46. It turns out that I am the loneliest
Ming Yan took the piece of paper they replied to, walked into the house, and read what they had just written again, Ming Yan shook his head: "Did I really raise a daughter?" These words felt like Ming Yan would say to his son in the future, but he didn't expect to say them to Mint.
With a dry taste, he put the paper away, drank a big sip of ice water, took a long breath, and took out a piece of letter again, Ming Yan thought for a while, and wrote on the letterhead.
After I finished writing, I put the letter in the mailbox, looked at the time, and went to bed, and I had to go to work tomorrow.
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Li Zhien was lying on the bed, with his eyes open, looking at the ceiling, unable to sleep and thinking about something that only he knew, the wind outside the window was blowing, the curtain was blown open a corner, Li Zhien saw the stars in the sky, today, there are many stars in the sky, very beautiful.
When you can't sleep, people will be cranky, and the memories of the past flashed in Li Zhien's mind little by little.
She thought a lot, since she can remember, Li Zhien should not be happy, the most thing she did when she was a child was to have fun in suffering.
Looking at other people's children, every time there are parents to pick up and drop off from school, and she has been alone since she was very young, she also envied this, over time she didn't look at these things, every time she used to get out of school, she was the first to run out, just to not see those parents when they saw their children.
When other people's children were still playing, Li Zhien began to help her grandmother cook and clean the house, she never complained about anything, and always told her grandmother some happy things.
But from school to trainees, and finally to now, Li Zhien is always alone, and she rarely sees friends around her.
It turns out that she is really lonely, looking out the window, the moon is out, it's good, today is a full moon, and the moonlight is sprinkled next to Li Zhien's bed.
The sleepiness gradually came, Li Zhien closed his eyes and slowly fell asleep.
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Ming Yan stood at the window of the pantry, looking down at the people and cars coming and going under his feet, the people under his feet were like ants, shuttling through the streets, life is like this, busy and busy, for a meal, to run all day.
Yu Shujun patted Ming Yan: "What are you doing?" ”
Ming Yan looked back at him: "What's wrong, don't look at your wife." ”
Yu Shujun smiled: "You can't always look at it, right, otherwise it will delay your work." ”
Ming Yan also laughed: "But you didn't watch it before, what did you do before?"
"Eh, what you said, I've been in the company for so many years, haven't I done anything?"
"Uh...... Isn't it?"
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"You force yourself to squeeze out every day. ”
A big smile. ”
"How many times have you been wronged. ”
"I didn't dare to speak out. ”
"Let all the tears that flow. ”
"It's all an excuse hidden in the charming eyes of the evening breeze. ”
"And your grief is thick. ”
"Who understands. ”
"It's just a big dream. ”
"It's just a lonely shadow. ”
"It's just a dream of the white horse. ”
"There are some encounters in my dreams. ”
Li Xuan was playing and singing by herself, and the three of them were sitting next to her.
Recently, their singing has formed a style, and at the end of each night, Li Xuan will play and sing a song by herself.
Li Xuan finished singing the last sentence, which meant that today was about to end, and Ming Yan and the others stood up, bowed like the audience, said goodbye, and packed up.
Most of the audience has dispersed, but there are still a few people who have not left, taking photos with Li Xuan, Ming Yan and a few of them, whenever they see someone taking a photo with Li Xuan, they will squat next to the big tree in the moat, smoking a cigarette.
"Why don't you ask me to take pictures? Spit out a puff of cigarette, Wang Dawei said.
"No one is looking for me, why is that? Tian Zifu also said in a foggy manner.
Ming Yan smiled: "I'm okay, there were people looking for me to take photos before, you ...... Has no one been looking for a picture of you?"
Wang Dawei and Tian Zifu looked at Ming Yan with that kind of indescribable eyes, and Ming Yan choked.
"Ahem, ahem, that, you keep smoking, I'm going to clean up the instrument. ”
Li Xuan walked over and looked at Ming Yan: "Brother Ming, you don't have to send me tonight, I'm going to go home, my mother called me today." ”
Ming Yan nodded, "Okay." ”
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Ming Yan returned to the community, saw Lao Zhutou's shop, thought about coming back early today, so he walked to the convenience store next to him to buy a bottle of wine and walked to his store.
Pushed the door and walked in, saw Lao Zhutou watching TV, and said with a smile: "Ah, do you know that I am coming, sit here and wait for me?"
Lao Zhutou looked at Ming Yan: "What are you doing here again, you little melon, looking for a fight." ”
Ming Yan said with a smile on his face: "Isn't this yesterday about cooking noodles by yourself without authorization, isn't it here to make amends to you today." As he spoke, he raised the wine in his hand.
Looking at the wine in his hand, Lao Zhutou swallowed his saliva: "It's okay if you stinky boy have a heart." ”
Ming Yan put down the wine, and Lao Zhutou walked to the back kitchen, bringing a plate of peanuts and a few snacks.
The two of them are like this, in the night, you drink one cup and I drink one by one.
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Lee Ji-eun didn't announce for a while, and returned home to live with his grandmother and younger brother, watching Lee Jong-hoon clumsily playing the guitar.
"You're not doing it right, your finger is on the wrong string. Li Zhien said as he took his hand and taught him how to press it.
"Alright, you're trying. ”
Lee Jong-hoon looked at the score in front of him and slowly played it.
A very simple short piece of guitar score, which was quickly played, Li Zhien nodded: "Well, it's okay this time." ”
Lee Jong-hoon glanced at her and didn't say anything, who asked her to teach herself to play the guitar.
"Let's practice on my own, I'm going to help my grandma cook. Li Zhien said.
In the evening, after dinner, Li Zhien estimated the day, there should be a letter today, so she was going to go back to her usual place and get the letter.
Put on a black coat, put on a mask and a hat, went out, took a car, came to the gate of the community, paid the fare, and walked into the community.
Came to the door, Li Zhien opened the mailbox, there was a letter inside, and a paper crane, Li Zhien smiled, took out the letter, thought for a while, took out the key to open the door, and walked in.
She hadn't been here for almost two months, and since the last time she had written to Lime, she had gone home to live with her grandmother, and looking at everything familiar in the house, Lee turned on the light and sat down at the table.