lie" to the patient's "white lie" -