Chapter 468: After the rain, the sky is clear
"Don't relax too soon, I'll keep an eye on you. ”
Before leaving, Tan Nian pointed his finger at his stern eyes, and then pointed at Han Jue.
Han Jue nodded and said yes again and again.
After seeing Tan Nian leave the box, Han Jue sat back in his chair and poured two sips of juice, as if he had drunk two sips of wine, he breathed a long sigh of relief, and saw that everything around him had a brightness that cleared after the rain.
Zhang Yiman smiled and said, "I'll just say that the master is a very good person~"
Han Jue resisted the urge to roll his eyes, and put down his chopsticks like flying. Just now, Han Jue tensed his nerves to deal with the various exam questions that Tan read out, and he didn't have the heart to eat until now.
I don't know if it's a psychological effect, but Han Jue, who has worked hard, feels that the food here is really delicious. If the photo can be discounted, he will come to eat it next time.
Zhang Yiman looked at Han Jue, who was alive and well, and was very happy. A father, a master, and a sister Qin, the three most important people have a good impression of Han Jue, not at all like all kinds of difficulties on TV. She felt that if she married Han Jue in the future, at least there would be no obstacles on the part of the elders.
As soon as Zhang Yiman thought of this, he wanted to float happily!
There is no liquor, and you can't drink it, after all, it's still recording the show, you can't drink too much, you can only use beer to moisten your throat and replace it.
As a result, Zhang Yiman just stood up, stopped his movements, and his expression slowly sank, feeling that he might not be able to drink this happy wine. Because she thought of the comment in the comment area. The grievances and sadness in my heart at that time have not been eliminated now, and with such a mood to look forward to the future, the wedding photos seem to be overshadowed, and I really can't get up.
Zhang Yiman sighed.
The girl tasted the undercurrent of love for the first time, and her heart was very sad. How can we solve our worries? Only Du Kang.
She reached out for the wine bottle, watched the wine fall into the wine glass, and felt that the wine was really a good thing, wow, you can drink happy wine when you are happy, and you can drink wine when you are sad. Drink, drink!
Zhang Yiman poured himself a full glass, then sat alone in front of the "Momeitu Axis", looked at the painting, sighed after taking a sip of wine, and felt that he was an adult.
"Click!~"
The sound of taking pictures sounded next to it.
Zhang Yiman went to see it and found that it was Han Jue taking pictures.
Han Jue took several photos in a row, and also changed several angles, his expression was very amazed, and he made a staggering sound from time to time.
Zhang Yiman was slightly happy in his heart, but on the surface he continued to drink quietly.
"Dye your hair, perm your hair, and drink alcohol, you really look like a bad girl!" Han Jue looked at his phone and exclaimed.
"Ahh
After the two of them had eaten and drunk enough to meet Zhang Yiman's master, they were going to the next location - Zhang Yiman's alma mater.
When the program team packed up the equipment and prepared to transfer, Han Jue took off the microphone on his neckline and found Zhang Yiman, saying that he had something to say.
Zhang Yiman obviously knew what Han Jue was going to say to her, so she said hello to Sister Qin, and followed Han Jue to her nanny car first.
The car door was open, and Sister Qin and Guan Yi stood a little further away from the car, leaving space and preventing outsiders from passing by.
Han Jue and Zhang Yiman in the car sat in the back of the car, in the blind spot of people outside the door.
Zhang Yiman waited for Han Jue's explanation with a serious face.
"Remember that message, right?" Han Jue got straight to the point.
"Hmm. Zhang Yiman nodded.
"I forgot that I had been to Joan Province before. ”
“...... Huh?"
"I also forgot that I had taught others to swim. ”
“......”
Zhang Yiman looked at Han Jue with a shocked expression.
[I'll give you a few hours, and you're going to make up such a reason for me?!]
Zhang Yiman felt that he was perfunctory. She knows that she is a little slow to interact with people, but that doesn't mean she has a bad brain!
Zhang Yiman felt so disappointed, and his heart bloomed with bitterness and grievances. She held her mouth and looked straight at Han Jue with a pair of big eyes, as if she wanted to see him through.
Fortunately, Han Jue's explanation did not stop at the sentence "forgot".
"I ...... before" Han Jue raised his left hand and flipped his wrist, "You know, I didn't die a few times." ”
Zhang Yiman nodded, letting his expression slowly become serious.
"Actually, I had a psychological problem during that time, it was depression," Han Jue stared at Zhang Yiman's eyes tightly and said, "Of course, I am better now, and there is no illness." ”
Zhang Yiman nodded solemnly.
The causes of depression are complex, and people who are sick look and act like ordinary people, and only professionals can determine whether a person is sick or not. Since Zhang Yiman's debut, she was introduced by her father to a psychological counselor, so she is no stranger to depression.
Han Jue was observing Zhang Yiman's expression. After all, not everyone doesn't care that their lover has a history of serious mental illness.
Seeing that there was no abnormality on Zhang Yiman's face, Han Juecai continued:
"My depression was quite severe at the time, and it had already affected my physiology. Intelligence is not declining, memory is declining. If you are forgetful, you will not be able to remember some things. Even if it's good now, those who can't remember it will never be able to remember. So, you should have noticed that I often say some history wrong, and there are some very popular and classic songs that you sing, and I feel like I haven't heard them. ”
Zhang Yiman's face suddenly realized.
When she used to chat with Han Jue, Han Jue would often show the reaction of hearing about something familiar for the first time. At first, Zhang Yiman thought that Han Jue was deliberately teasing her, but after more times, she felt very strange.
It was only now that I finally understood.
"There are also some memories that are not simply forgetful, but because they are so painful that my brain automatically deletes them. It's the brain protecting itself," Han Jue pursed his lips, "For example, the experience with her." ”
Zhang Yiman held his breath.
"That experience could be one of the sources of the disease. How much I loved it at the time, how much it hurt later. So I remember that person, I remember that I liked her, and I liked her later, but I don't remember any details. As the message said, I have been to Qiong Province and taught others to swim, but I don't even know if it's true, I don't know more than others. ”
"In case that is true, then I want you to know, I told you that I went to Qiong Province for the first time, I really thought that it was my first time to go, and I told you that I had never taught people to swim, and I also thought that I was teaching people to swim for the first time, and I didn't mean to deliberately lie to you and please you," Han Jue said, "There are many ways to please you, such as writing poems to you, such as singing love songs to you, such as making movies for you." ”
"Hey~~" Zhang Yiman felt that this was the case, so she laughed, but she immediately froze again, "But, but, when you recorded the show with me last year, you also said that she was very good and very good...... It's not like I forgot it. ”
Because we're not talking about the same person. 】
Han Jue sighed in his heart. He also went out shopping with Zhang Yiman that day, and when he went to [Crow Restaurant] and saw "Love Signal", he knew that Zhang Yiman knew about the relationship between his predecessor and Weng Nanxi, and he also applied his description of his girlfriend in his previous life to Weng Nanxi a long time ago. At that time, Han Jue didn't mention how depressed he was. At the same time, I also blame myself for not leaving room for speaking when I was young (last year), not afraid of heaven and earth, and daring to say anything.
finally understood why the stupid girl was so jealous of Weng Nanxi.
Later, Han Jue and Zhang Yiman were talking on the phone, and Han Jue knew how much preparation Zhang Yiman had made and how much courage he had mustered before he appeared on "Love Signal". What for a week, it is sports and eating vegetables, it is necessary to adjust the state, and also watch videos of various debates, rehearsing battles. It's even more intense and hard than preparing for the finals of "Singer".
Since then, Han Jue has decided that when he talks about the so-called [ex-girlfriend] in the future, he will no longer be a girlfriend who has passed away.
Han Jue immediately began to correct his mistakes: "I also want to say bad things about her, but the details of the specific relationship have been forgotten a lot, and the accusation is not supported by a case, it is abuse." And I think it's too ugly to look at two people who used to love each other after a relationship is over. The more you talk about the other party, the more you are confessing how bad your vision is. Although my vision before last year was really bad, I still have to leave some dignity. ”
Zhang Yiman's heart knot opened and giggled.
"Did you really forget?" Zhang Yiman asked with a wink of Shui Ling's eyes.
"Really forgot. ”
"Will you forget me, then?"
"I'm cured, if I had to say that one day I'd forget you...... Well, unless I die. ”
"You can't die!"
"Silly girl, people are going to die. ”
"Uncle, you are so afraid of death, you have to live longer!"
“...... Good. ”
After Han Jue explained the things on the message, he was also relieved. He was always accidentally pitted by his predecessor, each time more suddenly, each time more serious, each time it made him frightened, haggard, and depressed.
"Then we'll see you later. Han Jue was ready to get out of the car.
"Wait a minute!" Zhang Yiman grabbed Han Jue, who was half of his ass and left the seat.
"What's wrong?"
Han Jue looked back and saw Zhang Yiman with his hands outstretched, looking at Han Jue with burning eyes.
It means wanting to hug.
Han Jue sat back in his position with a smile, turned sideways, and hugged Zhang Yiman without hesitation.
Zhang Yiman was hugged by Han Jue, greedy for the feeling of intimacy with Han Jue, and muttered sullenly: "I haven't forgiven you yet......"
"I'm sorry. Han Jue said softly.
Han Jue doesn't like the feeling of lying.
The worst part of lying is that the person you love believes your lies.
But when it comes to Han Jue's deepest secret, he has no other way but to lie.
Han Jue hugged Zhang Yiman and decided in his heart that apart from this incident, he would not lie to Zhang Yiman again.
"I forgive you~" Zhang Yiman said crisply, and the tail note went up.
"Thank you. Han Jue said.
Zhang Yiman hugged Han Jue for a while, and suddenly thought of something, turned sideways, leaned on Han Jue's arms, grabbed Han Jue's left hand, turned his head and said to Han Jue, "Can I take a look?"
She wanted to see Han Jue's tattoo. The last time I saw it was in a dimly lit hotel, I didn't look at it carefully, and after feeling the scar, I quickly covered it.
Han Jue nodded and agreed.
Zhang Yiman rolled up Han Jue's sleeves little by little.
At last, she saw the crows in the bright daylight, and saw the twisted trunks and the tangled branches.
Zhang Yiman, as he did at that time, walked along the black lines with his index finger over each branch. With pity and heaviness on his face, every time he thinks about it, he is full of fear.
She almost lost her uncle.
"It must have hurt at that time, right?" Zhang Yiman touched the scar and asked softly.
"It's fine. "It's not Han Jue who personally suffered it, of course it's okay.
Zhang Yiman pouted, self-harm and suicide are considered very serious in depression.
Raising Han Jue's wrist, he gently kissed the first protruding branch.
Han Jue felt a little itchy, but didn't withdraw his hand.
Zhang Yiman looked at Han Jue, then lowered his head and kissed again. It was the second raised branch that kissed.
Han Jue smiled.
Zhang Yiman was like a kitten, kissing it, kissing it again, all the way up, kissing all the scars.
However, Zhang Yiman did not stop after kissing Han Jue's tattoo, and did not change his route, kissing Han Jue's arm, then his shoulder, neck, ears, and face through his clothes.
Han Jue just felt the gentle lips leave his cheeks, and in the next second, Zhang Yiman straddled his lap and looked at him with a peach blossom face, holding Han Jue's shoulder with one hand and the index finger of the other hand, pointing to her lips.
Han Jue's heartbeat slammed into the car. He knowingly stretched out a hand, grabbed Zhang Yiman's waist, and slowly took her into his arms. Finally, looking at the soft lips that were so moist that they could reflect the highlights, Han Jue was like biting a peach drenched in summer, holding Zhang Yiman's face with one hand, and he was about to gently hold that lip.
That's when it happened.
"Boom!"
Sister Qin knocked on the door outside the car.
The two people in the car were startled, gasped for breath, and pulled away.
"Ready to go!" Sister Qin didn't poke her head in, just shouted outside the door.
"Oh......! I got ......!" Zhang Yiman shouted.
Han Jue exhaled, regretfully grabbed Zhang Yiman's waist with both hands, and was about to put Zhang Yiman back from his lap back to his seat. As a result, Zhang Yiman twisted his body and refused to cooperate at all.
Zhang Yiman was depressed.
When the hero and heroine on TV want to kiss, they are either interrupted by the phone or by other accidents. Zhang Yiman almost goes crazy every time he watches it.
How much time can it take to kiss it?!!!
Now that this kind of accident has found her, Zhang Yiman feels that this is not a problem.
Facing Han Jue's puzzled gaze, Zhang Yiman pointed to his lips again.
"If you don't kiss, you can't leave. She said.
Han Jue smiled.
His hands on Zhang Yiman's waist, one hand wrapped around her, and took Zhang Yiman into his arms again, so that the skin distance between the two was completely zero. The other hand roamed over Zhang Yiman's back, all the way up, and finally stopped at Zhang Yiman's hot neck.
Zhang Yiman blushed and panted, and his body softened suddenly.
[Then kiss it. 】
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