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To be honest, Su Mu actually just wanted to make a joke with Ling Feng, but he didn't expect that this word fell on Ling Feng's ears, and it was far from being as simple as a joke. After he listened, he hugged Su Mu even harder, and then said to Su Mu in a very firm tone:
"I don't like any other vase, I just want this vase in my arms, I want it now, three years, thirty years, the next life. I will take good care of this vase, she doesn't have to worry about her being old, and she doesn't have to worry about becoming a drag when she gets old, because what she has become, in my heart, will always be the beautiful, gentle and lovely girl when I met for the first time. ”
Although he has passed the age of listening to love, Su Mu also thinks that his resistance to those love words must be much stronger than that of sixteen or seventeen-year-old girls who still yearn for love, but the reality at this moment makes Su Mu understand one thing, maybe no matter how old they are, women like to listen to love words from the bottom of their hearts, the only difference is that young girls will show it on their faces, while older women will show it in action.
As for Su Mu, people like her who are unwilling to show their joys, sorrows, and sorrows on their faces, and who can't say love words to make others happy, will only be reflected in their actions.
But she can't do romantic things, so she may be full of joy, but what can be known is only one in ten million.
In addition, in fact, Su Mu didn't know exactly what Ling Feng wanted, so in this current scene, Su Mu didn't know what he could do to give Ling Feng the response he was looking forward to.
She was also embarrassed to have any response, afraid that she would show too much and not be cherished.
In the final analysis, she still didn't trust Ling Feng, no matter how much he did, she didn't think that the two of them would get married and have children, and they would grow old.
Maybe it's because of the age gap between the two of them, maybe it's because of her own distrust of herself, but whatever the reason, the result is nothing more than the two most common reasons for breaking up.
Either Ling Feng found a new love and gave up Su Mu, or Su Mu was tired of such an unsteady life and gave up Ling Feng.
Thinking of this, Su Mu calmed down in an instant. But she still tried to make herself appear happier, hugging Ling Feng hard, but she didn't let him see the expression on her face.
Ling Feng didn't expect Su Mu to react at all, after all, he had done a lot of the same things before, but Su Mu didn't show anything special, so much so that he once thought that his move, which was easy to use on other girls, was completely unsuitable for Su Mu. As a result, he didn't expect Su Mu to respond to his words this time, which was enough to make him happy for a while.
Where would he think of these things that Su Mu thought of, there was only one thing that could be designed in his simple concept of love.
Give everything he can to Su Mu.
In the time that followed, under the influence of Su Mu, his concept has been constantly changing. At first, after something happened, according to Su Mu's requirements, he became trying to give Su Mu what he wanted, and then he felt that after a long time, he was tired of getting used to it, and he began to feel that Su Mu wanted too much, and he was no longer willing to cater to her ideas, so that the contradictions between the two people accumulated deeper and deeper, and in the end they were irreconcilable.
Later, Ling Feng also considered "breaking and then standing", wanting to separate from Su Mu for a while first, so that the two of them could calm down, reconsider, and then get back together. But Su Mu directly rejected his idea, on the grounds that if they separated, she would definitely not repeat the mistakes of the past and make herself miserable again.
The two of them had another big fight over this matter, although the quarrel was the same as before, and it became as if nothing had happened, but in fact, both of them knew very well in their hearts that an expression that was already unreliable would only become more and more unreliable after these things happened. Even if Su Mu often said that quarreling is to solve problems rather than breaking up, if there are more and more problems, and when he is not even willing to quarrel, there is no way to solve the problem, and there is no way to be together.
At that time, Ling Feng didn't understand why Su Mu wanted to break up at every turn. Because there were obviously no major problems between the two of them, those things that were problems in Su Mu's eyes, he felt that they could all be solved. Since the problem can be solved, there is no need to break up at all. Su Mu kept explaining, talking about her reasons and thoughts, but in the end, she also chose to be silent.
At first, Su Mu didn't think that age was a problem, she felt that he couldn't fall in love and didn't know how to take care of people, so she could wait or teach. But after crying too many times, she realized that some things were actually wrong in nature. She has always felt that loving someone should take the initiative to think about each other, always keep each other in mind, and definitely take into account the feelings of the other party before doing a thing or a decision, because with love, one person's affairs become two people's affairs, which is an inevitability. Because of this cognition, when she didn't feel that Ling Feng was doing these things for her, she would turn these "voluntary" into requirements and impose them on Ling Feng. She naively thought that as long as she did this, one day Ling Feng would be able to understand what kind of responsibility she needed to take for the other party and what kind of responsibility she had to bear for herself, but she forgot to consider whether the love that a boy of this age thought was the same thing as the love she thought.
This is the root of all the contradictions between the two of them.
If it weren't for a quarrel one day, Ling Feng yelled at her in the tone he was best at, "I'm not like you at twenty-eight years old, I'm only eighteen years old, of course I'm crazy when I go out to play, how can I take care of you, why do you always measure me by the standard of your age", Su Mu would never have realized this problem. It may be an exaggeration to say that she has woken up, but the moment she heard Ling Feng's accusation, Su Mu did understand a lot of things that she couldn't figure out before. So the person who cared about age was never her, and the fact that there was some cruelty, there was always a beautiful excuse to cover for it, to make it seem reasonable, as if it were all justified, which made people have a strange psychology of compliance, and would rather distort the facts in order to believe it.