I really wanted to go up this staircase, this program is the most beautiful place for me to connect to time and space, and it is also the real love between me and Luo Jin, but now my feet suddenly go limp, and I really look at the knife with very frightened eyes.

Brother Xiaodao didn't look at me at all silently, just turned around.

"If you don't want to go up at all, Miss, I said that there is no one living up there at all, and it doesn't make much sense for you to go up now, so let's just go home, maybe we can take a hot shower when we go home, and everything will be in the past. ”

I suddenly went and tugged at his sleeve, I was really sad, I looked at him with a very safe eye, because I knew that there was no way for me to go back at this time, I wanted to go up and see, I wanted to go up and say goodbye to him.

"Please, Brother Knife, can you bring a few with you? I want to go and see it, I really want to go and see it. ”

Brother Xiaodao didn't lock him up at all in the dark, he really looked like a long Yizhi, like a very stern kind of robot, without any trace of emotion, after a long time.

He said slowly.

"I'm sorry, Ou Ruoxi, many things should be understood, some things are not such a situation from the beginning, if it really deviates from these expectations of the best of us, then the later things may go all over the line, forgetting a team, you should know how to grasp this matter. ”

He went straight to the point where I was going to die.

What else can I say, I just feel very uncomfortable, I feel like I don't have any strength in my body, I'm exhausted, I don't even have a standing position, I sit slowly on this stairwell, I sit here and look up, it's a black curtain building, and if I turn a corner, I should be in that small room.

That is when I don't have the courage or strength to go any further, at any step, I watched the moon in the sky faintly shine on the little dark house, but it can be seen that there is still no life in it.

It's like that little black house, but it's just a past in the past.

I sat on this high staircase, I was really sad, I was sad, I was confused, I didn't know that this thing was important to me, but I didn't know whether to tell Brother Xiaodao or follow myself.

"Tell me what you said he was really kind to me back then, and was it really a great joy that we found out everything on this little secret?"

I don't know if this answer will be true for me, I can't ask all this from other people's mouths, and after he received Yang Bingbing today, I feel that those feelings that once happened to me that I was sure of have undergone earth-shaking changes at this time.

I looked at Brother Knife, but he didn't answer any of my questions, he just leaned against this wall and smoked, like a lonely knight.

I just feel that this black knight has gone with the wind like the past, and there is no situation for you to stay in this thing anymore.

Just as a philosopher does well, time is always passing, and you can never be on the same river at the same time.

Years later, I didn't understand what this truth was, but now I understand that I can never stand at the same time at the top of the same years.

That means that the past is like flowing water, and the past can never be recovered.

His enthusiasm is just turning into a spring water flowing eastward.

"Really, I don't think I can bear it anymore, I don't think I have the courage, I don't have the strength, but I can't just die, you know what it's like? I'm like a walking corpse now, sometimes I may be very numb and tell myself, maybe the last year or two is between an exhibition for the whole company, maybe the former teachers, but this is a very beautiful dream that I had, and now this dream is dead, and now it has turned into a nightmare, everything is good, nothing is gone. ”

I shot as I looked down the dark staircase, tears welling up in both of my eyes, and I knew I couldn't stop my emotions.

Brother Knife was still leaning against the stairs, still smoking a cigarette.

He was still like a black man shrunk in this black shadow, eternally one, and did not say a word at all.

But I felt like he was listening to everything I said, so I was still slowly elaborating there.

"Yes, then the dream of this incident has passed, I just realized that everything started a nightmare, a father who had nothing to do, because my mother who had a stroke may still be able to love me as well as before, and Luo Jin is still that Luo Jin, and I am still a happy and carefree great princess, and I also think that I deliberately ran here today, what do you mean? Do you think I really deliberately made Luo Jin's eyes ugly in his heart?"

I was filled with a kind of anger, which was quite sad, and my emotions were like being in the middle of the sea.

Anytime and anywhere, it will be swept away by the torrential rain and swept by the strong wind, and it will be patted into the depths of the deep sea at once, and it will never be able to turn over.

"Then let me tell you, think about how he treated you back then, how he called me back from abroad, and asked me to wait for him to wait for this result, and told me to come with me to France for a doctorate anyway, I went to study design, and he studied finance, all of which were completely designed, and he has fully agreed to these things, but why has everything changed so much, why do you have to treat me like this, why did I tell me all at once?"

My head is getting more and more dizzy, I am numerically numerical on one side, I am depicting the emotions in my heart for so many years, I have not had these feelings for many years, such thoughts have been deeply cultivated in one of my minds, I have really never talked to anyone.

I really just felt like I couldn't control my emotions anymore, and my emotions were like a swamp for people to sink into.

My head is getting dizzier and dizzier, and because of the alcohol I drank today, I can't seem to distinguish the winds from the east and west, and I feel that my emotions have reached the verge of collapse, and I feel that if I continue to talk about it, I may not be able to do anything earth-shattering.

I'm about to fall asleep on this wall, and I'm talking about it as I go.

At this time, Brother Xiaodao finally stood up from the darkness, he helped me up, and after walking up the stairs step by step, he pushed open the small black room, which was a room I was familiar with, he turned on a room light, and a musty smell came to his face, it seems that this room is really a lot of people who have not lived in it.

"So you can sleep or lie down in this room first, and I'll ask someone to buy you a new towel and a new bucket to wash and fall asleep first." ”

"Well, I don't want anyone, I don't need anything, as long as Luo Jin, I call Luo Jin to come to me, and I'll be fine?"

My head is really dizzy at this time, I don't have any strength to speak, I am completely like a drunk person muttering things, but I know what my real thoughts are saying, although I can't express a lot of emotions, but I can really express my emotional problems in every thing and every word.

He followed a few steps, and at last turned around, and looked very earnestly and quietly, with a look of great silence.

I also looked at him, and the two of us were discussing, and I could clearly see in his eyes that he had a very sensitive emotion.

No, it was a very sympathetic emotion, even an emotion of sympathy for the weak, and then this is what I saw very clearly, I saw very clearly, that is, he was in sympathy and pity.

"Ou Ruoxi, I hope you understand and understand this matter, I hope you don't do these meaningless self-imagination feelings, in fact, many things should not be understood, so how does the young master treat you, I think I don't want me to say more to you about these things, you should have such a size in your heart, sometimes he is not good to you, then many things are a choice made by yourself, you really don't complain, you don't do this kind of meaningless rural things, it's really not a good thing for anyone!"

I asked you, I really want to look at him, it's so hard to be strong, and of course it's a kind of sadness that I can't put into words.

"Can I make a multiple-choice question? Do I have a right to do this multiple-choice question? When is it my turn to do a multiple-choice question, I don't have the right to do a multiple-choice question, I am completely passive, it wasn't because of his deception, not because he asked me to come back from abroad, how could I be reduced to the current self-formulation, and then simply let me go into a car accident like my mother, isn't it better? There are many things that are really a hundred, so why did you do such a thing to me in the past two years? If you treat me as what kind of person you have treated me in the past two years, is it just an object of revenge? Let me tell you, even if my mother used to do something to this family back then, it was enough, but he treated me as a tight puppet, and when he was done, he looked at what it was, why was he so tired of me, and he had already married Yang Bingbing, why didn't he let me get out of here, and didn't let me leave immediately, I can leave without caring and frankly, as long as he agrees! ”

At this time I cried out loud like a madman, I felt that I didn't know the money, my appearance must be out of control, it was the alcohol that gave me courage.

I really want money lol.

This world is crazy enough, and everything is enough, so that the parties can sink immediately.

By the way, I counted something, and I didn't do anything.

"I'm sorry Ou Ruoxi, if you really have any questions, you can go directly to the young master, I have nothing to say about these things, and I don't know, I just blame you for telling me that there is no point at all!"

He is still so cold, still like a bull's head, his loyalty to Luo Jin must be conceivable, I know that I am just a dispensable person in front of him.

I don't have the strength anymore, I feel really sad, my hands are pressed against this wall, I hurt me to death, I stopped my feet, it looks very decadent.

I waited for him alone in the dark.

I wasn't really scared at all, I knew it was my truest emotion, but no one understood that I was like an abandoned orphan in this world.

Brother Xiaodao quickly bought a brand new towel and a brand new poke back.

But before he could come back, I had crept away, for I had watched him come down the alley through this window.

I didn't care about him, I immediately walked upstairs, I wanted to go and see, I wanted to know what the hell was going on in this place, I honestly, I had never walked in this place in the dark.

I was dizzy, I walked out step by step, and my head really felt very shaky.

I walked across the street and I sat on this off railing, and I pulled money out of my wallet.

I went to the commissary to buy a pack of cigarettes and a lighter, I have never smoked, but today I want to smoke properly.

I'm sitting on this railing, just like those things that Ah Fei you do, I smoke a cigarette and shake my head to share, I think it feels really good, this thing is all this, as long as you indulge yourself, everything will not feel so much heavy pressure.

I didn't think that smoking was such a painful thing to make you feel smoking, I used to hate those who smoked very much, and I couldn't smell those so-called strong smells for a day, but I didn't expect that when you actually use this smell, it is not particularly repulsive.

At this time, I suddenly saw this little knife brother coming from there.

I saw the people he was with him all the way.

"I'm sorry I saw a girl in her early twenties, wearing a long purple dress, and she looks very beautiful, can you find out where she is? Can you tell me?"

"I'm sorry, how can we see a girl for so long, you can still get rid of this girl?"

I heard them talk like this in the dark, and I almost died laughing, and my belly was almost hurting with laughter, and I hit them directly.

"Hey, I'm here, how can you run to find someone? How do you find where your eyes go? Come here and smoke a cigarette, this scenery is wonderful, this effect is really good, if you are not empty, can you help me bring two beers!"

Brother Xiaodao immediately rushed to the rooftop at this time, dragged me off the balcony of this middle platform with one hand, and directly snatched the cigarette butt from my hand with the other hand, and looked at me with a very stern look, fierce.

"You're crazy, aren't you? If you want to die, why don't you just jump down from this building, as if you're shaking your head and smoking here, don't you think it's shameful enough? Where did you buy it?"

"What I wouldn't buy downstairs, but how do I get a serious cigarette?"

After I said this, he didn't say a word at all, and I knew that I was really like an invincible hero in my heart.

Actually, I don't know why this thing came from, I just went to the commissary and bought this pack of cigarettes.

But Brother Xiaodao immediately looked at me with a very affirmative, and immediately very abrasive and angry look.

"No, you can't stay here now, this place is a very dangerous thing for you, you don't obey at all, then I'll tell you first, you have to follow me back now!"

"Then what's there to worry about, you think too much, Luo Jin doesn't know these things about himself, you don't know that I can smoke, what are you afraid of, I don't know why you are so good Luo Jin?

I looked at him, and I really let out a very brotherly smile, yes, why does this thing keep coming and going this way?

"Brother Xiaodao, what are you talking about? Why can't I smoke? Besides, Luo Jin actually appears every day, and my father also does those things every day, and he puts some nutritional products in my mother's milk every day, do you know? That is what their father and son are best at doing things, why are they only allowed to do these things, don't I not allow myself to be a personal choice?"

"Don't talk nonsense about these things, this thing is not the person you can talk about at all, this thing is not something you can understand at all, you don't understand it at all!"

"I don't know anything, I know everything, you think you can deceive me, in fact, I have long understood, do you think that only you know these things? I tell you, in fact, I knew it many years ago, I just didn't say it!"

He didn't say a word to me at all, he couldn't stand firm in the action of dragging me and dragging me immediately, Liangliang dragged me here directly with such a direct and big action, I stood there very stubbornly, and there was no big change in all this.

When the light came on, I saw that I had found that the so-called thing, that is, exactly the same as it was back then, really did not change at all, as if the traces of time had never happened.

Even the desk was still in that position, and even the Xinhua dictionary on the desk was still there.

I remember one afternoon that day, I was crying and saying that I hadn't eaten lunch at all, when Luo Jin actually ordered me a bowl of egg beef noodles, that is, there is also a lot of seasoning in that place, just an egg, plus a beef jerky, plus a bowl of noodles, plus a bag of salt, and it is just a little seasoning.

I will always remember that day because I had such a good time eating these two days.