Chapter 60: You Are Therefore I Am
Xue Rin's unclear and dark words made Yao Zhixia not sure what Gong Yan had told him, she tried her best to restrain her weakness and waited for the other party to speak.
"My heart is about to jump out, and I still help Liu Piaopiao hide it?" Xue Rin unceremoniously lit up the bottom first.
"I ...... There is nothing to hide. Yao Zhixia was thinking about how to escape, but this aggressive Xue Rin was lying on her lap and couldn't leave.
"Well, in fact, you don't need to be hard-mouthed, Gong Yan wants to know, he will definitely know, I am not interested in what is going on with Liu Piaopiao, but it is you, I found out that I don't know you well......"
Xue Rin's tone was relaxed, but Yao Zhixia could clearly feel the faint anger in those words.
"Xue Rin, shall we talk?" Yao Zhixia said worriedly.
Xue Rin didn't answer immediately, he sat up, stretched out his hand and made a "please" gesture, "You say." ”
Yao Zhixia groaned slightly, "Xue Rin, about Piao Piao, I did hide some truth from you, this is not right, but I have promised Piao Piao to help her keep her secret, she is not just for herself, she has her own hardships, for her, I also need to do what I say." ”
"I repeat it again, Liu Piaopiao is willing to give up a person who is sincere to her, I don't have any opinion, Gong Yan is not a fool, he will find out what happened, I just want to talk to you about us. ”
"We?"
"Yao Zhixia, since we were together, I have been trying to understand you better and care more about you, I just ask you to open your heart to me and shorten the distance with me even a little bit, but how are we now?"
Xue Rin has always been a person who loves and hates clearly, he didn't understand love before, and even now he may not be able to understand the word "love", but he is really working hard, trying to restrain the young master's temper, let go of his pride, and even do something for Yao Zhixia that he has never done for others when he is so old.
He thought that Yao Zhixia could treat him as an equally important person, trust him, and break the shackles in his heart for him, but until now, all the signals he received were her closure, her sense of distance, and her negativity.
"Xue Rin, I'm sorry, I know you have paid a lot for me, I know your heart for me, it's just me ......"
Hearing Xue Rin's words, she realized that all along, because of her cowardice and vanity, she had been pushing Xue Rin outward, intentionally or unintentionally.
"Yao Zhixia, do you know? I have never taken anything seriously about the identity gap, family background, and even the opposition that my parents may have, but the only thing that hurts me here is you, I don't know what else I can do, I really don't know. ”
Xue Rin held Yao Zhixia's trembling shoulders with one hand, and poked his left atrium fiercely with the other, his eyes were red like blood, and the fragments of his heart seemed to be scattered in the out-of-control pupils.
Seeing Xue Rin's desperate eyes, Yao Zhixia immediately stretched out his arms and hugged his slumped shoulders tightly, "I'm sorry, I'm not brave enough to live up to your kindness to me, can you please give me a little time?"
Xue Rin turned his head sideways and kissed Yao Zhixia's hair, and his tone was no longer as hard as before, "Then you promise me, if you can't hold it in your heart and not tell me, the most important thing is to believe me, believe that I can understand you, and believe that I can protect you......"
Yao Zhixia interrupted him anxiously, "I know, I really know, Xue Rin, I'm sorry, I'll work hard, I believe in you, I believe in you." ”
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When Liu Piaopiao got out of the car, it was already half past ten in the evening, she beat her sore waist and dragged her heavy legs in the direction of home.
Most of the shops along the street were closed, and she couldn't help but stop when she passed the fried skewer shop she frequented.
At this time, there were no diners, and the owner of the shop was tidying up the tables and chairs in front of the door, and Liu Piaopiao watched the benches and tables being taken away one by one, and there was a trace of reluctance in his heart, as if those good memories were going to be confiscated.
She couldn't help but step forward and ask, "Boss, can you still buy fried skewers?"
"Little girl, you're late, you've closed the stall today, and you'll come early tomorrow. ”
Liu Piaopiao stared at the menu on the stall in disbelief, remembering the people who were standing beside her at the time, and she realized that many beautiful people and things flashed away like fireworks, only to blame that she didn't understand at that time, and she never had a chance to say what she wanted to say to him before she spoke.
When she got home, Liu Piaopiao planned to cook instant noodles by herself, but when she came out after changing her clothes, she found that two plates of side dishes and a bowl of porridge had been placed on the coffee table where the books were originally placed.
"Let's eat, but I'm hungry. Yao Zhixia greeted Liu Piaopiao with a smile.
Looking at the food on the table, Liu Piaopiao's tears fell suddenly, Yao Zhixia hugged her and comforted: "Okay, okay, cry if you want to, I understand you, when your life suddenly becomes compromised, you have to do those changes that you don't want to do, you will feel very desperate, but since things are coming, we have to be brave to hold on, believe me, you and your parents can survive." Yao Zhixia gently stroked Liu Piaopiao's back.
"Sister Zhixia, I think I'm so useless, this happened to my family, I can't help much, I don't usually save much money, now I need money, and I have to borrow from you, it's not easy for you to be enough, you have to come to help me......"
Liu Piaopiao was full of self-blame, she had never been worried about money before, and she was naturally unrestrained in spending money, who knew that her uncompetitive father would take the initiative to pull over a debt, so that her mother was now ready to sell the small restaurant that she had worked hard for many years, and she might also sell the only house in the family.
"Piao Piao, when I was in the most difficult time, you were willing to take me in and let me live with you for free, my little money is actually a drop in the bucket, let's stop feeling sorry for ourselves now, and think about the idea of solving it clearly, don't you say?"
"Well, I've asked my mother to find a lawyer, as you said the other day, and now I'll have to be a dead horse doctor to see if I can find any loopholes in that guarantee contract. ”
"Let's try, it's better than nothing at all, come, eat corn. Yao Zhixia said, picked up the corn and handed it to Liu Piaopiao.
Liu Piaopiao wiped the tears on her face, took the corn, took a big bite hard, and was silent for a while, she couldn't help but speak: "Sister Zhixia, I'm ...... today." I saw Gong Yan. ”
"Sure enough, Gong Yan told Xue Rin, and I was there at the time. ”
"Then did you tell Xue Rin about me?" Liu Piaopiao nervously put down the corn in his hand.
"I didn't say it, but Gong Yan will know sooner or later. ”
"Sister Zhixia, you say, is it right or wrong for me to do this?"
"Piao Piao, in fact, I think it's hard to tell who is right and who is wrong in love, you don't want to tell him the truth, because you don't want him to be implicated in your affairs, let alone link your relationship with money, but have you ever thought that for Gong Yan, what he wants may be just a real you, an honest you, even if you are not perfect, even if something happens in your family. ”
"If I tell him about my family, will he still accept me?"
The reason why Liu Piaopiao didn't dare to face Gong Yan was that she was afraid that Gong Yan would give up on her after learning the truth, and she would no longer like her, she was very scared, afraid that the past experience would be staged again.
Liu Piaopiao didn't like boys, when she went to college, her squad leader chased her because she was beautiful, Liu Piaopiao at that time was just like now, people were very simple, the squad leader tricked her into her hand with a little trick, Liu Piaopiao, who fell in love, sent breakfast to the squad leader every day, and various festivals will not leave gifts to the squad leader, until later the squad leader felt that the time was ripe, so he asked Liu Piaopiao to open a room with him, Liu Piaopiao was unwilling, and the squad leader's fox tail was exposed.
At first, it was hot and cold to her, and when the squad leader learned that Liu Piaopiao's parents were just small businessmen who opened a restaurant, the ridicule of her intensified, and finally, this relationship ended when Liu Piaopiao saw the squad leader hugging other girls, and it was also because of such a relationship experience that Liu Piaopiao never opened her heart to anyone again, she was always afraid that the other party would dislike her, until she met Gong Yan.
"Piao Piao, we can't control other people's thoughts and choices, but we have the right to express our emotions, don't we? You just tell Gong Yan honestly, you really like him, as for whether he accepts it or not, that's his business, the important thing is that you have to be honest with your heart. ”
Liu Piaopiao nodded uncertainly, not committal, but as soon as she remembered Gong Yan's disappointed eyes, she regretted the hurtful words that she said without going through her brain at that time.
Seeing that Liu Piaopiao was silent for a long time, Yao Zhixia added: "Tomorrow Xue Rin is going to have a party with his junior high school classmates, Xue Rin said that Gong Yan will also go, you ......"
"I still have to go to work, so I ......" Liu Piaopiao unconsciously nibbled on the corn, but she couldn't taste it at all.
Yao Zhixia nodded, hoping that Liu Piaopiao would make the decision herself, but when she thought of tomorrow's party, she couldn't help but worry.
Xue Rin went to the kind of closed aristocratic school from elementary school to high school before going abroad, and her classmates were all either rich or expensive, Yao Zhixia had a faint premonition that tomorrow's party would be a big challenge for her.
She was already introverted by nature, and coupled with all kinds of changes, she didn't dare to have too much interaction with others, but Xue Rin was determined to take her there, and she had to muster up courage.