"That's right, it's really Konishi!"

She said to herself, overjoyed. Especially her smile is like a flower, which makes people feel refreshed and even more intoxicating. So, why is she so happy at this moment? It turned out that she suddenly saw Sister Xiaoxi's family of three talking and laughing in the lawn not far away, and the family was enjoying this long-lost family fun.

"The most beautiful years are quiet, and the most beautiful life is sweet. ”

She saw Xiaoxi and their family eating a lot of delicious snacks together, you give me a piece, I feed you a mouthful, the beautiful life of this family, at this moment, seems to be isolated from the world. It's also enviable. It's just that the newspapers and some man-made garbage scattered everywhere in the lawn seem a little difficult to fit in, and even out of tune with this scene.

"Oh my God, it turned out that this is my brother-in-law Liu Lu returning to his hometown from Quancheng, the provincial capital, and bringing his five-year-old daughter Hitomi from his hometown Liu Zhuang to join in the fun. More likely, he also came to see Xiaoxi and his elderly mother-in-law who insisted on teaching in the mountain village, right? Of course, perhaps more importantly, he still misses his daughter left behind in his hometown and a pair of elderly farming parents at home, right?" Xia Xiaoyu was like this in his heart, repeatedly looking for thoughts and thinking, and kept nagging about the happiness of Xiaoxi's family. Suddenly, she felt a little envious of her sister Xiaoxi Youran. Thinking about the current situation of himself and Xiao Nange, looking at Qiqi, a burst of warmth instantly warmed up all over his body.

This feeling is all happiness and sweetness. At the same time, she also truly understood a true truth from the bottom of her heart: happiness is actually a kind of thing that comes from psychological feelings.

"Meet in the sky, stay together in people. No matter how thunder occurs in winter, snow falls in summer, or how the four seasons change, there has never been any change in my heart that loves you. Similarly, when encountering the best feelings, it is not to move you to cry at once, but to spoil you for a long time. Not only loyalty, but also perseverance, so, very simple, happiness does not need to be pretentious and disguised, as long as the temperament is like the sunshine, the weather is bright, the mind is peaceful, go with the flow, your life is full of growth, everywhere wonderful. ”

Not long after being immersed in happiness, she turned around and hurriedly handed the folded paper airplane and a thousand paper cranes to Qiqi who was playing on the lawn beside her, and told the child not to run too far, so as not to worry too much.

"Thank you, Mom!"

"Thank you, Mom!"

Qiqi took the plane folded by his mother and ran away with the paper crane, having a lot of fun, "Oh oh, fly, fly." I want to fly. Xiaoyu looked at Qiqi, a child who was incomparably happy after being satisfied, and her heart was bubbling with a trace of sweetness.

"Oh my God, happiness and happiness are so simple, life is so wonderful!" But at the same time, how much she longed to marry Brother Xiao Nan soon. Only in that way can I have my own lovely daughter as soon as possible, and I can experience a complete feeling of motherhood.

But at the same time, she had a lot of worries in her own heart, and sighed: "Alas, this messy matter is like a mess and keeps sorting out more chaotic things, I really don't know when I will be able to figure it out? Seriously, this feeling, maybe in this world, only I can understand, and only I can personally experience the complex mental and emotional contradictions of my sister Xiaoxi. However, now that the ending has become like this, what will it be like if I really become Qiqi's stepmother in the future? Will he love his adoptive mother as deeply as his aunt Xiaoxi when he grows up? Also, how should Qiqi treat his own mother Zhao Zhen in the future, and where will he go?"

“……”

Obviously, there must be a lot of complicated things at this moment, thousands of thoughts are surging in Xia Xiaoyu's heart, and they are surging like a tide. However, love has reached the depths, what is the reason to give up lightly? Especially all these things have been carved with colorful and beautiful brushes in their own lives. Look, at this moment, she abandoned all her worries, as if facing the sea in spring, and she was very happy.

At the same moment, her shouting, her laughter, I am afraid that few people can understand her heart at this time.

We need to know that imagination is always so short-lived, and sometimes it is difficult to come true. Especially the legendary women who don't eat the fireworks of the world, there are really few in the world. Even if there were, I'm afraid it's only a story that can only appear in fairy tales this year.

No matter how beautiful the story is, it seems too ethereal and unreal.

In this way, Xia Xiaoyu returned to nature in an instant like an egret fairy. However, her expression is still so calm, elegant, and lovely.

At this time, she was quietly and silently looking at Qiqi's cheerful and cute appearance, thinking about the beautiful days with Qiqi and Xiao Nange. Although there are many worries in my mind now, my heart is still cheering.

Because after all, she felt that she had a place in Xiao Nange's heart.

But when she thought of Mo Xiaohan and Lin Tingting, at this moment, she felt like a thorn in her heart, feeling that she was the petal that was fragile but strong, floating in the wind, leisurely, with nothing to attach to, no direction, and she didn't know where to fall?

"Alas, I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't think about it, I think too much, maybe love is a kind of torture?"

"It's easy to fall in love, but it's not easy to stay together?" thought about it so much, although she had too many worries in her heart, she still firmly believed like Xiaoxi that the closest person in the world was her mother, whether it was a biological mother or an adoptive mother, they were all the same. So after that, she also nagged casually, "I hope that people in the world who have suffered like me and Xiaoxi can get along closely with their adoptive mothers, and understand each other and care for each other." At the same time, she also thought: Over the years, a person has been living and has encountered so many such and such problems, not only loneliness and loneliness, but also a person who has experienced those helplessness and reluctance in heaven and earth......

In fact, she also knows that forgetting is a kind of freedom, but some past events have to be thought about, and she always feels that she can't help herself. At this moment, looking into the distance, how much she longed in her heart to have someone to walk side by side with her, even if it was poverty, even if it was disease, it would no longer be a luxury. At the same time, she closed her eyes and thought silently: since she was a child, she was like one of the countless lonely children in the world, like a star on the edge of the vast sky, sliding around, but always out of bounds.

She thought even more: those loneliness from childhood to adulthood, Xiao Nange's companionship and life and death rescue. When he grew up, Xiao Nange's helpless departure and the return of his unhappy marriage, and the youth that passed away from each other. What's more, Xiao Nange's expression of missing his sister at night on the Niangniang Temple seems to have been ruthlessly catalyzed by the years into some kind of distant destination and extravagant memory in history.

It is likely to be more of a sad memory, which cannot be shaken off. Because this kind of forgetfulness is not so easy.

Freedom, then, is a luxury.

Perhaps, at this moment, Xia Xiaoyu can only beg, in this world, is there anyone who can really give her a little permanent warmth and peace of mind? Don't let this love really become a kind of torture. Of course, her orientation has always been aimed at Brother Xiao Nan, so her love will also be unswerving until death.

So, thinking about it, she cried again.

"A little, people have experienced more things in the world, and they will suddenly feel that the loneliness and helplessness they used to be will become extravagant in the end. I'm afraid that they can be so extravagant that even those clarity and simplicity that only belong to their own youth are destined to never be found again. Perhaps, they can no longer find a little bit of their past self, even if it is a little bit, they are satisfied. ”

"But it's a pity, like water, the years always urge people to grow old?"

Although the relationship with Xiao Nange has grown by leaps and bounds recently, now, she still feels deeply lonely. I always feel that this love is insecure. It's not even easy to navigate.

(The second half continues!)