Chapter Ninety-Five: The Pain Is Not Wanting to Live
People's hearts are not ancient, and the world is hot and cold. The hardships and tribulations of the past are like sharp knives, cutting through time and space, cutting through memories, and it is especially heart-wrenching.
"Who has helped me, and who have I helped?" The sky was full of cool moons, and Xiao Nan's eyes were full of tears.
"It's a real failure to be a man, and it's all a bad money?"
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Today, in the leisurely villa, no matter day or night, it is so lively, so jubilant, the atmosphere is so warm, and the scene is so moving. However, our beggar prince Lu Xiaonan is obsessed with watching from day to night, alone in the face of this bright moon, it seems that there are a few thoughts from afar, there seems to be a lot of lovesickness, and maybe a lot of homesickness.
There are many times, and even he wants to cry when he covers his mouth, so that the world will feel distressed when he sees it.
"Alas, it's only strange that all these past events are unbearable, and thinking about it can not only make people haggard, but also make people anxious. However, I can't forget the marks that have been made in my life and memory, and I can't figure them out. Who can understand me? Who can I understand?"
The past is really unbearable, and Xiao Nan is still teary-eyed.
Think about the whole day, the three village chiefs and the two town chiefs didn't see half of Xiao Nan's shadow for a day. The leaders also arranged for people to search for him several times, but it seemed to be fruitless. There have also been repeated phone calls, all of which have reminded you that the user you are calling cannot be reached temporarily. Just because of Xiao Nan's abnormal behavior today, he was stunned and made several township leaders tremble with anger, choking with anger, almost half dead.
Mayor Hao also secretly scolded Xiao Nan many times in his heart for this, "What tricks does this kid play, dare to release my pigeon again?"
Despite this, everyone is helpless. In the meantime, although several leaders were as anxious as ants in a hot pot throughout the day, and the time was really difficult, on the big day of today's mountain village celebration, all affairs had to be blocked, and everything had to be presided over and carried out normally according to the original plan.
Otherwise, there were so many people coming to this mountain villa, how could they be childish and hastily give things to the scene? To be honest, this is really difficult for a few leaders, just at that time, Xiao Nan did not appear for a long time, and several leaders were really angry, but they had no way to question. had to face each other, and they all acquiesced in the absence of Xiaonan's celebration meeting.
Xiao Nan did not show up at the conference, but Mayor Hao always felt that he was panicked at that time, he really didn't expect Xiao Nan to release his pigeon again like when he was dividing the lot in the villa, and he always let his old face really not find a suitable place to put it in front of the villagers. Especially in front of the new female mayor, how embarrassing is this?
Therefore, Xiao Nan's absence led to the important part of the commendation of the mountain villa celebration conference, and it did not achieve the expected warm effect and original intention. However, none of these deficiencies seem to have affected the bustle of the lodge and other important aspects and other matters.
No, everyone has already seen it, and the mother entertains everyone in all aspects, dressing people with courtesy, and treating people with courtesy. The day was from morning to night, and I didn't slow down anyone.
Of course, as for Xiao Nan's absence during the conference, the mayor of the town can also understand it, he once thought: It seems that the main reason is that Xiao Nan doesn't like these false halos that have no practical value, and those high hats that seem to be the highest honor.
Mayor Mare's right. In fact, in the world, Xiao Nan feels that nothing is better than being able to live in real life, to be frank, ordinary, real, kind, and good is the real foundation of being a person. He firmly believed that only by doing so could he achieve exactly what the foreign proverb says: the desire should be great, the expectation should be moderate, the desire should be small, and above all, the beauty should be great.
There are many times, Xiao Nan still feels that it is not the ability of a person to earn a lot of money just for himself in his life. It is only when you are alive that you have helped many people, done many good deeds, spread beauty, and contributed to society that you are worthwhile. Even if you don't want to do to others, you should do nothing, and don't create thorns for others.
Yes, he is a mortal, not to cultivate immortals, not to become a god, he just wants to be good, and he just wants to spread beauty.
And at this moment, on the Niangniang Temple, Xiao Nan at this time had nothing to do except be sad, his eyes were brightening, and he looked at Liu Xinyi who was singing "Wushuang" in the troupe affectionately from afar, and his fists reminded him of Xia Xiaoxue's charming smiles when he was a child, those who were true, those who were pure, and those who were beautiful. At the same time, there is also the moment when they put on a jade ruyi pendant for Xue'er when they were young and kissed each other affectionately in that cliff stream, and those real bits and pieces of the past are embellishing their inner world of illusory sweet feelings all the time.
In an instant, he himself entered a short-lived and dreamy fairyland: "Could it be that Xue'er is really alive, otherwise, how can she be so similar to the girl who sings?"
Suddenly, the beautiful shadow of Liu Xinyi in the distance in front of Xiao Nan was like a "whoosh" of an incomparably sharp arrow on the string, which stabbed him in the heart impartially, and in an instant, it was also shattered.
"Cher!"
"She's not Cher?"
In despair, he was in pain. So, he suddenly knelt on his knees and hugged his head, crying loudly: "Xue'er, Xue'er, if you were still alive in this world, where would you be now? Can you show up to see me in the sky, even if it's in a dream?"
Thoughts, helpless thoughts, suddenly tortured Xiao Nan all over his body, and he was in pain.
This world is really interesting, birds can really die for food, and people can really die for love. However, Xiao Nan, who was covered in bruises, didn't know that in life, if he was blindly obsessed with the past, he would lose the future.
There are some things that can be forgotten if you dream about them. Why be so persistent.
However, sometimes, in this world, even dreaming can become a luxury. In life, not only are there too many mistakes, but there are more and more worlds apart, and there will be more imbalances between heaven and earth. Mutual affection, heart and soul or just legend.
It's so unfair that the good thing of drooling makes you lose sleep all night even if you want to dream.
If you want to say fairness, God is fair to everyone, but when future generations change themselves, they affect and disturb others, but they don't know that what is unfair is that their hearts are too selfish.
However, Cang Tiantian is really making people, the world is really wonderful, Xue'er is really not dead, she is still alive, and she is also tortured in a foreign land, and she is in pain. And the person who tortured her ruthlessly and unjustly was the evil demon man Nansheng and the ghost master, but Xiao Nan didn't know anything.
(The second half, the excitement continues!)