During the time I was with Zhao Yuanyang, I was very happy every day, until one day, I went to the next class to find him, he looked solemn, did not talk to me, pursed his lips thoughtfully, and even his eyes with a smile on weekdays sank.

"What's wrong?" I asked him a little worriedly, and after a long time, he slowly spoke: "My mother knew that I was in love, and said that it affected my studies and asked me to change schools. ”

His short words made me feel like a bolt from the blue. Changing schools means he's out of my sight. At that moment, I hesitated, a trace of uneasiness flashed through my heart, and after thinking about it for a few days, I proposed to break up with him. I'm afraid of losing, I'm afraid of those distances, I'm afraid that I don't have a common circle, I can't talk about common topics, and it's better to break off before than to drift apart.

On the day of the breakup, I hid in the corner alone and cried, and later, Yan Mo and my brother accompanied me to a nearby hot pot restaurant and had a good meal. I ordered a spicy pot so that the tears I shed could be naturally interpreted as "spicy".

From that day on, Yan Mo would always find some reasons and excuses to pull me out to go shopping and watch movies, and her every move made me feel her warmth. In order not to worry those who love me, I forced myself to be strong, pretended not to care, and finished high school without a heart.

Actually, I'm really sad to be separated from him, but I'm afraid that losing him when I'm deep in it will make me even more miserable. After changing schools, he will meet new classmates, the distance is far away, the life scene is different, love is really difficult to maintain, I always think so, for love, sometimes I seem a little negative. Because of my parents' failed marriage, for a long time, I didn't believe that there really was a perfect love for a lifetime in the world.

I remember the lyrics of a song that went like this: "You're not really happy, your laughter is just the protective color you wear." This sentence seems to be very similar to my character, I always have no heart in front of people, living freely, in fact, only I know, in a corner of my heart, there is darkness.

At that time, he actually didn't agree to break up with me, he told me to make me believe in his feelings for me, but I admitted that I was timid, and I didn't want to gamble with my feelings on an uncertain future.

After I broke up with him, I deleted all his contact information, maybe I was thinking that I couldn't see it at the time, after all, no one knew that he would later become his husband.

We didn't have contact again throughout high school, and my academic performance was average at that time, and my father entrusted me to stay at NTU. An inter-university exchange meeting allowed me to cross paths with him again. I remember that day, as a representative of outstanding students of C University, he came to NTU for a study exchange. I sat in the audience, I saw him in the crowd at a glance, and I saw him talking on stage, which made me a little trance, he was still the same as he was at the beginning, with handsome facial features, wearing a pair of black-framed glasses, but his face faded a little immature, and he looked more mature.

I was still sitting in my seat after the meeting, and he obviously saw me and slowly walked towards me. He said to me in the same gentle tone as ever: "Long time no see." ”

I smiled politely and nodded, repeating the words "long time no see". That was the first thing we said in years. But since that reunion, it seems that he has always appeared in my sight frequently, and he has slowly begun to integrate into my life again.

There was a high school reunion, I went with him, he seemed to be drunk, pulled me to talk a lot, at that moment I vaguely realized something, the boy in front of me, his heart, really has never changed.

He said that he loved me, more than I ever imagined, and that even though he changed schools, even though I was not by his side, even though the two of us had been separated for many years, he loved me firmly throughout my youth.

After meeting again and again, our relationship seems to have become delicate, with a bit of ambiguity, but neither of us has ever said that we like or love again.

I remember that when I was in my junior year, there was an earthquake in Nanshi, and the tremor was quite strong. I remember that I was in class that day, and the table and stool began to shake restlessly, and the lights flickered, which made me feel a little scared, hiding in a corner, shivering.

I don't know when, he appeared in front of me, with a somewhat anxious look, and with his warm hands he took me into his broad chest, soothing my emotions.

The fan overhead was crunching, shaking with the frequency of the earthquake. I don't know how long it took for the shaking to stop, and he slowly let go of me in his arms. I stood in place, looking at him in a daze, the ceiling fan above my head smashed at me, he subconsciously protected me under him, the electric fan smashed on his head like this, and before he passed out, he was still gently saying to me: "It's okay." ”

At that moment, my tears finally couldn't help falling, he loved me, he really loved me miserably, at this moment, he was loving me with his life. In times of crisis, he taught me what love is with his actions.

Love, perhaps, is a special talent that a person possesses, which exists in everyone's heart, no matter when, it will never disappear, as long as someone needs it, it will definitely appear. And his appearance made me slowly believe in the word "eternal".

At the moment when he struggled to pounce on me, I thought a lot, and a thought flashed through my mind, that is, I wanted to marry him, the kind that I would not marry. So, when I graduated, he proposed to me, I didn't think about it, I nodded heavily, you know, I've been waiting for this moment for a long time...

Later, we had our own baby, her name was Yiyi, Zhao Yiyi. On the day the child was born, he was so nervous that he stayed outside the delivery room, listening to the shouts one after another, which made him confused, and completely lost his calm appearance. Of course, that's what my mom told me later.

When I came out of the delivery room, he was the first to rush to my side, I could see that his eyes were red, I raised my hand and brushed his cheek, and asked in a low voice, "Are you crying?"

He said, "No." ”

But I clearly felt the relieved expression on his face when he saw that I was safe and sound, and the smile that rekindled in his eyes. He's always like that, duplicitous.

I know that he loves me and is afraid of losing me, which is why he is so nervous, uneasy and afraid. He doesn't cry easily, and he rarely sheds tears, and it seems that every time it's because of me.

It's a long life, and it's rare to be able to meet someone who can give you 100% love, and luckily, I did. He made me believe that he could hold my hand from youth to twilight until the end of my life, so that it was him for the rest of my life.