After being silent for a while, Zhang Tianyang suddenly spoke.

"Is this the first time you've encountered this?"

Sun Yu withdrew from the trance slightly and nodded slightly.

"Hmm. ”

Zhang Tianyang then smiled, "I'm not, I've met it once before." ”

He looked ahead, his eyes narrowed slightly, a little distracted.

Sun Yu's feelings he can understand.

When I faced death for the first time, I felt powerless, that kind of depression.

The feeling of watching the other party get closer to death little by little, but he can't do anything.

On the other side, it was still the person who was still smiling and chatting with her in the morning.

No, even just now I was smiling.

Smile and comfort her.

If it weren't for the doctor, maybe the other person wouldn't have felt any different from a normal person, right?

Knowing nothing is sometimes a kind of happiness, right?

Zhang Tianyang came back to his senses and turned his head to look at Sun Yu.

Her eyes seemed to be a little red, but she stubbornly stood up.

So Zhang Tianyang suddenly asked.

"Then you are obviously very sad, very unbearable, very unacceptable, when you just did a digital rectal examination, but you were so determined to go up?"

In fact, at that time, if Sun Yu shook his head and retreated because he couldn't bear it, he was completely understandable.

But she still got tough.

Sun Yu looked at him stunned, suddenly sniffed, and wiped away the tears that burst out of his eyes at that moment just now.

"Because, you have to improve.

To practice, to improve, to try, to become a little better.

Although, although it is very likely that there is still no way, but ......"

But I still want to try hard......

The more I know that tragedy is inevitable, the more I want to change my life.

As a doctor, this is even more so.

If you work harder, you may be able to save one more person in the future.

So, who is she to refuse every opportunity to practice?

Sun Yu's tears kept pouring out.

But his eyes began to regain their brightness.

Zhang Tianyang's question made her suddenly find what she had always been firm in her heart.

Yes, there are still many tragedies that we can't do yet.

But if you go back a few hundred years, what about the diseases that made people helpless at that time?

The tuberculosis that the ancients heard of was nothing more than tuberculosis with special medicine.

Difficult birth, which can easily kill one corpse and two lives, various modern instruments can be detected and dealt with early, but it is really not possible, and there is also a caesarean section.

and smallpox, which can kill a large area if it is stained, was declared completely eradicated worldwide as early as the end of 1979.

The efforts of generation after generation have never been in vain.

She quickly wiped away her tears and struggled to pull a smile on.

"I'll go see Senior Brother Meng, he should be explaining the specific situation to the patient. ”

33 beds are Sun Yu's patients.

It makes sense that she should follow to the end.

The room was quiet again.

Zhang Tianyang didn't follow.

He sat in his chair for a moment, then stood up again, walked to the front of the room, and turned off the lights.

The curtains in the conference room were thick, and when the lights were turned off, the whole room went dark.

Zhang Tianyang fell back into the chair and sighed silently.

He suddenly felt a little tired.

But he knew very well that he couldn't stop.

Can't stop.

......

After turning off the lights in the conference room and staying for half an hour, Zhang Tianyang walked out again.

"Senior Brother Zhang, it turns out that you are here. ”

Senior Brother Meng was looking for him.

"Let me tell you, 33 beds have been decided to be discharged.

I just gave him a doctor's order to be discharged tomorrow and will be out tomorrow morning. ”

Are you in such a hurry to be discharged from the hospital?

Don't you even want to try chemotherapy and radiotherapy?

Zhang Tianyang was a little puzzled, but after thinking about it, this was probably Mr. 33's own decision, and he felt that it should be so.

He could even imagine the appearance of Mr. 33 smiling and saying, "I'm not going to be hospitalized, I want to go home and have a look."

"Well, you may need to help my sister write his medical records.

You ......"

Senior Brother Meng paused, and stopped talking a little.

He was from the past, so he naturally saw that there was something wrong with Zhang Tianyang's state.

In the end, he just patted Zhang Tianyang on the shoulder.

"Just get used to it. ”

"yes, just get used to it. ”

Zhang Tianyang nodded lightly.

Maybe if you see too much, your heart can really harden, right?

......

When walking in the direction of the ward and the doctor's office, Zhang Tianyang suddenly paused and stopped in place.

A short distance away there was a cacophony of voices at the top of the staircase.

There is the sound of talking, and there is the sound of stumbling footsteps.

It sounds like a group of people are coming.

And listening to the movement, there are men and women, and it is conservatively estimated that there are more than 20 people.

Why is there a group of people coming over now?

Is it a dependent?

Wrong.

The bed in the hospital is usually alone, and sometimes the patient is alone.

It's hard to have three or four with you.

For example, the old woman I met in the Department of Infectious Medicine, accompanied by three children, was praised by doctors and nurses for her "filial piety" several times.

The family group that Zhang Tianyang has seen the most is still in the emergency department, the family group of the old lady who has suffered a cerebral infarction.

Sons, daughters, plus juniors, there can be a total of six people.

This is already extremely rare.

And this time, twenty people came up.

It can't be a family member.

Could that be an intern?

It's really possible.

Teaching at Oriental Medical University is modular.

All courses are divided into modules such as respiratory, digestive, circulatory, etc.

At the end of each module, there will be an opportunity to go to the corresponding department for an internship.

This kind of apprenticeship is indeed usually done by a large number of people together, and Zhang Tianyang has been here before.

But......

Zhang Tianyang turned his head and glanced at the digital clock above his head in the hallway.

It's already half past four in the afternoon.

The internship activities arranged by the East Resident Hospital are usually arranged early in the morning or half in the afternoon.

At this point, it is impossible to be a medical student.

With thousands of turns in his mind, Zhang Tianyang's body has already moved spontaneously.

He flashed back to the conference room behind him, and then quickly took off his white coat.

The action is so fast that it is distressing.

No matter what the other party is here for, be careful.

Then, adjusting his expression, he walked out in civilian clothes.

In case he came to find fault, he couldn't run away alone.

Taking off the lab coat is to avoid the onset of the "taunt" skill.

The way to get up close is to yell and put a few down first, buying time for the other doctors and nurses.

After all, he still has a grappling hand, which is true.

The whole process, Zhang Tianyang executed quickly, like instinct.

When he walked casually to the staircase again, the crowd happened to come out of it.

One after the other.

In the stairwell, the noise still echoes.

Zhang Tianyang's information is wrong, there are more than 20 opponents, and there are more than 30 conservative estimates.

It's an uphill battle.

He pretended to be curious.

Then, stunned.