April 16, 2020
Suddenly, I felt that this space was the one that contained all my mourning, and suddenly I didn't remember any happy and happy things recorded in this space, and some unhappy and particularly sad things stayed in this space.
Maybe I'm a pessimist, so I'm not always so optimistic. Today is also a very sad day, today makes me think, I am not suitable for this job, what can this job bring to myself, maybe I can use this job to achieve my own life ideas, life goals?
When I resigned from that profession, my friend asked me what I wanted, so that I would like to do something without regret, but I was always in a hurry, so every time it backfired, this time too, I always wanted to work hard to achieve the goal quickly, but in fact, I didn't, the sentence that I can't eat hot tofu in a hurry is not false, I am always in a hurry, and I think that I am meticulous in doing things, which is not a good thing.
It is said that you work hard to be powerless, and you work hard to move yourself. Am I really doing my best every day for this job?
I don't think so, sometimes I'm really messing around, I don't think I can go on like this anymore, and when I work like this, it won't be long before it's really messing with me.
I'm a little angry at work today, I get off work and pull a bunch of calls for me to call, I asked my sister to help, but I didn't help.
I got the others there, so I was a little angry at the time, and I dragged on for more than half an hour, and after I finished the call, I gave it to the section chief and left.
The section chief said why did he leave so early, but I made an excuse, saying that I was afraid that there would be no subway, so I left. Recently, it may be that the activity has been stressful, and the end of the event is when the store headquarters comes to take stock, so basically everyone's heart is tense these days.
I didn't understand it at the time, but I was quite angry anyway, and I felt very angry on the way home by subway.
When I get home, I don't think about it anymore, and there's nothing to be angry about. My sister bought a bicycle two days ago, and she wants to install it, thinking that she is just bored, so she will be safe.
Then from home a little more than nine o'clock, while watching the video while installing the bicycle wheels, handbrake, car butt, crutches, basket and a series of things, because neither of us has installed, so the installation is quite slow, and when they are all done look at the mobile phone, more than twelve o'clock, quickly wash and wash and sleep.
My sister will rest tomorrow, and I will work late tomorrow, so it's all fine, and I don't have to get up in the morning. I slept late most of the past two days, and today it's this point again, and I should have fallen asleep early at this time last week.
Recently, there are really some things at work, always dizzy, making it a little difficult to sleep, I think, first of all, to adjust the mentality, to meet the new life.
Face life with a smile every day. In the past two days, I have heard that the epidemic situation abroad is very serious, and basically all of them have stopped work, school, and factories, and we are still very fortunate that we are much better now.
There is no major event in front of life and death, and it is just a job, so what if it doesn't go well, don't you want to continue to live.
What's the big deal, the sky is falling, there are tall men on top of it, and the sky hasn't really fallen yet.
So it's not a big deal, just be calm and quiet. Life has to go on, it's better to live, and, at least, we're all alive.
Isn't it more important to be alive than anything else?