Before you know it, the calendar has flipped to March. I didn't sleep late last night, I woke up at eight o'clock in the morning, and after playing with my mobile phone in bed for a while, I got up to brush my teeth and wash my face, and after washing, I went downstairs to buy vegetables in slippers.

The vegetable market is not far away, just a few minutes walk, there is nothing special to eat, so I bought some noodles, mushrooms, vegetables, tofu.

Yesterday, my mother asked me to buy some tomatoes and eat them, I went to ask what the price of tomatoes was, and now tomatoes are 7 yuan a catty, I think I can't afford to eat them, so I didn't buy them and bought some others.

I wanted to eat fried chicken last night, but I didn't have it everywhere. I just wanted to buy something else to eat, and when the snack street opened, I went to buy a duck blood vermicelli and take it home to eat.

Walking around the downstairs and then going upstairs, I feel like I'm a lot more refreshed. Downstairs is bustling, completely devoid of that rigorous state, although there are still occasional noisy noises.

I watched TV for a while in the afternoon and slept for a while unconsciously. At night, I started a video chat with my mother about family life, and suddenly I was very sad.

Because my mother always put herself in my brother's shoes and never thought about my feelings, I was very angry. My mother asked me if my sister didn't come with me, so was it boring to be alone?

I said, it's fine. Really, I'm used to being alone on my own, so I don't mind if there's anyone around me at all.

My mother asked again, "What about playing games at home?" Actually, no, I had been reading books before I picked up my mother's video.

When I was at home, I played games, watched TV, watched movies, played guitar, and never read a book, although I had a book at home, but I never touched it, because I couldn't calm down and read it.

I always feel irritable and crazy at home. Chatting with my mother, my mood collapsed, and I suddenly felt very aggrieved.

When I had a video chat with my mother, I would always talk about the past while chatting. Originally, the atmosphere was quite good at the beginning, and I asked my mother what I wanted for Women's Day, and I don't know when, the words of the chat began to be crooked.

By the time we talked any more, I couldn't cry anymore. Nothing either. Just thinking about that, I feel very aggrieved.

From the university, to Xinjiang, to the present. There are some things that I really feel that my parents handled very badly, so bad that when I mention these things, I feel very aggrieved.

In fact, I rarely have a mental breakdown now. It's not like high school, so you have to rely on your family.

It's just that sometimes, just so suddenly, when I suddenly talk about something, my whole mentality is in a state of collapse.

Later, there was no talk at both ends of the video, and the mother finally said, stop crying and rest early. That's the end of today's chat.

I opened the door and ran out, washed my face, calmed my mind, and came back to continue reading. Sometimes I'm used to my mother's appearance, as long as there is any movement in the house, she will talk about this and that at home, and then let me do this and that.

Sometimes I get really annoyed. When my mother said cruel things, she was very ruthless, but when she encountered something, she ignored all this.

I always say, "Why shouldn't it be good?" Life is already a mess, so why make it worse.

I don't want to, pack up my mood, what should I do.