But think about it, why don't you wear it, since you have a clear conscience, why bother?

It's just that Xu Yu suddenly felt that at this moment, she felt that the jade pendant in her hand was not so beautiful, which made her feel pleasing to the eye sometimes.

To ask the question of why you keep wearing this jade pendant?

In fact, Xu Yu used to think that he really thought it was a family heirloom or something, and he had it since he was born, and then he felt that even if it was fake, it was a manifestation of his love for himself, and sometimes Xu Tianming and other relatives blamed themselves together or separately, making him feel that he was not loved.

But Xu Yu comforted herself like her grandmother, her grandmother liked herself, and so did her family, this, Yu Pei is proof of this.

It's not that you're born unpopular, it's not that you're a burden everywhere!

So Xu Yu sometimes feels that looking at her is like taking a reassuring pill, it has nothing to do with truth or falsehood, it is mainly a physical existence that has always been concerned about the performance.

So sometimes Xu Yu looked at Yu Pei as if he saw the smiling faces of his parents when they bought it, as well as the appearance of selection, imagining that they were looking forward to their birth, Xu Yu felt so warm.

So the jade pendant slowly got used to wearing it, and didn't take it off, sometimes Xu Yu was unhappy, and felt that he didn't love it, and he would look at the jade pendant and talk to himself.

Xu Yu looked at the jade pendant in his hand, forgot to be distracted for a few minutes, and put it on again.

In case the suspicious Xu Meng feels ashamed or something, he speculates there, think about it, forget it!

In this way, while going to work, suddenly Xu Yu felt uncomfortable in his stomach.

For most of the morning shift, Xu Yu went to the toilet from time to time, and he was not very energetic.

Colleague Xing Mu was concerned and helped to stroke his back: "What's the matter, is it a bad stomach!? Why don't you look energetic at all, do you want to go to ......the hospital?"

"I don't know, what about going to work, forget it, it should be fine, maybe I haven't rested! ”

"Oh, you have to pay attention, drink more water, and get more rest. ”

Xu Yu actually didn't think about his body, Xu Meng didn't know what was going on?

Xu Yu was worried.

Finally got off work, Xu Yu found Xu Meng, his face was not very good, Xu Yu had no experience in this regard, so he could only buy a cup of hot milk for Xu Meng.

Then there was the inspection, and after all, I ran a few more times with it.

Xu Meng may not be here, he always looks a little dazed, and he didn't notice that Xu Yu pulled his stomach a few times.

"Maybe the things outside are not clean, I am not used to eating, alas, spend money to find guilt!" Xu Yu squatted again, touched his stomach, washed his hands and walked out.

Xu Meng was not anxious or hopeful or depressed, Xu Meng didn't have much expression, and kept holding the phone in his hand.

Xu Yu has noticed that Xu Meng has been chatting since the morning today, Xu Yu said that the boy may reply to the message later, and then hold it, and still hold it nervously, it is estimated that when she goes to work, she pays attention to her mobile phone!

Xu Yu stood aside and didn't know whether to approach and comfort a few words, or say something, or accompany him silently, Xu Yu didn't know the bottom, but he also knew that what Xu Meng wanted most was the boy's information, and the answer she wanted, waiting for that answer!

Xu Yu was also uncomfortable, so he finally didn't bother to look at Xu Meng on the other side, sitting on the waiting chair and touching his stomach.

I don't know that after a few more minutes, a hurried bell rang, and Xu Meng happily picked it up.

It looked like I had learned the news of the lottery, and I was as happy as if I had won the lottery.

I don't know what was said on the phone, but I just listened to Xu Meng say "Don't, don't" and hung up the phone impatiently.

I hung up within a few seconds of picking it up, probably a call from a scam or something to sell house insurance!

Xu Meng, who hung up the phone, looked at the phone with a somewhat dim look, played with it for a few minutes, and then put it down, probably still looking at whether there was a reply or something, about the message that the boy sent to him!

What the boy said before, and whether they had a conversation after that, Xu Yu didn't know, only knew that Xu Meng was not in a good mood now, and he didn't bother.

These days have witnessed the madness of the nervous pathos, as the old-timers used to say.

Perhaps, Xu Meng has entered the peak era of "neurosis".

Only for that man to cry, that man to laugh, for that man to sleep and eat.

Like morphine that penetrates into the skin and hurts, it makes you dreamy, drunk, crazy, and nostalgic......

Xu Yu sighed...... Compared to the introductory ceremony of "neurosis", I ran away, and now that I think about it, I don't know how I should feel about all this!?

And so they waited, waited.

Wait until the results of the test and the subsequent report confirming the pregnancy.

Xu Meng had no intention of continuing to listen, Xu Yu asked a few questions about this and that matter of attention, and hurriedly left with Xu Meng.

And then because Xu Yu got off work at half past three, he waited for this inspection, and then went to other places and most of the others had stopped when they arrived, checking this aspect of the matter.

But looking at Xu Meng like this, Xu Yu actually knew that it was useless today, but he still took it to check after work, and saw that other stores were closed, so he went to another small shop.

Naturally, a lot of money was spent.

In the end, Xu Meng seemed hopeless, and that kind of eyes were full of a feeling of despair and lovelessness.

Looking at Xu Meng's appearance, Xu Yu seemed to see his former self, at that time, after he just knew that he had fallen off the list, and all kinds of verbal blows at home, Xu Yu thought of death several times.

The feeling is that you can't listen to anything, but most of the things you don't want to hear are negative.

It's as if your life has been judged useless by others.

Xu Yu wanted to hug her, as if giving her former self a hug, but she was afraid that Xu Meng would misunderstand, so Xu Yu froze there, so she could only sit on the steps on the other side empty-handed.

There are also some hot steps, along with my body is also a little hot, so tired, so tired, I feel a little heatstroke, but, go home?

It only seems to add to the sadness.

So where to go?

In the past, Xu Yu also watched people walking around like this, coming and going, and coming and going.

There are also vehicles, and the weather that is always cloudy or rainy.

Not every sad day is a rainy day, it's a thunderstorm, that's TV, it's not.

Sometimes it's okay to hurt in the bottom of my heart, but the sun is still okay, it's not nothing.

Xu Yu remembered himself at that time, looking at it like this, in a daze, letting his thoughts drift away, staying, not caring if he was hungry, just staying like this, crying when he wants, laughing when he wants to laugh, it doesn't matter if he is taken as a fool, it is himself who is immersed in his own world.

I don't want to be disturbed, and I don't need to be comforted or anything.

When I think of myself, I also went to the river to sit, just like that, on the embankment (di, "") or by the bridge or stone pillar fence that was built, walking aimlessly, thinking.

When I was tired, I sat on the stone steps in a daze, and I thought about what kind of life it would be like if I was on the list, what I was like now, what others would think, and what the dad said about the three-day banquet, which was supposed to celebrate my own wine banquet on the list.

Xu Yu wanted to say that he just felt okay, but he didn't know the facts, but Xu Tianming insisted that it must be right, seeing that he was studying so seriously, and then he strode out, and when he came back, he said that he had already booked a banquet and paid a deposit.

No one paid attention to his specific words, as well as his mood of leaving Xu Tianming before he finished speaking, and he had called to remind him to wait for the result or something.

Xu Yu was sitting on the steps and worried, alas...... What should I do about the three-day banquet? Why did the auspicious day of the zodiac make Xu Yu feel so dazzling at this moment, so stinging that he wanted to cry and couldn't open his eyes.

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