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Ling Feng's movements almost made Su Mu's heartbeat almost stop beating, and he fainted directly. She profoundly discovered that if she wanted to work with Ling Feng in the future, then she might have to prepare an ambulance first, otherwise if he often behaved like this, then she would definitely be in danger of going to the hospital at any time. The couple on the side looked at the two of them with an aunt smile on their faces, as if they were vaguely expecting something to come. However, Ling Feng knew very well what it meant to be "in moderation", although he wanted to make the next move, but he didn't want his intimate actions to be seen by others, so not only did he not make the next move, but also very politely signaled to the boy, when the things are ready, hurry up and take your girlfriend to do what to do, don't disturb his good deeds.
The tacit understanding between the boys was sometimes very terrifying, and the two girls present didn't feel any communication between their partners at all, but the boy had already followed Ling Feng's instructions and began to urge his girlfriend to hurry up and go on the next part of the date. Although the girl had a feeling of unfinished, her boyfriend said so, and she didn't want to continue to bother the two of them, so she followed Su Mu's request to make a display model, and after taking photos of the work, she left the store.
Before leaving, the two of them once again sincerely thanked Su Mu, and very sincerely wished Su Mu and Ling Feng that they could be together for a long time and maintain such a sweet love.
Su Mu kept trying to keep smiling, and he responded. But in fact, when she heard the word "long", she unconsciously had a strange psychology mixed with fear and resistance.
She always wished that someone would love her for a long time and only love her, but she didn't trust anyone to be able to do that. She was always worried about the betrayal of others, and not only that, but she also constantly worried that she would betray.
Su Mu is not worried that she will cheat, because when she likes someone, she can no longer tolerate other people in her eyes. So the betrayal she worries about is not that she is empathetic, but that she will lose the feeling and impulse of love in the daily relationship. She knew very well that in every way, she was always three minutes hot, and no matter what was right, if she wanted to stick to it, it would be more likely that the sun would come out in the west than that. Especially in terms of feelings, when she looks back now, she doesn't feel that she really loved the few people who were loved to death by herself. Her relationship lasted for two and a half years at the longest, and then another two years, although she did not change her mind during these periods, but she had no way to guarantee that she would not have this kind of mind in three or five years, ten or twenty years.
She is a person who covets freshness, but the paradox is that she is still nostalgic and reluctant to throw away things that have been used for a long time, but when she encounters the same good-looking things, she can't help but buy them. This is the reason why her house is full like a warehouse, there is a steady stream of new things, and she doesn't even want to throw away the old ones that can't even be used, even the paper bags that come with buying things, she keeps a bunch, when Ling Feng wants to throw them, she also tells people to use them in the future, don't throw these things away. By extension, sometimes Su Mu will be happy for two or three days after doing a good-looking manicure, but after two or three weeks, she will feel that this thing is so ugly, and if she looks at it more, she will feel uncomfortable all over her body.
It is precisely because of this that she is never willing to say a lifetime commitment to anyone. As for the vows made by those people and her, she believed that at the moment they spoke, there was indeed such a determination, but how long this determination could be maintained is not certain. She has always felt that vows are time-sensitive and specific, and sometimes she is afraid, and after a long time, even she herself can't insist on treating her partner with the same level of love, although this fear is much lower than worrying that the other party will cheat, but it is not completely non-existent. Whenever he had this thought, Su Mu would feel a little self-blaming, and after he and all those men chose to break up, Su Mu felt that he could comfort himself a little.
After all, I didn't want to be with him wholeheartedly, so I owe each other, so I don't owe each other.
In Su Mu's body, it can almost be regarded as a complete embodiment of Gemini's character, if in ancient times, any country had such an emperor as Su Mu, it would die sooner or later. Not to mention greedy for beauty, good and bad work, just changing this kind of thing day and night, it is absolutely endless, and the tricks will only be more than one. Fortunately, the time of her birth was not bad, and her ever-changing ideas allowed her to achieve a lot of success in some aspects, otherwise, it would be difficult for her to imagine how miserable her life would be.
So to sum up, in the more than one month that he has been with Ling Feng, Su Mu really hasn't thought about the future at all, after all, even if he mentions marriage, Ling Feng still has five years to reach the legal age of marriage, and no one knows what will happen in these five years, and no one can guarantee that the two of them will definitely be able to go to the end. Most of the time, Su Mu held the idea of "being together for a day", if something really went wrong one day, Su Mu would not give up his dignity to try to keep him as before.
If he wanted to go, she would let him go.
How did Ling Feng know that Su Mu's mind would think of so many things in an instant, all he could think about was what movie he was going to take Su Mu to watch tonight, and what he was going to do with Su Mu in a while. He almost never thought that Su Mu would leave, no matter when, even if he felt that Su Mu didn't love him so much, he just didn't think that Su Mu would choose to leave at all.
He didn't know where he got these confidences from, and he thought that Su Mu would never give up on himself. Maybe it's because of the promises she's made before, or maybe it's because of her infinite tolerance for all his mistakes. He often felt that he was a little unworthy of her, because he was not able to give her, the things that other women at her age had, although Su Mu had told him countless times that she was not interested in those things, but he always felt that in these things, without her, he seemed to owe her. What's more, he couldn't even love her better, always letting her get hurt over and over again.