So it's still related to Xie Xi.

The previous time, what reminded him of AIDS was also related to Xie Xi.

"The first time I bumped into you, what was the reason for that?"

Chen Lu thought for a while. I remembered what she said about that time, and said slowly: "That time, it was because of the wedding photo, and I had a little conflict with my mother." She said that the biggest failure of her life was because of me. “

Before Xu Suining, he always thought it was because of Zhou Yi.

Not really.

But you can imagine it. Chen Lu was hurt deeply by Xie Xi's unconscious words.

Xu Suining said distressedly: "Why did you never tell me." “

Chen Lu lowered his eyelids. said: "If a person is fine, he will not take the initiative to say that he is wrong." It's like someone digging up your body and whipping it. “

If she hadn't asked, Chen Lu wouldn't have said.

Xu Suining paused, she couldn't care about the wedding photos for the time being, she was more concerned about what happened when she was a child. Feeling that Chen Lu seemed to be a little cold, she wanted to undress him. Stopped by him.

"Let's go in. Because Chen Lu didn't eat, he didn't have much physical strength, and it took him a while to get up from the ground, and after getting up, he gasped for breath for a while before taking the key to open the door.

"Since you have the key, why didn't you go in before. “

"It's not my territory, it's the man's. Chen Lu said calmly.

Xu Suining somewhat understood his feelings, yearning, but repulsing. Chen Lu can accept that man, but it doesn't mean that he likes that man.

"Still. Now you're here, cold outside. Chen Lu said.

Xu Suining's eyes were sour again. Say, "I'm sorry. “

He paused slightly, tilting his head to look at her. The light from the window came in, and she saw how pale his face was. I didn't eat or drink for a day, and my body was really weak.

"There are many things that should be apologized to you, the first is that I don't trust you, you say you won't follow me when I go out. I don't believe it. And when you're sick, I still can't control my emotions. I didn't do any of that very well. “

Xu Suining wanted to go up and hug him. But Chen Lu avoided it.

He smiled, a little self-deprecating, and said, "It's all normal, and I know very well how terrible I am sometimes." The desire to control and the tendency to violence are very scary. If you are with me, you will be tired. I don't blame you. “

The degree of self-abandonment here can be said to be quite serious.

Xu Suining pretended to smile lightly and said, "Of course, I also have a lot of things to thank you." First of all, you have paid for my dad, and I always say that you have a bad attitude towards our parents. Actually, on second thought, in my dad's affairs. You really go out of your way. “

"In addition, I want to thank you for not bothering with Luo Zhihe because of my reasons. Chen Lu. I didn't like him, I just thought he was good and fit to be with. I feel that my understanding of love was not very thorough before. What worked well for me, I thought I could give it a try. After being with you. Well, I don't need to say more. If you are like this, I am willing to join you. “

"The most important point......" Xu Suining took a heavy breath. said in a trembling voice, "I also want to thank you for sparing no effort to save me from that human demon." “

She remembered a little more, Chen Lu had thought about asking her to speak before, and after hearing her say that she had a shadow for the first time, he actually mentioned it in a joking tone later, more like a test to see how deep her shadow was, and almost never mentioned it again.

He likes excitement very much, and he likes and mentions all the places and toys, but only that point, he seems to have forgotten, obviously this is the most common behavior of that thing.

In fact, he clearly understood her and was unwilling to poke her sadness.

After hearing her words, Chen Lu was also stunned, and then said, "You know." “

Xu Suining nodded and said, "But why do you never talk about it?"

Chen Lu turned her head, she couldn't see his expression clearly, she only heard him say slowly: "I'm unwilling, I want you to remember me by yourself, you said it yourself, you will remember me, but you have always forgotten me." “