Let me tell you a few words from my heart, some friends in the group know the situation in the past six months, and I have lived a muddy life. In the past half a year, I haven't dealt with Lisuo intermittently, and I have been pressing it in my heart like a thorn.

Since May, almost half a year, I have been deceived by my former friends, my relatives are sick, I run to the hospital with my family every once in a while, my grandmother is nearly 100 years old, and I need to be taken care of from time to time, and I am afraid that my family is worried, and I have been hiding from my family. Uncle, and cousin, they can't come back from other places, and the old lady is old and wants someone to be there, and I can't be there every day, so I usually go back every once in a while.

Recently, some things have been overwhelmed.

This morning back to the hometown to see the old man by the way to get some medical insurance, I thought to come back on the codeword, back and forth detoured almost more than 200 miles, the thing was not done, but I didn't expect that there was almost an accident on the road, the road to the dark sky, all kinds of lights illuminated, in addition to their own driving, indeed a little distracted, almost with people to bump into, fortunately the reaction was fast, rushed out of the road to go far, scared a cold sweat.

Parking on the side of the road, it took more than 20 minutes for the cool breeze to ease up, and after sitting for a while, I suddenly felt so tired and tired, I couldn't help but smile bitterly for a while.

To be honest, I have always felt that I am a fat person with a wide heart and a fat body, I can see everything, and I can bear some things, but in the end I found that I still have limits.

As for the intermittent situation of code words in the past few months, I know that it has really hurt the hearts of many book friends, in fact, you scold a few words, I still feel more comfortable.

But most of the time I'm really not in the mood to write, the outline of this book at the beginning of the book or something, I wanted to write about a world where many civilizations are integrated, and when I was thinking about it, I thought a lot, a lot.

But after more than half a year, all kinds of things piled up, and my thoughts began to be confused, not controlled at all, and even deviated from the outline, I want to say sorry to everyone.

If I'm not afraid of everyone's jokes, I've been quiet for two hours when I've been home, and I'm not young this year, and my family has been urging me to get married, and now I'm afraid, I'm urging every day, and I don't know how to get it in this state now.

I've been feeling a little tired since about last month, and even when I wake up in the morning, I feel heavy on my back.

At the moment when I almost had a car accident tonight, my mentality did feel a little broken, and I suddenly felt that I had to rest, otherwise I felt like I was really going to collapse.

So please let me slow down, I promise that the book will never be a eunuch, and I do need this book to support my family, I hope you can forgive me!

In the past two years, I have earned manuscript fees for writing books, and most of them have spent time in the past six months to fight lawsuits and find relationships, etc., and I still owe a butt.

A few authors with a good relationship have also helped a lot, shame, otherwise I really don't know how to survive, and then I have to pay off my debts while spending money.

At the beginning, the patriarch was still working, and he was mixed up in a friend's factory, and he couldn't go or not, and the first few months should have been July, and his negligence almost caused trouble for the company, and he didn't have the face to go again.

Now I can only live on the manuscript fee, the eunuch is impossible, and now I am stuck in a dead knot cycle, there is no manuscript fee if I don't write well, and now I spend a lot of money, I don't have any money in my hand, and I can't settle down to code words.

Today's mentality is really a bit broken, forgive me