On the other hand, after the wedding, he has been standing quietly in front of the window of the auditorium, his still handsome face is covered with dense sorrow, looking out of the window lonely.

The heavy rain made him a little more lonely, and the cigarette between his fingers had already burned out, but he didn't notice it, and still stood upright and motionless.

Wen Jing came behind Shen Siyan, and a trace of distress swelled in his heart, how confident, calm, and arrogant he was before, but now the person standing in front of him showed a faint sadness, with a little vicissitudes and decadence. Who would have believed that he would have become like this if he hadn't seen it with his own eyes?

Shen Siyan heard the footsteps, turned around slowly, his expression seemed to have returned to his previous appearance, and asked indifferently, "What's wrong?"

Wen Jing came out of her thoughts and said softly, "It's not too early, we should go back." ”

Shen Siyan gathered his chaotic thoughts and walked towards the door with Wen Jing.

"Such a heavy rain, I don't know..."Shen Siyan looked at the pouring rain in front of him, and couldn't help frowning, as if talking to himself, his voice was not loud, but Wen Jing beside him heard it very clearly.

"Are you worried about her?"

A quiet voice drifted into his ears.

Shen Siyan's tall body was shocked, am I worried about her? It is undeniable, yes! After so long, I still can't help but care about her, even if she has cruelly left me, I still can't let go!

At this time, Shen's mother and Zhao Yuanyang came out of the auditorium, and when they saw Shen Siyan walking towards the heavy rain as if he had lost his soul, Shen's mother couldn't help shouting: "Siyan, where are you going?"

Shen Siyan didn't seem to hear his mother's screams, and was still walking slowly in the rain, his lonely back like a walking corpse. Isn't it true that people who don't have a heart don't feel pain? Why is it that at this time, their chest feels like they have been pricked by a needle, and the pain is indescribable.

"Wen Jing, what's wrong with your brother?" Shen Mu turned to Wen Jing on the side with a worried look on her face and asked.

Wen Jing looked in the direction he was leaving, and replied to her mother's words thoughtfully: "Maybe I know the reason." Probably because of her..."

"Who is she? Tell me, stop going around. Mother Shen anxiously urged.

Wen Jing didn't answer directly, but asked her mother a question: "Mom, what kind of person do you think my brother usually is?"

Shen Mu replied without thinking: "He has always been arrogant and self-controlled, calm and wise, and calm, and he has never been like this..."

"No, he has been in such a situation, because of her, my brother will become uncalm and irrational. ”

"This she, is she next to the female character?"

"Well, it's his former girlfriend. ”

"Girlfriend? He actually had a girlfriend? How come I, a mother, don't know?!" Shen's mother shouted out in surprise.

"Mom, that was when I was in high school, and I went to school with him, so I naturally know better than you.

And... When he came here to study, he lived outside alone, and you know his personality, he never took the initiative to say anything, and some things you naturally don't know. ”

"Looking at his dejected appearance, what is wrong with him?" Shen's mother continued to discuss her unusual son, wanting to learn more about him from Wen Jing's mouth.

"I guess that's because I saw her again today. Four years ago, he was broken up, but after so long, I thought he could control his emotions, but I didn't expect that the two of them were just in a hurry, but they still made him look like this...

Mom, did I do something wrong? I thought that since the two of us are still in love, why can't they be together again? I deliberately called them back, but I didn't know that this action had left them both in a whirlpool of grief..."

"Maybe it's a little hard, maybe the two of them just make it clear. Shen's mother calmly analyzed, then sighed, and looked in the direction where Shen Siyan was walking, her eyes full of worry.

Zhao Yuanyang hugged Wen Jing and comforted her who was lost. The entrance to the auditorium fell silent for a moment, and everyone stood for a moment. It wasn't until the driver's horn sounded, breaking the silence, that everyone hurriedly got into the car and drove in the direction of home.

Shen Siyan returned home with an embarrassed face, and water was still dripping from his body, but he didn't seem to be in a hurry to change out of his soaked clothes.

The huge room was pitch black, he didn't turn on the light, he leaned against the door in a daze, the center of gravity of his whole body slid to the ground little by little, until he finally sat down on the ground heavily, and some fragments of memory appeared in front of him, and he stopped at the time of the breakup...

"Momo, will you go to the United States with me?"

After a long period of ideological struggle, Shen Siyan sent such a message to Yan Mo, looking forward to her answer with apprehension, but in exchange...

"Let's break up. Yan Mo replied to Shen Siyan with these five words concisely.

The moment he received Yan Mo's text message, he was obviously at a loss and surprised, he thought that Yan Mo would refuse his request, but he never imagined that it would be such a result as a breakup! Shen Siyan quickly picked up his mobile phone and dialed Yan Mo's phone.

"Yan Mo, do you know what you're talking about? Shen Siyan's tone was filled with anger.

Yan Mo tried her best to restrain her emotions, her hands clutched the clothes on her chest, and she pretended to be calm and said, "I think what I said is already very clear, and there is nothing else to say." ”

"Then you've got to give me a reason, right? Why?"

"Because I don't like you anymore. ”

"I don't believe it. ”

"Shen Siyan, do you know, in fact, I am very tired with you, no matter how hard I try, I will never be able to catch up with you, I and you have never been people of the same world.

You're always so good, the girls around you have never stopped, I'm afraid of gains and losses, I'm fed up with this feeling, let me go, and let yourself go..."

"Yan Mo, I know that the request for you to give up everything in China and accompany me to the United States is very unreasonable and selfish, but please don't say anything like breaking up, I'm afraid I won't be able to stand it.

Also, you are emotionally unstable now, you can rest well today, and we will talk about this matter in two days. At this time, Shen Siyan was also trying to restrain his emotions, and his slightly red eyes were cold.

Yan Mo didn't know that Shen Siyan almost collapsed when she heard her say that she didn't like herself!

"No, I know exactly what I'm talking about now. Let's break up. Yan Mo still said resolutely, and then hung up his phone.

This was the first time she hung up the phone call from Shen Siyan directly and quickly, because she was afraid that she would not be able to hold back her emotions in the next second.

At this time, Yan Mo was quietly confined to a corner, holding his knees with his hands, his chin resting on his knees, his eyes were blank, staring at the breakup text message sent to him on his mobile phone in a daze, his emotions began to be uncontrollable, and tears flowed wantonly on his face.

I don't know how long it took, Shen Siyan's phone rang again, "You come out, I'm at your door." At this time, his voice was almost steady, and he couldn't hear any mood swings.

Yan Mo was stunned, wiped her tears, and after calming her mind, she went out. The moment he opened the door, Yan Mo saw him standing in front of him expressionlessly.

Shen Siyan didn't say anything quietly, just silently grabbed Yan Mo's hand and walked towards the empty park.

"Shen Siyan, let go, you hurt me. Yan Mo shouted at him.

The moment Shen Siyan heard Yan Mo's words, he quickly let go of her hand, because he was reluctant to hurt the person in front of him, and with a somewhat apologetic look on his face, he whispered sorry.

Yan Mo gently rubbed her wrist, tears rolling in her eyes, she really couldn't bear to hurt Shen Siyan, but the only trace of reason left told her that she had to let him die.

Because Yan Mo knew at this moment that he couldn't hinder his future, and he couldn't let himself be a drag on him. If there is a glimmer of hope left for him, he will give up everything at all costs...

Before Shen Siyan could speak, Yan Mo opened her mouth first, and said coldly to Shen Siyan: "Shen Siyan, let's break up!"

"Why?"

"Because I don't want to see you again, I'd rather never know you before, and get out of here as far as possible. ”

When Yan Mo said this, Shen Siyan's reason had completely disappeared, and he grabbed Yan Mo's shoulders like crazy, kept shaking her, and repeatedly asked why.

Yan Mo used all her strength to break free from Shen Siyan's shackles, with a look of disgust on her face, and anger in her eyes, she looked at Shen Siyan with red eyes, and resolutely repeated what she had just said.

"Go, go, I don't want to see you again. ”

After finishing speaking, Yan Mo ran away quickly, squatting in the corner on the side and crying loudly, his hands were wrapped, and his nails were embedded in his skin little by little, leaving clearly visible blood marks.

Yan Mo's almost desperate eyes were full of sadness, and she looked at his distant back reluctantly, tears were wanton on her face, and that day, she cried heartbreakingly.

Shen Siyan was walking on the street in a reluctant, "You go, I don't want to see you again! I want to ask you to get out of the way..." Yan Mo's words kept echoing in his ears, his soul seemed to be hollowed out at that moment, and he was desperate to the extreme.

Shen Siyan didn't even know how he got home, he staggered and was knocked down by passers-by again and again, and then got up from the ground and continued to walk forward, he was extremely embarrassed at that time.

When he came downstairs to the community, he stopped at the door of a supermarket in a daze, walked in and bought a whole cigarette and a whole box of wine, and walked home in despair. As soon as he got home, he couldn't wait to open the box, and a whole bottle of wine was poured into his mouth.

When the wine passed through his throat, a burning pain made Shen Siyan feel suffocated, but he still didn't stop his movements.

I don't know how long it took, the pain gradually disappeared, and I began to become numb, and then I felt dizzy, and the troubles in front of me seemed to be gone, and I felt a little fluttery.

He was drunk, drunk thoroughly, at this moment he had a smile on his face and a happy look, but his eyes were full of cold light, as if he had fallen into a bottomless cold pool, and all thoughts were lost.

Under the anesthesia of alcohol, he gradually began to lose consciousness, and then fell into a deep sleep, his dreams seemed to be haunted by some painful memories, his brows were frowned, his expression was gloomy, and tears quietly slipped from the corners of his eyes, bitter.

When he woke up the next day, Shen Siyan had a splitting headache, as if his brain was about to explode. Severe pain spread all over the body, the hand was pierced by the broken wine bottle at some point, the bright red blood flowed from the wound, smudged a piece of blood, and the forehead quickly oozed large drops of sweat, and the whole person was slumped and decadent.

But the more intense the pain at this time, the clearer his consciousness became, and he began to look for traces of tobacco and alcohol. When a cigarette was lit, a cloud of smoke slowly spat out from his mouth, and the smoke that rose half hid his misty eyes, numbing his nerves under the effect of nicotine.

In this way, Shen Siyan spent every day in a half-dream and half-awake in the days after Yan Mo proposed to break up, drinking and smoking all day long, just to escape everything in front of him for a short time...

Bell Bell Bell –

The ringtone of the mobile phone alarm clock woke up Shen Siyan in his sleep and pulled his thoughts back to reality. Perhaps he should be glad that the ringing of the alarm clock had taken him out of his painful dreams.

He shook his head, trying to get the unhappy memories out of his mind, but it was accompanied by a sharp pain, his head was buzzing, and his face was pale and bloodless, and he tried to get up, but the dizziness that followed made him fall asleep.

Probably in the past, or now, I can't forget her existence, just woke up from a nightmare, and a moment later fell into it, and so on, when is the end?