Today, New Year's Day, the new year begins. Looking back on 2019, there are regrets, dissatisfactions, joys, and unhappiness, some have drunk and cried late at night, and some have worked part-time outside until late.

I've quarreled with my family, I've fought with my girlfriends, and I've had dinner with friends I haven't seen for a long time. In the first half of 2019, I worked smoothly and lived up to myself, and in the second half of 2019, I resigned, traveled, looked for a job, took my parents to see a doctor, took exams, went to work, resigned, and stayed at home, feeling that the second half of the year was richer than the first half.

Regarding the latest resignation, those who know about it are asking why, why did they resign, and why didn't they stick to it?

Why do you fish for three days and dry your nets for two days? Why don't you work hard?

Even my mother was asking what was going on? All of a sudden? Not very suddenly, and soon after I joined the company, I realized that I wasn't the right person for the job.

First: The personnel inside is too messy, it's my sister, and it's a classmate, and I discussed a thing with one of them before I got to know it at night, and then I basically didn't speak;

So I resigned decisively. Although my mother thought I was very willful, and said that I would resign without consulting her, she always said why I couldn't bear to resign until the Chinese New Year, and I just felt that it was useless to continue to consume, and I felt that it really shouldn't be consumed anymore, so I ended the job very decisively.

Although I still haven't found a job that I am satisfied with, I am not in a hurry, my expenses are not very large, and I have been working part-time recently when I have time, and I am not comfortable or otherwise staying at home.

Reading books, listening to songs, watching TV, playing with the computer, to be honest, I'm really satisfied with this turn of events now.

When I was in college, I took a break to work part-time, and I worked after graduation, and I was always busy. I don't feel like I have time to think about what I want to do in the future.

I feel like I'm in a mess every day, and my mind can't figure it out. I've been thinking a lot about it at home lately, and there are some things that I really can't rush and should take my time.

Last night's New Year's Eve, my sister came to accompany me. The New Year's Eve pose we prepared was: watching the New Year's Eve concert while eating.

So I went down to buy vegetables and prepared to eat hot pot, and bought hairy crabs, my sister likes to eat crabs, and then turned on the computer to watch the live broadcast of the New Year's Eve concert.

Actually, I haven't watched the New Year's Eve concert or the Spring Festival party for many years, so I'm not very interested in this.

It's not because it's not good-looking, it's because I haven't seen it for a long time, so I don't care much. I didn't watch much TV and play games before, but when I came back, I had more time and watched it slowly when I was free.

I think it's a bad habit and it should be changed. My sister was very happy to watch, and while watching it, she rapped with me about whether it was good or not, and I didn't express any opinion on this, anyway, I didn't sing well.

After that, I didn't watch with her, so I played with my own phone. Originally, she had already told me that she wanted me to accompany her to Shanghai to see the Oriental Pearl on New Year's Eve, but I was too lazy to go, and when I wanted to go, she didn't want to go, saying that she was afraid of spending money or something.

People, they are all contradictory. I want both fish and bear's paws, and I know that fish and bear's paws can't have both, so I don't want to get both, where is there such a good thing.

So then I obediently watched the live broadcast at home. During the period, my sister's friends posted a video in the group, and my sister saw that her friends were watching the New Year's Eve concert on the spot, and she was envious of her sister.

In fact, who doesn't want to go to the scene, I also want to go, but the economy doesn't support it, even if I support it, I may consider whether to go, after all, I'm too lazy.

(HAHA, JUST MAKING EXCUSES FOR NOT HAVING THAT MANY FRIENDS WHO DON'T HAVE MONEY.) I know sometimes I'm lazy, but when things happen, I don't, and I know that.

2019 is the second natal year of my life, and the goal I gave myself at that time was to give myself a trip.

In July, I went around with my girlfriends in the Nalati Grassland and Bayinbrook Grassland in Xinjiang. When I officially resigned in September, I was not busy looking for a job, but went to Sichuan, Yunnan, and Hunan by myself.

My parents have always been worried that I would encounter an accident when I go out alone, and at first I called every day or something, but then maybe they got used to it, so they didn't interfere with me too much.

In fact, even if my parents disagree with the decision I made, they didn't say anything, they just knocked it from the side, and they came to guide me when I hit my head and bleed.

Sometimes I can't figure out why, maybe it's to hone me. 2020, a new year, a new beginning.

Today is the first day, although it is really just an ordinary day for me. Maybe I didn't go out, so I don't know how lively and noisy it is outside.

But after looking at the circle of friends, sure enough, today is not an ordinary day, there is everything to eat, drink, and play.

But the hustle and bustle has nothing to do with me, now that I am alone, I am not very sad or sad, on the contrary, I am enjoying the present time.

There's nothing wrong with being alone, and it's nice to have more time to do what you want.

No noise, no laughter, very calm, very peaceful. I love this transience. In 2020, I am a year older, I don't know how long this peaceful time can last, I just hope that it will last a little longer, the longer the better, there are no other worries, there is no bloody drama at home, and my parents are healthy.

In 2020, I also hope to do what I want to do and be able to stick to it for a long time.