Chapter 69: Reason and Emotion
Answering the phone, she hesitated and even said with a little suspicion: "Hey, is it Yifan?"
"Hehe, who else is it? Du Yifan asked humorously, seemingly mixed with a hint of love as a big brother who was a few years older than her.
"I just didn't expect you to call me all of a sudden. Cheng Siyu regained her inherent arrogance and frankness, which has always been the advantage of maintaining her relationship with her friends, and it is also a stumbling block for her to step into this sinister society, complex character flow and interest-induced society, "What's the matter?"
"Can't I look for you if it's okay?" Du Yifan paused for a moment and asked in a joking half-truth.
"Of course, we're good friends. Cheng Siyu didn't make much guesses, and responded enthusiastically on the phone.
"Are you off work?" said the other end of the line.
"I just got off work. Cheng Siyu said.
"I'm in the library, the last time I met you. Du Yifan still said in a calm voice, without obvious ups and downs in tone, only feeling delicate and gentle, which made people comfortable.
Cheng Siyu thought for a few seconds, and then blurted out in surprise: "Juya Bookstore is right, I like that bookstore so much, warm and pleasant, comfortable environment, and the waiter's attitude is amazing!"
"Yes. Hehe" came from the other side of the phone, snickering, and said happily: "Come on, I saw a book that is quite emotional, you must like it." ”
"Will books still be emotional!" Cheng Siyu teased mischievously, the corners of his mouth pursed into half a small circle.
"Really, you're going to love this book. Du Yifan expressed his views seriously and firmly, and it could be heard from the tone that he hoped that Cheng Siyu could come over, maybe this book was really outstanding, and its unique charm provoked Du Yifan to recommend it tirelessly: "Come on?"
"Okay, I'll be right there. Cheng Siyu hung up the phone briskly and walked briskly in the direction of Juya Bookstore.
This afternoon, the sun was permeated, and all the lazy things were infected with vitality by the dazzling sun, everything was so fresh and natural, the orange shimmer sneaked into the library desk through the gap in the hollow screen curtains, and sprinkled beside the cup of fragrant hot coffee in front of him, the halo refracted back to his handsome face through the cup, and scattered into a little golden spot to render his clear eyes.
The warm breeze and the dazzling sunlight made him unconsciously raise his forehead, staring expectantly at the position not far ahead, as if it was a fateful coincidence, and inevitably saw the lively girl recklessly breaking into this quiet and gentle library, wearing a sky blue chiffon thin skirt, tied a playful ponytail, and wearing a pair of smooth and neat black leather shoes on her feet, with a confused expression shuttling between the pedestrians who bought and returned books in front of the door, leaning forward and backward as if searching for something, and pouting coquettishly because of the hair on her head disturbed by the friction against everyone's shoulders。
In an instant, her eyes glittered with stars, and she opened the most beautiful and beautiful smile he had ever seen, and was hurrying excitedly in his direction. He couldn't help but bend the line of his lips closed, and laughed unnaturally to hide the collision of pleasure and heart-pounding, and his affectionate eyes sparkled with warmth. The angelic girl not only illuminated the entire library, but also his heart, and in the bustling crowd, he saw no one else, only her, the girl who appeared in front of him.
"What are you looking at?" Cheng Siyu appeared less than a meter away from Du Yifan in a flash, and said smartly and breathlessly.
"Look at what you're laughing at, laughing so happily. He came back to his senses and quipped lightly.
"Why, just now I have been looking for where you are sitting, it is simply a sea of people, I have seen it for a long time and recognized your mistakes before I found you, I am so excited! And I already like to laugh, I laugh unconsciously, I like to laugh in a daze, I like to laugh when I am nervous, I like to laugh when I am sad, I may laugh spontaneously for a reason! I probably love to laugh since I was a baby. She pulled out a stool and sat down, lifting the bag that straddled her shoulders and placing it on the table, laughing at herself.
"It's good to laugh, girls should laugh more. Du Yifan put on a look of appreciation, recognition and even yearning.
"I'm most afraid of laughing too much, others think I'm being clicked, and I can't stop laughing, haha. After speaking, he grinned and smiled, and after careful inspection, he found that a cup of fragrant cat poop coffee and chocolate cheesecake had been placed in the middle of the table, accompanied by a colorful, exquisite and detailed crusty novel, and the cover was marked with "Lolita" Three artistic curly characters, which made the pupils under her eyes dilate instantly, and raised her head and asked Du Yifan in surprise: "Is this the book you said is full of feelings?"
"Exactly. Du Yifan smiled proudly, raised his finger and waved in the direction of the book and said: "It is a book about the contradictions and disputes between reason and emotion, the writing is fresh and beautiful, the storyline is twists and turns, the emotional and melancholy atmosphere is stronger, the characters and personalities are distinct, if you are a person who has a lot of experience in emotions and psychology, then you will resonate with this book." ”
"Is it so amazing? Lolita, I think I've heard that this book is quite famous in the United States, and it was later adapted into a movie, but I never specifically looked for it. Cheng Siyu opened it with great interest, and carefully watched the long past of others as carefully and meticulously as if he had found a long-sealed diary.
"Well, there's an opportunity in front of you. Du Yifan pursed his lips and smiled, meaningful.
"How do you know, I like to eat cheesecake?" Cheng Siyu probed his head and asked tentatively.
"I guess. Du Yifan paused for a few seconds and replied lightly, a little flickering.
"Oh, then we have the same taste, and the taste is also quite Luo, I don't believe you are lying. Cheng Siyu stuck out his tongue, squeezed his eyebrows, and said mischievously.
Du Yifan snickered again and said, "Okay, it seems that you really can't hide anything from you, who are smart and clever, I overheard it from Ling Feng's mouth." ”
"I know, how can you be so clever!" Then he lifted the coffee cup next to him, looked at Du Yifan and smiled: "But I know that this cup of coffee was chosen by you, and you have an extraordinary spirituality for coffee, so I said that if you don't become a barista, it is a loss for the coffee industry."
Du Yifan propped his forehead, lowered his eyebrows and smiled snickering. "You're so attentive. Cheng Siyu said gratefully.
For several hours, the two of them read their books at the same table, without saying a word, not even making small guesses in their thoughts, and each chewed on their books with relish. Cheng Siyu was reading the book, flying high in the novel world of "Lolita", engrossed, while fiddling with the chocolate cheesecake cut by the knife and fork on the table, chewing slowly, sweet and delicious, eating one after another and ordering another, leisurely and contented. And Du Yifan was naturally not idle, he devoted all his attention to the "Wuthering Heights" in his hand, and the silver light in his eyes lingered with every pretty font on the book, and he couldn't take his eyes off it, and he was intoxicated.
"Where do you see it, what do you think?" Du Yifan asked in his heart.
"I now see that Humbert stayed in the landlord's house in order to get close to Lolita, that is, he married Lolita's mother, Charlotte, but he did not love her, and even hated her, thinking that she was a cow, an old woman who was old and nuisant. Cheng Siyu pursed his lips and replied with a somewhat helpless tone.
"I didn't expect you to read books quite fast. Du Yifan sighed in surprise.
"Of course, I'm not bad at speed reading, and I have an innate talent for languages. Speaking of language, Cheng Siyu's face couldn't hide the smugness.
"It's selfish to marry someone you don't love for the sake of someone you like. Du Yifan touched his chin with his hand, nodded thoughtfully, and casually glanced at Cheng Siyu to see her reaction.
That's right, although love is selfish, but it should not be based on hurting other people's feelings, Humbert lost his first love Annabelle when he was a child, so this cast a shadow on his childhood ignorant love, so that he lost the ability to be attracted to his peers in adulthood, and only when he met the teenage girl Lolita, did he regain the feeling of heartbeat. But he deeply hurts Lowe's mom Charlotte because of his crush on Lolita, which is undeserved and cruel. Cheng Siyu held his chin in both hands, supported the table with his elbows, flashed black eyes, and said with emotion.
"Do you think Humbert, does he really love that teenage girl?" Du Yifan asked lightly.
"She was very young, only twelve years old. Besides, I've only seen a third of it now, so I'm not sure if he really loves Lolita. But I can be sure that he really likes her, it is the kind of deep, deep heartbeat, uncontrollable feeling, it is a mature man's love, so his desire cannot be separated from love, but his heart lives a little boy in childhood, and what he likes is also a pure representative of the world, so this kind of love is extravagant, contradictory, immoral, and social inadmissible for him, but how to say, he really seems to like a person so much for the first time in a long time since Annabelle died of typhoid, such a tangled and unaccepted love, the conflict between reason and emotion, for himself, may also be a kind of cruelty。 Cheng Siyu gushed his opinions, and there was a kind of substitution and fascination that was deeply immersed in it.
"Look at your usual stupidity, I can't imagine that you just read a book, and you can say it at any time, admire and admire. This is indeed a controversial book, so you say, what kind of cruelty is this. Du Yifan was stimulated by Cheng Siyu's attentive appearance and grinned.
"You're stupid. Cheng Siyu purged his mouth and snorted, and said: " It's very simple, you just see his pedophilia like a girl as normal, he likes a twelve-year-old Lolita just like you like a girl in her twenties, for example, if you meet a love at first sight, you will be electrocuted at one glance in the crowd, and then at the second glance you will have the urge to stay with her for the rest of your life, but the world will not allow you to fall in love with her, and morality will make the people around you not understand you, and you will invisibly hurt a person close to you, and most importantly, the person you love does not love you the most, and even doesn't care about you, then don't you think this is a very cruel thing?”
Seeing her excitedly dissect her thoughts, he was suddenly stunned, and he didn't know what to respond to for a while, he felt a kind of guilt that was rubbed into the secret, swallowed the saliva fixed in his throat with difficulty, unnaturally avoided her waiting eyes, and turned his head back at her and smiled stiffly and said, "Hehe, I haven't tried, I really can't understand this cruelty." ”
"Of course, you're a rationalist, and everything you do is well thought out, so you're a 100% workaholic, a successful person, and I don't think there will be any happy woman who can make you stunted. Cheng Siyu opened his big autumn eyes and stared at him.
"Huh. Du Yifan dodged his forehead, and said with his tongue whirling: "You overestimate me too much, I'm just a mortal." ”
"Okay, then I'll continue to read" Cheng Siyu shook his head, muttered, and pretended to laugh helplessly.
When the evening dusk came, Cheng Siyu fell asleep unconsciously, leaned on the neat desk, and slept directly opposite Du Yifan, the afterglow of the setting sun hit her red cheeks, flowed between the gaps of her slender eyelashes, and spread on the surface of her entire delicate little face, making her whole person lie in the yellowish clouds that meet with the water and sky, just like a hazy and beautiful so clearly visible.
Du Yifan stared at Cheng Siyu who was sleeping with his eyes closed without squinting, seeing that she was sleeping comfortably, he still did not forget to hold the book tightly in his hand, and suddenly there was indescribable happiness, he couldn't help but smile secretly, stretched out his hand and wanted to touch her face secretly, as long as it was a little bit, the ignorant little girl was like a dandelion sleeping in the fluttering at the moment, and also had delicate skin as white as paper, inlaid with innocent big eyes, would it be like the love story that could not be loved, she would also be the eternal Lolita in his heart。 But he was a sane man, a successful businessman, a man who could not be easily swayed by emotion, and when his fingers were less than a centimeter away from her cheek, he hastily withdrew his palm and called the waiter, who was standing not far away.
When the night was getting darker, she woke up, stretched a big lazy waist, rubbed her eyes and muttered to herself: "I actually fell asleep, how could I sleep so comfortably and so relaxed." Then he glanced at the opposite side and found that the stool opposite was already empty, surprised that Du Yifan had left, and wondered why he didn't wake her up, and he didn't say a word when he left.
So he waved his hand and summoned the waiter and said a word to settle the bill. She and the waitress who came to the table politely said, "Please help me settle the bill, I haven't paid for the cake and coffee yet." ”
"Miss, no need, the gentleman who came here with you has already settled the account. The waitress replied politely.
"Ah, is it?" Cheng Siyu was a little stunned, but not surprised, and said a little embarrassed: "Then I want to buy the book "Lolita", let's check out now." ”
"Miss, he's already paid for this book. The waitress couldn't help but cover her mouth and said with a smile: "Your boyfriend is so good to you, and he likes you so much, just now I saw you asleep and he wanted to sneak your face, but then he withdrew his hand, probably because he was afraid of waking you up, I was so envious of it, he was as careful as a student in love, and he was considerate and handsome." ”
"No, no, he's not my boyfriend. Cheng Siyu was completely stunned, and immediately explained that she didn't believe that Du Yifan would want to touch her face secretly.
The two of them were dumbfounded, and the man frowned and touched the woman's hand, and the waitress grinned reluctantly and said embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, Miss, it's me who has a lot of trouble, by the way, this is a note left by your friend." After handing the note to Cheng Siyu, the two hurriedly walked away.
Flipping through the paper, a small note neatly appeared in front of me: "Seeing that you are sleeping so soundly, I won't bother you, I hope you will like this book, I wish you a happy read." Every. ”
Suddenly, a warmth inexplicably surged into her heart.