(19) Who should bow their heads first?

So some of what they said was also correct, Su Mu was with him, but it was just for a moment of freshness, because he had never wanted to go abroad with such a young boy, so he would want to try it. In her heart, she didn't regard him as a normal and acceptable partner at all. And his dedication to her for a period of time, in her eyes, may not say anything, and may be a joke.

Although Su Mu was also angry, she still noticed the change in Ling Feng's tone and attitude. This made her even more angry, so she said the last sentence to Ling Feng in a very cold tone:

"Even if I really want you to do something, it's just that you're good to me, and you don't think about it that much, that's because you can't give me anything else, of course, I don't need it. ”

After saying this, Su Mu hung up the phone. She didn't expect that what impact her words would have on the relationship between Ling Feng and the two of them, and in fact, she didn't care what impact it would have. She is not naïve enough to think that as long as she can be together, everything is fine, she has seen a lot of marital misfortunes, all because she insists on being together despite the opposition of her family.

She never worried that her family would object, not to mention that their connivance with her would make her believe that their conclusions were correct in some aspects, and their education methods for Su Mu had always been left to Su Mu to experience by themselves, except for the necessary mention, they never interfered too much in Su Mu's life, everything was decided by Su Mu herself, as long as it was not too much, the family basically didn't care. This is also the reason why Su Mu has always been very independent, and of course, it is also the reason why she doesn't like to be restrained by others and hates others to criticize her behavior the most.

But her family is like this, it doesn't mean that Ling Feng's family is like this. As it stands, things are much more serious than she had imagined. She originally wanted to try her best to save her image, after all, maybe Ling Feng's mother just didn't understand her, and she was influenced by her inherent thoughts, so she couldn't accept the relationship between the two of them. But now it seems that things are not what she imagined them to be. Ling Feng's mother probably already had a "deep understanding" of her, although she didn't know where the theoretical basis was, but this first impression had already become like this, and it was not so easy to change it.

Besides, in the past, when she thought everything was going well, she tried to maintain a good image, so now that things have developed like this, what else is there to maintain?

It's better to be yourself.

Not to mention that Su Mu is not small, so is Ling Feng on the other end of the phone. After Su Mu hung up the phone, he was so angry that he didn't know what to say, and finally thought about it for a long time before he pressed the keyboard hard and sent a message to Su Mu:

"You just hate me for being young. ”

In fact, Ling Feng had no idea what Su Mu was angry with him for. The level he could think of was nothing more than what he had just thought of, to be exact, he didn't think at all that what kind of impact his family's thoughts would have on Su Mu. Because in his mind, things like falling in love are his own business, and they have nothing to do with his family, although his parents treat him very well and take care of him in all aspects, but this does not mean that they can participate in his love life. For him, love is a matter of two people, whether it is good or bad, no one else can intervene, and he is not qualified to judge, and he takes it for granted that Su Mu should also think like this, so he can't imagine how much his mother's words will affect Su Mu, and he can't guess that the reason for Su Mu's attitude towards him is because of his mother's attitude towards him.

Because none of these problems were a problem in his eyes, he felt that they should not be a problem in Su Mu's eyes.

He didn't quite understand why Su Mu always mentioned to him things like the disunity of the two people's views, and even at this moment, he still didn't understand why Su Mu was suddenly so angry. And after receiving this message, Su Mu didn't know what she should say at all, so she simply threw the phone aside, and didn't give Ling Feng any reply as if she hadn't seen the phone.

Because the mood was really bad, Su Mu kept rolling on the bed, hoping to fall asleep quickly today, so that he could temporarily avoid these troubles, at least let himself calm down first, and don't do anything that shouldn't be done when he is impulsive. As a result, she recalled that message, but the more she thought about it, the more angry she became, and she couldn't wait to sit up and call Ling Feng and scold him.

The two of them have been together for almost two months, and with the time they have known each other, they have been known for almost three months. Did she just know that he was younger than her? Of course not, she knew that the two of them were nine years apart from the first day she met him, and if she wanted to say that she disliked his young age, then she would not have agreed to his request in the first place. But now, now he uses this as an excuse for all problems.

That's a little ridiculous.

Was it because there was no way to face other reasons, and she felt that if it was caused by other reasons, it would not solve the problem? Why didn't she find out that he had the habit of running away from the problem before?

Besides, she felt that she had already said it obvious enough, Ling Feng was not stupid, how could he not guess that it was because of the family, and even if he couldn't guess, he should also understand that what the two of them considered together was not only the two of them, but also many other problems that needed to be run in, otherwise how could there be a person in ancient times to say this? Some things have been handed down and naturally have their own reasons, but someone has distorted the meaning of its existence because of their own problems.

Thinking of this, Su Mu turned over and sat up, wanting to call Ling Feng and argue with him, but her hand had already pressed the button on the call, and she finally withdrew. She wanted to call Leduo and Weiyang again, and vent the anger in her heart with them, but she thought about it again, even if she told them these things, they wouldn't be able to help, but they would have to block them, maybe she would have to be educated.

After all, they had already told her not to give Ling Feng a chance, he was so young, it was impossible to give her the happiness she had always wanted, it was she who was disobedient and had to be with others, so now that the problem has arisen, she should bear it herself, and she can't blame others, she can only blame herself.

In this way, Su Mu felt even more aggrieved, and couldn't help but hide back in the bed, and then began to cry silently.

After that, for a long time, Su Mu wondered if she knew that these things would happen in the future, would she be ruthless at that time and break up with Ling Feng directly, instead of procrastinating and hesitating, and wanted to give Ling Feng a chance again, trying to make him understand that even if he was only in love and not married, he would be responsible for this relationship.

Of course, these are all afterthoughts, in fact, although the two of them had such an unpleasant quarrel that day, when they woke up the next morning, their first reaction was to want to reconcile with each other first.

Su Mu felt that she shouldn't have pushed all the problems on Ling Feng as soon as she was excited, and let him bear the harm his parents had suffered to her. And Ling Feng felt that he shouldn't lose his temper with Su Mu in this situation, and also said things to her that shouldn't have been said to him. He knew that Su Mu would be unhappy when he heard those words, but he still desperately said these words because he wanted to vent the anger in his heart, which is really not what a qualified boyfriend should do.

Although both of them have the intention of admitting their mistakes to each other in their hearts, they have to admit that there is still a mustard in their solemn hearts. She could forgive Ling Feng, but she really couldn't digest the damage that Ling Feng's mother had caused to her. And more importantly, she had no way to list this matter separately, just thinking about this one thing and one person, she couldn't control herself at all, and asked her not to be angry with Ling Feng because of this matter. So she really had no way to convince herself to open this mouth first, she was with Ling Feng, as long as it was not a matter of principle, she could wronged herself in other things, and broke the deadlock between her and Ling Feng first, but only for similar things, she had no way to let herself suffer this grievance, so she bowed her head first.

The matter between the two of them, she can let it go and let it go three times, but when it comes to others, let alone three lets, one let may not be established at all, even if this person is Ling Feng's closest person.

As for Ling Feng, although he also wanted to apologize to Su Mu, after all, he was a thin-skinned child, and this was not a trivial matter, and if such a big thing happened, he couldn't pull down this face to admit his mistake yesterday. This is also why every time he has a problem, after the two of them quarrel and have a cold war, he will choose to calm down for a while first, and then don't mention the things just now like no one else. He felt that this should be the best way to solve it, because Su Mu would definitely understand his thoughts and also know his character. She may forget when she is impulsive, but she will think about these things when she wakes up. He felt that Su Mu was so much older than him, and his thoughts were sometimes quite mature, so she should take more care of him in this regard, so he always thought that even if he didn't say it, the two would tacitly reconcile, at most, the cold war would become a little longer.

But he forgot, things are far from being as simple as imagined, when quarreling, unless Ling Feng does something particularly excessive, otherwise, most of the time, Su Mu hopes that Ling Feng can take the initiative to come over and coax her, even if he doesn't coax her, if she wants to coax, that's fine, but at least he has to do one thing, so that Su Mu feels that he has a reflection and an explanation for this matter. Even if he said something to perfunctory her, it was better than not saying anything, at least he reacted to prove that the two of them quarreled meaningfully. Because in Su Mu's opinion, a quarrel was not just a quarrel, not only to fight for right or wrong or something else, but more importantly, to solve the problem, if Ling Feng didn't even respond, then this quarrel would be completely meaningless.

As for his opinion on the quarrel, Su Mu only told Ling Feng much later. So before that, both of them had different opinions on this matter. But this time it's okay, because the two people still need to see each other every day, so if something goes wrong, they can solve it face-to-face, but when they are in a long-distance relationship later, because they can't meet, things become more tricky, so that countless times their relationship has cracks and crises.

Ling Feng appeared in front of Su Mu on time in about the time that he would appear in front of Su Mu every day, just like the previous days.

Su Mu was listless all day, and she made frequent mistakes at work, and she couldn't concentrate at all, and the small part-time job she worked with reminded her of the mistakes she had made several times, and then even she was a little annoyed, so she simply asked Su Mu if she wanted to go to the sofa that year to rest first, anyway, she was not busy, so she put the work aside first, even if she couldn't solve any problems, it would be good to sort out her mood over there and then come back to work, otherwise if something went wrong, she would be found by the boss at night, and she would be scolded, then I don't know。

Of course, Su Mu was embarrassed to say that she was like this because she quarreled with her boyfriend, and she hadn't waited for Ling Feng to coax her, so she had to sit there silently, watching that little part-time job work by herself.

Xu was in a bad mood, and the more Su Mu looked at it, the more he felt that the whole job began to feel unfamiliar. She looked at the small part-time job that was serious about her work, and began to think about the process of her work, but in her mind, there was no concept at all. So once again, she moved the idea of resigning.

Every time like this, Su Mu would feel that it was not she who abandoned this job, but this job that abandoned her. This is the third job she's looking for since graduating, and she felt that way when she quit her first two jobs. And under the accumulation of her first two jobs, she found that she was really not suitable for treating hobbies as jobs, because after everything is linked to interests, it will bring a lot of problems, and although these problems have nothing to do with hobbies, when people are uncomfortable, they will always transfer this uncomfortable feeling to certain things, so when there is a problem, people will unconsciously transfer their temper to the hobby itself. And this is not good for the hobby at all. Take a hundred plating and read the latest chapter of "My Shengqing Weisheng Claw Book House" for free for the first time.