Xu Yu couldn't say any more, but still added, "You have forgotten that kind of talk, and the scene they have had with you, have you forgotten? You have healed the scar and forgotten the pain, but now how do you still have pain, do you really know that you have to turn back, don't believe anyone? How else do you hurt?"

Xu Yu thought that these words were going to move him, but he was shocked by Xu Meng's sudden words: "Before you", Xu Meng turned his head and forgot to look at Xu Yu, *body*body* poured out slightly, but did not completely turn around, pouting his face:

"You said you have money to save, how much?"

Then Xu Meng said as if reminding: "Before you said to study, keep studying, I think, your grades are ......" Xu Meng paused, "Since it is impossible for you, why not fulfill others!"

Xu Yu knew what she meant, and she couldn't believe it, the implication was to ask her father to pay for her school, and in the future, her grades would be like that anyway, no fun.

If it is similar like this, Xu Yu has heard it many times, but this time, it was said in the mouth of his sister.

Xu Yu has an indescribable sense of self-esteem, or what, the indescribable feeling of being pointed out by everyone and being pointed out.

Maybe I should thank my sister for not saying it so directly, but the meaning of this word is obvious.

Xu Yu moved*moved*mouth*skin*, and it took a long time to say, "I don't have much, and I've been spending all the time now, and now I'm ......"

Xu Yu paused, not wanting to mention his work and saying goodbye Xu Yuqing coughed and continued, "What do you want to do, I don't care, I know what I say, and you can't listen to it, but before you do anything, I hope you think about it more, if you ...... Anyway, weigh a lot of things, do you love it or not, or do you really like it? Think about it yourself in your heart!"

After Xu Yu finished speaking, he pulled the quilt under his armpit with a sigh of relief, turned around and closed his eyes.

At this time, Xu Yu and Xu Meng couldn't help but be separated by a river.

Everyone's well water does not interfere with river water.

Xu Yu didn't know how, and she didn't know when, how she became what she is now.

But Xu Yu knows that everything can't go back, she can't go back, she is no longer the Xu Meng who stayed with her when she was a child.

Maybe at that time, Xu Meng thought that she was "suing" and asked Xu Tianming to come to her, at that time, she had already complained about herself in her heart, and the so-called family affection at that time was not much!

It's just that......

It doesn't matter anymore, Xu Yu remembered it and said silently, "At that time, you were like that, I was able to get rid of ...... body."

"Don't talk about the past, I don't want to hear it!" Xu Meng simply rejected Xu Yu's possible next words.

Xu Yu also understood, looking at Xu Meng, who had turned around and turned his back to him.

Xu Yu retracted his face and said, "I know, I'm not going to say anything, don't worry, I just want to say something!"

"I don't want to hear it!" Xu Meng covered his ears.

But Xu Yu didn't care and continued: "Even if I do it all over again, I will still choose to do that and call my dad, because whether you like it or not, there is only him in the family, and only he can help you at that time!"

While Xu Yu was talking, Xu Meng silently took the hand he was holding, and the tears quietly *flowed* down!

Xu Yu didn't look at her, but continued to say, "If life and family are chosen, I will choose the former, even if you hate me, at least you will survive!"

"I'm not rare, I'm not rare!" The loud voice couldn't help but alarm the parents in the master bedroom.

They slammed the door and spoke with a word in their mouth.

"What the hell, you guys!"

Xu Yu said lightly that it was okay!

After a long time, the family calmed down and my parents fell asleep.

Xu Yu couldn't fall asleep, she knew that Xu Meng was the same.

I don't know if it's the past I brought up, or something else, what Xu dreamed of, and there was an obvious choked voice.

Xu Yu breathed a sigh of relief and said slowly, "I don't want to quarrel with you, my parents are also asleep, I just want to, I just want to say something to you!"

"I don't want to hear it, you just don't want to hear any big truths when I didn't say that today, I don't want to hear any big truth!"

Xu Yu naturally knew what Xu Meng was talking about, referring to her original "salary draw from the bottom of the kettle", in the name of going to school, to see Min Xingchen or the idea of private *meeting*.

Xu Yu breathed a sigh of relief, the person had turned over, just curled up, and said with his face to the pillow, "I know life many times that you have also expressed that you don't need it, you disdain, and you don't even think that we are saving you, I don't want to say anything, but these are just your current feelings, after many years, you may not think so, a man's love should not be the whole of your life, it should not be, your life is still far away, really far away, you think you are ......"

"You're ...... now. What about that boy, have you let it go?" Xu Meng suddenly interrupted Xu Yu's words.

And when it was sudden, Xu Yu didn't know how to respond.

At this time, Xu Meng wiped his nose casually, shook a few snot, and dropped the paper wrapped in snot at the bottom of the *bed*.

Xu Meng, who sobbed from time to time, Xu Yu also habitually put a stool, on the side of the *bed*, and a paper towel was placed on the stool, which was convenient for Xu Meng to extract.

Looking at Xu Meng, who turned around and asked like this, Xu Yu didn't know how to respond to her words!

Biting his lower *lip*, Xu Yu was thinking of words.

But Xu Meng continued: "I think, you haven't forgotten, and you haven't put it down, otherwise you wouldn't have searched for any address there and thought about anything!"

After a pause, Xu Meng continued, "You miss him, you want to see him, the address you searched, then 'Nihui City, Jiangxi City' is the name of the place there! What do you want to do? Now you are still persuading me? Isn't it a little ridiculous, are you ......?"

Xu Yu was surprised, and then said slowly, "You...... Are you *peeping* looking* at me ......"

"You don't need to *peek* at it, you have such a big computer, how can I not see it there, unless I'm blind, by the way, you didn't say you can't watch it!?"

With a speech that made Xu Yu speechless, sometimes bored, or unable to sleep, Xu Yu went to search for something.

But what I didn't pay attention to was that I might have two eyes on myself at the same time as I searched.

If it was Zhao Xiaohui who looked at herself before, then close the door and pull the latch, she will have nowhere to hide, but what about Xu Meng, she is the person in this house, Xu Yu can prevent her parents from others, but she can't interfere with Xu Meng in a room, and she can't blindfold her.

Xu Yu felt inexplicably frightened, looking at the girl in front of her, in addition to feeling more strange, she also felt that she was really not the girl in the past, except for blood, she seemed to have nothing to get close to herself.

"When did you find out, don't you ......" Xu Yu wanted to ask her if she was always like this, *peeping* and *secretly* seeing* her secrets?

There is a sense of unexplained fear, which spreads to every cell of oneself, making me feel inexplicably cool.

"Are you my sister?"

This knowingly questioning sentence is not only incomprehensible, but also has the meaning of questioning her behavior.

No one has a relative who treats his sister like this!

Xu Yu thought that she seemed to be up and watching her sleep, why, she was pretending to be asleep, or was it ......

What is the purpose......

Xu Yu didn't dare to think about it anymore.

I felt a little frightened more and more, this weak-looking woman no longer knew her heart and what she was thinking.

"Don't ask me these questions, you admit it yourself, there are no secrets in this family, do you need any secrets?"

Xu Yu suddenly laughed and said, "Do you feel that your secret has been revealed, and others don't need secrets!"

Xu Yu vaguely felt that she was *threatening* herself, afraid that she would ruin her plan, and then with this, she now knew that Xu Yu wanted to go to Ni Hui City to find the boy as a threat.

Meaning you don't move, pretend not to know, it's fine, in case something happens, I'll tell your secret first, anyway, I can't see Min Xingchen, and I don't want Xu Yu to see the boy I like.

Xu Yu wanted to say that he was just thinking about it, but such an inexplicable threat, and even if his parents knew, even if it was just an idea, but no matter what, it was estimated that there would be a storm at home, because his parents didn't trust him very much.

Now I guess I'm going to be interrogated even when I go out.

Besides, I'm about to resign, isn't it a matter for my parents to know about it?

Xu Yu didn't say anything, but they were silent for a while and said, "I don't think there are secrets at home, what's the matter? Everyone has their own space and decides what to do?"

"What do you want to say, be direct, don't beat around the bush!" Xu Meng said.

"When did you not even have the patience to listen to me?" Xu Yu continued with a wry smile, "I don't want to explain something in the past, I know you don't believe it, you have your answer in your heart, in the end I still told your secret, no matter what the reason and background, this is a fact, but in the future, I can't guarantee anything, I just want to say something, I can't accompany you for long, and you will go by yourself in the future."

If you do something to rebel against us or whatever, then you will taste the fruits of your own planting in the future.

Your future has always been your own decision, we can't interfere with anything, you can think about it yourself!"

Xu Meng was a little annoyed and said, "What do you mean? Or do you still want to sue my parents for the complaint?" or ......?"

"I don't, and we don't have any ideas about what you do, just afraid that you'll go astray or ......"

Before Xu Yu finished speaking, Xu Meng smiled bitterly and said, "'We' hum", Xu Meng didn't feel that there were tears in the corners of his eyes, but he took a deep breath, looked up and down, and didn't let the tears flow out and continued to say, "Yes, it's 'us' that is casual."

"I didn't mean that, I just ......" Xu Yu wanted to explain, but Xu Meng stretched out his hand and said he didn't want to stop listening.

Then Xu Meng *sat up*up*came up* and said, "Do you know why we rarely talk, we have talked very little, and I don't want to hear you say ha?" Xu Yu didn't say a word, looking at Xu Meng.

Xu Meng paused, but the person was obviously suppressing the emotions that wanted to explode, and after slowing down, he said, "I don't like you, no, it should be, you, those chatter, talk, talk non-stop, what is there to say, it is worth talking non-stop, and, since you have stood in line for a long time, then from now on, we will make it clear now, I don't care about your business in the future, and my business will be the same."

Whatever I do, good or wrong, it's my own business? I don't dislike it, and I don't care what you say."

"It's not you ......"

"That's it, let's sleep! I don't want to say it, if I go down again, my parents are awake, it's dawning, there's nothing to say, nothing, that's it!" While saying this, Xu Meng was already lying down, "sleeping" on his side.

Xu Yu: "This...... This ......" could only turn around and fall asleep angrily, feeling inexplicably wronged in his heart, and he couldn't say anything.

Forget it, let's see it later, let's talk about it, that boy, what are you encouraging her again? It's really harmful? Now it's the whole thing again?

It's not easy to get better.

Xu Yu breathed a few sighs of relief, and was a little upset that didn't know how to speak.

(a,)

The next day, August 21, 2008, when the night gradually dispersed, the sky became brighter.

As Xu Yu opened his eyes, all the memories woke up together as if he had woken up, looking at Xu Meng who was sleeping next to him, Xu Yu reunited with that worry again.

Yes, when I was like my parents, I always talked about big truths, and I even hated myself.

It turned out that he didn't like his parents, but he was doing something similar, nagging Xu Meng about this.

I don't want to accept these thoughts, but they are also subtly changing.

"After all, I have become a person I hate!

Looking around, thinking about the words of the store manager and others, Xu Yu knew that there was no way to retreat, and there was no way to escape.

Let's move forward......

Go ahead!

Xu Yu told himself silently.

Then I got up and washed up, and soon I was outside the store.

Xu Yu wanted to go in.

But suddenly I felt that there was no reason to go in.

It's ironic to think that I came here yesterday and brought up a cookie gift or two, and in the blink of an eye, everyone else is ready to kick me out.

yes, I'm out.

Xu Yu took a deep breath and looked at this colleague who was doing the same hygiene, looking at the colleague with the same action in the window, the familiar action, the process, Xu Yu suddenly felt that everything was so strange, he didn't go again, he needed to come again in the future, and no one welcomed it, right?

Xu Yu remembered the unhappiness of applying for a job here before, transferring the store to work in the department store and supermarket, and the nostalgia for this place, and now ......

But it's all a joke......

There is a kind of reality that when you are still in love, others have already fled and avoided you when they see you.

And all this was discovered and understood by myself for a long time.

It's so ironic, it's ridiculous.

Xu Yu glanced at the storefront, retracted his gaze, and began to move forward without stopping.

I have to hand over the resignation form in my pocket to the company and complete the resignation process, so that even if this month's salary is deducted, I can still have a little bit.

Otherwise, it will be difficult for you to get the pressure salary and deposit.

Carrying the work clothes in his hand, and looking at the number plate, the moment Xu Yu took it down, he knew that the number plate had nothing to do with him in the future, and it had nothing to do with it.

"It's okay not to do it, it's okay not to do it!" Xu Yu comforted himself and walked.

I was ready to take a ride and asked for directions and directions.

Xu Yu is very unfamiliar with these memories, maybe it is a common problem of road blindness!