What can she do with repentance? I don't think she will be able to come to her senses now!" said Father Zhuang sighed, "She is as stubborn as a donkey, what can she do!"

In the interval of speaking, I heard the crying voice of Zhuang's mother, Zhuang's father was a little annoyed, and shouted, "There is no end, there is no end, it is always like this, when it comes to talking about things, there is nothing to do!"

"I'm a woman, what can I do, I can't be a family!" Zhuang's mother wiped her tears, "Who would have thought that my family would be like this in the end, and others would ......"

"Calculate it...... Now, you cry, I think, think about it......" Father Zhuang turned his back to the side, smoking a cigarette without saying a word.

Here, Mother Zhuang is still touching her tears like that.

Again, Zhuang Ya came back, a little surprised to see this, and Zhuang's father watched, and the eldest daughter fell asleep again in her arms.

Zhuang's mother was about to say something, watching the child sleep a little, she didn't speak, and the crying voice was also controlled, and then eased her emotions, helped spread out the mattress, put the child in the center of the bed, and then patted and hummed a little song.

Then Zhuang's mother pulled Zhuang Ya out, and Zhuang Ya looked at the child a little reluctantly.

"It's okay, your dad is watching, it's okay when the child is asleep!" Zhuang's mother said.

"In case you wake up and cry, or ......," Zhuang Ya asked, not finished speaking.

Zhuang's mother replied, "It's okay, just in case, in case ...... then"

Zhuang's mother hurriedly pulled Zhuang Ya out, and Zhuang's father didn't say anything, as if he didn't see it, and didn't speak.

Just watched Zhuang Ya notice his cigarette butt, and then quietly extinguished the cigarette and didn't smoke it.

"Where are you taking me, where are you going?" Zhuang Ya asked.

"You'll know when you arrive!" replied Zhuang's mother.

Then, take Zhuang Ya to the side of the corridor next to a shopping mall, where there is a storefront and then a number of stools, tables and chairs.

Mother Zhuang found a quiet place and sat down.

Zhuang Ya together.

Face-to-face, Zhuang Ya didn't want to speak.

"There aren't many people here, so you can say anything?...... But as for it?" Zhuang Ya was a little puzzled.

"It's not...... Child, to tell me the truth, it's not convenient for me to ask when your father is there, just right, the child is asleep, you, you tell me something from the heart, this child, do you have to do it? Then you want it, even if you have to arrive, what will you feed you, and what will you do with this eldest daughter? What do you think your little salary can cope with, rent, water and electricity, life, children's milk powder, a bunch of things? Or, are you still with him, that man? What do you think he will do to you like this!"

Facing Zhuang's mother's call, Zhuang Ya didn't know, "I didn't think about it so much, anyway, my own children, how can I not leave them like this, I don't recognize it......"

Seeing Zhuang Ya fishing her ears there, without any ideas, with a confused look, Zhuang's mother was a little angry, "You, when did you grow up!"

Zhuang Mu stood up and stroked Zhuang Ya's forehead.

"I'm the mother of a child, okay, and you still say that I haven't grown up?" Zhuang Ya felt that what she said was unreasonable.

"What grow up, even if you get married, and you have a child, the child is my child, not to mention anything else, how come you still have no memory at all, so many years, why do you just grow meat, nothing else?"

"I don't think so" Zhuang Ya fished a strand of hair from her ear and said, "You said that I was thin before, I thought it was a lie, I was originally fat, and I was still ......"

"What is that? Which woman has a baby, not fat? Even if there is, less well, alas, if you have a good rest, like everyone else is as fat as that pig, you are still ......"

"Don't compare me to a pig, okay? This analogy is not interesting at all, and it is not vivid!" Zhuang Ya suddenly thought that Ying Hanchu had said something similar, but it was becoming more and more direct and ruthless.

Suddenly, Zhuang Ya smiled bitterly and said, "Before, just together, he always found an excuse to take me out, but later, it was less, and later, hmph, that day, I slowly learned that he was afraid that others would say that I was too fat, and he felt that he had no face! Even if I went out to drink and play, I went alone, I stayed at home by myself, guarded, guarded the house, day to night, at first I couldn't sleep all night, to the back, too sleepy, and slowly got used to it, but I didn't wait for him much?"

"Why don't you call him or ask him for some friends?" asked Zhuang's mother.

"I must know, call, ask, at the beginning, procrastinating, will reply, to the back, I am too lazy to say, impatient, in the end always shut down, go out and don't see anyone, think about it, really, there is a little bit of practice of myself, Dad said I am not worthy, yes, I also want to be worthy, not rely on him, in fact, I also, hum, did not rely on him, but people have to go home to have a sustenance, otherwise what is the difference with a person?" Zhuang Ya said and wiped her tears.

"Oh you...... Look at what I said, it makes you think about something else, anyway, in the future, just don't live with him!" Zhuang Mu said.

Zhuang Ya was about to open her mouth to say something, but she took it back.

Zhuang's mother asked, "This, when I came, I asked, if it's you, if, I said if ah, think about it, if you don't want these two, or don't you have the ability to do it for the time being......, right?

"What do you want to say, just say it?" Zhuang Ya said.

"Hmm?...... It's nothing, ask, when I came, I went to Xiao Li, and there were other people's houses to sit and chat a few words, if the child doesn't care for the time being, in fact, there is, I don't mind that much!"

"Really?" Zhuang Ya asked.

Seeing Zhuang Ya like this, Zhuang's mother was interested, "Actually, I said, child, no one wants to give up, I also came over as a mother, no, there are too many problems in front of me now, isn't it, a single small one needs milk powder, a bunch of food and drink, a big kindergarten, it's all money, and think about it, you have to work yourself, but work, what should the child do?"

Then Zhuang's mother pointed to herself and said, "Actually, I am willing to help bring it, but two, this, it's not easy to talk, the villagers and outsiders, the spit is drowned, people always have to save face, your dad and that you know, one is okay to say, both go back, our lives are difficult, this is two more than two, and, in them, no matter what, don't worry about eating and drinking, and then why don't you wait for the ability, needless to say, Mom advocates that you take the child back! You see...... Done?"

Zhuang Ya looked at Zhuang's mother, smiled bitterly, and said with a sigh of relief, "It turns out, I also said, how did I change my personality, this time I will go back, and then get married, take some bride price money to make up for the family, and my brother, as for the child or not, anyway, it is not the baby that fell in your belly, it doesn't matter if you live or die, right?"

"Child, why do you talk like that, I don't, what if, what if? Consider, think about it, after all, the reality is there, you think for yourself, you have to take care of the children, and you have to take care of the family, what should ......you do?

"He, what did he help, the clothes were not washed, the children were not fed, the diapers were not changed, but I was annoyed and lost the toilet, tied to the door and continued to play games, better, just give some snacks, I don't want the child to annoy him, make the child a picky eater, to a large extent, the diet is irregular, the child is not in good health, the mother is good, it's all mine, the child is under my control, the family wants me to make money, be idle, and have to cook on the fire, I really think I'm better than the old mother, but also the old mother, it's been a ...... in the past few years" Zhuang Ya said and couldn't go on.

"Uh, what's the ...... I haven't heard you say this, it's not that you don't know home, if it's really uncomfortable, go home, what are you afraid of...... ...... at home, "Zhuang's mother didn't finish her words.

Zhuang Ya interrupted, "At home, how is the home? How is it warm, or is there any help? I used to be ashamed at home, there is a baby, you all exist as a joke, you all want to solve the good family, get rid of the trouble, now, my child is so big, it is even more troublesome, do you think, you, or not to say you, what about Dad, he will be willing, I don't think I can say one, it will be difficult for me to go back, unless I am married, I am married, eh, now, it's good, nothing is wrong! But, what about me, who thinks about me?"

"Actually, your dad didn't have much ...... If you go home, it's not much ...... No matter what, it's a little bit of a child at home, and it's impossible to ......"

"It can't be anything...... I was at home before, and I didn't stay long after, and I went back to that quarrel, what about you and Dad, at first, it was better, nothing, but it took a long time, just a little more than a month, and I thought about ......it like that! There is no need to say these beautiful words, if you are ready to let me marry, who will you marry again, forget it, I don't have so much thought, I just want to stay with the children, don't persuade me, stop, stop for a long time, if it feels wrong, then I will figure it out myself!" Zhuang Ya made a silent gesture.

Zhuang's mother sighed, and then said slowly, "Actually, I can't say that it's all a misunderstanding, but we are all people who live there, how much, this and that others say, you have to be careful! This, it's really ......."

Mother Zhuang didn't know how to explain it, so she didn't speak for a while.

"Forget it, I won't force you anymore, I want to open it too, in fact, I failed the list, I didn't get in, I went home, it's just a joke, and I still have a baby, and even ...... By the way, sometimes I really want to say that the chili powder was just given away that day, or that...... Hmph," Zhuang Ya smiled bitterly.

"Actually, I couldn't help it at that time, (belly) was still small at that time, nothing! You ...... yourself," Mother Zhuang sighed with relief.

"Actually, that may not last long, I think there are other ways, together, it's just that you are a little unbearable, but it's also a child, if you want to survive!

"Alas, it's so easy for you to come to the hospital, a pack of medicine, you have to go through the process, even if it's a pharmacy, you have to go a few miles!" Zhuang Mu calculated the distance from where to where.

Zhuang Ya suddenly smiled and said, "Yes, in that small place, there is no health center nearby, and we have to go a long way, and we have to go far to have a town, really, how do you say we live so poor, so poor!"

Zhuang Ya thought of something, and said, "I slowly got used to it for the first time, I don't have to get up at night, go outside to be cold, or climb the wooden barrel (in the past, I used to use the wooden barrel to go to the toilet at home), and I don't have to sometimes use the cold wind to blow my buttocks, and even, sometimes I have to cover it tightly when I sleep, I am afraid of mosquitoes, that especially in summer, the mosquitoes are piled up, before, these didn't feel anything, eating and living in the stove, firewood, and drying beans or something, in fact, I sometimes, I feel quite happy, although, I am so tired when I come back from work, so tired."

However, sleeping in bed, I feel very down-to-earth, I like people with children, how good a family is, my thoughts, in fact, are so simple, occasionally I don't want to eat, go out to eat, nothing, I don't feel, no fire, no cooking, I have to be hungry, and even sometimes, I feel, very down-to-earth busy and down-to-earth thinking, but, just, I didn't expect it, he has other plans, everyone is thinking, have their own little abacus, and I, no one really thinks about me, I, what am I......"

"What is the difference between what we eat and what we eat on the stomach, it's not the same when lying on the kang! In the big city, no one knows anyone, and I heard that even if they are on the other side, they don't know each other for a few years, or even more than ten years! We are so humane, we hang out at the door, and occasionally chat, as for ...... Work, which work is easy, those who ask for money, are tired, alas, now that you are in a big place, you don't want to come back, and you dislike us, you dislike these lives, hum ......" Mother Zhuang sighed and continued:

"If I can, I also like my own children, my grandchildren, my grandchildren, my grandchildren, but how much ability to do a lot of things!?

Her meaning is obvious, no matter what, the countryside is also a native of Zhuangya, and it is better to eat and wear your own than to send people under the fence and look at people's faces!

That kind of undignified life, even if you live a better life, a better one, but it's too hard and too tiring!

Zhuang Ya pursed her lips and didn't speak, and said a few words after a long time, "Actually, I think it's not bad, if you compare, you are said to be a dog by your parents at home, and you can't hold your head up by the neighbors, there, no matter what, it's also your own business behind closed doors, and, it really wasn't like this before, I don't know, why today, today is like a different person, and the words are more ugly than the other." ”

Zhuang Ya wanted to go down, "When I saw her before, I felt ...... It's not so mean, and it's a little, a little bit for the sake of others!"