But I really couldn't forgive myself, I was in a deep sense of self-reproach for him, and I cried.

"Boss, it's all my fault, if it weren't for my problem, he wouldn't have jumped off the building like this, I didn't give him a psychological comfort, we have to protect him well." ”

"A lot of things are not something you can decide, there are a lot of fate elements in life, and this kind of negative news anytime and anywhere is like a knife in the potential darkness, how do you know when these negative news will be blown? If someone wants to harm you, it is really impossible to prevent it. Even if you know these things, but you can't stop it, because others have already tried to put it to death, you should think about it, I believe that Lehi's spirit in heaven will not blame you, you have done a good enough job of this matter, and you have enough friendship with Lehi, I hope you can put down this matter and have a long way to go. ”

Even the boss comforted me like this, I knew that the boss had his own pattern, and I understood what the boss meant.

But aren't people trees, especially for two people who have feelings, how can they give up if they can?

I can't think about it, I can only tell my boss directly about my idea, because I have to have a responsible attitude towards this matter.

"The boss is all my fault, and it has caused such a big impact on the company's public opinion, I should bear this responsibility for this matter, then I think I have to resign because of this matter, and the boss I think I can't affect the overall image of the company because of me. ”

The owner didn't speak, just poured me another cup of tea and gave me a look.

"Ou Ruoxi, you are not responsible for this matter, I just told you, a person's fate is in your own hands, you can't interfere with the fate of a person, this is of course a feng shui, I hope you must know a position you are in, you don't want to follow Sister Wang's example, she is a deep fame and left, how could you just run away in a hurry at this time?"

However, the boss's public opinion has a great impact on the company. ”

The boss outright denied my conclusions.

"Ou Ruoxi, I will give you a 10-day vacation now, you can take a good rest, adjust your mood, and then return to a normal job when your mood calms down, okay? Don't give me a timely conclusion now, wait for you to recover first, I believe you should be able to grasp your life." ”

The boss said so, and I can't refute it, I know that he is a very elegant kind of person, of course, he is also a very determined person, and generally does not easily change this responsibility because of any small things.

So I didn't want to have too much discussion with my boss about this.

"Ou Ruoxi I know that you have been very busy with work in the past two years, basically you have not received any annual leave, you have made a lot of efforts for this company, and I also asked Fei Yan, and also said that there is no notice during this time, and there will be a formal job until nearly half a month later, take advantage of this time, both of you can take a good rest, and lest Fei Yan's work may affect you, so after you have rested, the formal work will also begin, so that everyone can get a good rest for each other, why not." ？”

"Okay, thank you boss. ”

I went straight to the parking lot after talking to my boss because I was really tired and I really needed this 10 days to let the center face me and see if I was willing to accept the job and work hard for it again.

I went downstairs and called Fei Yan directly: "Thank you." ”

"Why thank me?"

"If it weren't for you complaining in front of the boss that you were working too hard, complaining that you didn't have any job notices in the next half a month, you just wanted to have a good rest and asked for a vacation at this time, so the boss also gave me this 10-day vacation by the way, it wasn't because of you, how could I get this free time?"

"Ou Ruoxi, this has nothing to do with you, I am indeed tired of touring 20 cities during this time, and I also need to take annual leave, okay?"

I know that he is thinking about me, and he will never admit that he has a hard mouth when he does those things, even if he does anything for me, he will not want to admit it, and this is part of his character.

In addition, it was very late last night, and I kept crying and calling him, so I realized how heavy my negative emotions were, and there was no way to find anyone, only the person I knew best, that is, Fei Yan.

There are a lot of things between people, although we broke up and are not together, but I am sure that the only man who can really understand me best in this life is this man.

He asked me, "How are you going to spend the 10-day vacation?"

I sighed: "I don't want to go on vacation, I don't want to travel, I just want to go home, I want to sleep well at home, the kind that can't wake up for 10 days and 10 nights." ”

Yes, when a person is outside, no matter how tired you are, no matter how much wealth you have, no matter how poor you are, but home is always the string of the kite in your hand.

No matter how far you fly, you will still choose the direction of the kite, and the place with your parents may be the happiest and safest place.

I packed my luggage directly that night, booked a plane ticket directly, and flew early tomorrow morning, and then sent a short message to Luo Jin:

I'm going home, I'm on annual leave.

Luo Jin should be on a business trip in Europe at this time, I don't know why I sent him a short message, in fact, I hope he doesn't bother me anymore, I don't know why I treat this feeling, I maintain a kind of detached, maybe it's a spare tire for me.

I do not know.

On the second day, at 7:00 a.m., I didn't want to think about anything, I didn't want to have any sadness and happiness bothering me, I said that I was completely like a born baby, no thoughts, no joys, sorrows, and the whole person was completely empty.

To completely withdraw from this disturbing and brilliant entertainment industry is like being in a stormy wave, with side legs, because this incident has scarred me.

I don't want to face these problems anymore, I don't know if I'll be beaten down by this huge wave and sink when I go to face it.

When I got home, my parents weren't at home, the gate was locked, and I didn't inform them that I was coming back, so they should do things again, so I sat at the door of the house and threw a luggage, like an abandoned child, lonely waiting for the return of my parents.

I knew that my parents would not come back until ten o'clock in the evening, and when they saw that I was emaciated and had fallen asleep against this wall, they woke me up, and it dawned on me that it was almost dusk.

My father looked at me anxiously.

"What's the matter, my precious girl, you didn't call me when you came back, you came back and called us, what are you doing sitting here alone? It's very cold, hurry up and come into the house. ”

Seeing my father's anxious and confused eyes look at me, I knew I couldn't have any worries from them, so I smiled at him wearily and waved the phone at him.

"I wanted to call you, but my phone just ran out of battery. I came back from my annual leave, I'm hungry now, I want to eat, father, hurry up and give me a bowl of noodles, I'm so hungry!"

I exaggerated my father's hand, with a coquettish taste, that is, from the child.

My father also patted my head fondly: "Okay, now you can eat egg noodles immediately, since it's the New Year's leave, then stay at home and take a good rest, your mother is going to talk to others about business, and she will definitely come back later." ”

My father carried my luggage directly into the room, which was a natural behavior, and although I was a strong woman outside, I would always be a child when I got home.

My father made me a bowl of egg noodles with tomatoes and a lot of kimchi on top, and it tasted delicious.

I'm hungry, I've been hungry all day, I haven't eaten from morning to night, I've just been waiting for this bowl of noodles at home, is this the only bowl of noodles that can save this barren soul.

I couldn't get enough of eating all the soup and laughing at the empty bowl for my father.

"Father, the food you cook is so delicious, I tell you your food, even if I can't find the taste of my hometown in our city, it feels so good to come back, I am so happy, I want to eat well in these 10 days!"

My father looked at me with some confusion and seemed a little uncertain, because my behavior seemed to be different from usual, and maybe there were too many jumps in front of him.

"Why are you coming back alone? It's really an annual vacation, it's just the New Year, and you're on annual leave, so it's better to wait until the summer vacation to take annual leave and come back with Luo Jin." ”

I coquettishly held my father's hand.

"The company took annual leave, but I said, the company took annual leave is to take everyone's turn, not to choose the time at will, if everyone unifies a time for annual leave, then how can the whole company operate? ”

"Okay, my precious daughter is the best, hurry up and go to the room to take a shower and get some sleep, your mother may not come back until late in the evening, I will make you a good dinner in the evening, and wait for your mother to come back." ”

I smiled brightly at my father and went back to my room with my luggage.

After taking a shower, lying in my small room, everything was really like a dream, and I walked out of here to the right back of the mountain, and then from the outside bustle back to the mountain.

Once the sea was difficult to water, except for Wushan, it is not a cloud.

I fell asleep on the couch in a daze, very tired, and only breathing the breath of the mountains of my hometown at home made me feel that I could let my whole soul settle and be born.

In a daze, I saw someone sitting on the sofa next to me and unloaded his foot, and I saw that it was my mother who had opened a little gap in my eyes.

My mother looked at me and said to my father worriedly, "Did you really say that you came back from annual leave?" She looks really tired, let her sleep well. ”

My father was also worried, as if he had a lot of doubts about my return: "I'm very happy to see my daughter come back today, nothing should happen, I want to ask her and she may not say, let her say what she wants, don't force her if she doesn't want to say." ”

"Yes, you must not force the woman to say those words, it is very tiring to wander outside, the pressure in the big city is very high, much more stressful than us juniors, we don't bother our daughter when we go home, let her stay here happily, don't wake her up, let's go." ”

I squinted and I didn't roll over, but I knew they were watching me quietly from behind, with a kind of affection.

Then they slammed the door shut, and they crept away.

I was rolling over, tears were falling from my eyes, silently, I knew that all people in this life could betray me, and everyone could not understand me.

But only my relatives, they will give me infinite tolerance by the sea no matter what.

This night I slept very soundly, slept very deeply, left all the disturbances out of my mind, completely let myself settle down, and empty myself.

By the time I woke up, it was the second day of the sun shining through the window.

Ever since Lehi's accident, I've been in a state of insomnia every day, and I've only been able to sleep for two or three hours intermittently.

I finally got enough sleep today.

When I got down the stairs, I saw my mother feeding the chickens, and she was very happy to see me, and she smiled kindly.

"What do you want your baby daughter to eat? Mother will make it for you right away, do you want to eat your favorite rice balls and mash?"

"Ouch, mother, I really want to eat your glutinous rice balls, the soup needs big glutinous rice balls, it's better to add more sesame filling, I'm hungry and add a little more sugar and polysaccharides, I'm hungry and cooing, I'm getting thinner." "I reached out and hugged my mother, with a very coquettish taste.

My mother touched my hair dotingly.

"Ou Ruoxi, you are really a girl who is not shy, you are in your twenties, you are about to get married, and you have become like a seven or eight-year-old girl, and you are still arguing to eat this kind of thing, okay, don't be coquettish anymore, be careful of your Luo Jin will feel incredible when he sees you like this. ”

Seeing my mother mention Luo Jin intentionally or unintentionally, I also smiled faintly, I seemed to feel that they were worried that I wouldn't be able to get married, or that they were worried about whether I was having trouble with Luo Jin.

My mother went directly to bring me a bowl of mash dumplings, and it seemed that my mother had already known that she was prepared, and I ate it happily.

"How many days do you have to stay at home, do you listen to your father tell you that you are going to stay for a 10-day vacation?"

Looking at my mother's uneasy look, I could only tell them some truths, because so as not to worry and speculate too much on their part.

"Well, I might stay for 10 days, maybe a week, because the company gave me an annual leave, so I might have to target a job on the company's side. ”

"Since you are on annual leave, then you should go on a trip with Luo Jin or something, don't young people like to travel very much? ”

"Mother, don't think about it so much, I'm just thinking about you this annual leave, so I want to come back, can't I come back?"

My mother looked at me, still confused.

"You just came back for the Chinese New Year, and it's only been a little more than a month since the holiday, and you're missing us again, how can it be? Is there a problem between you and Luo Jin?

It's easy to understand what mother doesn't want her daughter to have a smooth marriage, and that is a top priority in their eyes.

"Mother, how do you think of these messy things, Luo Jin is very busy with work during this time, and he has already gone on a business trip to Europe at the end of the year, so the two of us meet every day, and I feel very tired, so I want to go home. ”

My mother's slightly relieved look made me feel embarrassed.

"Ou Ruoxi must know that Luo Jin is a very good man, a man who can be entrusted for life, a visit during the Chinese New Year in the future, he is really very good, as long as you don't quarrel, I hope you enter the marriage as soon as possible, I really like him, and I really hope to give birth to a few grandchildren for me soon." ”

I'm a little speechless, seeing that you are really worried about this one thing in your heart, it seems that their good impression of Luo Jin is much better than I imagined.

"Mother, this matter has to be done slowly, we have only known each other for a short time, how can we talk about marriage so quickly, at least we have to fall in love freely, and we will only consider this matter after two years, and the two of us have been together for less than half a year, and I don't want to get married so soon. ”

"You don't want to get married so soon, Luo Jin is such a good man, such a man was quickly snatched away by others, you have to be quick and place an order quickly!"

I really couldn't laugh or cry, and told my mother that getting married was like placing an order, as if I liked a certain product in Taobao and placed an order to buy it directly.

I helped my mother beat her back and said coquettishly.

"Okay, mother, when the Double 11 Festival is active, I will definitely consider placing an order for you as soon as possible, okay? ”

"Ou Ruoxi, I can tell you, don't let me go with such good conditions, then I can't spare you. ”

I looked at my mother's appearance, and I really smiled bitterly, it seems that my marriage is a big deal in my mother's eyes.