Seeing his mother's thoughts, Zhou Sheng felt that his whole person was gloomy. He didn't understand, although he didn't please them much at home, at least he did the work he should have done. But his eldest brother can hide and hide, drag as long as he can, he really can't hide, and he will rely on others, in short, he doesn't work, it's all someone else's fault. He always had a reason, all sorts of excuses, to be able to keep himself out of the job, to avoid responsibility.

For such a big brother, in fact, Zhou Sheng can't look down on him from the heart. The thoughts that appear in his heart every day are nothing more than to look at other people's unpleasant eyes, of course, the most important thing is to look at Zhou Zheng's eyes. After all, Zhou Sheng is in the same position as him in this family, so in Zhou Sheng's eldest brother's heart, he always feels that Zhou Sheng was born to collect debts, and he came here to collect debts on purpose. Even Zhou Sheng will directly divide his own property, so it is all kinds of unpleasant to look at Zhou Sheng, and later coupled with the wind fanned by his little wife in his ears, every time he sees Zhou Sheng's gaze is getting colder and colder.

Zhou Sheng saw these in his eyes, but he didn't know what to do, after all, since he was sensible, the eldest brother always looked at him with something else, as if he was rarely able to see something positive from him.

In addition to the obvious dislike for himself, his eldest brother has more thoughts in his heart, that is, how to turn the things at home into his things. There have even been many times when Zhou Sheng even saw from his eldest brother's heart how to turn other people's things into his own.

At this time, Zhou Sheng was a little worried about whether his eldest brother would take a detour and do something wrong. Fortunately, his eldest brother still knows how to measure, and he just thinks about it secretly in his heart, and he doesn't put it into action, at least Zhou Sheng didn't see it.

So compared with his eldest brother, Zhou Sheng never felt that the things he did at home were not as good as his eldest brother. But every time I saw my mother feel that I was not as good as my eldest brother, I felt very desperate.

Could it be that there is something wrong with his mother's eyes? He can't see his own efforts and efforts, and he can't see that he is doing his best to work at home. It's okay if she can't see her own performances, but she can't see her eldest brother being lazy and slippery.

Not only did she not see her eldest brother lazy next to her, but she also couldn't see her eldest brother hiding things and eating them secretly, or moving them to his own house.

And often when Zhou Sheng has conflicts with his eldest brother, his mother always feels that he has a problem in his heart, feels that he is wrong, feels that he is not deferential enough, and does not respect his eldest brother.

But in fact, among the things that his eldest brother did, which one of them could be taken out in front of others, show off, or be recognized by others, and deserve his respect for him. Regarding this point, Zhou Sheng also felt that he would not be appreciated by his mother and eldest brother in this life.

In the past, Zhou Sheng had fantasized about whether he could get the affirmation and praise of his mother or others after he did a good job, but this idea had long been slowly dispelled, no matter what he did, it always seemed wrong, even if he did it perfectly, others could completely ignore it, as if those things themselves would be made, or those guys would complete themselves, so what he did was just. It's just a matter of drawing snakes.

If his father, who is drunk every day, treats him like this, Zhou Sheng will not be too uncomfortable, after all, almost everyone in his father is dispensable, and the only thing that cannot be missing is the 9 in his cup, but whenever he doesn't drink alcohol, he will lose his temper, and he will lose his temper when he does Spanish at home, and he did it yesterday, in short, he knows that he can be honest only after he filled the wine and let him drink.

In fact, Zhou Sheng more than once, heard his mother curse in private in a low voice, hoping that he could return to the West as soon as possible, after all, people like him who have to drink every day, the burden on the family is not small, originally according to the situation of their family, the people in the family think more, and there is no drag, and a small shop was opened in the county, which should be a well-off family, but because his father is addicted to alcohol, he can't leave this cup of things for a day, so he owes a lot of Jiuzhai, so that the life of the family is naturally not too rich.

But even if you want to raise such a drunkard, it will not be like what you are looking for, but the hearts of the family are what's wrong, everyone thinks about their own things and doesn't want to do anything for the family, they feel that their calculations are actually for the good of the family, so whenever they say anything, they think that they have paid how much love they have for the family, reason, but in fact, he didn't do anything, this shop is just left by his ancestors, and not their hard work, and they, taking care of the shop, are indeed slowly declining, which can only be said that they have no way to operate, the inheritance of their ancestors is almost gone, what contribution have they made to this family?

Naturally, he didn't feel that he had done anything for this family all his life, in fact, the best thing it could do was to do his best to be some of the little guys in the family, as for the shop operation, etc., these decisions on the livelihood of the family, he didn't have the opportunity to intervene if he wanted to.

But how to say it, Zhou Sheng still knows himself very clearly. paid, so although he never accused others, how high-sounding the words he said, but he knew in his heart that what these people said was not credible at all, but he himself has never made any great contributions to his family, so he felt that he was not fundamentally different from those people, and naturally he would not use this article to attack others.

This is also the bell, where he is incompatible with the rest of his family, he can see very clearly, he seems to be able to look at the whole problem from the perspective of the third person, he can clearly realize how much he has paid, and how much he deserves in return, whether he has the right to express his opinion on this matter, whether he has the right to accuse others, because he has not done a good job, so many things are fighting for his own heart, but he will not say it.

Although Zhou Sheng would not accuse others or refute others with those reasons in his heart, Zhou Sheng did not know that his eyes often betrayed himself.