When Su Mu became serious about one thing, he would basically lose his ability to perceive other things completely. For example, if someone suddenly wakes him up when he is stunned, other people may immediately enter the state, but Su Mu may have to slow down for a while before he can react to the things around him. So when she was engrossed in thinking about how to continue to say so that Ling Feng could understand the true meaning of what she was trying to express just now, she didn't hear what Ling Feng was saying clearly at all. She only knew that Ling Feng had interrupted her thoughts, and as for what he wanted to express, Su Mu didn't know anything.

But despite her curiosity, when she reacted, she was too embarrassed to ask.

As for Ling Feng, when he finished saying this, he saw that Su Mu on the other side didn't react to it at all, at first he thought that Su Mu was shy because he heard such words and didn't know what to say, but after waiting for a while, he felt that something was wrong, and he thought that he said such a thing that made Su Mu angry with him, and then he began to think that there might be something wrong with the Internet, so that he missed Su Mu's reaction. So just when Su Mu was thinking about what Ling Feng had said, Ling Feng started all kinds of call auditions.

Su Mu couldn't help but smile after hearing words such as "hey", "hello", "anyone", and "can you hear it" in various tones, and a feeling of "this child is still a little cute" suddenly surged in his heart. So she coughed lightly and signaled to Ling Feng that she was listening.

As soon as Ling Feng heard Su Mu's voice coming from his side, he immediately changed his attitude and asked Su Mu in a tone that was almost "coquettish":

"Why did you go, why didn't you talk all the time?"

Su Mu was speechless when asked, he couldn't directly tell the other party that he hadn't listened to him at all just now, so he told Ling Feng with some weakness that she had turned on the mute when the customer had just arrived, which could be regarded as barely fooling this matter.

After a long time, Su Mu suddenly remembered this matter one day, and asked curiously when he was tired of Ling Feng's side. Ling Feng asked her funny if she didn't mean that she had a bad memory, what he told her in the last second, she could forget it in the next second, how could she still remember these things after so long. Su Mu thought about it, brought out Freud's theory in "The Interpretation of Dreams", and then made it up nonsense and answered Ling Feng as a reason. Ling Feng knew that she was talking nonsense, but he was shocked by her theory of "touching the bypass", and finally had to smile helplessly and repeat his words to her.

Su Mu, who was originally in a good mood, suddenly fell silent after hearing this, and even took his head off Ling Feng's shoulders and lowered his head. Ling Feng was a little surprised by Su Mu's reaction, and immediately raised his hand to raise her head again, frowning and asking softly:

"What's wrong? Why are you unhappy all of a sudden?"

"It's fine. ”

"You know what I don't like the most about your attitude, what's wrong. ”

Su Mu's low tone did not bring much tenderness, but instead asked a little impatiently. She seemed to have known that something like this would happen, so she smiled suddenly, then raised her head and looked at Ling Feng's eyes seriously, and said to him in a somewhat cold tone:

"I just still feel that I still love you like before. ”

"Why, then don't you love it now? Besides, it's not all you who forced me to become like this. If you listened to me honestly, would you be like this?"

Ling Feng sneered, and as he spoke, he hugged Su Mu in his arms tighter. Su Mu felt a little pain, and her tears seemed to want to flow uncontrollably, but she didn't struggle, as before, she pulled a commercial smirk hard, and said to Ling Feng:

"I don't want to quarrel with you, I don't want to reason with you, what I want to say, what I want to show is already told to you a long time ago. You can't change me, and I can't change you, since you insist on not letting go, then we'll wait for other people to show up to save the two of us. ”

"Do you feel comfortable living again? Shut up if you can't speak, don't cry with me here, it's really annoying that you cry the most, crying endlessly, who can stand you. Don't laugh, what's so ridiculous, blame me for coming to this point?"

Hearing this, Su Mu's tears finally couldn't help but fall non-stop, she looked at Ling Feng crying, and asked Ling Feng in a cold voice in a calm and somewhat angry tone:

"So you can't coax me to say a few words?"

"How can I coax people all day long, how can I coax you, if you make me angry, I can't coax you? Besides, who caused this today? You have nothing to think about this and that, you love to think about yourself, what do I do, I will make you angry and want to coax you? Are you finished? You can also talk about the things of 800 years ago, are you sick? ”

After Ling Feng finished saying this, he violently pushed Su Mu away from him, and looked at Su Mu with wide eyes and huffing. Su Mu was pushed painfully, and subconsciously rubbed his arm, while turning his head to the side without looking at Ling Feng. The two fell into a long silence, and this confrontation without eye contact made the time all the more clear. So every minute and every second during this period seems to be magnified countless times, and then turned into a sharp blade, cutting the fragile feelings of the two little by little.

In the end, it stabbed into Su Mu's heart, which was already full of holes.

A long time ago, Su Mu felt that her heart should have died little by little in disappointment, but the truth told her in a cruel way that the adaptability she was most proud of had made her lose the ability to resist pain. Her heart can't die, and she won't feel pain because of despair, she will only suffer over and over again, crying over and over again, and repeating the same mistakes.

But all this happened something that Su Mu never imagined. As a pessimist, she had thought of all kinds of endings for the two of them to break up before she started, but she never thought that the two of them had been entangled in pain for so long, but he still refused to let her go. She often wonders if she would have mustered up the courage to accept the relationship if she had thought that there would be such an outcome. But more often, she thinks that if she had been ruthless at the beginning, broke up decisively when that incident happened, did not relent, and did not choose to forgive, would she have lived a better life in the future.

It's a pity that there is only reality in this world.

There was never an if.