It has been several months since Yan Ziqi was taken home by Yu Qing, and during this time, she can be said to have made no progress at all, and even worsened.

For example, the day before yesterday, because the nanny was drowsy and negligent, Yu Nianzhi was pushed down from the upstairs by Yan Ziqi, fortunately, God bless, there are not many stairs, and the little guy is not a big problem, but there is a small lump on his face, Yu Qing took him to the hospital and applied some medicine to promote blood circulation and remove blood stasis.

For example, yesterday, she took advantage of the caretaker's inattention and climbed onto the balcony, and the fire and civil police came, making a lot of noise.

The bipolar disorder of the Yanzi period can be said to have risen to a new height.

Yu Qing has recently had to take care of both the company's affairs and Yan Ziqi, in order to prevent her from hurting Yu Nianzhi and herself as before, Yu Qing had no choice but to bring her to the company.

"Xiao Yan, you wait for me here for a while, and we'll go to the hospital when we're done. ”

Yu Qing looked at Yan Ziqi who was sitting on the sofa and explained simply.

“...”

Recently, Yan Ziqi has begun to use scientific methods and systematic treatment, and Yu Qing will take her to the hospital two days a week.

Yan Ziqi didn't speak, she sat quietly on the sofa, I don't know why, as long as Yu Qing was there where she stayed, she would become very calm, as if a boat drifting in the wind and waves had suddenly found a harbor that she could rely on.

About an hour later, Yu Qing finished his work, he picked up the car keys on the table and took Yan Ziqi's hand out of the office, and the two took the elevator all the way down to the parking lot.

Just when Yu Qing was about to start the car, Yan Ziqi in the passenger seat suddenly spoke...

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt Nianzhi. ”

This sentence came very unexpectedly, Yu Qing held the steering wheel and turned his head to look at Yan Ziqi with some incredulity.

For the first time, she came to her side and spoke for the first time, and it was no exaggeration to describe the feeling as if he was a poor man who had suddenly won five million, and that ecstasy could not be described by any pale word.

"Xiao Yan, you..."

Yu Qing was a little short of words, and he didn't know what to say.

"Thank you. ”

Yan Ziqi looked at Yu Qing slightly, trying to squeeze out a smile that was more ugly than crying to him.

At this moment, Yu Qing actually felt that Yan Ziqi was a normal person, an extremely normal person.

When this idea popped up, he felt that he was very ignorant, Yan Ziqi was originally a normal person, as long as her bipolar disorder did not attack, then she was no different from ordinary people.

"You're welcome, are you feeling better today?"

Yu Qing took his hand off the steering wheel, with joy hidden in his eyes.

Yan Ziqi nodded, "It's okay, you took me to the hospital so many times, it will always be better." ”

When she said this, she was actually not so confident, and she didn't know whether she was good or not.

Whenever so many cold detectors were attached to Yan Ziqi's skin, and the computer was displayed with dense data that ordinary people couldn't understand, she was curious, could this be her pain?

The electroencephalogram (EEG) device connected to her head turned Yan Ziqi's neural activity into a line chart, and every time she felt extremely nervous, her chest would feel stuffy, and the feeling of suffocation was like a pair of invisible hands choking her throat...

In addition, she has to receive intravenous fluids, and now Yan Ziqi's arm has been pierced with dense pinholes, and bruises can be seen everywhere, which is really scary.

Yan Ziqi is sometimes really curious, can these cold instruments really free her from her pain?

"Xiao Yan, you have to believe that you will be fine, and at the same time you must believe that the world is more beautiful than painful, you are so young, don't do stupid things anymore, there is nothing that you can't pass. ”

Yu Qing said and reached out and slowly held Yan Ziqi's hand in his hand and clasped her ten fingers, I don't know when this has become a habit of tacit understanding between them.

Yan Ziqi glanced at her hand that was held by Yu Qing, she smiled, slowly bent her five fingers back to shake his hand, and asked lightly: "Is the stupid thing you mean is suicide?"

"Hmm. ”

Yu Qing nodded.

Yan Ziqi also nodded: "Well, suicide is so stupid, I hurt so much every time." But you know what? I committed suicide not because I didn't think I had gone to that hurdle in the past, but because I was cowardly and cowardly, and I didn't want to go there, I wanted to take a shortcut. ”

Yu Qing: "..."

"You know, I've always thought of myself as a girl with a strong heart, but then I realized that I was really wrong, I said that when I was strong inside, it was when I didn't encounter setbacks, but when one day setbacks came to the door, I realized that my so-called strong heart was a joke. ”

Yan Ziqi lowered her eyes, tears hung on her eyelids, and there was a faint smile on the corner of her lips.

"I'm pretty useless, I feel like I've been working in vain for more than 20 years, looking back and seeing that I have achieved nothing, and I am in a blur. I don't understand why I'm like this, is it because of a broken relationship? Or is it because of betrayal? Or is it that online violence? Or whatever? I really don't understand, if you know, can you tell me?"

Yu Qing hugged Yan Ziqi gently into her arms in distress, put her chin on the top of her head, and comforted: "Okay, it's all over, what you can say and face is not pain, Xiao Yan, you have to cheer up." ”

Yan Ziqi let Yu Qing hold her, but this time she didn't hug her back, but just responded to his words very indifferently.

"Yes, it's not pain that I can say, it's because there are still some people I can't say, they are the reason why I want to give up, I really feel very boring to live. ”

Yan Ziqi said tears while falling: "I also tried very hard to persuade myself to live, but I don't know why it didn't work, I felt that I was only left with pain in my life, and I couldn't feel a little happiness." I really tried. And I actually started to crochet the things of the next life, and I think I must not live like this in the next life, and I want to avoid all the mistakes I made in my last life. ”

The more Yan Ziqi spoke, the more sad he became, the more he spoke, the more powerless he became, his hands tightly grasped the placket of Yu Qing's shirt, and tears wet his chest.

Yu Qing pursed his lips, he hugged Yan Ziqi without saying a word, and listened to her silently, thinking about how to help her.

Suddenly, he had a flash of inspiration.

Yu Qing slowly pushed Yan Ziqi away, he reached out and brushed away a few strands of broken hair on her forehead, and his deep eyes shone like obsidian.

"Xiao Yan, I think I have a way to find a way to live for you. ”

Yu Qing sent Yan Ziqi back to the passenger seat, he thoughtfully helped her fasten the seat belt, then started the car, held the steering wheel with both hands and kicked the accelerator to drive the car out.

In the emergency rescue hall of Shencheng People's Hospital, Yu Qing came here with Yan Ziqi.

"Why did you bring me here?"

Yan Ziqi looked at Yu Qing and asked with some confusion.

"Look. ”

Yu Qing took Yan Ziqi's hand and found a corner, and then didn't speak again.

Three hours passed, Yan Ziqi saw six people being pushed into the rescue room, outside the hall was a rush of family members, some of them cried and shouted to worship the Bodhisattva to bless their families to survive safely, some squatted in the corner and cried silently, and some even kept holding their heads to hit the corner.

She also saw a number of doctors, all of whom were hurrying into the emergency room, like soldiers on battle.

Here she saw a false alarm, the aftermath of the catastrophe, and unfortunately saw that she went and never returned, and for three hours, she witnessed the passage of two lives as a bystander.

Yan Ziqi is not a doctor, she is not used to life and death, how can she become a lifeless corpse after she came out, it turns out that life is passing so fast.

Yu Qing turned his head to look at Yan Ziqi, during which he had been secretly observing her emotional changes from time to time.

"Xiao Yan, you see, there are so many people working hard to live every day, life is only once, it does not give us any chance to start over, the life you don't cherish now is a priceless treasure that countless people work hard to fight for. You only know that you can't live, but do you know how your father felt when you committed suicide countless times before, standing outside the rescue room?"

Yan Ziqi: "..."

"Xiao Yan, you know that life is mostly painful, but why do so many people want to do their best to live?"

"Why?"

Yan Ziqi asked.

Because happiness is not the true meaning of human life, but finding happiness in suffering is. As the saying goes, the sunshine is always after the wind and rain, the rainbow and sunshine after the storm are the most beautiful, and the cherishing of the rest of the life after the catastrophe is the most valuable. ”

Yu Qing said a lot, but he knew that he would not be able to listen to this spiritual chicken soup for a while, if he could get out of the sea of suffering with a few words like this, then what would he do with so much scientific intervention.

Yu Qing can only say that he is adjuvant treatment, using what he has seen and heard in life, some more visually impactful and influential things to subtly change her.

He couldn't rush it, it needed time.

In the early autumn of September, the evening breeze is strong, the air is filled with the fresh fragrance of osmanthus flowers, countless stars are hung on the boundless night, and a bright moon is guiding the way home.

After coming out of the hospital, Yu Qing did not choose to drive, he took Yan Ziqi's hand, and the two strolled through a lively street market.

There are no high-rise buildings on this street, and there is no scene of busy traffic, but only some of the most real and common scenes in ordinary life.

"Didi~"

The sound of the horn of the battery car came into the ears from time to time, and the delivery people and couriers rode the battery car through the crowd, and it was already eight o'clock in the evening, but they were still busy running for life.

Yu Qing gradually slowed down, and he noticed that Yan Ziqi was looking at everything around him.

To the east of them was an old woman with snowy sideburns, who was seen staggering down the street pushing a stroller.

She passed by a roadside stall selling barbecue, it was a young couple, they were working hard to grill skewers, the early autumn in Shencheng was still a little hot, there was no air conditioning, no electric fan, some just endless sweat, but they had smiles on their faces, and the female stall owner picked up a towel to wipe the sweat for her husband from time to time.

At this time, many small white-collar workers in Shencheng had just gotten off work, they were carrying bags and dragging their tired bodies on the road, some were still talking on the phone and chatting about work, and some were holding snacks to eat with relish, and throwing garbage on the ground while eating.

Because of this, the defense workers have to constantly move back and forth down the street with their cleaning tools.

Just as she was emptying the garbage into the bin, a homeless man in ragged clothes with a shabby woven bag would come to the trash can and rummage through the garbage with his bare hands.

These scenes can be seen everywhere in life, and some people have given them a nice name, that is, fireworks in the world.

Yu Qing took Yan Ziqi to feel the ordinary but profound fireworks in the world.

"Xiao Yan, you see that each of them is trying to live, even if life is full of chicken feathers, they still do their best to live a good life. ”

Yan Ziqi was in this complicated bustle, looking at the people around her, they were all doing their own thing, and no one noticed her.

During the period of experiencing online violence, Yan Ziqi was very afraid of meeting people, she felt that as long as she appeared in the crowd, it was like being stripped of everything and allowing others to trample on her self-esteem and kill her.

And today, when she was in the middle of the crowd again, she found that no one noticed her at all, and everyone even regarded her as an insignificant speck of dust in the air.

So, sometimes online violence is scary, but it's just limited to the screen, out of that square inch, the world is really big, everyone is busy, and no one cares who is who.

This is also another purpose of Yu Qing, he just wants her to know that some things are not as terrible as she imagined, and when she goes out, she will find that many things are not as she imagined.

"Xiao Yan, believe me, you are only in your twenties, you shouldn't have the idea that life is boring, there will always be something that supports you to live. ”

"And it's not terrible to make mistakes, the world is inclusive, there is something called time, it will give you a chance to make amends. ”

Yu Qing patiently enlightened Yan Ziqi, and he was like the strong backing behind her silently giving her the greatest strength.

Yan Ziqi nodded, but only accepted Yu Qing's words, after all, her bipolar disorder was not completely cured, and there were still many difficult unknowns waiting for her.

Of course, Yu Qing's painstaking arrangement is not completely without results, at least Yan Ziqi has a trace of wanting to live.

She stood in the bustling street market, stretching out her hand that had been punctured by countless needles to touch the full moon hanging high on the screen.

She remembered the pain when she was sick, the accusations and abuses from the Internet, all the pain Ji Hangcheng gave her, and the blankness of being rescued with tubes all over her body after countless suicides, all of which did not kill her, since this is the case, it is better to try to live.

The moon is round, bright, and big tonight...

It silently radiates light, illuminating all the joys, sorrows, and sorrows of this world.

*

The first rays of light in the morning dispelled the last rays of darkness, and a new dawn arrived.

Ji Hangcheng was awakened by a strong beam of light, he turned over a little irritably, and then slowly opened his eyes, and the moment he saw the person next to the pillow who was close at hand, suddenly the whole person flew up from the bed as if he was installed with a spring.

"Damn, who the fuck are you?"

Ji Hangcheng straightened up and stood on the bed, he stretched out his long legs and kicked the woman on the bed hard.

Swept by a strong pain, the woman on the bed gradually woke up, she rubbed her sleepy eyes and slowly sat up, she looked up at Ji Hangcheng and muttered: "Brother, I'm Jiang Zhicheng, your girlfriend." ”

Ji Hangcheng's eyebrows furrowed, and an ugly laugh escaped from his lips in disbelief, "What kind of bullshit are you putting on?

He thought to himself that he was not blind, and even if he Ji Hangcheng was hungry, he would not look for such an ugly monster.

Just looking at that face was enough for him, it was really no different from a dinosaur, and looking at the dense little bumps on it, he felt like he was going to vomit out of his overnight meal.

"Well, brother, I'm really Jiang Zhiming. ”

Jiang Zhicheng noticed that Ji Hangcheng was looking at her face, and she hurriedly covered it with a quilt in fright.

"Brother, don't look at it, it'll be fine in a while, I'll just go and put on makeup, you... You wait for me. ”

Jiang Zhicheng stumbled out of bed, she forgot that she was still naked, she remembered that she was about to reach for her clothes, but because she was too anxious, she accidentally stepped on the beer can on the ground, and then she slipped on the soles of her feet and flew out and fell on the trash can impartially.

"Knock~"

With a shocking sound, the trash can overturned, and the garbage inside spilled out, and the supper soup that had just been eaten last night just washed Jiang Zhicheng's head.

"Ah~"

Jiang Zhicheng screamed in shock, "Brother, what should I do?Hmm~ It stinks." ”

Seriously, Jiang Zhicheng's current appearance is a good medicine for vomiting, Ji Hangcheng was stimulated by her, his stomach was like someone had been thrown into the washing machine and stirred hard, he retched again and again, and just vomited out.

This time I really responded to that sentence, and I was going to vomit out the overnight meal.

"Hmm~Brother~What should I do with my brother~"

Jiang Zhicheng stood in place, and she kept asking Ji Hangcheng for help.

"~~"

This incident had a great impact on Ji Hangcheng, he never thought that his girlfriend would be such an ugly man.

He had the impression that Jiang Zhicheng didn't look like this, why was this happening? Could it be that she lied to herself before?

Thinking about it, it seems that there is such a possibility, every time Ji Hangcheng meets Jiang Zhicheng, she wears makeup, this woman's makeup is similar to plastic surgery, and she can't tell the difference between good-looking and ugly.

It was precisely because she thought that Jiang Zhicheng was wearing makeup 24 hours a day, and her face slowly had problems, she went to the dermatologist, and the doctor said that if she continued like this, her face would be difficult to protect, and she would basically be disfigured.

Jiang Zhicheng was scared, so she came up with a way to remove her makeup while Ji Hangcheng was asleep, and then apply her makeup before he woke up.

However, if you walk too much at night, you will meet a ghost sooner or later, and after she does this a few times, the bug appears.

They Jiang Zhicheng had a little too much fun last night, she drank a lot of wine and forgot to set the alarm clock, and that scene appeared.

Ji Hangcheng's efficiency is very fast, he broke up with Jiang Zhicheng on the day the incident happened, and the division is not muddy at all, what is ruthlessness, what is killing decisively, just look at the breakup of Shencheng Ji Gongzi.

Wei Ci often said that Ji Hang's split up is not called a breakup, it's the same fucking as the company's layoffs.

*

TAXX BAR.

"Hahaha~ No, Ji Shuai, you have been in the water lately? smashed the Yuelao Temple? Why did his old man's marriage ruin you properly. ”

In the box, Wei Ci put his arm around Ji Hangcheng's shoulder, and the whole person laughed and twitched.

“...”

"Ji Shuai, don't say that this kind of one-ten-thousandth thing was really encountered by you, didn't you say that this Jiang Zhicheng and Yan Ziqi's appearance is on par before?"

As soon as Wei Ci finished speaking, his calf was kicked by Ji Hangcheng, and then he felt a cold look in his eyes.

"Shut up!"

"Poof~Good~Good~"

Wei Ci took his head off Ji Hangcheng's shoulder, he pinned his head to the side, and his facial features gathered together and tried to hold back a smile.

Ji Hangcheng glanced at him, picked up the cup on the table and drank the wine inside.

“...”

After a while, Wei Ci eased up, he turned his head and looked at Ji Hangcheng again, and said, "Brother, you should take this as a lesson, next time you look for a woman, she must remove her makeup first." ”

Wei Ci thinks that he will be like this when he finds a girlfriend in the future, now that women are too inhumane to make up, plus a beauty camera, it is simply like two people.

Thinking of this, Wei Ci thought of Yan Ziqi again, to be honest, in the Internet celebrity face that is now mass-produced, she is a rare treasure, no makeup is a natural beauty, and makeup is a fairy descending to earth.

However, he didn't get the best in the end, tsk~ It's a pity, it's a pity.

Ji Hangcheng didn't say anything, he just lowered his head and drank muffled wine, and then a few rich sons came, and they went to the dance floor downstairs together.

As long as this bar has a little appearance, it will come with an amorous encounter, especially like Ji Hangcheng, the best in the world, and women are naturally easy to come by.

That night, he caught a girl, this time, Ji Hangcheng really listened to Wei Ci's words, he took her to the hotel, and personally stared at her to remove her makeup, over and over again, the girl's skin was about to be peeled off.

"Ji Shuai, is it okay?"

The girl stood in front of Ji Hangcheng with the lotion, she was really plain now, and she didn't apply powder.

Ji Hangcheng reached out and pinched her chin and looked at it, and only then nodded after confirmation.

"Well, go and wait for me in bed. ”

"Okay~"

The girl happily jumped into bed, and Ji Hangcheng went to take a bath.

Some things happened without warning, and Ji Hangcheng found out that something was wrong with him when he was taking a bath.

He knew better than anyone else what he was doing, but today it seemed that everything was not quite right.

"Brother Ji Shuai~"

Ji Hangcheng stood under the shower, he lowered his head and watched... Looking...

"Brother~"

"It's coming. ”

Ji Hangcheng reached out to turn off the switch, took it off the towel from the towel rack and took it off and wrapped it around his body.

He came to open the door and walked to the room, and the girl on the big bed had already prepared everything for him.

Ji Hangcheng went to bed...

After a few hours, the girl suddenly got angry, she took the clothes on the side and put them on reluctantly, while saying, "Ji Shuai, if you don't like what I said earlier, why waste everyone's time." ”

It can be heard that the girl is also a person with a personality, not the kind of submissive type.

“...”

Ji Hangcheng leaned on the head of the bed and smoked silently without speaking, everything happened today too suddenly, and suddenly he was a little scared.

The girl in front of her is not ugly at all, she has a good figure, it can be said that she has no shortcomings, and her appearance is also the type he likes, and she matches it in all aspects, but why is he just not interested?

Ji Hangcheng felt that his brain was excited, but his body functions couldn't keep up, to use a simple analogy, he was a soldier who was about to go to the battlefield, he was high-spirited, but when he was about to kill the enemy, he found that the weapon was out of order.

Ji Hangcheng thought that from the first time he to the present, this situation had never appeared at all, and besides, he was only twenty-three or four years old, so he didn't need a weak chicken to do anything Ren Kidney Bao He is good and I am okay.

So, thinking about it in the end, he came to the conclusion that it was thanks to Jiang Zhicheng that she scared herself, so he needed a period of recovery now.

Well, it must be so.

However, during the period of Ji Hangcheng's retreat and cultivation, something that he could never have imagined quietly befell him with the probability of winning the lottery...