Wenwen is only five years old, and he has already learned to take a bath by himself, and he learned it in half a year after leaving him, and he already knows that he is a boy and cannot take a bath with his mother, a girl. Zhang Xiaoxiao stood outside the bathroom door, watching the small figure in the glass door busy.

She was both pleased with his growth, but also a little sour: the reason why he bathed by himself was because his father deliberately wanted him to learn some life skills, or whether he was simply too lazy and let it go, the same fact, different interpretations, different tastes. Just when Zhang Xiaoxiao's mind was complicated, the phone rang, she walked over and picked up the phone to see that it was still Huang Zixuan. After a moment's hesitation, he connected.

"Hello, Mr. Huang!"

"You, really...... Are you alright?"

"Hehe, what's so bad? Why do you think of asking?"

"Xiaoxiao, when will you be able to open your heart to me like I did to you?"

Zhang Xiaoxiao's heart was sour, Huang Zixuan was already very straightforward, and he couldn't be sloppy anymore. Although Huang Zixuan's concern is not the one she wants the most, she is still moved to be able to say such things to her at this most difficult time.

"It's all facts that can't be changed, and if you don't say it, it won't change much for me, so why burden you in vain. Zhang Xiaoxiao said with difficulty.

"I still owe you a hug, if you don't say it, when will I pay it back to you?"

Zhang Xiaoxiao couldn't help laughing, and her mood suddenly felt a lot more relaxed. How many years have she not been teased like this. Even when they were in love, Feng Sen couldn't play this trick, maybe they met too hastily and got married in a hurry without going through that process. However, Huang Zixuan is usually serious, and he is very attentive to be able to say such things at this time, which has to make Zhang Xiaoxiao very moved.

However, given the current state and the relationship between them, Zhang Xiaoxiao didn't know how to answer him. Should she grasp this life-saving straw and get rid of the darkness in front of her, or should she continue to use her remaining reason to remain reserved and live in reality? At this time, Wenwen called her in the bathroom: "Mom, I'm done." "Okay, then you quickly wipe your clothes. Zhang Xiaoxiao hurriedly responded.

"Okay, then you go get busy, I'll send you a message later!" Huang Zixuan said playfully.

"Hmm!"

Early in the morning, the doorbell rang non-stop, although Zhang Xiaoxiao had a nightmare, but at this time she slept very deeply, and after being woken up by the doorbell, it took half a day to return to reality. The first reaction was that Feng Sen was coming, after all, not many people knew this address. Zhang Xiaoxiao rushed to the door, thinking about whether to clean up his embarrassment, and after stopping for two seconds, he still opened the door. At the door stood Huang Zixuan.

Zhang Xiaoxiao turned her head and rushed into the bathroom, washed her face, and combed her hair a few times. Standing at the door of the bathroom and just about to speak, he suddenly realized that he was not wearing underwear in his pajamas, so he turned his head and entered the bedroom, and said while closing the door: "I'm sorry, Mr. Huang, you wait." After getting dressed and picking up his mobile phone, he found out that Huang Zixuan had sent a message to herself last night, asking her if she wanted to go out to play today. I also made a few calls in the morning, but unfortunately my phone was silent and I didn't hear it.

After going out, I saw Huang Zixuan sitting on the sofa in an orderly manner. The two looked at each other, the atmosphere was slightly awkward, and they didn't know how to speak. For a long time, Zhang Xiaoxiao took the lead in opening her mouth.

"Do you think I can't open it?"

"No, no, no...... There is a little bit. ”

Zhang Xiaoxiao smiled, and then said very seriously: "Thank you!"

This sentence of thanks expresses a hint of desolation, at this time, it turns out that an outsider is caring about himself. There are also some touches, after all, there are still people who care about themselves.

"How did you arrange it today?" Even though Zhang Xiaoxiao did not make up her mind to go out with Huang Zixuan, she secretly determined in her heart that as long as it was a more reasonable arrangement, she must respond positively and not blind the kindness of others.

"Do you have any good ideas?" asked Huang Zixuan hesitantly.

Zhang Xiaoxiao thought about it seriously and shook her head seriously.

"Then let's go around casually, where is were, how about it?" Huang Zixuan finished with a smile, looking at Zhang Xiaoxiao expectantly, as if hoping to get her response.

Huang Zixuan has always been a person with plans and ideas, but he didn't expect him to have such a romantic or even a bit of a second idea. Thinking of this, Zhang Xiaoxiao couldn't help but smile. She looked at the bedroom, where Wenwen was still sleeping sweetly. Huang Zixuan immediately said with interest: "Why don't you ask Wenwen what he thinks later?" Zhang Xiaoxiao nodded with satisfaction when he heard this.

"You go and wake up Wenwen, and I'll go buy breakfast. ”

"Breakfast was ready last night, just warm it up. ”

"I see you're not ...... every morning"

"When the child is not there, I will buy some on the road, and when the child is there, I will definitely make breakfast, which cannot be compromised. Of course, Zhang Xiaoxiao knew that Huang Zixuan was going to scare her, so she quickly took over. When I was alone, making breakfast was too formal, and if I made too much, it was wasted, and the kitchen was a mess, and the key was to get up half an hour early. It's better to buy some breakfast and eat it at the company, so basically the first time Huang Zixuan sees her every day is that she is eating like a groundhog.

After heating up the things, Zhang Xiaoxiao was surprised to find that Wenwen had already gotten up, Huang Zixuan was watching him put on his shoes, he used to have to stay in bed for a long time, and he didn't know what Huang Zixuan had done.

"Why did you wake up so fast today?"

Huang Zixuan laughed: "When Wenwen opened his eyes and saw that it was me, he was so frightened that he sat up all of a sudden. ”

said that he was walking casually, but Huang Zixuan's car went straight to the highway. Zhang Xiaoxiao didn't ask much, she knew that Huang Zixuan already had a place she wanted to go. With him, she has a sense of security, at least she doesn't have to ask long and short questions like an old mother, for fear of making mistakes. Although they don't have much contact with in life, at least in work, he has always been reliable.

"You can take Wenwen to sleep, it may be a long time. ”

"Oh, no, I'll look at the view, it's good. ”

"Are you worried about me?" said Huang Zixuan with a meaningful smile.

Zhang Xiaoxiao couldn't help laughing, but didn't refute. Of course not, she was a hundred reassuring of him. is a rich and handsome person with good roots, and she is a miserable unmarried woman, even if there are any scandals, probably others think that she is relying on scheming to get to the top, even if she doesn't have this idea for the time being.

"Are you afraid that I have evil thoughts?" Huang Zixuan still asked her with a wicked smile.

"I'm afraid you don't have evil thoughts about me!" Zhang Xiaoxiao choked cheaply. It turned out that she just wanted to choke Huang Zixuan casually, and she didn't carefully figure out the meaning of this sentence, and when she blurted it out, she realized the nakedness of this sentence. Even if she is thick-skinned on weekdays, she can't help but blush slightly. Peeking forward, Huang Zixuan in the driver's seat in front of him also had red ears, and Zhang Xiaoxiao hugged Wenwen sideways, pretending to sleep.

Just pretended, but really fell asleep, although it was uncomfortable to sleep with the child in his arms, and he adjusted his sleeping position from time to time in a hazy way, but he was too lazy to wake up. By the time I woke up and looked at the time, nearly four hours had passed. I looked out the window, the sun was shining, and the landmark seemed familiar, but I couldn't remember anything.

Coming back to her senses slightly, Zhang Xiaoxiao vigilantly wiped the corners of her mouth, the corners of her mouth were dry, and she was sure that she was not drooling. I sniffed my nose, and my nose was clear, so I shouldn't have snoring because of poor breathing. Only then did she put her mind at ease and looked ahead, Huang Zixuan was smiling at her from the rearview mirror in the car.

"I'm sorry I've slept for so long!

"Guess what!"

Zhang Xiaoxiao looked around carefully, the scene was still familiar, but some fragments of broken memories had begun to emerge in his mind. That was the first time she had gone far away, to see someone, and that feeling of being desperate was a mockery when I think about it now. Thinking of this, Zhang Xiaoxiao was saddened.

"It's time to Suzhou, let's go down for lunch!"

"And where were you going?"

"Hmm...... Shanghai!" After Huang Zixuan finished speaking, he looked at Zhang Xiaoxiao's reaction from the rearview mirror.

"Then go straight to Shanghai. ”

Huang Zixuan was stunned, and looked at Zhang Xiaoxiao again, making sure that she was not in a very good mood.

"What's wrong? It's past 12 o'clock, and the kids are hungry. ”

Zhang Xiaoxiao realized that her reaction was a little too aggressive, and smiled reluctantly: "I just feel that it will take a lot of time to get on and down." ”

"It's okay, we're not in a hurry, we're just out to play!"

"But I haven't been to Shanghai, and I still want to go straight to Shanghai. Zhang Xiaoxiao made up a plausible excuse.

It is certain that the food in the service area is unpalatable, but after more than four hours, Zhang Xiaoxiao is indeed hungry, and he does not find it difficult to swallow. Wenwen specially picks the messy food such as grilled sausages to eat, and he is even happier when he eats. Zhang Xiaoxiao looked up at Huang Zixuan after eating, he was eating very hard. Zhang Xiaoxiao felt guilty, but her mouth was still unforgiving.

"Let you suffer with me!"

"Hehe, no, you should eat less, and I will take you to Shanghai to eat deliciously. ”

"Don't say it sooner, wait until I'm full!"

When Wen Wen heard this, he immediately came to his senses: "Shanghai, are we going to Shanghai, are we going to Disney?"

Huang Zixuan and Zhang Xiaoxiao looked at each other, not knowing how to answer. As for the itinerary in Shanghai, they did not discuss it in advance, so no one dared to express their position rashly.

"It's not bad to go to Disney, I keep saying that I brought him here......"

Huang Zixuan's face was difficult.

"It's okay, but it's okay to go tomorrow, there's a concert tonight. ”

"Whose concert?"

"Zhang Xinzhe. ”

Zhang Xiaoxiao was silent, but her heart fluctuated. I like Zhang Xinzhe's songs, but I only mentioned it to Huang Zixuan once, and his heart moved her. Looking at Wenwen who was dancing on the side, Zhang Xiaoxiao hesitated.

"Is the ticket decided? If not......

"It doesn't matter, if you want to go to Disney, go to Disney. ”

Zhang Xiaoxiao smiled happily, this feeling of being considerate is really good. Even if her reason repeatedly reminded herself that there are mountains between herself and Huang Zixuan, and she is not a person of the same world at all, even if everything in front of her is not a mirror, it may disappear with time, after all, no matter how beautiful her feelings are, she can't escape the curse of time, and the more she sinks, the heavier she falls. But emotions still prevailed, and his words and deeds were like a painkiller for her terminally ill.

"Then you've already bought it, then go to the concert, don't waste money. After Zhang Xiaoxiao finished speaking, she turned to Wenwen and said, "Didn't we make an appointment to go to Disney with my sister, you see, we bought tickets to go in today, and it will be closed after a few projects, let's wait for the next time when there is enough time, and then go to play!"

"Then we'll go tomorrow morning!"

"Disney won't be open tomorrow. ”

"Then let's go today, and if we can't finish playing, we'll come back next time!"

"Everyone can only go to Disney once, and they can't go again next time!"

"Well, you can't have come sooner. ”

Huang Zixuan watched Zhang Xiaoxiao skillfully deceive Wenwen, and couldn't help but want to laugh in his heart, and had doubts in his heart, but he didn't dare to ask, so he sent Zhang Xiaoxiao a WeChat: Can't you go tomorrow?

Zhang Xiaoxiao replied with a message: He will be sent back to his grandmother's house tomorrow afternoon, and it will take six hours to return to Huaiqing, so it will be too late.

When they arrived in Shanghai, they stayed at a café near the concert venue until about half an hour after leaving, because with their children, the waiting time would become very painful. And all this, staying with Huang Zixuan, will be considered for her.

In the past, these things were all considered by Zhang Xiaoxiao, even so, there were not many opportunities for Zhang Xiaoxiao to consider, Feng Sen has always been passive in such activities, even if it is a meal, if there is not a trace of thinking about the child, Feng Sen probably will never participate.

The fluorescent swaying in the stadium, and the fans screamed. The first time I went to the scene to listen to A Zhe's song, sure enough, it was still different from listening to it live, Zhang Xiaoxiao began to understand a little bit what it means to linger for three days, and as soon as she opened her mouth affectionately, she could tremble every pore. I can't remember the names of many songs, but the melody is together, and the lyrics in the depths of my memory suddenly come to my mouth.

She looked around, Ah Zhe's fans were not young, and after making sure that she was not an old gangster, she was also like other fans, shaking light sticks and singing along. But because of Huang Zixuan beside her, she controlled herself and didn't shout. Wenwen was not interested in the people on the stage, but seeing the others shaking glow sticks and plastic slaps and yelling, and jumping and jumping, Zhang Xiaoxiao also shouted a few times.

The concert was almost over, and after a hearty experience, she was exhausted, and Zhang Xiaoxiao still sang along with a dumb voice. She knew that she was not singing in tune, and she had forgotten many lyrics, but fortunately, the crowd in the venue was noisy, and no one could hear it, so she could be presumptuous this time. In the past six months, the inner depression and forbearance seem to have been released in the song, and when it is sung, tears almost burst out of the eyes. Looking back at his side, Wenwen was already asleep, lying in Huang Zixuan's arms, while Huang Zixuan was sitting quietly, looking straight ahead, and noticed that Zhang Xiaoxiao was turning sideways, and he also looked at her and smiled softly.

It is said that the best happiness is that she is making trouble, and he is laughing. Zhang Xiaoxiao has always felt that this is a false proposition, she is making trouble, but he is laughing, the most terrifying thing in marriage is nothing more than this, even the hoarse accusation is not answered, or ignored, or laughed, or understated: what's the matter, what's the big deal? Isn't this situation terrifying?

The most beautiful appearance in love should be that she is letting herself go, and he can't help laughing. At the moment. However, do they have love? Ah Zhe bowed his head and thanked him, and the cheers in the audience remembered, Zhang Xiaoxiao burst into tears, not knowing whether she was sad or happy.

After the concert, Zhang Xiaoxiao insisted on returning to Huaiqing. The reason is very complicated, the two of them go out together, and accommodation is an ambiguous topic, even if she knows that there will be no story between them, but when it gets out, it is always unclear. But this is not the main reason, in the night, the two of them are alone in the confined space in the car, they can't see each other's faces clearly, as if they can talk about everything, she is a little obsessed with this feeling.

Zhang Xiaoxiao kept switching between fantasy and reality, and her dreamy self wandered in this ambiguous atmosphere, fantasizing that she could grasp Huang Zixuan's life-saving straw, so as to turn over and raise her eyebrows, and live a life that ordinary women envy. In reality, I am also a little backbone, I am a person who puts feelings first, and feelings are unpredictable, even if it is beautiful today, but how long can it last. What's more, what he thinks today, he doesn't know yet.

"How's your mood now? Not at all. ”

"Of course it's much better, how did you come up with the idea of bringing me to the concert?"

"You like something because you have good memories. I think...... I don't know what to think!"

Zhang Xiaoxiao couldn't help laughing, she thought that Huang Zixuan would tell any big truth seriously.

"I don't have any good memories, and I love listening to his songs during the hardest high school years of my entire academic career. Once, after evening self-study, our lower grades have turned off the lights, but I still have no sleep, there are two senior sisters outside the window while washing clothes and chatting, one of the senior sisters sang a song "Don't be afraid of me sad", in that quiet and hot summer evening, the whole small square outside the dormitory echoed her singing, that feeling now I remember clearly, how can the song be so good?"

"Isn't that a good memory?"

"Later, my tablemate borrowed a tape from me, and I kept hearing it broken. No way, there is no other entertainment at all, at most I go to the bookstore on weekends to borrow some romance and martial arts novels, but I can't read the book when the lights go out. By the way, we also listen to the radio and have seminars, and it's quite interesting to think about it. ”

Huang Zixuan looked at Zhang Xiaoxiao elated and said, "Isn't this a very happy memory?!"

"I also have a particularly bad memory, once I took a math test at the bottom of the class, a super low score, I didn't dare to go home on the weekend, went to the same class. On the way, Ren Xianqi's song was played all the time on the bus, so when I hear his song now, I feel very sad!"

After Zhang Xiaoxiao finished speaking, Huang Zixuan, who looked at the driver's seat, did not speak, and looked ahead, I don't know if it was her words that evoked his memories. Zhang Xiaoxiao looked out the window with a sideways face, and on both sides of the highway was I not sure which city it was, and the shadow flashed by.

What kind of city is it? She wondered, and lost interest in an instant, because there are too many unknowns in this world, and she has too few and so many desires, how can she have the ability to support it? Life is not only about the present, but also about the future.