March 10, 2020

In the last few days, it has been really hard for my father. At home, I am cooking, taking care of the children, taking care of my brother's shop, and worrying about my brother and sister-in-law, I feel so tired.

If you feel tired, don't be together, even if you have children, but reluctantly being together will only make the two children more miserable.

Adults are in pain, they quarrel every day, and children are even more painful. The birth environment of the child is really important, my parents often quarreled when I was young, and my brother also often quarreled after he got married, so now, I am very afraid of getting married.

Because I think this kind of marriage has no role in management. But I really don't know, why it's so painful, or not separated, just for the sake of the children, but, for the sake of the children, you didn't give the children a good childhood, and when they recall it later, it's just that their parents often quarreled when they were young, so it may also lead to me like this, or worse, what's the point of being together like this.

I really can't figure it out, and I don't want to. I don't know how to live myself, and I don't have the leisure and ease to worry about other people like my mother.

Every time I video with my mother, I cry a lot, and I courier flowers to my mother on Women's Day, so I'm finally happy, but this thing makes her feel bad again.

I'm constantly making her happy, and she's not happy on her side. I really tried my best.

I always want to put the best parents, when I was in Xinjiang, every time I charged my parents with a phone bill of 200 per person, I always bought them the first to see what was delicious on the Internet, and I was always the first to buy them, I was afraid that they had wronged themselves in their own lives, but they never thought about whether I had wronged myself.

Now I want to open it, no one will think about me, although I will be very aggrieved to tell my mother about this every time, but my mother's mind is not on me, and I talk to her less and less about me, and now I don't tell my mother about my affairs, sometimes I really feel so tired.

In the past, I used to see what delicious food to buy for my parents, but now I want to open it, and I buy what I want to eat, and I don't save it anymore.

Sometimes, I really feel that my mother is too tired to live like this, my brother is 30 years old, and he has been married for almost ten years, when do I want to raise him, I am really angry and angry sometimes, but every time, I feel very distressed when I see my mother like that.

But what's the use of me feeling distressed, she doesn't feel sorry for herself at all. I've been sick for a long time, but I've heard that I haven't been able to eat and sleep well lately, and my condition has definitely worsened, and now I'm really powerless.

Hey, it's annoying. Too tired.