I only feel very dizzy here, and I just feel the sad past I once had, I always feel that there is no way to bring such a relationship between me and Xue Luchuan, and the person Xue Luchuan has always loved the most is Yang Bingbing, of course I know very well that this relationship is an endless road for me, a road of broken heads.

So I just think that if I can promote the love between him and Yang Bingbing, maybe it will be the best.

But what is the relationship between me and Xue Luchuan, am I really the Virgin Mary? I don't know if maybe I am a friend of the other party, a best friend, an old iron, a passerby who helps him complete this relationship.

Sometimes I really feel that I am really a complete failure in my relationship, I am cowardly, I am afraid, I am really worried about trying, but Xue Luchuan This is my first love, I used to dream so much to enthusiastically like someone.

I only felt like I was dazed, as if someone was sitting on the couch, sitting next to me, holding my forehead with one hand, and gently inserting it, tears on my face I don't know, it felt like it was in a dream or in reality, I just felt that there were many things happening in this place.

I opened my eyes vigorously, and saw that there was a very gentleman's eyes looking at me in front of me, I was so clear, and the water was so gentle, that I was suddenly a hooligan, and I was willing to sink into it, all the way to the end, forever below, not to float up.

Yes, it must have been me, I had heard someone singing my favorite yeste softly next to me as a kid

day o

ce mo

e。

Well, it was as if my head was resting on a strong and powerful arm, and I felt such a power, and I felt that wonderful feeling that I couldn't put into words.

I don't know why, but I'm gently stroking his waist.

Those indescribable things happened.

But it is undeniable that it all feels good, as if the dry earth is nourished by a spring, and I am like a traveler walking in the desert, as if I suddenly see an oasis.

I closed my eyes tightly, and I felt that it was all calling for others like a dream, and it was a really good feeling, and I felt a kind of confusion in my heart.

That yeste

day o

ce mo

e This song has always been with me.

After I went through that night, I rarely talked to them anymore, my whole person changed, I became preoccupied, I didn't know how I should go on with this kind of relationship, with my son on one side and Luo Jin on the other.

Yang Bingbing even beat Qiao Jie and asked me, asking me if I had changed something, why I spoke a lot less than before, and even lost weight, not only that, but also said that I was very short-tempered, and I was very fierce and fierce.

The most important thing is that my appetite during this period is very bad, I don't really want to eat at all, and I often feel soft in my mental state, and I often stay alone in the house.

In fact, only I know that I am in a very low mood now, I don't know what to do, I just think that I should not do anything about your feelings, I have to keep a clear mind, I have to think clearly, I know what I should do, what I will be able to do.

Yang Bingbing once asked me out for coffee.

She asked me: "Ou Ruoxi, I am very grateful for your dedication to us in this relationship, I think you should be necessary, we can have a relationship in a while, will we affect your love too much?"

I shook my head lightly: "No, I don't have a suitable principal now, so I can still be a shield, it should be a long, long time without my relationship this thing, I am very persistent, I just want to hurry up this job now, I want to get a position of general manager of the human resources department." ”

Later, these two guys not only that, but also helped me go on a blind date, and also introduced some excellent men to me.

I'm really speechless, they still help me make this kind of thing, what else can I do? Can I not give them a good look besides thanks?

I remember that the blind date really introduced me to a high-quality man who belongs to IT, and he is young and promising, with an annual salary of one million, a house in the family, and two cars, which should still be okay in my case.

Such a man should be very good to show responsibility, it should be very good, and when he is a husband in the future, he will be able to run the family in a good way, and he can also earn money, such a person should be regarded as a very good marriage partner.

I'm drinking coffee with my head down, and I avoid the other party's appreciation of me, I let the other party still appreciate me, I really just want to forget about these two people in my heart, I can even ask me what I mean, just help me go on a blind date, this is simply what it does.

At that time, Xue Luchuan also said that he wanted me to accompany him to meet a customer, who knew that it actually made me sad alone, and later he said that he made a phone call and turned around and left, leaving this embarrassment to me.

I was thinking that it would be impossible for me to cross the river and tear down the bridge, and it would be impossible not to give him face, so I ignored the simple greetings with this so-called Mr. Liu, and learned the same kind of content as those novels and TV dramas, and laid all kinds of curious and gossip news in front of them.

Seriously, I didn't really believe it yet, and then I wasn't particularly experienced in this area.

Well, this Mr. Liu is actually quite funny, quite humorous, and there are quite a lot of topics, and he will also participate in the relationship, I feel that he should be more satisfied with me, and the topics we talk about can drive the rhythm.

But if I throw out a topic casually, this Mr. Liu is very easy, can pop up a lot of content, and each content can be boastful, and very progressive.

Of course, I look very lucky now, sitting there like a granddaughter slowly drinking coffee, and from time to time with a smile to encourage each other to chat, so that this Mr. Liu seems more talkative.

So this sentence will not make the other party feel very embarrassed, and it does not need to be very embarrassing for the other party, all in all, I think this way of getting along is still good.

But this kind of over** is very torturous, I really don't fit a special social woman, because that feeling you don't need to wear a mask, and you still have to say some official words.

I kept drinking coffee, and unconsciously ate some cake on it, well, this Mr. Liu said hello.

"Miss Ou, do you particularly like to eat the cake here? You have already eaten the third cake, it tastes very good, this cake is the treasure of the town house here. ”

I was stunned on the spot, and I actually ate three pieces of cake, I didn't feel it at all, I didn't know if I ate it.

I quickly put down the cake, and then went down and drank it with a cup of coffee, and the other party said something again.

"Miss Ou, your cup of coffee has been added with the fifth bag of sugar, will it be particularly sweet?

I quickly took a sip, sure enough, what is the difference between super sweet and sugar water, and I was so sweet that I didn't know what to do, so I just smiled.

"I'm sorry, I just like this kind of love very much, and I didn't have dinner tonight, hehe, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, he ”

"But if you're like you, none of the girls are strong, and you can eat whatever you want, unlike other girls who will be so strict with the management of your body and body, you can still maintain such a good figure, presumably you should be very fond of sports. ”

Ou Ruoxi, you were also stunned for a moment, and immediately replied.

"It's okay, um, I usually like to play badminton, well, I also like to do some yoga exercises. ”

"Oh, Miss Ou, if you like outdoor sports very much, we can usually meet on weekends to play two games, and I happen to be a member of the tennis and badminton sports clubs, so we can learn from each other. ”

This is a very obvious act of invitation, to make a foreshadowing for the next date, in fact, I am still clear about this thing, this is an obvious topic.

I refused, I didn't refuse, but I just said it politely.

"I know that Anqishi, the usual time may be a little busier, and this time may be a business trip, so I may not have so much time to play, if I have time, I will make another appointment with you at that time. ”

Mr. Liu smiled very gentlemanly, I think I am very good at grasping this kind of feeling, and I understand this sense of rhythm very well.

"Don't be too polite Miss Ou, in fact, we are all young people, sometimes we can learn to exchange sports, we can know more of a taste, and talk about more topics, of course, I and Xue Luchuan are also very good friends, we can meet often in the future, chatting with each other is also a good choice for us, friends really don't need so much politeness. ”

Drinking this coffee like sweet water, I didn't speak, and the other party is really a very effective person of action, and the efficiency should be very high, and soon get my WeChat number and my mobile phone number, and even my WeChat number knows.

Otherwise, when I have to give it to the other party, I can only add one sentence.

"Mr. Liu, in fact, I rarely use this kind of social tool, if you have anything, you can call me directly, I or I usually play this kind of WeChat and Weibo is basically very rare, if there is no way to answer your call in time, I feel sorry. ”

This answer came with an obvious rejection, and the other party must have understood one of my emotions, and the other party smiled and didn't say anything.

After our blind date was over, the two of us went to the parking lot together, and the pocket he took out of the car was indeed a Huawei mobile phone.

I'm laughing in my heart.,I just said this phone number.,The other party actually gave me this number.,And also gave me my mobile phone.,This thing is too exaggerated.,The other party is really more broken than I imagined.,I'm just sure that when I'm drinking coffee.,He must have sent a message.,Give it to his assistant.,And then his assistant.,And with the speed of the rocket, the gift was directly put on this car.。

Mr. Liu insisted on giving me this mobile phone, I had no choice, I wanted to refuse, but in such a situation, I felt that I didn't want to disappoint the other party, and I was very helpless to lose weight temporarily.

No matter what, I can't refuse, because this is a classmate of Xue Luchuan, I was thinking that after I take this mobile phone back, maybe after a day or two, I will transfer this mobile phone directly to my son, and let him return it to Mr. Liu, after all, I don't plan to continue to associate with him, and it must not be particularly good to receive gifts from others.

I was holding a gift from someone else in my hand, and I happened to be next to me when I heard a crisp horn sound, hey, oh my God, this Mr. Liu quickly escorted me to the side like a gentleman, so I think this man is still good.

But this black Hummer artist drove past me, and in that window, I suddenly saw a very familiar voice, it was Luo Jin, the corners of his mouth slightly hooked, with a kind of unruly look at me with a kind of sarcasm.

How do I feel that he is laughing at me at this time, and he is clearly looking down on me.

I almost spurted out a mouthful of old blood.

Why do I always see him in this kind of place, why do I meet him in a very embarrassing situation, I am simply poured eight lifetimes of mold, I and him are absolutely not returned, the magnetic field of the two of us is absolutely wrong.

I immediately got into Mr. Liu's car, I didn't want to meet him, I thought it was really boring to meet him at this time.

I was even a little angry with myself, what was there to think about this thing, would he have been in a relationship with me for a night, shouldn't it be reasonable for him to take care of me when I was sick?

But I don't know why, how I feel that I have a feeling of panic and weakness, as if I have been grabbed by someone else.

That's right, when I woke up in his arms that day, and looked at the sleeping appearance of the other party, I had actually forgiven this man to some extent in my heart, or thought that he might not be so excessive as he imagined.

That day, I really looked at his familiar face, I looked at his handsome angry face, and I actually reached out to touch the bridge of his nose.

When I woke up that morning, everything was so beautiful, everything was so going in a good direction.

But I never expected that when I saw him again, it would be like this, and I actually returned to that very cold cynicism, as if I was really the object of his ridicule.

Could it be that it was just right to use it that day and the state was not very good, so the mood would be more gentle and warm, and it was the wrong person?

I shook my head with a wry smile, what does this have to do with me? But it's the reason for the relationship twice, and it doesn't mean anything.

If it doesn't sound good, then he can only be regarded as a stranger, relatively familiar.

Buddhists have always been unruly to me in many eyes, with a very arrogant and contemptuous of each other, so if you look at my principles of life and work, if you want me to be more important to be friends, it is only a man's friend.

That's never going to be friends, have you ever seen a good friend look like that?

When I got home, I rang the doorbell next to me, and rang the doorbell over and over again, but I was sure that the other person didn't exist at all, and then I had no choice but to go back to my room.

I washed up, turned on the computer, and was bored to browse through some gossip news, and by the way, I watched an 8:30 soap opera.

These soap operas at 8 o'clock can be sweet, salty or green, very beautiful, no need to think about it at all, it is completely nonsensical, in addition to making you laugh, it can make you relax all your body.

I often straightened my waist, I stood up and was about to go to bed, I decided, it seems that the time is still relatively early today, but it is only 8:00 time, this time to sleep seems to be unable to sleep, I am sure that I must go to the community gym to exercise.

The gym in our community is still very good, and the content inside is very rich, not only Pilates yoga, but also all kinds of aerobics.

I wore a suit and went to learn cardio with a personal trainer for two hours.

Sweat profusely and then go home.

I want to think that I am hungry again, so I simply go to our neighborhood to find someone to eat, at this time it is already more than 10 o'clock in the evening, and the people come and go lively, I walk slowly, I go to look for it at will, I am used to living alone, this feeling sometimes makes me feel a little lonely and wandering.

Really, I often don't know what to do after work, and when I get home at 8 o'clock, I feel very empty and bored.

But today, I don't know why, but I really want to go out and take a look, and find the source of happiness that I can find.

I saw this bustling crowd, and saw a lot of people, and I couldn't help but stop there, this place I had been to before, and the flowers and willows were monotonously innocent.

By the way, this place is the same place where I once had the same indescribable incident with my aunt.

It was that night that I had a wonderful fate with this saxophone man, Luo Jin.

But all this should be dewy, and soon it will be a thing of the past, and it will no longer be a part of the memory, why am I here again?

I didn't even know it, I even stopped, I took a step carefully and slowly retracted, I couldn't understand my inner world.

Am I waiting, am I seeking, or am I longing?