I was very selfish at the time, I was really trying to study, I wanted to work very hard, if I got a good chance to take the exam, then my parents would definitely be reunited, there would be such a paragraph, I thought so at the time, the members of the group at that time were really precious to me.

And I should be very good at work, the world's top 500 companies, and in the management of this foreign-funded company, my salary should be relatively high in this city, of course, except for some unnecessary entertainment, I actually seem to be very dedicated to this job.

But sometimes I'm also very melancholy, because I don't like to socialize, and as a result, I wear this mask every day, which makes me feel not particularly happy.

So in terms of love, it's a joke, a super joke, because this joke can only be taken back by myself, and everyone thinks I have this sweetness and sweetness, but I know that it's just a cover.

And for my eldest brother, this is completely my best youth of an old iron, and sometimes the more I think about it, the more angry I become, I feel that the best aspect of my life has known him, and I have no one to pursue me, as if I have become a famous flower.

So for this, I often feel annoyed and angry, because I don't have the opportunity to show myself in this at all, everything I have now feels like my dream is invisible, I am really scared, it is really good once.

In such a big house, I really live alone, and it is very empty and empty, I feel very lonely, sometimes I will hear my own footsteps when I walk, I feel unsafe, I even consider whether to have a dog, whether to let this family have a little bit of laughter.

After thinking about it, forget it, because I have a dog, I am still quite afraid of dog conversations, like I am so busy with work, I don't have time to walk the dog, that is not delaying the dog's life.

I stood weakly in the door with my briefcase, and when I opened the door with all my might, I could turn on the lights in this room, and I didn't want to turn them on, because the outside lights shone directly into the dim inside of this room, but I could also see the outline of the room.

I walked over and sat on this couch, and I suddenly felt so tired, I felt that I was not the same physically, mentally, and physically, and I felt like I was overdrawn, because I was really not that, I was playing an imaginary self.

Yes, in the dead of night when I am alone and lonely, I will find that I am really, very lonely, just like this range hood, which wants to suck my spiritual qi away.

I let out a long sigh and immediately turned around and went to open the room.

Relatively speaking, I also belong to the image of a good girl in the eyes of others, not fighting or grabbing, and it represents a very pure and romantic appearance, so few seem to be outside of some experience, and I have never been to this place alone, really.

Others may not believe that a man like me who has the right and loves so much should have been to a bar, but I'm sure I used to stay at home except for my studies, and I simply felt empty and stuffy about a night life like a bar.

I really can't sleep today, I went down the stairs alone, I wore a pair of slippers and walked towards this bar, I walked in the empty streets, I really don't know which day, I can only feel the feeling of walking, I wait for my feet to hurt, I feel that there is just a decoration in front of me, very literary.

I pushed the door straight in, and when I just went in, the English song came from inside, and it was a song that I liked very much

day o

ce mo

e。

There aren't a lot of guests today, and the atmosphere is really very congenial and romantic, it's a kind of slow-haired bar very close, not like those places that you see on TV that rock is very noisy and very noisy, and there is no so-called spicy eye show.

We were in this bar bar, the citizens were adjusting their drinks, and in another lighted place, I saw a man talking about the guitar, and playing all the songs very beautifully, this song was slowly singing along with it, I suddenly remembered that this song really liked me, I suddenly had a sense of twilight, which made me feel that I was back to the beautiful youth of college life.

I was sitting on this bar counter and I didn't know what to drink, and then I started singing, and I followed the feeling, and looking at the way the wine looked, I lightly ordered a drink, because it was the novel I read yesterday, and said that the heroine was also a little bit.

"Give me a glass of beautiful life. ”

Later, I didn't expect to be really singled out by the beautiful life, this is a very strong vodka, the so-called beautiful life is actually very easy, let us experience the ups and downs, experience the swing.

The man next to him, and he was singing and playing this set of songs, I looked at him quietly, I didn't expect them to think it was very simple, but this simple music, this melody has a very tossing and turning, and with a kind of ambiguity, which makes people listen to it in their ears, and really feel a lingering sympathy.

The effect of the stage is not very bright, and this young man, his hair is really a bit like the kind of handsome guy who blows the saxophone.

With this handsome guy doesn't seem to care about the outside world at all, as if he can only be in his own world, as if he is immersed in this beautiful musical atmosphere, and all the worlds have nothing to do with him.

I dare to swear that this wine has a nice name, beautiful life, but I dare say that this wine is really bitter and very spicy, and when this wine goes directly from my mouth and into my stomach, I have a very easy feeling of vomiting fire.

This kind of wine really had a very strong, intense anesthetic effect, and my mind suddenly became groggy under the impact of this alcohol.

And this feeling of depression seems to have suddenly gotten a kind of catharsis, this wine is really good, I don't know why, I really feel as if there is a very empty feeling, as if I have been given a reason to use alcohol to kill my sorrows.

Yes, that's why I just want that.

It's been too long, I should have had a drink, sometimes I order a few more glasses of wine, different kinds of wine come out, I pour down the wine one by one, I feel very happy, because I can get carried away, but forget a lot of sorrow, I used to be in this dizzy state.

I even started to enjoy it, and it was so good for me.

I'm so lonely, I'm really feeling bad, I just can't linger for a long time, and it's always reminding me how much I want to get a little warmth from you, and there are so many things I crave.

Maybe it's because I'm sentimental, maybe it's because I've been empty for too long, I don't know why, but I'm listening to this music, and I'm going to start crying in this dazed night, and I really feel weird.

The tears really sprouted like boiling water, and they flowed down all at once, and I didn't even know why I was crying, and it would be hypocritical to say that I was crying for silence, and I even felt that I didn't know why I was crying.

I don't think there's really any special reason for these things, and I can only blame the other man next to me for why he was lying down with such sad songs, and why he wanted to draw out the sadness that I had so badly wanted to forget.

Suddenly, at this time, a tissue was handed to me, and I wiped the corners of my eyes directly, I felt my sadness, I felt my goal, I felt such warmth, I don't know who it came from?

At this time, a very gentle voice suddenly came to mind.

"I didn't expect me to play the piano so badly and stink, this is the first time I've seen someone cry when they listen to my guitar, shouldn't I feel flattered?"

I quickly wiped away my tears, I looked up, it was indeed this huge man who was looking at me with a smile, I can say that he is very handsome, he really belongs to that kind of particularly handsome man, and I am a person like me who wants to see what others do, I am indeed a little very insidious.

He opened a case and took two glasses of wine, one of which dripped a red one in front of me, and with a kind of shaking his head.

"Girls shouldn't drink such strong wine, and girls should drink something gentle, and you should try this beautiful evening with this glass of wine, which Jack has just debugged, and the name of this wine is A Rose. ”

I nodded, I was a little embarrassed, the beautiful life I just ordered, I thought I was a gifted thing, I showed my great power, in fact, in the eyes of others, I was still the image of a little sister.

I was directly drunk at the time, I didn't expect to choke for a while, and it doesn't matter, the stronger the more important, I hurriedly got up, picked up this tissue and covered my mouth tightly.

He patted me on the back with his hand, and with a very gentle face.

"It seems that we may not have passed the bartending, and a gentle and beautiful girl like you will still be choked after drinking this wine, so it means that this wine is not sweet enough, so we bartenders will be punished." ”

When I look at this person at this time, it doesn't seem very good if I don't get into the favor again, and I always think of that kind of bar, isn't it such a kind of pick-up?

If a strange man is with a strange woman, especially in the case of the outside, generally normal people are accosted because of this, and there may be more strange emotions, this situation is called a scandal.

I don't know why, I have a feeling in my heart that is about to move, maybe I don't know that an emotion is clamoring for me to contact such a man.

"Beautiful girl, thank you very much, thank you for your tears, I really like it, you make me feel as if I can have a chance to debut, as a hand I feel that my guitar is not so bad, what if, if you hear my Sykes, wouldn't it be more vigorous?"

I would like to express my gratitude from the bottom of my heart.

"I really think they are very good, I like this melody very much, it is very moving, it reminds me of those things that have happened, that is, just remembering some of the things that have happened, I am very grateful, because I have this beautiful experience, I don't feel very sad, but there are some memories. ”

And he smiled slightly, as if he was very satisfied with this function of my person, and he was very happy with what I said.

"Actually, I can listen to my songs here, I feel very satisfied, you are the only one who really listens to my songs all night tonight, and there is also a person who is crying, I feel that today is in my heart. ”

I followed his career and took a look at the bar, and there were really not a lot of customers in this group, probably sitting there in twos and threes, each of them sitting in the dark, everyone liked to be in the close, and they could all see from this group that they should be very romantic, and very much in love with each other.

He directly holds three stars, I look super handsome on the stage, and it seems to make people feel particularly beautiful, I didn't expect one of his songs, his era singing voice is more noisy than he thinks he is.

"Do you like it? I play the saxophone, this is one of my favorite songs, for my beautiful girl. ”

I don't know why, I don't really want to laugh, I just think he must be a very interesting person, I'm like this, I should be talking, I should have a good sense of humor in all aspects, I should be in contact with him, and if I get in touch with him, I should be very happy.

And the two of us talked very well, we talked about a lot of things, ancient and modern, Chinese and foreign people want to talk about anything, for this stranger I have never closed my heart, and the wine we drink is also a glass of people who drink down the person doesn't care at all, as if you can drink until you are old.

I even have some strange thoughts, I think I should be able to become a confidant with him, and we will be like the feeling of Boya in ancient times, and it is difficult to find a confidant in the mountains and rivers.

I kept drinking, and before I knew it, I really felt dizzy, and when I took the last sip, I felt that I was lying on top of the bar, and I felt that my body was out of control, my head was already groggy, and I felt that I really couldn't control my strength.

I felt like someone was supporting me, I was calling me, I looked at him and I thought he was me, I looked at him very anxious and worried, and I smiled directly at him like that.

"Your wine is really good, very special, have another drink, I would love to drink, great, hurry up and give me another drink." ”

And this adjustment is from hand and there is no joke, I feel very helpless, I just feel that he is rubbing my face, rubbing it with ice, I just feel vaguely, I feel that I have a feeling of being cared for, but I am confused, but it is very comfortable, and I hold his hand, I feel this feeling, it makes me feel very unforgettable.

I don't know why, I felt very lonely, I threw myself directly into his arms, I hugged his waist tightly, I seemed to want to find a piece of warmth here, I suddenly felt his body, but quickly gave me a backhand to hold me.

yes, that's how I need to feel.

I've forgotten who I am at all, I've kind of forgotten that I'm taking a group photo, I've even forgotten my identity, I've forgotten the script of your big heroine, I've even forgotten where I'm at, I know I've been lonely for too long, I mainly want to make myself feel lonely, I sometimes hate my loneliness, because I can't find a partner to share, I even feel like a traveler who is about to suffocate.

What did I suddenly grasp with my hand?

I suddenly realized that my whole body had been lying flat in the north, and I suddenly grabbed one of the other person's shirts, I don't know why I was so hard myself, I felt the buttons of one of the other party's shirts being pulled and broken by me.

I'm too good for this, I seem to be exploring, I can't help but hug each other, and I subconsciously look for warmth, I feel that action is a salvation for me, something that the depths of my soul crave.

"Don't leave me?"

"I've been afraid of loneliness since I was a child, I'm afraid of loneliness, I've worked really hard to learn, but I want to get everyone's attention to me, I've worked hard, I want to know everyone's praise for me, I really show myself the most perfect everything, why do you demand so much from me, in fact, I'm really lonely, I want to have a conversation like a normal child, I want to let myself grope me, I used to laugh, why are you so demanding of me. ”

"Please don't leave me, I'm really tired and tired, I want to take a good rest. ”

"Life is so difficult, why do you have to torture yourself so much? I'm really like a lonely traveler, I'm tired from walking, I want to stay here for a while?

I don't know why, I keep talking about me, don't mess with someone to say this, I feel like this, my own mouth is very tired, I just know that I want to hear in his arms, and I don't care who he is, who it is, whether it's the devil or not, I just want to forget that it's hurt in his arms.

I don't know why, I suddenly had a feeling of being thrown in the clouds, as if I suddenly felt that something was filling my heart, and I said that I was wrapped tightly in some way.

I know what it is that makes me feel wonderful, unique, and comfortable.

Finally I heard a voice whispering slowly next to me.

"Every girl, if you want, if you wish, then I give you this is the most wonderful feeling. ”

I swear, that's what I want!