Chapter 179: The Fear of Loneliness
"It's too evil, don't go!" Chen Wenjin directly refused.
"It's boring! It's boring! What's wrong with accompanying me once?" Wang Shuai thought for a while, and then said: "In this way, you accompany me to the ear piercing house for dinner, and I will accompany you to eat rice noodles three times at noon in the future, no, eat rice noodles five times!"
"Can't I eat without anyone accompanying me?" Chen Wenjin couldn't help laughing, Wang Shuai said helplessly: "Each eats its own more life? You see, the two of us have been watching the plate recently, and I always watch you eat powder, and then you watch me eat something else? Isn't it a bit troublesome?"
Chen Wenjin showed a smirk in response, and Wang Shuai said: "Eat rice noodles with you ten times! It's interesting enough, right? I haven't eaten the same thing for three days in a row! This is full of sincerity!"
"No white rice?" Chen Wenjin asked rhetorically, Wang Shuai said angrily: "This is raising the bar! What is there to say about the staple food?"
"Aren't they all staple foods?" Chen Wenjin deliberately continued to raise the bar, Wang Shuai stopped talking, looked at him, waited for a while, and saw that Chen Wenjin had not yet expressed, so he said: "It's so sad, talk to Xiaocui at night......
Before he finished speaking, Chen Wenjin couldn't help but laugh. "Why don't you say someone else. β
"Would you still laugh if you were a different person? Laughing is agreeing, don't be verbose, it's a big deal! Calling you to eat, not calling you to be slaughtered!" Wang Shuai picked up the phone and called Xiao Xiao again, asking her if she wanted to go with her, and hung up without saying a few words, and then said: "Xiao Xiao said that he would see it tomorrow, and his attitude was hesitant." I think she's deliberately avoiding you. β
"Isn't that good? Why don't you steal the fun, and you deliberately say it?" Chen asked why Wang Shuai deliberately talked about this.
"You don't have any ideas? Is it really not a split-leg? Gu Quan's motivation for fame is so strong?" Wang Shuai was really interested in but still had an unfulfilled wish.
"The motivation is not to take care of fame, but to maintain an inner self-form. As long as the true self does not change, it is not afraid of external criticism, and the true self collapses, and the external self cannot deceive itself, even if it is praised countless times. Chen asked what Wang Shuai was thinking, and after a while, he heard Wang Shuai say: "Xiao Xiao is not as thick-skinned as you, and she definitely doesn't think as much as you, she should just care about other people's criticism, so she has to avoid it." Well, obviously, her personality doesn't fit in with you. β
"You are thinking about it elsewhere, and your persuasion is easy to arouse my rebellious mentality. As for the main reason for Xiao Xiao's avoidance, let's not talk about the psychological level for the time being, even if it is to avoid criticism, there is no problem. Could it be that she knew that she had been misunderstood, but she continued to deepen the misunderstanding with her actions, and even confirmed the rumors?" Chen Wen saw that Wang Shuai still wanted to discuss, so he said, "Stop, let's talk about something else." For example, tonight I go home to catch up on sleep and not drink. β
β...... It's too much!" Wang Shuai was very dissatisfied, but Chen Wen planned to spend the afternoon again, and he was destined to come back today, so he didn't go, so he had a clear attitude, so he said: "Rose has been interested in shaping her image recently, I think she wants to use Li Xiang as a stepping stone, and she may launch it at any time." If Ami talks to you recently, make sure she is determined not to come to me to admit her mistakes!"
"Don't worry, she won't talk to me. Chen Wenjin judged that Ami should have some determination, and the execution was also very good. Originally, Ami and Wang Shuai had not been together for a long time, but from the beginning, Ami was very active and fast-paced.
"Then I'm a little disappointed again, I'm so good, she should be with me, at all costs, at all costs, at the expense of losing all her self-esteem!" Wang Shuai didn't feel that his own words were very annoying, Chen Wenjin directly ignored them, and didn't bother to pay attention to them.
Wang Shuai didn't care, he let out a long sigh deliberately, and said to himself with a gloomy expression: "A person who is too perfect is destined to have many troubles, and this is good, that's fine." I should have wanted to learn from all children, but as a person who also has high moral standards, I have to make a choice. How determined does it take to make a choice? But I canβbecause I'm so perfect!"
Chen Wenjin watched, listened, and then said without being salty or light: "When you are usually idle and bored, you just talk to yourself in the mirror or at home to the air, right? β
β...... Can you even guess this?" Wang Shuai was very surprised, not at all like contrived. "No way, after my mother was gone, I was often alone at home, and I was quite scared, but later I found that the best way to fight fear is to make myself stronger. Tell yourself in the mirror that I'm not afraid of any demons or monsters. When the silence in the room was suffocating, he broke the silence with his own laughter, dispelled all the unsettling coldness, and told himself that where I am, everything is up to me, even if there are any evil ways to get out of the way. β
"Very good psychological cues. Chen Wenjin sincerely approved.
"My dad was always busy, often I slept and he came back, I got up and he left. The full score of the test paper waited for him to finish reading and complimenting, and he could only leave it on the table, whether he saw it or not, and he had to wait until he was not sure if it was a few days later to meet again. Then I'll praise myself for him, or take a picture of my mom and let her look at the test papers, pretend to believe she can see it, and then laugh and praise my results. Wang Shuai thought about it, and was willing to open the closed door of defense to Chen Wenjin. "But sometimes I'm still afraid, sudden abnormal noises, inexplicable door movements. I thought there were really some powerful demons and monsters, but then I couldn't stand being so scared, so I bought some books and wanted to learn the spell skills of subduing demons and subduing demons. β
Wang Shuai said, lit a cigarette, Xiao Xiao was not in the house, he was excited at the moment, just smoked. "At that time, there was a beautiful aunt with long hair who often came to take care of me, treated me very well, and asked me if I would like to accept her as my new mother. Of course I didn't want to, but I was glad that she was willing to accompany me to take care of me, so I didn't answer. For more than two months, I was almost getting used to her, and I was thinking about accepting her as a stepmother, as long as I didn't have to call her mother. β
Chen Wenjin knew about the changes later, and the future Wang Shuai also talked to him about this matter, which was a big impact on Wang Shuai in the process of growing up.
"She suddenly didn't come. I waited until late, and when my dad came back, I asked him why that aunt hadn't come for a few days, and she would definitely come over today. My dad said that the aunt wanted to marry him, and he couldn't say yes. So separated, will not come again. Wang Shuai smoked a cigarette and said with a self-deprecating smile: "At that time, I didn't understand such complicated things, but I was very angry, and asked my father why, why he didn't have time to take care of me, and finally an aunt was willing to take care of me, and he had to drive people away." β
"Do you want him to lie to you, or tell the truth?" Chen Wenjin knew the answer of Wang Shuai in the future, but he didn't know what Wang Shuai would think now.
"I can be a happy fool if I lie, but honestly, I can only be a calm and smart person...... What's there to choose now? There's no chance for me to choose anyway. Wang Shuai smoked a cigarette and said with a smile: "You obviously guessed what my dad probably said." He said that aunt was not as good as I thought, she was just trying to get married, and once she got married, especially if she had children, she wouldn't be good to me. I didn't believe it at the time, and my mind was full of affirmation of that auntie. My father said that if my aunt really cared about me, even if we were separated, she would definitely come to me again, even three or five times, even once, at least. β
Chen Wenjin knew the end of the story and listened silently.
"I waited day by day, despair day by day...... A month later, I knew that my dad was right and that aunt didn't really care about me. Iβjust a tool for her to marry my father. Wang Shuai said mockingly: "Actually, she would have had a chance to succeed, if she could have been more patient and smarter." My dad was very confident that she wouldn't come, and if she would come back to see me quietly, five times, as long as there were five times, it would be that he looked away. Then he changed his mind as I wished. Of course, in fact, it is unlikely that the aunt will come back so many times, and even if she really cares about me, it is very good that she can find time to come back two or three times. My dad's promise was not sincere, but there was no doubt that my dad would do what he said. β
Wang Shuai smoked a cigarette, smiled and said: "Later, I learned that fear can only be overcome by myself, my mother is gone, my father can't be by my side every day, I can only rely on myself." One day I was still scared after reciting the spell, and in a fit of anger I lost my temper and let the demons and monsters get out. As a result, I was not afraid that day. Later, I deliberately watched horror stories, and the more scared I was, the more I turned off the lights and forced myself to face the darkness...... Doesn't that sound like I was ridiculous when I was a kid? It's kind of boring to talk about these boring things when I was a kid now. β
"Empathy, though not as drastic as the way you respond. My father and I came here first, and it took a few years for my mom and sister to come over. When you are alone at home during the day, you will also be affected by the wind and grass, causing various negative associations. In particular, the door of the toilet is often moved by itself. At first, I dodged, but then I dodged more and more, and simply stood in the bathroom with a kitchen knife, saying to the air, 'If there are demons and monsters, come out, I'm not afraid of you.'" Either come out and fight, or leave my house. ββ
"Hahaha......" Wang Shuai smiled very happily, he didn't expect Chen Wenjin to be willing to say this, let alone have a similar experience, he couldn't help but say: "You don't react violently?"
"I was standing in the bathroom with a kitchen knife, staring at the door, thinking that the door would move on its own, so I slashed it, and if there was a demon, even if I couldn't see it, it must have pushed the door in that position, and if it could touch the door, I should be able to cut it. β
"You were fiercer than me when you were a child!" Wang Shuai felt the same and was very interested.
"Later, the door moved. I immediately swung my knife and slashed into the air. So I said into the air, 'I warned you!'
Wang Shuai couldn't help but smile and asked, "How long have you been guarding that day?"
"Two knives. Chen Wenjin remembered it very clearly, and said with a smile: "When the door moved for the third time, I was not so nervous, I felt that the evil demon was like that, and I only took a beating and did not fight back, and there was always a time to hit it." That's why I felt that when the door moved, there was wind!"
β...... Didn't you notice it earlier?" Wang Shuai was surprised that this was the reason.
"The balcony door, the toilet window were closed, and the possibility of wind blowing was ruled out at the beginning. At that time, I didn't understand it, but I wondered when I felt the wind, so I continued to wait for the door to move for the fourth time, and I was sure that there was still wind. I looked at it, and there was only the exhaust fan in the living room door and the bathroom, so I blocked the exhaust fan with my hand, and waited until the door moved for the fifth time to make sure that the wind was blowing out from there. I went to test the crack in the door again, and made sure that the wind came in from there. Chen Wenjin said with a smile: "I tossed back and forth for more than three hours before I found that it was the wind blowing." Later, I deliberately tested it many times, and when the wind was particularly strong outside, it would come in through the crack in the door, blow the door of the bathroom, and go out through the exhaust fan. β
"Your patience is so good!" Wang Shuai felt that they had similar experiences, but although the solutions were different, they both chose to overcome their fears in the end. "Neither of us chose to hide. I used to have a few friends who lived in the same building, and the situation was similar to mine, most of them were afraid to run to the balcony to shout in the air, or watch passers-by, and did not dare to stay in the house. Others hid in bed and covered with quilts. β
"Avoidance is the instinct of living beings, and people like us, if we set aside the primitive times, we will definitely not live long. In the era of peace, the main body that overcomes fear is the spiritual level, so there are many opportunities for trial and error left for us. β
"Makes sense...... Wang Shuai thought, and suddenly said: "Just for today's conversation, I must drink dozens of cups of it!"
"Can you drink Coke?" Chen Wenjin couldn't muster up his energy to drink beer. He wanted to go back, but at the moment he obviously didn't feel the need.
"Aren't you okay with beer?" Wang Shuai observed that Chen Wenjin had drunk so many times, and he hadn't seen him pour it.
"I'm tired of drinking. Chen Wenjin thought for a moment and said, "Drink cocktails." β
"Martini?"
"Mojito. β
"Go to my house to drink first, you haven't tried my cook's skills, and you don't know the level of my bartender, she is not resident in my house, she is bartending in the cat bar at night, and she only lets her come when necessary." Wang Shuai said, picked up the phone and dialed it out, and when he connected, he heard him say: "Where is Xiao Xiao? β
After chatting a few words, Wang Shuai hung up the phone, shrugged his shoulders, and said helplessly: "Xiao Xiao can't come, she is with Ami and them, it is not good to leave alone, and she is unwilling to lie to Ami." β
The two left the securities department and stopped a taxi.
After Xiao Wang's matter passed, Wang Shuai's father did not arrange bodyguards to drive him away, worried that the impact would not be good.
On the way, Wang Shuai called the bartender, and asked the cook what to cook, and at the end, he said: "Actually, I used to be quite greedy for the bartender's figure, but unfortunately she is a serious person, and I am afraid that I will not be able to finish the trouble and let my father know, so I have not dared to spend money on means." β
"You're afraid of your dad. Chen Wenjin couldn't help laughing, Wang Shuai didn't dare to say these two words, it was not easy.
"My dad was polite and respectful to her, and once we chatted, he said that a person like a bartender may marry someone in the future, and it is not surprising that he will become a leader's wife one day, and he can't be wrong to be polite. I think it makes sense, she is very good-looking, she is clean and self-conscious, her profession has a lot of contact, and it is not unusual for her to marry well. Wang Shuai thought about it, and suddenly said in confusion: "Recently, I sometimes can't help but wonder, is she a real scripture, or is she like a rose? I really want to find an opportunity to explore and verify in depth...... Why don't you take the time to go to the cat bar and observe. β
"Besides, I'm not as curious as you. "Chen Wen is indispensable today, and there is no strong interest in exploring it at present.
"Hmph, when you see her, maybe you'll change your mind, I'm greedy, it must be outstanding. Wang Shuai is very confident.