"Miss Shi, your heart already belongs to Xi Zhan, you just can't find a way to cut off the relationship with Gu Tingchen. ”

Song Yiran's voice came to my ears and said, "Your love belongs to Xi Zhan, so you can only refuse Gu Tingchen's side!"

I will definitely make it clear to Gu Tingchen.

I exhaled and said, "Xi Zhan doesn't love me. ”

"Miss Shi, you misunderstood!" Song Yiran clenched my palm and said with a warm smile: "No man will do this to the point of a woman who doesn't care about him, you are just a fan of the authorities, and I am a bystander! Especially a man like Xi Zhan who seems to care about nothing but stubbornly protects you, his love for you may be heavier than you think." ”

I hopefully asked, "Then why did he reject me?" and he was going to make me forget about both of us last night. ”

Song Yiran looked at me with transparent eyes and asked, "Then have you ever thought that it was your own problem?"

I was surprised and asked, "What's my problem?"

"Xi Zhan is a typical domineering president, he has his pride and self-esteem in his heart, and you ...... You have an affair with Fu Xi, you have an affair with Gu Lanzhi, and you are Gu Tingchen's ex-wife, plus you said that he also heard the conversation between you and Gu Tingchen last night......"

I asked expectantly, "Is he jealous?"

Song Yiran smiled softly and guessed: "You said that you succumbed to the warmth of reality, and you liked Xi Zhan because he gave you that warmth, so have you ever thought that what Xi Zhan needs is that you are the only one in your life? Have you ever thought that he is actually angry, helpless and disappointed when he does this?"

She thought for a moment and said, "You may have hurt Xi Zhan inadvertently, but you still expect him to treat you with the same mood...... He may have understood your hesitation and didn't answer you. ”

Song Yiran's analysis is the Tao, which makes me feel that what she said is true, but this is her guess after all.

But she was right, what Xi Zhan wanted was this life, the only one, because Yuan You said that the love he wanted was unswerving, and I suddenly understood the reason why he stayed away from me......

Xi Zhan was angry with me.

Because I've been hesitating.

I'm also angry with myself.

At this moment, Gu Tingchen sent me a message.

He said, "I'm sorry I hurt you last night. ”

This should be normal for him.

I messaged back and said, "It's okay, I don't blame you. ”

I can't blame him anymore.

Because he saved my life.

Xi Zhan also saved me in the heavy snow.

My originally peaceful life has been in turmoil lately, and I have been hovering between life and death, but fortunately, I have been successfully rescued every time.

"Sheng'er, I miss you. ”

Gu Tingchen said, he misses me.

It seems to contain countless grievances.

I didn't reply to the message immediately, but gratefully said thank you to Song Yiran, and drove away.

After I returned to the apartment, I held my mobile phone and hesitated for a long time before I thoughtfully sent a message to Gu Tingchen, "I'm sorry, I have a heart." ”

Gu Tingchen is smart, he must have understood what I meant.

And he didn't reply to my text messages.

For the next three days, I stayed at home, drinking Chinese medicine seriously, thinking about what happened between me and Xi Zhan.

In fact, there were very few memories between us, and it was not a few days when I found out my affection for him.

These days, I am very active and speak openly.

Because I can no longer love someone and follow him for nine years as I did when I was younger, what I want is real warmth.

But Xi Zhan rejected me.

Didn't even give me a reason.

Just when I was at home and worried, Song Yiran had a problem, and the assistant called me to go to the hospital quickly.

At the end of September, the weather was a little cool, so I hurried over wearing very thin clothes, and when I saw Shi Cheng, I was there.

I was surprised and asked, "Why are you here?"

Shi Cheng lost his mind and said: "Come and ask her for forgiveness." ”

I asked curiously, "Has she forgiven you?"

Shi Cheng shook his head and said, "She resolutely refuses." ”

Fortunately, Song Yiran was just a physical discomfort caused by anger, and there was no big problem, but the doctor said that if she continued to conceive like this, it would pose a fatal threat to her body.

I asked the doctor worriedly, "What about the longest time?"

"Half a month at most. ”

Hearing this, he was stunned for a while, he didn't dare to enter the ward at all, and when I entered, I saw Song Yiran staring out the window blankly.

I reminded her, "Shi Cheng is at the door." ”

"Well, let him go. ”

I sat down next to her and said, "He wants to be forgiven by you." ”

Song Yiran said resolutely: "Impossible." ”

Her expression was resolute and seemed non-negotiable.

But the other day she also told me that she loves Shi Cheng.

"Can you tell me why?"

"Miss Shi, it's true that I love him, but in life there is not only love, but also self-esteem, principles, bottom lines and self-love, my self-esteem and principles tell me that I can't forgive him. ”

She suddenly turned to me and said, "I can't succumb to the warmth of reality like you to forgive those hurts." Miss Shi, if I have been hurt like this, I can go back to the past, don't you think the pain and pain I have suffered is a joke?"

I panicked and hurriedly said, "You're right. ”

Song Yiran is right, there is not only love in people's lives, but also the so-called self-esteem and bottom line in our hearts.

Shi Cheng trampled on her self-esteem, so she couldn't forgive him anymore, and I once had a soft heart for Gu Tingchen.

I suddenly understood that Song Yiran was the one who loved us the most, and she was the only one who saw her most clearly from beginning to end.

I left the hospital with relief, knowing in my heart that I and Zengzeng, I really became a thing of the past, and there was nothing I could do here.

I can't move him.

I could no longer confide my heart to him.

I suddenly remembered what he said in the villa some time ago, he wanted me to be worthy of the affection in my heart.

Xi Zhan has always taught me how to start from the beginning.

I took a deep breath, and when I was about to leave, I saw the man smoking a cigarette in the hospital parking lot with his head slightly hanging down, and was stunned, and when I was wondering why he was here, Yuan You's voice came from behind me, "Yun'er, why are you in the hospital?"

I turned around and shouted in surprise, "Third brother." ”

Looking at the bruises on Yuan You's face, I asked worriedly, "Why are you injured?"

Yuan You tugged at the corners of his mouth and said indifferently: "It's nothing, I just had a fight with someone in the hotel, and I happened to meet the second brother who was there to talk about business, so he asked him to send me to the hospital to bandage." ”

Yuan You climbed on my shoulder to go to Xi Zhan's side, and said in surprise: "The second brother has been very kind recently, and even promised to personally send me to the hospital, I thought that only you had this kind of benefit." ”

I'm not Xi Zhan's special person.

Yuan You called out to the second brother, I hung my head in a proper manner and called the second brother, Yuan You patted my shoulder in surprise and asked, "What are you doing as a family so restrained?"

I didn't speak, Xi Zhan hummed lightly, I pointed to the sports car beside Xi Zhan, and said urgently: "This is my car, I have left beforehand, see you next time." ”

Yuan You organized the bureau and said: "It's almost noon, let's have a meal together, the three of us haven't eaten together yet." ”

I quickly refused, saying, "I have something to go to the company." ”

I calmly took the taxi door and got into the car, and heard Yuan You's puzzled voice: "Yun'er is hiding from the second brother." ”

Me: "......"

I wanted to say something perfunctory, but at this time, Xi Zhan suddenly spoke, and asked in a cool voice: "Yun'er, are you avoiding me?"

I looked at Xi Zhan in astonishment.

What does he mean by that?!

He clearly rejected me and said such a misleading thing, I retracted my gaze and pursed my lips and said, "I didn't." ”

I haven't seen him for a few days, and I definitely miss him.

But between me and him......

It's hard to get any closer.

He excluded me from his world.

I promised him that day that I wouldn't pester him again.

I can no longer lick my face on the initiative.

"Yun'er, we don't have to be so strange. ”