After several twists and turns, the two finally found the store. When it was time to order, Su Mu watched the broadcast for a long time, but he didn't know what to eat.

Su Mu went to eat this kind of thing with her mother once, and it was still a set meal prepared in the store, so she didn't need to order her own food at all. This alone handed over the broadcast to her, and she looked at it at a loss, and for a moment, it seemed that she couldn't even understand the broadcast.

Thankfully, Ling Feng still knew a lot about this aspect, so when she was a little hesitant, Ling Feng had basically helped her choose everything she could.

So Su Mu felt for the first time that it was still somewhat useful to bring Ling Feng out.

After ordering the meal, it was natural to take pictures and send them to Moments. Ling Feng thought that Su Mu would definitely pat and pat non-stop, but she didn't expect that Su Mu didn't do it, and even when he took pictures, she was indifferent and didn't even take a photo.

"What's the matter, don't take pictures to commemorate it?"

A magazine with Hu Ge as the cover came from the bookshelf, and Ling Feng asked Su Mu while taking pictures. Su Mu took a picture, put down his phone, and said to him in a very soft voice:

"I've been here before. ”

"Then why don't you do that somewhere else?"

Su Mu wanted to complain that Ling Feng's EQ was really low at some point, but in this case, she really didn't want to say these words, so she kept silent and didn't give any explanation.

There are some words that you don't need to understand, because even if you do, no one will necessarily understand them, and no one will necessarily understand them, as long as you feel that you are okay.

Ling Feng saw that Su Mu had no idea of going any further, so he didn't continue to ask. After the food was ready, he took photos with Su Mu, and then began to pick out the green onions in the sushi that Su Mu ordered.

His movements were skillful and fast, and it wasn't until he had picked out a lot of them that Su Mu reacted. If you don't move, it's definitely fake, for a moment, Su Mu felt that his heart was skipping a beat, but the more this happened, the more the fear and doubt in Su Mu's heart deepened.

She will be afraid, afraid that he is so good because of habit and his upbringing, it has nothing to do with whether she likes her or not, she will also be afraid, afraid that he will be so careful and gentle to other girls when he does not have her. She was afraid that everything was an illusion, and that everything was her imagination. It was as if she had fallen into a strange whirlpool, attracted to lies and falsehoods, desperately struggling to escape, and constantly being redrawn into it.

No one could save her, including herself.

She didn't know when they had become like this, and she didn't know why she had such a mentality. But so far, one thing she can be sure of is that she herself, there are indeed some problems.

Every time like this, Su Mu is more sober than some people, she will accept these things very calmly, and she will not escape or be afraid at all. So when she made these discoveries, the first thought in her mind was to find a hospital to determine the matter.

This kind of thing Su Mu would not have with Ling Feng, it was not that she deliberately concealed it, but she knew that even if she was with Ling Feng, the relationship between the two of them would not become very good. Ling Feng would definitely not feel that Su Mu had become like this because he had caused her too much harm, and he would feel that these were all manifestations of Su Mu's failure to handle them well, and that Su Mu was not mature and incapable enough.

Life is already difficult for Su Mulai, she doesn't want to be complained about when she has a problem, although the most fundamental problem is indeed her.

If she hadn't given Ling Feng a chance, he wouldn't have had a chance to hurt her, if she hadn't tolerated Ling Feng's mistakes all the time, and hadn't softened her heart over and over again when she found the problem, she wouldn't have been tortured like this, if she could make a decision on the spot and only think about herself, she would definitely live a chic and comfortable life.

But she didn't do any of that.

Although she understood it all.

So she never felt that she had anything to be pitied, because she was also to blame for everything. She doesn't cherish herself herself, how can anyone cherish her? When Ling Feng was seriously and hard to help Su Mu pick up the green onions, Su Mu's mind was full of these things, but this did not affect her other behaviors, such as taking photos and posting them to Moments, proving Ling Feng's intentions for her, such as saying to Ling Feng after posting, he did a good job as a boyfriend.

It seems that all her pessimistic thoughts have not affected her normal life, and everything seems to have some happiness under this pessimism.

Su Mu often wondered if it was because of this contrast that her problems became more and more serious, and later she felt that most of the problems were caused by herself.

But what if you know? There are some things that you can't and can't, you can't. For example, someone will tell her not to care so much, let her rely on work to distract her attention, watch more movies, read books, listen to songs, and do more exercise by the way, of course she knows that these are ways to decompress, because she did this a long time ago, but when she really faces these problems, all these ways that can help ordinary people relieve stress are useless to her.

Just like some people can't use chopsticks, some people can't ride bicycles, and she has also lost some abilities because of these experiences.

Like happiness.

This is difficult for others to understand, and if Su Mu hadn't experienced it herself, it would have been difficult for her to understand such a thing.

How could anyone not know how to be happy? It's a simple thing.

But she really didn't know.

She had tried to make herself happy, to make herself think about everything for the better, to distract herself, to make her selective forgetting, to be able to pick up all the unhappy memories.

But she couldn't.

No one would understand why she cried out without warning, and no one would understand why she had an instinctive rejection of all approaches. Including herself, she can't accept that she has become what she is now, but the reality is that she did have such a problem, and it seems that because of this incident, it has caused a series of chain reactions.

She used to think that the bell had to be tied to the bell, and it was Ling Feng who made her like this, so it should be Ling Feng who could make her better again. So she was like those gamblers, she put all her chips on Ling Feng's body, the more she lost, the more she wanted to gamble, the more she gambled, the more she lost, and she lost until she had nothing left, but she still refused to accept her fate. For a long time, her mind was the way Ling Feng had been when she had chased her at the beginning, and even if she had reached the last step, she didn't want to believe that the person who cried to marry her would become like this.

She would blame herself, feeling that she didn't do a good job in this relationship, so that Ling Feng would become like this, if she was strong enough, maybe she could wait until Ling Feng grew up. It's just that no one around her agrees with her theory, if Su Mu and them do this, then they all think that there is something wrong with Su Mu's brain.

Only Ling Feng wouldn't feel that way.

After Ling Feng picked out all the things that Su Mu didn't eat, Su Mu held the big bowl and didn't know where to start. Ling Feng looked at her confused eyes and wanted to laugh a little, and then kindly reminded her that she could mix well and eat later. Su Mu didn't know what was going on, looking at this kind of well-behaved thing, it was difficult to start, so she hesitated for a while, but decided to take one bite at a time, one by one, and eat all the flavors she liked.

Seeing Su Mu eating the contents of the bowl with great care, for fear that if she moved a little bigger, she would mess up the surroundings, Ling Feng suddenly felt that she didn't seem to be naïve like this, and even a little cute. He secretly took a photo of Su Mu's meal, and originally wanted to post a circle of friends, but after thinking about it, he still put his phone away.

has already posted a lot of friends about Su Mu, and the effect she wants has been achieved, since this is the case, there is no need for him to do these things anymore. He is not a person who likes to post on Moments, he has changed a lot for Su Mu, there is no need to treat this kind of thing as a habit anymore.

Ling Feng thought about this while silently finishing his food. He originally thought that he would be able to catch up with Su Mu, but he didn't expect that Su Mu picked up and ate three pieces of the furnishings of the Nine Palace Grid, and then put down the chopsticks.

"What's the matter, isn't this tasty? ”

Ling Feng then brought the plate in front of him to Su Mu, but was stopped by Su Mu in the air.

"No, it's delicious, I like it, but I'm full. ”

"You've only eaten so little and you're full? ”

Ling Feng was really afraid of Su Mu's words, as soon as he heard her like this, he was like a cat whose tail had been trampled on, and he directly blew his hair. But fortunately, this is a hotel, and he still knows how to restrain his temper, and he doesn't shout out loud, but although his voice is not high, the anxiety and anger in his tone are not hidden at all.

"I think I'll try to eat more, then I'm really trying, but it's also true that I'm full. ”

"If you don't like it, we'll eat it at another store. ”

Hearing Su Mu's words, Ling Feng still didn't want to believe it, and still wanted to try to let Su Mu eat more, but Su Mu just kept shaking his head and said very seriously to Ling Feng:

"I'm really full, I don't want to eat anything else, you can eat quickly. ”

As soon as Su Mu finished like this, Ling Feng lost his appetite at all, he was out of breath and wanted to eat more, but who knew that after eating two bites, he felt a little sick to his stomach, so he directly called the waiter to settle the bill, and he didn't take another bite.

Su Mu knew that Ling Feng was disturbed by himself by doing this, and he was not really hungry. She also knew that she was really inconsiderate about doing this, and under normal circumstances, she would at least wait until Ling Feng had eaten and talked about it. She had done the same before, but this time, for some reason, she suddenly changed her mind.

Maybe it was because she wanted to test whether Ling Feng really cared for it, or maybe it was because she just wanted to know if Ling Feng would only have one attitude towards her, or maybe she just wanted to pull on the last straw that saved her life.

As for the result, she herself didn't know what kind of result she wanted.

After this, Su Mu did a lot of similar things, she wanted to prove over and over again that Ling Feng cared about her, and she wanted to end their relationship again and again in a Jidun way. She was like a madman doing a lot of unreasonable things, Bei Ling Feng couldn't understand it, and even when she thought about it, she couldn't accept it.

But the result was good in the end, because at least in the end, both of them chose to give up, giving up all the vows they had made, giving up all the persistence they had had, and all their expectations for the future.

Although Ling Feng's attitude was not very good, he was still gentle with Su Mu's actions, and he did not become violent in his actions because he was angry or anything. Su Mu felt a little fortunate because of this, and he was secretly comforting himself that Ling Feng still looked worthy of continuing to associate with him.

After all, he can't do this to everyone, but he can still endure it when he loses his temper, and he still wants to satisfy her thoughts.

However, Su Mu didn't agree with Ling Feng's idea, she didn't eat anything more, and went back to the hotel with Ling Feng directly.

Ling Feng didn't eat enough at all, but fortunately, he chose to pack the chicken wings when he left, so when Su Mu fell asleep and chatted, he ate all the remaining chicken wings, and then looked at Su Mu while he fell asleep, and his whole mood was very complicated.

If she could have been so quiet all the time, without asking anything from him, and giving him the freedom he had from the beginning, then he wouldn't feel out of breath, so he would have tried to change this mode of getting along. He will definitely be as good to him as before, and he will definitely give her everything she wants, and he will not make her look like a madman like she is now.

Is it really necessary to continue to be together? He has tried very hard to be good to her, but it seems that he has never reached her standard, he has become unaware of himself, and if this continues, will the two of them really be happy?

Is it true that Su Mu's is right, the two of them should not be together in the first place, is he beyond his means, and always thinks that as long as he works hard, he can change such a reality?

But can't it really be changed?