Chapter 28: The Kingdom of Heaven

But when Xu Jianan really played the sound of the bell, Chen Xiaoya immediately began to react. Her skin began to turn unnaturally pale, a thin layer of sweat appeared on her forehead, her eyes were closed, and she kept swallowing, as if she had a sense of swallowing obstruction. Xu Jianan hurriedly stepped forward and grabbed her hand, patiently guiding and comforting her, saying that he had been with her all the time, while secretly observing her heartbeat. Chen Xiaoya's fear reaction is already autonomic dysfunction, she is short of breath, her heart beats fast, and the pale and sweaty face looks a little scary.

This situation, stop the bell, and she will be relieved. But if the source of fear is stopped now, then all the pain she has endured just now will be in vain.

So Xu Jiannan wanted to try again, she gently patted Chen Xiaoya's hand, in a steady rhythm, suggesting that she calm down, and then said gently: "Xiaoya, can you try to follow my voice and look in the direction of the bell." ”

Chen Xiaoya closed her eyes and subconsciously shook her head, indicating that she couldn't do it at all.

Xu Jiannan was not in a hurry, she continued: "You try to relax yourself now, I am by your side, and nothing can hurt you." Relax your shoulders, relax your cervical spine, relax your lower back......"

Following Xu Jianan's guidance, Chen Xiaoya's trembling body was gradually relaxing, but that kind of relaxation was still in a tense state.

Seeing this, Xu Jianan patted her hand lightly and said, "You feel the gentle breeze and the sun is shining, such sunlight is warm on your body, which makes people feel very comfortable." ”

Sure enough, the environment constructed by Xu Jiannan seems to be more relaxing for Chen Xiaoya.

Xu Jiannan lowered the volume of the bell slightly, as if telling a story to a child, and said: "Listen, this voice is a symbol of good wishes, it seems to carry a magical power, which can bring peace, pleasure, and joy to the listener." At the same time, it can also reach the depths of the soul and evoke love and sorrow buried deep in the heart. It is said that the soul that listens to the bell at the funeral will find the kingdom of heaven by looking for the bell. ”

Xu Jiannan tried to change Chen Xiaoya's cognition, in her cognition, the bell is equal to death, equal to the loss of her mother, and equal to the terrifying appearance of her mother before she died. So what Xu Jiannan has to do is to reverse her thinking and let her begin to understand that the bell is equal to beauty, equal to prayer, and equal to the leading sound of the deceased to heaven.

If Chen Xiaoya's subconscious was changed by Xu Jianan, then when she heard the bell or thought of her mother again, she would first think of the beautiful kingdom of heaven. By extension, since he has been at peace in such a beautiful place, the appearance of the deceased should not be too terrifying.

In this way, the fear and shadow left by her mother at the moment of her death gradually faded away.

Fortunately, the hint to Chen Xiaoya is still more effective. Her whole body tightened slightly, and her eyes closed became less painful. She seems to be really feeling the environment that Xu Jiannan said, and trying to accept the fact that the bell brings beauty and is not terrifying.

Xu Jiannan has gradually increased the volume, and with her guidance, Chen Xiaoya's receptivity has become stronger and stronger. Until the sound of the bell kept echoing with a considerable volume, she did not sweat again.

For about forty minutes, Xu Jiannan patiently constructed a beautiful, warm, and bright heavenly world for Chen Xiaoya under the sound of the bell. Although she could have made this environment better, it had nothing to do with death. But in that case, there will be too big a gap with Chen Xiaoya's memory. After all, the death of her mother accounted for a large proportion of the whole incident. Therefore, Xu Jiannan made the consciousness environment into the appearance of heaven.

When Chen Xiaoya's mother died, she didn't look peaceful, and Heaven would also subconsciously give her a hint that her mother finally got a hint of rest.

Gradually, Chen Xiaoya was no longer nervous and frightened, she was completely relaxed, but the slightly frowning brow between her eyebrows and eyes, it was not difficult to see that there was some sadness.

Although she left a terrible impression and shadow, her mother has always had an irreplaceable position in her heart. Otherwise, she would not have used syncope to protest against the news of her mother's death.

Forty minutes of subconscious suggesting that Xu Jiannan is not easy, she has to observe Chen Xiaoya's reaction at all times, and once it exceeds the scope of what she can "challenge", she must stop immediately. Otherwise, accidents and dangers can easily occur.

But these forty minutes of hard work were not in vain. When Chen Xiaoya opened her eyes again, she burst into tears. Xu Jiannan brought her a tissue, sat aside, and waited quietly for her to calm down.

Dr. Xu ...... I think about a lot of things I used to do with my mom, she would take me to birthday photos, she would take me to the amusement center, and she would pick out all kinds of little dresses for me...... When she hugged me, she smiled so happily every time, which was very beautiful. It was as if I really was her princess. Over the years...... I was affected by my abnormal mental illness, and I don't know why, I could barely remember what she looked like, and I couldn't remember her past, as if I didn't want to think about anything in my heart. How can I do this......" As she spoke, Chen Xiaoya cried guiltily again.

"Xiaoya, that's not your fault. When we were young, feelings would not be as abundant as they are now, and at that time we did not understand what was called the sentimentality of life and death. But at that time, we will be very timid, and there are many things that can make us feel afraid. For example, when I was a child, I was afraid of a lot of things. I was afraid of the dark, of the horrible old lady next door, and every time I saw her wrinkled and age-spotted face, I would run home in fear. Xu Jianan smiled and told interesting stories about his childhood, in order to relieve Chen Xiaoya's unrelieved emotions.

Chen Xiaoya burst into tears, wiped her tears and said, "Doctor Xu, really?

Xu Jianan smiled: "Of course, even now, when I grow up and become a doctor, I still have a lot of things to fear." It's just that now I can look at my own fears calmly and rationally. Xiaoya, no matter what you face, fear is not terrible, fear is an emotion and reaction that normal people should have. The scary thing is that we can't face our fears rationally. You see, most people hate snakes and get scared when they see them. Well, there's nothing inherently unreasonable about the fear, is it? But once we magnify the fear, and we don't even see the snake, just think about it, and think of all the horrific consequences and disasters it can bring, then the fear is unreasonable. Over time, it is not only snakes that are afraid, but all animals that resemble snakes. From normal fear, it eventually turned into a phobia of mollusks. ”

Chen Xiaoya listened carefully, she seemed to never expect that she could have so many statements and knowledge in fear of this kind of emotion. I also vaguely began to understand what Xu Jiannan meant, whether it is social fear or fear of specific things, fear within the normal range is not enough to constitute mental illness. But you can't magnify that fear yourself.

As if she had figured out a lot of things, Chen Xiaoya also began to become talkative. She and Xu Jiannan took the initiative to talk about their social phobia, and also talked about their benefits and changes today.

Xu Jiannan didn't plan to use the bell to experiment with the results of his work now, listening to Chen Xiaoya's own words, she could almost think that she should be able to accept the bell.

As for her social fear, if she can keep her current state of mind, then sooner or later this problem will be completely healed. Even if she can't be so rational all the time, she should be able to get relief in the long run.

chatted with Chen Xiaoya for a while, and felt that her whole state of conversation was much more relaxed. When Chen Xiaoya asked Xu Jiannan what medicine he needed to take, Xu Jiannan shook his head.

It stands to reason that many antidepressants are the first-line treatment for social anxiety disorder, and benzodiazepines also have a clear effect on controlling anxiety and fear, but these drugs can cause dependence when taken for a long time. Moreover, it is impossible to say that psychotropic drugs do not harm the human body at all. In terms of phobias, Xu Jiannan has always preferred cognitive behavioral therapy, and if it really doesn't work, he will take a combination of drugs and drugs. In short, if you can not take medication, do not take it. Now Chen Xiaoya's condition has improved significantly, and behavioral cognitive therapy has an absolute effect on her. In this case, Xu Jiannan will not give her medicine for the time being.

Xu Jianan has never wanted his patients to think of themselves as "mentally ill" or "abnormal people." That kind of understanding will make them feel more inferior and resist the outside world.

Therefore, until the end, Xu Jiannan kept encouraging Chen Xiaoya and making her confident and brave. And arranged for her to be seen in the future.

Chen Xiaoya thanked her again and again with great gratitude, and when she turned around and left the office, the figure finally looked a little like what it should be at that age.

After a few hours, Xu Jiannan also felt a little tired. She leaned back in her chair and rested for a moment with her eyes closed. Originally, at such a time, she should not think about anything anymore, empty herself, and relieve her fatigue in her own way. But today is different, although her eyes are closed, her mind is very messy. It's as if the spirit has just stepped out of the world of work and fallen into a mess. Because, she misses Chen Fei too much, and she doesn't know what happened to her. Even, Xu Jiannan is still a little worried about the "mourning dog" at the door of his house...... I don't know if Lu Yan picked him up.