Wu Yan spoke incoherently, and said wherever she thought of it.

"My dad was gone when I was very young, and my mom had to support me and my brother alone, doing odd jobs everywhere, which was very hard. At that time, I thought, when I grow up, I want to make a lot of money so that my mother can live a good life.

As I grew up, this thought disappeared little by little. Do you know why? Because my mom is very, very, very eccentric. It's like...... I was born to serve my brother.

I once asked my mom why she treated her child differently, and my mom said, 'You can't even beat your brother to a finger.' You see, in my mother's eyes, I just have no sense of existence.

One year it was almost the New Year, and the weather was very cold. My hands and feet were numb from my work, and when I was carrying water, the basin was not held steady, and I fell. The water in the basin splashed on the floor, spilling a piece of my brother's new clothes the size of his thumb. My brother kicked me and I couldn't get up for a long time. ”

Wu Yan laughed and burst into tears: "I thought I was going to die, it was too painful." But my mother said, 'Are you made of tofu?' your brother will break if you touch it? Get up and work and don't be lazy.' He also asked my brother, 'Baby, does your foot hurt?' next time you don't do it, let Mommy come.' ’

You know what it's like to be trampled on by your loved ones? It's like being abandoned by the whole world.

I asked my mom if she had picked me up. My mother directly picked up the flat pole and threw it at me, scolding me for being an unfilial daughter, saying that I looked down on her, and saying that if I disliked this family, I would get out.

Then, I just got out.

I kept walking and walking, and then I became numb. At that time, I thought that it was better to die than to live like this.

But I didn't die, Ruoying and her mother brought me home.

Later, Ruoying's mother didn't know what to tell my mother, but my mother treated me a lot better and sent me to school for the first time.

I know that this is all due to Ruoying.

I heard her mother say, 'That's a family affair, we don't have a position to take care of it.'" ’

But Ruoying persuaded her.

Later, Ruoying and I went to school together, got out of school together, and did homework together. We are inseparable. In my heart, she is my own sister. No matter what she asks me to do, I will never refuse her request. I don't understand, why would she hurt me?"

The more Wu Yan spoke, the lower her voice became.

Magnolia straightened her legs and sat next to her without saying a word.

She has learned Wu Yan's desperate state of mind several times, but her aunt gave her a trace of kindness, which made her seem to see a beam of light in the darkness and be able to summon up the courage to move forward.

Later, when she lived alone, she also had hope for her friends, but the more hopeful she was, the easier it was to be disappointed.

Later, she would never pin her hopes on someone else, even if that person was her best friend.

If you can solve it yourself, you will solve it, and if you can't solve it, you would rather give up than ask for help.

Facts have proved that there is a corresponding solution to every problem, and there is no need to stumble to death on one hurdle.

Wu Yan thought that she was abandoned by her family, at least there was friendship or love. Unexpectedly, in the end, her friend and lover gave her a knife at the same time.

However, that's the price of growth.

If you haven't experienced the pain of transformation, how can you have the beauty of breaking out of the cocoon into a butterfly?

Magnolia asked her, "What are your plans?"

Wu Yan glanced at Yulan and said honestly: "I have been thinking about this question when I ran up yesterday evening, thinking about it, thinking about it all night. I think it's really boring to be alive, and I think I'm better dead. ”

Yulan looked at the stream at the foot of the mountain in the distance and said, "If you are planning to come to this mountain to seek death, then you are in the wrong place." ”

She looked at Wu Yan sincerely and gave her an analysis: "Look, this mountain is full of pine saplings, they are not as tall as you, you can't hang yourself if you want to; As for jumping from the top of the building, don't try it, the tallest building in our school is only the fifth floor, if you don't fall to your death, won't you feel more uncomfortable if you fall and become disabled? If you really want to die, I suggest you jump into the river. Oh, the river at the foot of the mountain, jumping down in the dead of night, is a hundred. As for the daytime, you should not jump, people come and go, if you jump down and have to work others to save you, in case you don't die, and you drag down the person who saved you, then you will be guilty of a great sin. ”

Wu Yan stared at her like a ghost since Yulan's analysis, and when she saw her talking nonsense seriously, she suddenly became angry: "Shouldn't you persuade me to cherish life and work hard to live?"

The dead expression on her face faded a little because of her anger.

Yulan pouted: "It's not that you said that it's boring to live and die, okay? I'm just giving you a pertinent suggestion." ”

Wu Yan suddenly had some doubts about life, she thought that this girl was wise, but she didn't expect that she was also neurotic, how could anyone tell people how to die in a serious way?

Yulan pulled out a piece of grass from the crack in the stone at her feet and wrapped it around her hand, and she didn't look at Wu Yan: "Where do you say these weeds get their toughness? Why can't people be like weeds?"

Wu Yan said: "I just said that I didn't want to live anymore, but I didn't say that I wanted to die." ”

Yulan sighed, and her tone sounded quite regretful: "Since you don't want to die, then try to live." Doesn't it mean that everyone knew about it before, and you didn't hide, so you still went to class? It shows that you don't lack the courage to face difficulties. Why don't you think you can survive this time?"

Wu Yan smiled miserably: "It's different, people only suspected me and him before, but now there is evidence." ”

Yulan tugged at the corners of her mouth: "Shameful things are lost, lost habits, if you have no face, you don't want it, and only those who don't have face are invincible." You're about to graduate anyway, and when you leave this campus, who remembers who?"

"Don't you think I'm shameless?"

"What does it have to do with me? I can't take care of my own affairs, and I still have time to knock other people's teeth?"

Wu Yan always felt that this was wrong, and she didn't know how to refute it, so she frowned and glanced at Yulan.

Yulan said in an old-fashioned manner: "It is a tragedy to meet the wrong person at the wrong time." You're unlucky enough to meet a scumbag. However, you should be glad that you don't have to be tied to this kind of person for the rest of your life, otherwise that will be the greatest misfortune, and you should be content. ”

Wu Yan bit her lip and didn't speak.

Seeing that she was fine, Yulan stood up and patted the dust off her body, rolled up the mat and carried it on her back to prepare to go back to the dormitory for breakfast. Seeing that Wu Yan had no intention of leaving, she said another sentence before leaving: "People say that knowledge changes fate, and I think this is a wise saying." I suggest you take the college entrance examination well, maybe it will change your fate?"

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